Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportman january is almost over :othat was quick heya>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hellooHere's a bunch of helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>83731081>>How are you doing today?Kind of tired.>>Any plans for today?Just writing and chess.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I hit 200lbs recently. that's about 30lbs of sudden weight gain. So I've started being extra restrictive.
>>83731081Hallo /cat/, what's up?>>How are you doing today?Pretty good, had better rest than I expected and started the day well.>>Any plans for today?Emulating Castlevania SotN or Super Metroid. The strangeness of playing metroidvanias without playing the metroid or the vania was made apparent to me, so I decided to try them out. Similar thoughts lead me to pick up Kamen Rider (1971) yesterday, really fun action.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?December.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Anxiety over passing college.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I've been out the gym for about 2 weeks now cause of injury, should have been back Monday but my sleeps been shit. I'll be there tommorow morning now that I've rested.>>83731134Hallo cynic>writingWhat kind?>weightShould get a calorie tracker, takes the worry of eating too much away.
so long, thread #667.heya everyone>>83731081hey cat hru>that was quickhmm thinking about it i think it was indeed quick but long at the same time somehowthough we still have like 9 days>How are you doing today?fine igthough i'm having strange dreams latelyi finished the game btw
Hello friends.Today was very difficult but I think I'm through the worst of it now. I talked about her to a mutual friend and he pointed out that basically none of what she's doing to me is okay, and that's the closest anyone's come to getting through to me.After that I vomited all of my feelings into a very long blogpost. She emailed me to say we both need to stop reading each other's blogs and assure each other we'll be okay one day. I agreed and said she knows where to reach me if she ever wants to talk. This is probably the closest I'm going to get to closure. Now it's a matter of both of us keeping to that.>>83731134I lost a lot of weight thanks to stress and then put it back on thanks to stress. I really need to start eating better as well...>>83731199I've been meaning to play Super Metroid for years. I've heard very good things about it.I think there's a decompilation of it now.>>83731447>though i'm having strange dreams latelyWhat are they like? I've been having a lot recently for some reason.
>>83731134hello>Kind of tired.are u able to relax now?>writing and chess.sounds like do you play chess online with ppl?>about 30lbs of sudden weight gain.yeah that's probably not a good sign>>83731199HeyoI'm doing alr! went to the mall today >had better rest than I expected and started the day wellthats great news hopefully it happens more often to youI think I woke up well tooI just opened my eyes in the morning and wasn't sleepy or anything >Emulating Castlevania SotN orit can a lot of trouble sometimes but I'm sure that's a guy on reddit who's had the same idea and made a tutorial abt it>for about 2 weeksI'm sure you'll be fine >I'll be there tommorowhopefully, what sort of stuff are you going to do at the gym?>>83731447heyaa cool owl!I'm doing pretty okay I went to the mall and get a little tiny strawberry cake >indeed quick but long at the same time somehowI barely noticed it's january >i'm having strange dreams latelyare they bothering you?>finished the game btwnice :Dhow did you like it?>>83731649hello hellothat's sounds great hopefully things get a little better for you because of that
>>83731937hi cat>do you play chess online with ppl?yeah, it's like an addiction.>are u able to relax now?yeah, but I shouldn't, I should study.>>83731649hi dis>This is probably the closest I'm going to get to closure.well, I guess we should just celebrate the little wins.>>83731199hi togata >What kind?idk. I got a short story I should revisit and a myth I was writing.
I have a train to catch in six hours so I'd better head to bed. Tomorrow's gonna suck.>>83731937>hopefully things get a little better for you because of thatIt should be if both of us are capable of some self-restraint. That's a pretty big if though.>>83732251>I guess we should just celebrate the little wins.Very true.
>>83731081hey catbro! how was your day?>man january is almost over :o that was quicktrue. it's been a haze.>>83731134hi cynic! what's up?>that's about 30lbs of sudden weight gain. So I've started being extra restrictive.that's odd. are you haveing a lot of stress recently?>>83731199hello toga!>Pretty good, had better rest than I expected and started the day well.sounds nice. i'd like to have a day like that at some point again ^^'>so I decided to try them out.how do you like them? i tried them out a few times, but i think they're a bit to clunky for me at this point. symphany of the night was alright.>I'll be there tommorow morning now that I've restedjust remember to start slow and give yourself some time to reach your usual output.>>83731447hi rem. sorry for disappearing again. hope you're doing well.>i'm having strange dreams latelysame. what are yours about?>>83731649hi dinon!>Today was very difficult but I think I'm through the worst of it now.what happened?>>83732769>I have a train to catch in six hours so I'd better head to bed. Tomorrow's gonna suckgood luck and good night!
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>>83731649Hallo discanon>Now it's a matter of both of us keeping to that.Best of luck, good on your friend for finally bringing you to your senses. Also probably a good idea to erase the link to her blog in your history, muscle memory and all that.>decompNever heard of the decomp, apparently there's one for mario64 as well. I'll try this and bsnes to see which works.>>83731937>TroubleI think I'll handle it, already emulated DS and Playstation games with no issue.>GymPush/pull/legs, all routine stuff.>MallCalm. Fun to walk around them with your friends. Good you're doin good.>>83732251>MythCool.>>83732913Hallo yuanon!>wish I couldShould be easy enough on your day off.>how do you like them?I'm starting them after replying, just got back to my PC now.
>>83732251>it's like an addiction.does it make you very angry if you losem>shouldn't, I should study.atudy for what?>>83732769sleep well!>Tomorrow's gonna suck.:>self-restraint. That's a pretty big if though.uh ohwell, we'll see but I think things will get better from now on>>83732913hey hey heyyy :DI went to the mall today, got a tiny strawberry cakeHow are yuu???
>>83733542>Should be easy enough on your day off.you'd think so, but i just don't feel very rested, no matter how much i sleep atm. i really need to fix what i eat.>I'm starting them after replying, just got back to my PC nowhave a good time!>>83733557>I went to the mall today, got a tiny strawberry cakejealous! :0 well, not really. could have gotten some cheesecake with walnut caramel on top today, but decided against it. just not fealing it rn. ^^' what did you do at the mall? browse some stores?>How are yuu???i'm ok. today was the worst day of the week by far, but that's over now. not sure what to do tonight, though. what are you up to?
>>83733658>cheesecake with walnut caramel on top today, whoaw, what a cake>but decided against it. just not fealing it rn. ^^'that's good, it lives to be eaten another day !>you do at the mall?mostly just killing time >browse some stores?looked around but as always no stores have sized suited for me>today was the worst day of the weeknooooo D;that's badbut at least you get three days and today's evening to chill right?>not sure what to do tonightmaybe you could play idiot maiden on ur pc It's only like an hour long>what are you up to?going to watch some charborg clips compilations>>83733542>think I'll handle itbest of luck o7and tell us how difficult was it>Push/pull/legs, all routine stuff.how long does it usually take?>Fun to walk around them with your friendswell I was alone:/>Good you're doin good.thank youbtw u had any dreams last night?
>>83731649>Now it's a matter of both of us keeping to that.overall that sounds like a new step finally.i don't want to compare your situation and mine because i know things are different BUT maybe you'll some day just stop feeling as bad as before, that you feel like you're not that close to her anymore. until maybe both of you start actually witnessing and trying happiness in life, being happy for each other.even that idea may hurt but i believe it might not hurt that much at some point.everything is gonna be better for you two, i hope.good luck disanon!>>83731937>cool owlyep>went to the mall and get a little tiny strawberry cakethat's cool! are strawberry cakes cheap there?>I barely noticed it's januarylol>are they bothering you?when having them and after waking up but then i feel normal>how did you like it?i thought it's all gonna be a dream at the end but it wasn't but the game isn't meant to be realistic i suppose. it's really a light game to finish without much effort>>83732913heya yuanon!how are you?>sorry for disappearing againdon't worry! you're okay all that matterswork is annoying you right?>hope you're doing well.thanks!>same:/what are they about?>what are yours about?apparently all of them are somehow related to the idea of losing someone lovedit feels strange how dreams make someone witness new scenarios of old experiments
>>83733734>what a cakeyeah, it's really good, but also rather pricey.>it lives to be eaten another day !i doubt that. that's stuff goes away very quickly, but there's always another one. ;D>mostly just killing timejust what you do in a place like that. i was never much of a mall-goer, but i suppose that's because we didn't really have those back then. i'd just hang out with my friends in one of the bigger cities.>no stores have sized suited for methat's always annoying and mostly why i never enjoyed shopping for clothes in the first place. that and most shops don't really have anything i like anyways. did you find anything you would have bought if it had the right size?>at least you get three days and today's evening to chill right?maybe one and a halft... (^-^;) saturday i'll work out and sunday i'll be heading to a theme park for some special event with my friends. probably fun, but not very chill.>maybe you could play idiot maiden on ur pc It's only like an hour longremind me again tomorrow. my internet connection is a bit finicky tonight, so i just went to bed.>going to watch some charborg clips compilationsare they fun?>>83733820>how are you?just tired, but i'm glad there's no work tomorrow. i'm at my limit, think.>work is annoying you right?yeah. today was the worst day in that regard. just so much going on and going wrong at the same time.>what are they about?last one was about me and my family fleeing from nuclear bombs, but for some reason it was our own government nuking the country. there was something going on that couldn't be stopped anyway, so they decided to just end it. it was weird.>somehow related to the idea of losing someone lovedi guess that makes sense given what you went through.>it feels strange how dreams make someone witness new scenarios of old experimentstrue. there's always a lot of people from my school days in my dreams, even though that's all so long ago now.
>>83733820>strawberry cakes cheap there?not that cheap, about 7pln>after waking up but then i feel normalit's good you don't have any bad feeling lingering I think have strnage dreams is fun>light game to finish without much effortyephave you played any other games ?and how r u today >>83733978>but also rather pricey.id say worth it>there's always another one. ;Dthey just keep coming >never much of a mall-goerme too>what you do in a placeturns out walking around and down and up takes a lot of time>you would have bought if it had the right size?not really >i'll work out maybe you could skip once ot make ot shorter?> sunday i'll be heading to a themeooooo :owhat r u going to do there?>so i just went to bed.that's good tooI'm also in bed >they fun?yep :D hes a fun guyhave you watched toe grandpa stories?
>>83733658>i really need to fix what i eat.When matters nust as much, eating right before bed will keep you up.>FunThanks.>>83733734>how long does it usually take?Working out alone is usually 1-1.5 hours at most, with 20 minutes being tagged on before and after if I include travel time. Walking there on ice when the suns down in the morning is a pain...>alone :/Usually prefer walking around parks n forested areas by myself instead. I feel like a shoplifter walking around a store alone.>btw u had any dreams last night?I can't recall tonight's, but the night prior was a weird one (that I forgot to note down). Something about me bunking with a mouse in a tuna can, me talking to a family member, and me downing a full smirnoff bottle. Every scene was disconnected and they cut to the next after completion. I interpret it as me becoming destitute if I decide to pick up the bottle more often (not that I'm all that inclined at the moment anyway).>>83733978>self nuking in an unsalvageable situationThis almost happened in Halo 3
>>83734049>id say worth iti'm not sure about that anymore. i think i'd feel better overall if i stopped eating stuff like that, but it's difficult for me to stop>they just keep comingcan't keep a good cake down>me tooat least you got some cake for your effort :>>walking around and down and up takes a lot of timefor real. it's weird how much time i can spend in places like a super market sometimes>not reallythey all hust have the same crap anyway. :/>maybe you could skip once ot make ot shorter?i'd rather not skip more than i already did. it's about time i get back to it. (*^*)9>what r u going to do there?having fun with the rides and then there'll be a parade and/or some fireworks. i haven't really looked into it. a friend had the idea and i just said alright.>I'm also in bedgood choice. best place to be in the world.>have you watched toe grandpa stories?yup. those were weirdly unsettling, but also fun>>83734181>eating right before bed will keep you up.yeah, i need to reduce my nightly eating again, but it's harder since i mostly work in the evening now. :/>Thankshow was it?>This almost happened in Halo 3i didn't play that game, but i guess it's flood related? odd that my brain decided to invent a scenario like that, but it's far from the oddest or worst.gonna call it a day. good night, everyone!
>>83734181We know you were bullying our diarygirl :3 miserable ftm trannoid. Hit an artery and transform into a corpse plz!
>>83734262gonight il br sleeping too ~w~
hope everyones been well, post this as a lil night time bump. also feel like archery is losing it's fun for me, i still love shooting just gets embarrassing/sad going to practice and talking to no one the whole time lol>>83712632>Was it a particularly traumatic time for you? eh I don't really like calling it that, just cause it feels like it downplays real trauma. all it was, was me being homeschooled and having no friends from 3rd grade to 11th. yea it was bad but calling it trauma sounds messed up to people with real trauma yk>>83715125>every rate to complain about it.yeah, but still yk there's a fuck ton worse>which is strange since i'm always so busy bit need to do moresounds like a unfun place to be, i hate being too busy but being bored also sucks
Gonna miss the thread for today. Been working very very late and thinking over some things right now. Contemplating some major life changes. Will talk more tomorrow, but hope everyone is doing well and to see you all soon. Gn to everyone who's signed off for the day
hey dimwit i was trying to add you then you blocked me lol
>>83731081SoI've been trying to limit my use of this site since its user base is fucking cancer and the constant doomscrolling paired with the obnoxious manchildren acting like they're superior, but I try to stop by this general occasionallyI recently started therapy and it's been going well but the damage taken by months of depression has been done and my mind is stained with patterns of pessimism and misanthropyThe current political environment only makes things worse and I sense collapse is soon. I feel like something bad is going to happen soonOn the brightside I started volunteering at an animal shelter and pretty much spent the whole day being introduced to dogs to play with
>>83733978>just tiredD:hope you're feeling better now>there's no work tomorrowwoah even though it's not weekend yet. you won that day now!>i'm at my limitsorry for you mate..>just so much going on and going wrong at the same time.yeah that does sound annoyinghow many hours do you work btw?>so they decided to just end it. it was weird.lol that really is weird, were you so tired before having that dream?>i guess that makes sense given what you went through.yes because actually, two of the three dreams are directly related to THAT one in my mind, like he directly appearsthe third one was a bit more strange and had a different person but the feelings were kinda the same> there's always a lot of people from my school days in my dreams, even though that's all so long ago now.that's really interesting how our brains work and keep old thingsactually the dreams thingies are pretty much known for being like a good evidence in therapists field>>83734049>about 7plnoh what's the size of the cake? that will decide if it's cheap for me xD>it's good you don't have any bad feeling lingeringyup>I think have strnage dreams is funwell idk what strange dreams you're talking about cuz the ones i had aren't fun, they're depressing actually i shouldn't have called them "strange". i think even yuanon got the wrong idea because i said "strange".>have you played any other games ?you mean after that one?if so, all i played after it was cs2>and how r u todayfine ig, i feel somewhat better>>83734714hey officeanonseems like you had a tough day>Been working very very late and thinking over some things right now. Contemplating some major life changes>Will talk more tomorrowtake all the time you need mate. i'll be waiting!good luck
>>83735448i agree there, there are a lot of annoying people but let's just not let them ruin our things and stuff>damage taken by months of depression has been donei hear you, but you said it's been going well, right?so, maybe even this can be fixed?>political environment i understand this too but do you think it would directly affect on you? that's a serious question cuz i don't know how things work in there>I started volunteering at an animal shelterey that's fun!>dogs to play withis that why you chose a borzoi dog in picrel?
>>83731081First time in one of these threads. Hi everyone :)>How are you doing today?Tired. Been having a difficult time doing much these days.>Any plans for today?Cold calling for jobs -- still nothing. I got new strings for my acoustic guitar yesterday so I've been playing around on that. >When was the last time you hurt yourself?I stopped cutting about a year ago, but anorexia sort of developed to take it's place. I went from 170 to 89 pounds. I try to eat most days, but sometimes I don't do so well.>Why did you hurt yourself?Weirdly makes me feel good. I mean, obviously bad, but like, a similar feeling to talking to a therapist or hugging someone -- just a relief, a comfort.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I don't have any friends. Don't have a job either. At university right now, and semester doesn't start for a few more weeks. Just stuck in limbo right now.
>>83736293>First time in one of these threadshey wren!>Tiredgiven the anorexia i suppose it makes sense, doesn't it?being tired most of the times and stuff, do you think it has something to do with not eating?>Cold calling for jobsI see :/did you search a lot?>anorexia>went from 170 to 89that's scary reallyhow did anorexia start with you? did something happen? only if you don't mind talking about it>Weridly makes me feel goodyep i think a lot of self harmers have it the same, honestly it's like gaslighting oneself if you think about itand at the end, one might just start seeing how pointless it is as it stops giving the good feelings.>don't have any friendsD:do you have problems in socializing or you just don't find people that can make a good friendship with you?
and a bump before sleeping ig
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Big thank you to the thread for keeping me company for the last few months. You really have helped me a lot.>>83732913>what happened?A lot of crying, mostly. Getting all my thoughts down, having to let go, that sort of thing. >>83733542>probably a good idea to erase the link to her blog in your history, muscle memory and all that.Yeah, I need to do that. It's the top entry on my new tab page because I check it so often...>I'll try this and bsnes to see which works.I can't remember which emulator it is, but I think you can play it wide-screen on one.>>83733557>well, we'll see but I think things will get better from now onMe too. I checked hers again out of habit... There's one final entry on there. It's a very sad entry but there is some hope peppered in there that wasn't in an earlier version of it. Actually, it's the most hopeful I've seen her in a long time. I think whatever I said got through to her on some level, and that puts me at ease.>>83733820>overall that sounds like a new step finally.Hopefully. It's on both of us not to fall back into old habits but truthfully I'm not too sure if I trust either of us to do that, at least completely given how bad both of us were for checking on the other.> even that idea may hurt but i believe it might not hurt that much at some point.Time heals everything, I suppose.>everything is gonna be better for you two, i hope.>good luck disanon!Me too, thank you.
>>83734688>eh I don't really like calling it that, just cause it feels like it downplays real trauma.I guess it's like that for me as well. Nothing traumatic happened then, it just really sucked.>homeschooled and having no friends from 3rd grade to 11thThat sucks. How bad of an experience was homeschooling?>>83734714Best of luck with whatever's going on, officeanon.>>83735448What kind of dogs do you get to see? I regret not volunteering at one near me but I think my life is too chaotic for that right now. How big of a commitment is it?>>83736293Best of luck with finding a job.Please try to eat something, anon. I know it's easy to forget some days.
Bedtime bump for all the sleepmaxxers in here
hey everyone >>83737305hello, rn I'm wakeuppastnoonmaxxing
>>83736618>Big thanko7you too helped us, and at least, personalty i know you helped me>A lot of cryingman. that hit different. i feel youi understand you very wellare you a bit better now?>not sure if I trust either of us to do thattry your best, and hope she stays in control. how about that?>thank younp!>>83737305seems like the thread almost died back then>>83737603hey gat
>>83737746personally*eh
afternoon bump maybe
>>83737746helloo how ar you doing??
>>83738034fine ig but feeling strangei gotta find a name for that feelingalso didnt sleep enough but it's a good chance to fix my schedule (again)what about you?
>>83738082when im ok but feeling strange its usually derealisation or like that
>>83738127i find it very hard deciding what's real and what's not, even saying I'm ok takes time thinking. but it might be derealisation indeed, who knows?
>>83738082>but feeling strangeyou get that pretty often don'tcha>good chance to fix my schedule (again)what's your sleep schedule now? when do you wake up and sleep?>what about you?feeling on edge today, probably because of uniit's a strange feeling, I don't think I am stressed but I'm acting as if I'm cold but I'm not But overall I'm okay
>>83738342>you get that pretty often don'tchayes i get it a lot reallyused to keep it to myself most of the times, then had the chance to talk about it to my friend, now im back to keeping it to myself>what's your sleep schedule now?apparently i sleep at 8/9 am and who knows when do i wake up xDbut that doesn't always happen>feeling on edge todayoh :(>probably because of uni is there anything going to happen about it soon? what's the matter?>I don't think I am stressed>acting as if I'm cold but I'm noti get it, you spent years in uni, i think it's normal to feel strange about ithey, how about distracting yourself? :D
Laptop finally went through it's dying throes and snapped clean in half. It's been living taped with half a hinge broken off for like 6 months lol...>>83734262>how was it?Super fun, running and gunning feels really good and the exploration is super rewarding. Having to figure everything out on your own without a million tutorials or popups is also a nice change of pace from new titles, which is something that kills the atmosphere of so many games. This was such a problem when I was playing doom eternal I muted tutorials/boss bars/tips so I could actually immerse myself.>guess it's flood related?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hmI2pHJxpk>>83736618>It's the top entry on my new tab page because I check it so often...Yeah I guessed, I had a similar problem years ago.>widescreenCRT filter with 4:3 >>>> widescreen fix>>83737603Wakeupatdaybreakmaxxing>>83734688>no friends from 3rd grade to 11th.Wouldn't stress about this too much, I was in the same position for basically all of my schooling, and now I've got all the friends I could want IRL. It's definitely 1000x rougher making friends the first time but still doable.>>83734714Cya>>83735448>misanthropyI feel like with this it's generally "justifiable" in the sense that it doesn't come from nowhere. If everyone in your peripheral is an ass then it's only natural you start disliking people in general. So it's more about who is making you so jaded (and avoiding them) and much less about being jaded itself.
>>83738403sorry to have that fren>get it a lot reallyis there stuff that makes you feel a little better?>sleep at 8/9 amthat's so late/early :oyeah you should probably fix ur sleep >oh :(it's okay dw ^^>what's the matter?I basically failed it but no one knows it yet and I'll have to tell em about it some timeit'll be annoying because my brother didn't fail...>how about distracting yourself? :DI am :>I watched some ytube and now I'm going to play game probably some roblox or insurgency What are you going to do today? I also thought about maybe going on a walk >>83738613heynooo poor laptop D;>>83736616youchhare you going to get stitches? why did you cut anon?
>>83739097why's the cat in the oven..>is there stuff that makes you feel a little better?usually no, the feeling goes off eventually>probably fix ur sleeptrue>because my brother didn't failouch so they might compare you two? that sucks... do you have any plans to avoid being annoyed?also *sending virtual cheerings*!>I amcool!!>watched some ytube and now I'm going to play game>thought about going on a walkbeautifulwould like to go on a walk too laterhave fun walking!>What are you going to do today?not much i guessi'll go back home and do few things, might sleep early im so tired
A bunch of stuff is arriving tomorrow in the mail, including a Rice Shower daki which is bound to cheer me up at least a little.>>83737746>you too helped us, and at least, personalty i know you helped meI'm very glad to hear that!>are you a bit better now?A little. I wrote one final (for real this time) blogpost and cried some more. Then listened to a song I liked and cried even more.I do feel a sense of finality now, at least. And that's probably a good thing.>try your best, and hope she stays in control. how about that?That's probably the best way to do it. I guess as long as neither of us post anything after this, we won't get hurt even if we check out of habit.>>83738613>CRT filter with 4:3 >>>> widescreen fixI was surprised by how much the CRT filter changed EarthBound when I played with one. You wouldn't think it with how simple the art is.
>>83739327>cat in the oven..curiosity >the feeling goes off eventuallyso ig all u can do is wait it out >might compare you two?they will>do you have any plans to avoid being annoyed?probably leave the house often :/>also *sending virtual cheerings*!thank you fren ^^>cool!!:D>would like to go on a walk too laterhow's the weather out there??>i'll go back homewhere r u now?>might sleep early im so tiredwhat's the time over there?
>>83739471>A bunch of stuff arriving tomorrowyoo glad to hear that! enjoy using whatever's coming!>wrote one final blogspot and cried some moreno worries, it's hard to just suddenly let things go. crying does help sometimes aswell.>sense of finalitythat does sound like a good thinghave a good evening/night!>we won't get hurt even if we check out of habitbut take care, don't let things go out of control, you know>>83739513>curiosityfair>so ig all u can do is wait it outyep though it's hard>they willthat really sucks that's really annoying>probably leave the house oftensounds good but take care and also, you got any other plan? you know, more things to distract yourself :?>thank younp!>how's the weather out there cold but i like it like that>where r uvisiting someone with my family>what's the time over there?like mid evening
playing minecraft classic+ rnit's a cool mod :D
>>83732913hi yu>are you haveing a lot of stress recently?i guess so.>>83733557hi cat>does it make you very angry if you losemnot really, it's just a game.>atudy for what?my last college class.I'm gonna draw and play subnotica for a while.
i hate fighting sleepiness while not in my house*screaming desperately*>>83739922is that a lighthouse
>>83739930hey cynic>my last college classwhat do you study?
>>83739738>though it's hardI know :<i guess you can always do anything else even if you tried>sucks that's really annoyingyep :<< >you got any other plan?probably just play game and listen to musik>visiting someone with my familyhave fun>like mid eveninghm I see so not late>>83740101dont sleeeppp !! aaa!!>lighthouseyep :>>>83739930hello>it's just a game.it's good you see it that way >last college class.best of luck with that themwhat comes after that class?>draw and play subnoticahave fun and don't get eaten by big monster :0
About to get wiped out by the giant snow storm.>>83735983hey rm, how are you?>seems like you had a tough dayvery tough week. Being forced to think through a lot of things too.. I seem busy already, but honestly I don't think I do as much as I should and that's the problem. Need to get my life better on track>>83736622thanks discanon. I need some luck right now>>83739471>>daki nice. Never had one but was tempted for a time>>83738613>snapped clean in half. It's been living taped with half a hinge broken off for like 6 monthsbrutal. Had a laptop like that I was using in college. Everyone thought I must be poor, but I'm just overly frugal and adverse to spending money if something still works at all>>83739930> play subnotica for a while.how far have you gotten. This game both highlight my love and fear of being under the sea
>>83740865noo don't get wiped out is it snowing super hard? maybe you could record how it sounds
>>83740932Not yet, but most of the US is supposed to get hit by massive snow storms Saturday night into Monday morning. If it's very severe I'll try to show how it looks if it's really bad.Anyway, how's your day going? Have any weekend plans?
>>83734688hey gator! thanks for the bump. :>>going to practice and talking to no one the whole time lolwhy aren't you talking to anyone?>>83734714hope you still had a good day and i hope those changes will be good ones. talk to you soon!>>83735448hey bibbit! good to see you're still trucking along. how have you been?>I try to stop by this general occasionallyi completely agree with you. no need to force yourself to interact with anything else on the site.>my mind is stained with patterns of pessimism and misanthropyrelatable. had an episode of that today as well. just turned off my pc and went to bed because of it.>I feel like something bad is going to happen soonyeah. someone might snap and do something stupid. let's hope it won't come to that, but it's hard ignoring the warning signs.>I started volunteering at an animal shelter and pretty much spent the whole day being introduced to dogs to play withnow if that isn't a good day, i don't know what is! :D>>83735983>hope you're feeling better nowit's 10:00 pm and i decided i had enough of today and went to bed. not sure if that counts as better.>you won that day now!it came and went by without much fuss, so that's nice.>how many hours do you work btw?not even that many. 4-5 hours a day. not sure i could deal with more atm. i can hardly deal with it as is. case in point: i basically did nothing today and i'm still completely drained. it's feeling a lot like my worst days and i don't like it.>were you so tired before having that dream?hm. i can't remember, but i'm usually tired before i fall asleep. ^^>the feelings were kinda the samei guess that's how we deal with stuff like that.>that's really interesting how our brains work and keep old thingsi guess there's certain emotions tied to it and new memories get connected with old memories that ewoke similar emotions.>good evidence in therapists fieldevidence for what?
>>83741143>very severe I'll try to show how it looks if it's really bad.thank you o7 !>how's your day going?don't have any plans just chilling hard B3>>83741347heya heya!how's it goin?
>>83736293hey wren! welcome in. the name sounds familiar, though.>>83736588thanks rem! sleep well!>>83736616that's a big one. :0 hope it heals well.>>83736618hi dinon!>You really have helped me a lot.glad to hear we did. (^-^) it helped me a lot, too.>A lot of crying, mostly. Getting all my thoughts down, having to let go, that sort of thing.makes sense. it's good you were able to do that. i think that's something i struggle with. i tend to bury it until there's so much i just can't deal with it anymore.>>83738613>Laptop finally went through it's dying throes and snapped clean in halfrip toga's laptop. o7>Having to figure everything out on your own without a million tutorials or popups is also a nice change of pace from new titlesword. i can't stand games constantly telling me what to do or how to solve the situation they put me in instantly. god forbid i actually want to play the game i bought and not just speed thorugh it as fast as possible.>This was such a problem when I was playing doom eternalnobody plays a game because it's accessible. you just bother people who are already playing and drive them away with shit like this.>linkit's flood related. ^^>>83739930>i guess so.me too. also put on weight because of it. :[>>83740865>About to get wiped out by the giant snow storm.hunker down and stay as safe as possible! D:>>83741437hey catbro! :>>how's it goin?a bit tired, so i just went to bed and decided to post here a bit. what about you? how was uni?
>>83741521>a bit tiredwhat tirer you out? what did you do today??>what about you?probably much just stayed at home and played games and watched stuff on yt >>83739922> how was uni?oh I didn't go to uni today if that's what you're askin about
>>83741347hey yuanon, how's it going?> still had a good daywork is rough but i'm surviving>hope those changes will be good ones.thinking through actually making a plan instead of aimlessly doing stuff. Part will depend on work, but want to focus on being less dependent on my main job more on my other so I can be less fixed to one location>>83741521>hunker down not planning on going anywhere sunday or monday. so all good>>83741437>thank you i hope it's not too bad. It's been many years since a really bad snow. I have my supplies ready.>don't have any plansI'm probably going to go to the mall but also get some hot pot most likely. then prepare for winter whiteout
>>83741655I'm sure it'll all be okay, and if supplies get scarce you can always eat the dog >:3 >going to go to the malhave fun in there
>>83741632>what tirer you out? what did you do today??nothing. just went to a store with my friend and got some sorcery cards for him and then we sleeved them. i guess i just need to make up for the last couple of weeks.>just stayed at home and played games and watched stuff on ytdid the same after my friend left. just did some quests in wow and listened to some stuff while i did. cool lighthouse. :> what does the mod do?>I didn't go to uni today if that's what you're askin aboutoh, i thought you had a uni thing. sorry, my brain doesn't really work atm.>>83741655>how's it going?could be better. lots of stress, gaining weight again, always tired. that kind of stuff. how are you?>work is rough but i'm survivingwouldn't expect anything less from you. keep it up! (*^*)9>Part will depend on work, but want to focus on being less dependent on my main job more on my other so I can be less fixed to one locationsounds reasonable. lots of upheaval going on in your field of work. :/>not planning on going anywhere sunday or monday. so all goodi'll take your word for it. do you have enough food and stuff to drink at home?
>>83741698>if supplies get scarcenah, I've got plenty of supplies. I mainly wanted to get some lighters in case the power dies. I can light the stove still since it's gas, just the flicker to turn it on is electric. Gasline doesn't need electricity>eat the dognever D: i'd sooner have him eat me than the opposite>>83741875>lots of stress,work getting you still or something else?>how are you?glad it's the weekend, that's for sure.>lots of upheaval going on in your field of work. that's not the real worry. I think my position there is better. If anything I'm in a good position to advance higher if anything. But I don't want to be tied down one place. I'm not crazy for the area I live and it's bothering me more want to be elsewhere. if my project I'm working on goes well next few months, might try to focus more on that and even break away and try to spend time overseas again. I miss being in a city I actually being in>do you have enough food and stuff to drink at home?yeah. Water isn't really an issue where I live, but do have backup supplies of that. Only real concern is being stuck in for too long. Don't want that. If it's still bad Tuesday. Might be stir crazy. Will have to walk on foot to see if anything is open that point
>>83741875>nothing. just went to a store with my friendsounds like a good day!>cool lighthouse. :> what does the mod do?thank you it's minecraft classic+ so like the browser version but with things added to it >thought you had a uni thing. sorry, my brain doesn't really work atm.oh dw you don't have to be sorry ^^I sorta have an uni thing to do but I probably am not going to do it>>83741964>the flicker to turn it on is electricyep yep desu even an old empty lighter will workOh and do you know that battery and bubblegum wrapper trick?>never D:3000 calories
>>83741964>work getting you still or something else?pretty much, but it seems like depression is creeping back in, too. might be able tk sleep it off, but we'll see how it develops. i'll keep an eye on it.>glad it's the weekend, that's for sure.same, though it's going to be a busier one for sure.>I think my position there is better. If anything I'm in a good position to advance higher if anything. But I don't want to be tied down one place.if you got that kind of options, you know you're in a good spot. :>>might try to focus more on that and even break away and try to spend time overseas again. I miss being in a city I actually being ini'm rooting for you and your project! which city would you go to?>Water isn't really an issue where I live, but do have backup supplies of that.i suppose as long as the water isn't freezing in the pipes, you're good.>Might be stir crazy.hope you can distract yourself with some games or exercises if that happens.>Will have to walk on foot to see if anything is open that pointone day of fasting isn't that bad. ^^>>83742076>like a good day!it was. just went by super quickly.>so like the browser version but with things added to itmaybe i need to check it out again. it's been a while...>dw you don't have to be sorry ^^alright. i'll try not to be. ;D going to sleep now. good night, everyone!
>>83742176sleep well!>it was\o/>need to check it out againwell to instrhe mod you actually need a minecart launcher but you can also play without mods on classic.minecraft.net >i'll try not to be. ;Dyou better
>>83735987>i hear you, but you said it's been going well, right?>so, maybe even this can be fixed?At this point I don't know>i understand this too but do you think it would directly affect on you? that's a serious question cuz i don't know how things work in thereI'm worried specifically about political extremism which would affect me and my family if a civil armed conflict happens>is that why you chose a borzoi dog in picrel?Yes>>83736622>What kind of dogs do you get to see?Most of them were just mutts but very playful and friendly>>83738613>If everyone in your peripheral is an ass then it's only natural you start disliking people in general.Exactly>>83741347>how have you been?I've been in the hospitals trying to get ahold of whatever's wrong with meI found a new psychiatrist who actually seems to give a shit about his patients unlike the corporate slacks I had before
>>83739097>poor laptopIt lived a long life.>>83739471>CRT filter changed EarthboundThe explanation I saw on youtube was because CRT bends light in a certain way, game art (backgrounds especially) was built around it. So the super jagged looking sprites smooth out, and stuff like background effects render properly.>>83740865>just overly frugal and adverse to spending money if something still works at allIf it ain't really (really) broke don't fix it. In my case I actually can't buy a new one even if I wanted too, which is annoying. When I do get a new PC I'm looking towards the Steam Machine , since I already have all the peripherals (mice/headset/keyboard etc) necessary.>Snow stormBig one is headed us up north as well. Annoying since I had errands to run. More annoying since it's more shoveling without salt stockpiled...>>83741521>can't stand games constantly telling me what to do or how to solve the situationI've missed this until playing the new doom games desu, most of my games played are older stuff without any semblance of a guided tutorial.>>83742866>At this point I don't knowtbf most people are naturally pessimistic about being able to recover so I'd dismiss those feelings.>civil armed conflictYou got any ways out if it comes to that? My family had to live through one before I was born, it's completely avoidable bloodshed but dumbasses in charge keep playing to their parties.
>>83736477>do you have problems in socializing or you just don't find people that can make a good friendship with you?Believe it or not but I'm actually pretty talkative and open. I make a point of being very polite and kind with people. I'm certainly not a bully or anything like that. I get the sense that a lot of people just already have friends and family, so they're not super overly interested in more of that. I live alone and don't really have much in the way of family (abusive parent, lives on other side of the country). Maybe it's interests? I read a lot, and don't care too much for television or videogames. Just reading and music and nature. Not really a party girl either. Just difficult to find people who share my interests and vibe. :(We persist regardless! Sometimes years of trying start to pile up and feel hopeless and pointless. But, I have some hopes for this next semester in a few weeks, so maybe I at least have one more shot.
>>83735448>limit my use of this sitethat's usually a smart thing to do, this place can just be horrible.>started therapythat's always good.>volunteering at an animal shelteraw that's so sweet, Animals are the best to hang around with>>83736622>Nothing traumatic happened then, it just really sucked.well if something was really bad for so long that can itself be some what traumatic definitely >How bad of an experience was homeschooling?it's hard to totally explain, i always saw my self as different, worse. and it sucked not having friends but the total isolation was killing me, never going outside, never seeing people my age killed me so bad. I'm also totally screwed with school stuff now that I'm actually in school cause my transcripts is completely bull sh*t. idk it's just a lot, hard to explain yk>>83738613>was in the same position for basically all of my schoolingoh yeah that does really suck :/ ain't fun not having friends :(>1000x rougher making friends the first time but still doable.yeah that's totally true.>>83741347>why aren't you talking to anyone?it's just not really easy too, everyone already has there friend group and no one is interested in making new friends which is totally fair. how have you been btw?
I'll reply soon, my hands are colf asf its hard to type
Fell asleep writing this lol.Thank you all again. I can't overstate got much you've all helped. I would have lost my mind (even more) without you guys. >>83739738>enjoy using whatever's coming!That's the plan. I'm still waiting on some stuff to be shipped but the reviews mentioned they take a while to ship.>It's hard to just suddenly let things go.It is. Even after all of this I still catch myself thinking about her constantly. >have a good evening/night!Thank you, you too! >don't let things go out of control, you knowI still checked a few times today. Albeit far fewer times than usual. >>83740865Hopefully you don't get snowed in or something. >Never had one but was tempted for a timeI figured for the price I couldn't really say no. If it's not for me I can just throw it out. >>83741521>i tend to bury it until there's so much i just can't deal with it anymoreI think people are just wired to do that. This only happened after some three months of denial, I guess.>>83742866>very playful and friendlyThat's good. Mutts get a bad name but they still love you like any other dog.
>>83743250>So the super jagged looking sprites smooth out, and stuff like background effects render properly.Makes sense. The random pixels dotted in the grass somehow made it look way more detailed. >>83744000>if something was really bad for so long that can itself be some what traumatic definitely That's true, I suppose.>it's just a lot, hard to explain ykYeah, that definitely sounds like a cocktail of pretty big problems.Are there any support groups for people who were homeschooled?
>>83731081Does anypne have any art of anime girls and boys cutting? I'm at a point where art fills the desire
Morning, will reply in a bit. Urgent work to do need to get done before snow starts messing things up
>>83742076> old empty lighter will workI've got a few of those and the new pack>battery and bubblegum wrapper trickhmm no i don't. No bubble gum lying around either>3000 caloriesthat would only last me a day my size and activity level. Not worth it>>83742176>might be able tk sleep it offhope you manage too. Imagine work stress isn't helping it. Maybe things calm down it will help a bit as well>though it's going to be a busier one for sure.what do you have going on?>which city would you go to?want to go back to Vietnam for a while. I like the weather and it's friendlier than East Asia, but feels more developed than rest SEA(culturally and ethnically are closer to Chinese, think my gf is mostly northern Chinese in the DNA testing she did despite being from there). She is originally from hcmc before she came here and it's still one of my favorite places so might look for a few months during Summer. Heard they have a new metro which would be nice to finally use since remember they were building that thing for years while I was there last>hope you can distract yourself will find something one way or another>one day of fasting isn't that badif it's multiple days though. Snow could be quite deep>>83743250> I actually can't buy a new one even if I wanted tooI hear you. My early point of college I was so broke I couldn't afford a new backpack till I started working.> towards the Steam Machine should look these up. I heard of them but know nothing about them>Big one is headed us up north as welhitting a lot of places, how much they calling for up there? I've seen like up to 40cms >salt stockpiledI'm treating my paths tonight but not sure how good it will work. This is the test
>>83744000Hey gator!Are they calling for snow around you soon as well?>>83745143>Fell asleep writing thiscommon occurrence. That and accidently closing the tab after writing out a page of text here before I hit post.>can't overstate got much you've all helped.glad to hear. Genuinely glad to have you here too. >Hopefully you don't get snowed in or something.very likely will. I'm hoping I don't lose power>If it's not for me I can just throw it out.figure at worst, it might be nice to have around and look at. I'm already pushing it with my absurd number of figures so I shouldn't push any further since I have other people in my house time to time
>>83745216been a while kira. Hope you're doing all right>Does anyone have any arti don't sure someone else does
Good morning ladies and gentlemen!!!>>83745216hey kira kira I don't but you probably could find a lot of it on danbooru or gelbooru just maybe make sure they have a safe rating>>83745934hellohope it went well :<
my hand was shaking so much
>>83747601aaa anonI think you should visit a doctor
>>83747609its fine but thankyou
>>83747631well but at least make sure you patch it up nad get some anti infection thingsIt'll probably heal by itself but it'll take a loong time and the risk of infection is very high
>>83747638i hope it goes infected and i die
>>83747666What's got you so down, anon?
heya everyonei finished studying for the exam i just need to read some answers>>83740545hey cat hru?>i guess you can always do anything else even if you triedhmm yeah maybei'm well now though>probably just play gamesoo walking, playing games :Dstay safe cat! don't let this thing bother you>have funthanks>hm I see so not lateyep>dont sleeepppi was able to hold myself :]>yep cool>>83740865yo officeanon>About to get wiped out by the giant snow storm.yooo hang on dude>Being forced to think through a lot of things tooso the thing is despite the hard work you are forced to think about other problems in your life, is that the thing?>I don't think I do as much as I should and that's the problem.i hear you that really is annoying, do you also feel like you can do what you should but you still don't do it?>how are you?fine today ig, what about you?>>83741347hey yuanon!>10:00 pm and i decided i had enough of today and went to bed>not sure if that counts as better.well i guess you got to rest, no?how are you now?>it came and went by without much fuss, so that's nice.yep that's nice :D>i basically did nothing today and i'm still completely drainedmate i think this could be related to mental issues, getting tired so quickly might be because of depression, or maybe at least burnout?what do you think?(although it's not necessarily related to mental issues)>i can't remember, but i'm usually tired before i fall asleep.makes sense :]>i guess that's how we deal with stuff like that.>new memories get connected with old memories that ewoke similar emotions.yeah maybe, cool brains>evidence for what?for whatever diagnosis. a psychologist is (somewhat) able to understand the mental state of someone and diagnose someone by using the dreams somehow, i guessi remember that sigmund freud said something like that before
>>83742866>At this point I don't knowlet's hope so>me and my family if a civil armed conflicti hear you. is there a chance to leave the country if something like that happens?>>83743760>Just difficult to find people who share my interests and vibei see i see i understand this partso, you don't have friends because 1- no interests in common 2- you feel like they don't need more friendsis that true? would you sum it up like that?if so; i think the first point is pretty much common.desu there might be people just like you and you just don't know it, like maybe you talk to these people since you're talkative and open, and maybe both of you think the other one doesn't need more friendsyou get that?maybe some people in your daily life aren't showing their interests, just like youso maybe if u talk more to other girls maybe you could find interests in common and be friends?>next semester in a few weeksgood luck!>>83745143>I can't overstate got much you've all helped.o7>they take a while to ship.i see, they reached yet?>Albeit far fewer times than usual.do your best to make it even less!good luck disanon>>83747601>>83747666what's wrong anon? wanna talk about it?
wow page 7 alreadybump
>>83747133happy caturday cat! how's it going?>hope it went well :<it did. Then I went out and am back now. All is well. Gotta go put down salt soonGot a new Miku again lol Feel a win one every time. I'm very good so 2 tries. Basically spent nothing>>83747601>>83747666Take care anon. Plenty of people who will talk if you need to>>83748399>yooo hang on dudeI'm very well prepared. Might be annoying, but not super worried either> is that the thing?not exactly. I'm working hard, but I don't know why is more so it. There are good things and I enjoy life decently, but not as much as I probably should. Why I just want to consider getting away from my current environment and spend some time away again.> you can do what you should but you still don't do it?pretty much. I guess I let my thoughts convince me not to do what I want for whatever reason sometimes>what about you?all good as well. Went out to eat, went to mall a bit, and now home for storm prep.
i dont think i matter at all
Went on a walk, got snacks and got sardines! yep sardines and not sprats We'll see if I like them :3
MAN i just realized i may have forgotten about a meeting me and 2 other students had planned towe wanted to discuss some thingsnow i'm not sure what day was it, so perhaps i didn't skip it>>83749513why anon? tell us>>83749082>Might be annoying, but not super worried eithergood luck! also personally i think i'd love it but maybe driving is scary>but not as much as I probably shouldoh so that what you meant, i couldn't get the sentence>Why I just want to consider getting away from my current environment and spend some time away again.okay now that i read that, getting away might fix some things but don't overdo the thing ykdo you actually plan to do that though? or is it just a thought?>I guess I let my thoughts convince me not to do what I want for whatever reason sometimescould it be like that because of the stress lately?>Went out to eat, went to mall a bitthat's nice!>and now home for storm prep.sounds very cozy for me :D>>83749910hey cat!>Went on a walk:O hope you enjoyedi still wanna walk ngl>sardinesnice!! i might get sardines too tmrw>spratswhy though? were you planning to get sprats?>We'll see if I like themwait whati thought you tried sardines before(also cat you got discord? officeanon too, i'd like to talk to both of you someday there if you don't mind :D though that'll take time cuz i probably won't use discord for a long time)
>>83742418>need a minecart launcherwell, i did buy the game when it was in early access...>>83742866>I found a new psychiatrist who actually seems to give a shit about his patients unlike the corporate slacks I had beforesound promising. i hope sonething will come from it. best of luck, buddy.>>83743250>I've missed this until playing the new doom games desusame. i just see it when i watch someone play a more recent game. for some reason the devs seem to be terrified that someone might be stuck on their piss poor excuse for a puzzle. i just don't get it. everyone with a functioning brain would just look it up or ask other players about it.>most of my games played are older stuff without any semblance of a guided tutorial.yeah. those are the ones i usually go to these days as well. it's usually even more fun now since there's a lot of mechanics i didn't really get as a kid, so it's fun playing those games properly this time around.>>83744000nice trips! :D>>83745143>I think people are just wired to do that.and they usually right to be like that. if you share how you actually feel, especially as a man, you tend to be labeled as unstable. never share this stuff with coworkers or even your significant other if you're not absolutely sure that your relationship will survive it. it's a trap. parents and friends maybe. depends on your relationship with them as well. probably best to seek out places like this, though.>This only happened after some three months of denial, I guess.better late than never. glad your found a way to get it out of your system.>>83745216hm. sadly most of my pics were lost when my old phone died. :/ maybe you can check out this old tumblr. had some stuff i really liked.https://aya-aa.tumblr.com/archive
>>83746616helloohow's the blizzard?>hmm no i don'if you have a strong battery and a bubble gum wrapper and you put the wrapped in both ends of the battery it will set on fire >>83748399hey hey>finished studying for the exambest of luuckk!!!>cat hru?pretty well>well now thoughI'm very glad to hear this ^^>stay safe cat! don't let this thing bother youthank you friend!dw I won't let it bother me>was able to hold myself :]nice :]at what time you woke up today?>>83749082>how's it going?doin good>Got a new Miku again lolmigu! :O>>83750180>so perhaps i didn't skip ithopefully can you ask someone about it?>:O hope you enjoyedhehe thank you!>still wanna walk nglcould you explain a little?you can't go on walks?>might get sardines too tmrwwoa really? where are you going to go?>were you planning to get sprats?I usually get smoked sprats but I decided to try sardines in oil today they were okay though a little bland, I prefer slightly smoked sprats in oil more >thought you tried sardines beforenope they're actually not easy to get here I had to look around to get those While smoked sprats are almost in every store >cat you got discord?yep yep here's my discor: mydiscorblehhhThough I must warn you, I rarely use it
>>83750372>well, i did buy the game when it was in early access...ooo I didn't know here's where I sae the mod, I use ultimmc launcher so it was easy to install https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yyhYamrHUvoalso hello yuanon how r you!!??I didn't get to play minecraft today although i wanted to, strangely I was busy doing other things and the day just flew by, it's strange how little time it feels that I have to do things I want to do
>>83746616>hope you manage too. Imagine work stress isn't helping it. Maybe things calm down it will help a bit as welli think it went alright. working out outside with my friends definitely helped.>what do you have going on?meeting with friends for working out today, meeting with them to head to a themepark tomorrow. there's some event or show my friend wanted to see, so we're heading there.>want to go back to Vietnam for a while. I like the weather and it's friendlier than East Asia, but feels more developed than rest SEAsounds like a good reason for traveling there again.>think my gf is mostly northern Chinese in the DNA testing she did despite being from thereas far as i understand they went to a lot of places and just kinda stayed there, so it makes sense. germans are also made up of three different ethnic groups, if i remember correctly.>Heard they have a new metro which would be nice to finally use since remember they were building that thing for years while I was there lastalways cool when they actually build functioning public transportation.>will find something one way or anotheri know. you're a busy guy. ^^>if it's multiple days though. Snow could be quite deepalso not a problem. if it was, we wouldn't be around, but i'll concede that it sucks really bad.>>83748399>how are you now?better. ^^ tired again, but this time it's from working out, so it makes sense. how are you?>what do you think?i tend to agree. i have a history of depression and it was really bad at one point. i'm mostly better now, but it's always a looming threat.>(somewhat) able to understand the mental state of someone and diagnose someone by using the dreams somehowhm. i somewhat agree, but they're still completely nonsensical fabrications sometimes, so i wouldn't give them too much thought.>>83749513same, but usually that's not entirely true.>>83749910hey buddy! hope you enjoyed them. :>
>>83750620>ooo I didn't knowand i don't know if i can still access it somehow. need to investigate.>linkthanks for sharing. i'll check it out.>also hello yuanon how r you!!??hello catbro! i'm fine. exhausted from working out, but it was a good day overall. how are you?>I didn't get to play minecraft today although i wanted to, strangely I was busy doing other things and the day just flew bythat's too bad. :< what have you been busy with?>it's strange how little time it feels that I have to do things I want to dotrue. as soon as you enjoy something, time just flies by.
>>83731081Combined test lvl of this general: 103ng/dl
>>83750573>best of luckthanks!>pretty wellglad to hear that>I'm very glad to hear thisthanks :D>dw I won't let it bother methat's great!>at what time you woke up today?like 7 hours agobut i'll sleep soon this time>can you ask someone about it?i'll ask tomorrow>thank you!np>could you explain a little? you can't go on walks?no no it's just that i don't do that a loti think i prefer walking on days i don't have to study >woa really? where are you going to go?not going anywhere special, i'll just get one from a supermarket, yk, canned sardines >I usually get smoked sprats but I decided to try sardines in oil todayboth are good choices imoi never tried sprats but i want to>I prefer slightly smoked sprats in oil morei see, smoked sprats do look tastier>nope they're actually not easy to get here I had to look around to get thoseohhh so that's the thing, i suppose it's hard to find sprats here in my case xD>Though I must warn you, I rarely use itdw i'm not using discord either, for a year maybe>>83750750>betternice :D>tired again, but this time it's from working out, so it makes senseoh that's good. does being tired from working out give good feelings?>how are you?fine ig nothing special happened today>i'm mostly better now, but it's always a looming threat.well yeah i think it's possible to get these feelings even after getting better>but they're still completely nonsensical fabrications sometimesoh yeah they aren't always good for diagnosis i suppose>so i wouldn't give them too much thought.yep though sometimes they give basic info like if one had a dream about a certain event he feels bad about
>>83750750>hope you enjoyed them. :>they were okay I'd say 4/10mostly because they were a bit bland I should've added some spices to them maybe, also They were quite large What I usually get is slightly smoked sprats that have more flavor and also the fish are perfectly bite sized and it's kinda of a fun feeling to eat the whole little fish at once >>83750789>don't know if i can still access it somehowI'm certain you can and if you can't you can use yarr corsairy ways yarr P3>i'll check it outnp ^^>i'm fine.that's good :>> exhausted from working outmaybe in the theme party tomorrow you could go on some relaxing ride amd chill out with a cold drinkAre you still tired, when doe you get back home?>how are you?good, chilling, in my lane, cozy :3>what have you been busy with?and I wish I could frickin have an answer but I don't really know I went on a walk today, I played a bit of insurgency, I ate dinner that's sorta all I remember about today >time just flies by.I also am pretty slow I feellike if I wanna focus on something I have to dedicate the whole day to it, making a map, playing games, doing stuff in the garage, uni crapIt's hard to do two of any of these in a single dayI wonder how it'll feel when I get a job, it'll probably leave me feeling unsatisfied, not able to properly start and finish anything
>>83750810>glad to hear thatty^^>like 7 hours agodesu idk if that's a lot what time is it now?>sleep soon this timear what hour r u planning to be eepin?>i'll ask tomorrowand if it happend that you missed it, would it be a big problem?>no it's just that i don't do that a lotooh I see, that's understandable though I feel first you probably should get some weapon like we discussed some time ago especially if you wanna go in the evening >get one from a supermarket, yk, canned sardinesoh okay, hope you like them>never tried sprats but i want toI like them because they're really small and you can just eat the whole fish at once >smoked spratsyep btw they're still canned too>suppose it's hard to find sprats here in my case xDbest of luck though!have you ever look for them in the supermarket before?>not using discord either, for a year maybeoky ^^
Today was interesting. I missed her but it felt different. I didn't have a breakdown which is all that matters.My sleep is completely screwed though and I'm awake about 5 hours past my already very late bedtime.>>83746676>Genuinely glad to have you here too.Thank you, that means a lot. Now that I'm feeling less distraught I want to help the other anons more.>I'm hoping I don't lose powerThat would really suck. I can't remember the last time I've experienced a power cut but I remember it being very boring.>it might be nice to have around and look atShe's under a quilt right now because you can see her boobs and cooter on both sides. I didn't realise that when I bought it...>I shouldn't push any further since I have other people in my house time to timeThat's fair enough. There's not much chance of having guests over so I'm not too worried. Although a delivery guy might see it if they have good eyes...>>83748495>they reached yet?Haven't even been sent out yet. A lot of the stuff was same day, but I think these are independent sellers. One of the reviews mentioned it would take a while.>do your best to make it even less!I think a lot of it came from a worry that she wouldn't be okay. But she said some hopeful stuff in her last post and that's put me at ease somewhat.>>83750372>if you share how you actually feel, especially as a man, you tend to be labeled as unstableIt's a sad state of the world, really. I don't like it. In the olden days we had more outlets for pastoral care. What we pay therapists for now used to be done by religious leaders for free.
oh I forgot to tell u guys, I got mocchi today, it's a different kind, the ones I used to get had mango ice cream inside of it and they were 7/10 or 8/10 though really pricythese ones are not ice cream and have a strange sticky jelly like thing inside, also mango flavoured, they're maybe 5/10 or lower, I'll have to eat more of them to really make up my mind about themthey were half the price of the ice cream ones >>83751221elloo>didn't have a breakdownyay \o/>sleep is completely screwedow, that's not great hey and do you have your daki?
>>83751320>hey and do you have your daki?I do. It's nice but it made me wonder what cuddling another person is like.
>>83750810>does being tired from working out give good feelings?i'd say it does. i feel a bit calmer and kinda warm, if that makes sense. not the mostly mental exhaustion from talking to customers.>nothing special happened todaythat's good, i'd say. what are you up to now?>it's possible to get these feelings even after getting betterthey're just symptoms of a deeper problem. if you don't get that sorted out, they'll come back eventually.>they aren't always good for diagnosis i supposeat least you can't take dreams at face value. sometimes you dream something that could have happened and it feels so real that you need to convince yourself that it didn't, so it doesn't become a planted memory. one of the things you need to be careful about when talking to people about your issues.>sometimes they give basic info like if one had a dream about a certain event he feels bad abouttrue. sometimes you just try to process something that happened, but even our waking memories are dubious at best when it comes to facts of what actually happened.
>>83751140>I should've added some spices to them maybeyou can always try that next time. when i eat them i usually just chop them up and mix them with something else anyway.>it's kinda of a fun feeling to eat the whole little fish at onceyup. not something you can do with much else that we eat.>I'm certain you can and if you can't you can use yarr corsairy ways yarr P3yeah. seems like there was a migration period that ended in 2024. guess i didn't care since i didn't have a pc anyway. same with games i have/had on origin ot the ubisoft store. i'd rather not play those games if i have to deal with those launcher again. maybe i'll pirate it. we'll see.>you could go on some relaxing ridenot sure there are a lot of those in this particular park, but i haven't been there in a while. i'll probably avoid anything with water, though. a bit too cold for that right now.>Are you still tired, when doe you get back home?yeah, but that's because it's bed time now. ^^ we went out around 11:00 am and came back around 2:00 pm.>I went on a walk today, I played a bit of insurgency, I ate dinner that's sorta all I remember about todayi suppose you had a similar day to the one i had yesterday. just gone in the blink if an eye.>It's hard to do two of any of these in a single dayi know what you're talking about. i can just prepare and execute one big task per day. that's it.>I wonder how it'll feel when I get a jobthat's usually the one big thing that takes up most if your time. :/ maybe you'll find a better balance than i do, though. who knows?>>83751221>My sleep is completely screwed though and I'm awake about 5 hours past my already very late bedtimejust try to get some shut eye. i need to do that, too. it's about time. (~.~)>>83751221>I don't like it. In the olden days we had more outlets for pastoral care.maybe. i guess we just have a need for stuff like this and the current ways aren't helping much.
>>83751221>What we pay therapists for now used to be done by religious leaders for free.that's a statement i disagree with a little. it's not like the giant buildings of worship full of gold and marble just suddenly appeared.gonna head to bed now. good night!
>>83751497approaching landing >>83751520she's landed!!! repeat, she's landed!goodnight yuanon!!
>>83744000>this place can just be horrible.Indeed>>83743250>You got any ways out if it comes to that?I want us to move>>83745143>but they still love you like any other dog.Absolutely
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>>83750180> maybe driving is scaryI'm not driving till all clear. Would be physically impossible if we get at as much as we are supposed to get.>do you actually plan to do that though? I have some things going on that might make it easier to get away. No concrete plan, but I did spend quite a long time overseas in the past, so it's not like it's the first time I did such a thin.>because of the stress lately?not really that as much as I tend to doubt what I'm capable of. I always something will end bad even when evidence says it won't. Have a hard time believing things will go well>sounds very cozy for mewill share how things are if I still have power tomorrow>you got discord?I do. I don't use it a ton, but always have it open. i can add you or cat could give me your name when you add him later. I just don't post my name directly on here. >>83750573>how's the blizzard?not yet hit. But hours away. I think it's going to be weaker than expected but we will see>battery it will set on firenice to know. Though probably shouldn't do this inside>migumy shelves are running out of space>>83750750>working out outside with my friends definitely helped.working out on it's own doesn't do much for me, but being out does so i can see it>head to a themepark tomorrow. there's some event or show my friend wanted to seenice. What kind of event is it anyway?> they went to a lot of places and just kinda stayed theresort of an artificial identity from my understanding and take on history. "Han Chinese" isn't exactly one race of people but many many absorbed into the culture. One of my closer friends from college was from what was Machuria, but basically considered Han Chinese as well. Southern most Chinese and Vietnamese are essentially same race if you go back far, but GF I think has Mongolian and North Chinese ancestry so they often think she's Chinese even back home with strangers. This too much info I know
>>83750750> germans are also made up of three different ethnic groupsmakes sense to me. I'm not the most knowledgeable on how these things get categorized, but there's a lot of land people who would fall under that umbrella of being German and a lot less unified history in that identity.>actually build functioning public transportation.a feet that can't really pull off here, so always amazes me.>also not a problemI have everything I need, so maybe the real ones in trouble are the ones who had to shop today. I'm all set and ready>>83751221> I didn't have a breakdown which is all that matters.that sounds very promising. Hope this continues this direction> I want to help the other anons more.how I feel about it too. I think > can't remember the last time I've experienced a power cut I've had it flicker a few times, but down for real for quite some time. This storm is supposed to be "historic" but they say that every time. I'm not sure. If I don't post tomorrow morning it's probably bad. If I'm on, it's probably very underwhelming>I didn't realise that when I bought itoh no... Guess not entirely shocking at the same time>delivery guy might see it if they have good eyesthen you have to worry if he turns out to be a fan who calls Rice Shower his daughter>>83751320> I didn't have a breakdown which is all that matters.You got the real kind of mochi????!! That's mochi is supposed to be! It's a bit offputting i think, so most non Asians go for mochi ice cream if they're going to have it
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it snowed today, i love snow :)>>83745149>any support groups for people who were homeschooled?nope, not really. closest thing i know of is like a reddit thing. just not any cause homeschooling is rare ig>>83745216i have a picture of sunny from omori if that works?>>83746676>calling for snow around you soon as well?yup, I've heard all the way to 2 to 30 in.>>83751818that is the cutest gif I've ever seeeen :3
>>83731081Back again (posted earlier in thread) and just want to say to everyone struggling, one thing that has helped me over time is finding something to devote yourself to. Like a hobby. For me it was playing guitar, but for you it could be anything. We are creatures that feel better when we work towards goals. A goal could be learning how to play a new song, or just getting down the basic of something new. Anyways..try something new out! Just a little bit at a time, don't overwhelm yourself. Make it a goal just to learn one chord, and don't bat yourself up if you can't play Mozart right off the bat. I know that it's not easy to start something new, or to keep at it, when you're feeling down. But it helps at times, and makes you feel a little less useless. :)
My days already felt wasted with the laptop, and without it I can't pass the time with movies and games anymore. I need to get hired already...>>83746616>I heard of them but know nothing about themThey're basically pre-built PCs from steam, with the added bonus of excellent form factor. It's about half the height of a PS5 standing up from pictures. If the return policy isn't bad it'd definitely be a cool replacement, never had a desktop for myself before.>how muchAbout as much as you, 30-40mm here.>saltI'll be doing it this morning probably.>>83750372>look it upNever, I'll stumble around for an hour before that.>more fun now since there's a lot of mechanics i didn't really get as a kid>probably best to seek out places like thisEhhhhh, I think with online you can unintentionally shed your negative traits too easily for it to be that effective. It's a lot harder to hide these things irl so advice from even so-so friends can be better than online.>>83744000Trips from the void.>ain't fun not having friends :(Yeah it sucks, you start going crazy without at least one. If had to start from zero again, I'd probably try my luck making friends at music shows.>>83745216Had some saved till my laptop went kaput.>>83752880>i love snowSo fucking true>>83746676>pushing it with my absurd number of figuresI think with having a buncha otaku stuff, it only comes off weird if it appears to have more care than anything else in your life.>>83736293>cold callingThe winning strat is to look up "warehouse" on Google maps, and call all the ones in your area. Almost nabbed a job 2 weeks ago like this, but the postion that was supposed to open never vacated.
peeling the dressing off my cut hurt so much
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>>83752920that's actually really good advice, me personally archery has been that hobby, wanting to get better at something is a great feeling :)>>83753307>start going crazy without at least oneyeah your mind just melts with boredom and nothing going on ever>I'd probably try my luck making friends at music shows.yeah sounds like a good place, people there seem chill>>83753616it is always so painful
Morning everyone. I slept shockingly well with that daki. I kind of want to get some other covers for it now... I would recommend everyone gets one.Woke up kind of sad but I didn't have a breakdown yet so I'll take that as a win.>>83751509>i need to do that, too. it's about time. (~.~)Best of luck with your sleep!I'm not sure I got enough but I can always take a nap later.>>83751520>that's a statement i disagree with a little. it's not like the giant buildings of worship full of gold and marble just suddenly appeared.I think I worded that slightly wrong. I meant more in that sense that you could just chat to your priest for a bit for some guidance.Have a good sleep!>>83751973>that sounds very promising. Hope this continues this directionMe too, although I do feel myself slipping.I guess I'm stuck wondering if we were the wrong people for each other or if it was just the wrong time and I'm just kind of clinging on to the hope that we could try again once she's got her issues more under control.It's very hard to figure out how she feels about me when she won't be direct about it. I know I should stop worrying about that but it's a lot easier said than done.>>83752880>just not any cause homeschooling is rare igI guess that makes sense. In any even I hope you can make your issues less bad.
hello good morning guyzzz
what's good /cut/. been trying to hold it together recently. cut my body up the other day but that's a given. at least i talked to my psychiatrist yesterday, which made things a little better. so far bpd has been a solid 3/10 on the "ruining my life" scale. hope everyone here is doing well.
>>83752880>2 to 30 in.classic weather prediction. Either a light dusting or weeks of apocalyptic white out conditions of famine and frost>>83753307>need to get hired alreadyhope you find something. It's terrible nobody seems to be hiring and people are losing in historic numbers. I understand feeling like it's causing time to be wasted.. But not really your fault since people are all trying to work, but no one actually needs workers>pre-built PCs from steamsounds a really good option if you're mostly after gaming. I got a pre built desktop and it's really hard to find specifically for gaming in mind, and if you don't targe that, might get a crappy build> never had a desktop for myself before.it is quite a nice experience to finally get one. I put off getting into pc gaming many years and it was huge when I finally got a nice pc>About as much as youso far not too bad. It might actually stop way earlier than expected so apparently I won't commuting via dog sled this week lol>if it appears to have more care than anything else in your life.I missed the cut off for anime and weeb stuff being okay. Gen Z and younger are more okay with anime, but most people my age think it's associated with weird creepy losers in their minds. I'm objectively speaking, more successful than majority of people around me and fairly intimidating, so don't think anyone would say much other than be like "huh?" as I pass by. I'll keep going to the mall to win Miku prize figures after work looking like I'm in a Yakuza side story where Kiryu need to win the claw game
>>83752920Finding something to devote time is good. Like you said, being bad at first is okay. Think when you're feeling bad it's hard to power through, but really need to>>83754337>I slept shockingly well with that dakiglad to hear. If not for the cover itself specifically, the pillows themselves are very nice>Me too, although I do feel myself slipping.it's okay to feel that, as long as you know mentally how to say no when it reaches the point you might fall> if we were the wrong people for each other or if it was just the wrong timeI don't mean any disrespect against her, but someone in the mindset she is at the time isn't right for anyone until the issues she was going through are resolved or controlled. Direct communication is the only way for basically any relationship to work, especially given the obvious hurdles you had already>>83755058morning cat! hope you have a good day>>83755160hello anon>cut my body up the other day but that's a given.hope it wasnt too bad at least and cleaned up well>which made things a little better.that's good. Have you been seeing one for some time or was this a first visit?
>>83755313>Have you been seeing one for some time or was this a first visit?been with this one for a few months, but my previous mental health providers were psychologists. i went on a pretty bad crashout one time so i got referred to a psychiatrist instead.>>83752920>I know that it's not easy to start something new, or to keep at it, when you're feeling down.very wise anon. i've been playing bass and producing music for a little while myself and the rush of finding the perfect sound or melody is something else.>>83755269>I missed the cut off for anime and weeb stuff being okay.that must suck anon. honestly as long as it doesn't ruin career opportunities or whatever, why care about what other people think of your hobbies?>I'll keep going to the mall to win Miku prize figures after workthe highest form of self actualization. it's funny since here in my shithole asian country the stereotype goes that the people liking anime and weeb stuff are rich chinese CEOs in their 40s driving expensive SUVs. keep doing you officeanon.
>>83755430>previous mental health providers were psychologistsI've been to a few different over the years. Most experience has been with social workers who could as therapists but nothing past that. I feel most my issues in life have been trauma related, whereas psychiatrists who at least have the option to prescribe and recommend medications are often better for more serious mental health conditions>went on a pretty bad crashout one timehope it keeps doing you some good then this time>that must suck anonit's all right. I'm glad if kids aren't be bullied as much over that as when I was in school, but then again sure they're getting bullied something else instead.>why care about what other people think of your hobbies?Honestly, most of what I like isn't even something people can knock at so it's not like I'm a just an otaku. I'm pretty serious with weight training to the point people comment on the shape I'm in, plus I've traveled quite a bit and don't seem like what the stereotype people have here. Guarantee most people I interact with daily would be surprised in the end if they even knew. And I kind of stated, I care less and less what other people think since I'm not happy acting how I thought I should in the past.>rich chinese CEOs in their 40sGod I wish that were me me
playin minecraft and I'm listening to silent hill2 soundtrackhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nmm13Iu3DIMand it's so damn good, it makes me want to reply the game but honestly I probably am more likely to play another silent hill, I don't know which one it is but I know there's one where you play as a girl and you walk around a mall I think, It sounds super epic and I wanna play it I think I'll figure it out how to get it working today Also while on the topic of soundtracks OFF, the rpg maker game has such a damn good one, I kinda wanna replay it too but I have replayed it not long agoOFF also has been rereleased on steam but it has a lot of things changed, many improvements added but also the soundtrack got completely changed and even though I doing dislike it, the original is so much better https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JTIrR-xEYJM&pp=ygUYb2ZmIG9zdCBkZXNwZXJhdGVseSBzYWZlI love it a lot it sounds great especially while playing the game and hearing other noises that complement it But I'm also sorta nostalgic about it because of the way I first experienced it but that's a different topic anyways thanks for reading my blog
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>>83755058Morning /cat/. Anything on the docket today?>>83755313>If not for the cover itself specifically, the pillows themselves are very niceYeah, I should probably get something slightly more tasteful...>as long as you know mentally how to say no when it reaches the point you might fallI've been able to do that so far, but I'm worried I won't be able to catch myself every time. It's barely day 3 and I feel like I've been at it for a month already.>someone in the mindset she is at the time isn't right for anyone until the issues she was going through are resolved or controlledYou're not wrong. She is (hopefully) getting the help she needs but I worry it's a process that will take her a very long time. She is (rightly) very angry and upset but is directing most of it at herself instead of the people that have done very fucked up things to her. She also had to watch my life be derailed in real time for three months which can't have helped...>Direct communication is the only way for basically any relationship to workYeah, that's why I was so desperate to get it again. She'd talk to others but not me and that hurts...>>83756309>and it's so damn good, it makes me want to reply the game but honestly I probably am more likely to play another silent hill, I don't know which one it is but I know there's one where you play as a girl and you walk around a mall I think, It sounds super epic and I wanna play it2 and 3 have really good soundtracks. I own both of them and listen pretty often. I need to play 3 again which is is the one you're thinking of. Heather is a qt.
>>83756402hello o/>Anything on the docket today?nopeeno plans but I think I'll get sh3 to work and maybe play some more minecraft and insurgency and chill out and maybe I may worry a bit about my uni situation but I don't think I'll be able to fit it in my tightly packed schedule ^^ >need to play 3 againsounds like a great idea :>is it long?>Heather is a qtindeed so that's that girls name, noted! o7
>>83756402also have you heard about the movie? I might go watch it just because, I've heard it's not good but I don't care about internets opinion desu
>>83756487>no plans but I think I'll get sh3 to work and maybe play some more minecraft and insurgency and chill outHave fun. I don't remember 3 being too difficult to set up on PC.>is it long?I think it's slightly shorter than 2 but I might be misremembering.>>83756505>also have you heard about the movie?I have not. Movie adaptations tend not to be that good in my experience with the notable exception of Professor Layton
>>83756309More I see Silent Hill come up, more I want to play them. Think I've said this before, but loved RE but slept on Silent Hill>>83756374need a Finnish flag now>>83756505I almost watched back when I was watching the awful Resident Evil movies, but never got to it. Looked spookier than RE films at least>>83756402>I should probably get something slightly more tastefulShouldn't be hard, just probably need to see the graphic up front. I just searched and found one of my choice Makima from CSM that isn't completely explicit so I'm convinced anything is possible.>I worry it's a process that will take her a very long time.it usually is, but that's not a bad thing always either. Just because something takes forever to get over doesn't mean you can't feel pretty decent faster. The real issue is stopping trying to fix things when they seem decent enough rather than working to solving the real issue. A lot of people leave things unresolved because they stop working once things are tolerable>directing most of it at herselfsort of a normal experience. I think it's hard to blame others for things sometimes when it affects us most and saying we can't change things is unsatisfying.>She'd talk to others but not me could very well also be because your experiences overlapped so much with her spiral that it's hard to work on it with constant contact after all. Not sure that's the healthy way to handle it, I don't think you should be too hard on yourself with that in mind.
>>83751165hey cat hru>what time is it now?apparently it was like 1 AM>what hour r u planning to be eepin?lol i barely slept, i think i finally slept at 8 AM juts to wake up at 11 AM and here i am still awake>would it be a big problem?noand it turned out that even the one who told us about the meeting forgot about it so we'll do it this thursday>should get some weapon like we discussed some time agooh that's a thing but i wasn't thinking about that reallyi was just being lazy i guessplus my city is actually safe but yk dogs can be unpredictable >hope you like themthanks!>small and you can just eat the whole fish at oncethat sounds satisfying lolwould like to try them some day>yep btw they're still canned tooaha i see>best of luck though!thanks!>look for them in the supermarket before?no i didn't know they exist lol>>83751221>mentioned it would take a while.oh makes sense then>she said some hopeful stuff in her last postglad to hear that. let's hope the best for her>>83751320>they're maybe 5/10 or lowerinterestingdo they have special places to sell mochi there?>>83751497>not the mostly mental exhaustionyup that's clear i suppose>what are you up to now?i don't remember what was i exactly planning to do back then honestly>they'll come back eventuallymight be true i guess, can't see if it's actually true according to how i feel because things are very complicated in my case>so it doesn't become a planted memoryouch i didn't think about that, and i think yeah that is indeed dangerous
i find it funny how a country that claims it offers free education has a tragic "free" curriculum that is almost impossible for teachers to explain to the students in one year of school, the last and most important year of school, so the teachers start making private summer lessons which technically makes education paid.oh you don't want to spend a crazy amount of money to study and get the major you want/need? that's respectable, though you might have hard times accepting the sad result.i seriously don't know how the people in charge thought that's not a bad idea.well, i have to be patient.>>83751907>I'm not driving till all clearunderstandable>so it's not like it's the first time I did such a thinwell, you know better about your casehope you all the good things!>Have a hard time believing things will go wellwhy is that?>I just don't post my name directly on here.i respect that, i wouldn't like to find uninvited creeps (maybe i would if they said funny things)anyways i think i'll tell cat to give you my name when i use discord again after a long time
mochi update the more I eat it the better it tastes, now I'd say they're 6/10 meaning, I might buy them again in the future also I feel like having a movie+ popcorn kind of night, do you guys have any recommendations what I should watch?>>83756766>don't remember 3 being too difficultdonewasn't hard, the only thing I noticed is I have to change my screen resolution in windows to a 4:3 one otherwise the game runs bad on widescreen>slightly shorter than 2 but I might be misremembering.well I guess we'll see :>btw how are you today?>>83756768>more I want to play themthe games are fun :DI reccomend>loved RE but slept on Silent HillI slept on both ^^it's never too late to play a game>Finnish flag nowmaybe I'll add one later I aslo built an underground house>awful Resident Evil moviesoo maybe I'll watch those I remember seeing a bit of it when I was a kid and then thinking it looks nothing like the game and the movie game adaptations are dumb>>83757169heya heya I for silent hill 3 to work yay :D>wake up at 11 AM and here i am still awakeI'd say 11am is a good time to wake up maybe you could now fall asleep around 1am do fox ur sleep like that>forgot about it so we'll do it this thursdayhehe, glad it went well^^>city is actually safe butphew > yk dogs can be unpredictableyeah I know my neighbors have a badly behaved dog which they refuse to train>thanks!np did you get them?>didn't know they exist lolme too actually but it's because I never looked >special places to sell mochi there?nope , just sometimes they're in some stores though there is a special vending machine at the mall that sells them too
>>83757272>tragic "free" curriculumI feel for u fren>people in charge thought that's not a bad idea.they probably though they'd make students smarter by giving them more crap to learn, or just didn't think at all
heyy guys. been a weird couple of days but im just chilling at home finally
>>83757444>I might buy them again in the futurelol interesting>I for silent hill 3 to workuhhh what :?wdym>1am do fix ur sleep like thati'll probably sleep soon, even before 1 amalready so tired>glad it went well:D>a badly behaved dog which they refuse to traini dont understand these peopleor maybe i doidk>did you get them?got sardines but i probably won't eat it todaytmrw maybe>actually but it's because I never lookedyeah maybe i should search more>just sometimes they're in some stores>vending machinenever found any in my placeenjoy though!>>83757460>they probably though they'd make students smarter:/ they should read the definition of the word smart if that was case>>83757572yo chev, it's been a while, again>been a weird couple of days but im just chilling at home finallynicewhere were you?
>>83757665>wdymsry I got* sh3 to workI played a little bit of it
>>83757572hayaglad you're chilling where were u if not at home btw?>>83757665>probably sleep soon,sleep well friend >or maybe i dohow?>got sardinesoo what kind? just nomal ones?>never found any in my placemaybe one day >should read the definition of the word smartI'm not sure they'd understand it lol
>>83757743>I got* sh3 to workohhhso did you like it?>sleep well thanks!>how?maybe they are lazy and unable to train their dog, i'm lazy too a lot of times lol>what kind? just nomal ones?idk desu nothing is written there but "sardines" and that it is has vegetable oil with it or something>maybe one daymaybe>I'm not sure they'd understand itgotta be patient anyway
>>83757909>so did you like it?so far yepthough it throws you into action very quickly, sh2 was slower with it, in sh3 you get a gun and fight enemies very quickly >lazy and unable to train their dogI feel that in that case they should've gotten a dog, or two for that matter (they have two dogs but the other one is very cute and sweet, they got lucky that time)>but "sardines" andoh I see I just want wondered if maybe they weren't smoked toobtw the way I like to eat them is I just put the fish on a plate and cover the plane with another plate and then I put it in the microwave for 10seconds or so to heat them up a little though maybe play prefer to eat them without heating them upHow are you going to eat them?>gotta be patient anywayif only the teachers were this patient :< but anywayswhat are you up to now?what did u do today?
>>83758063>in sh3 you get a gun and fight enemies very quicklymaybe a bit off topic but reminds me of how (i think) people were a bit mad about silent hill f being more into action than horrorsomething like that>should've gotten a dogyou mean shouldn't right?i agree ngl>but the other one is very cute and sweetlol>10seconds or so to heat them up a littleinteresting wayyou don't like them cold though?>How are you going to eat them?i literally put it in a plate and squeeze lemon on itmaybe i'll try heating it maybe it'd be good>if only the teachers were this patientteachers are victims as well imo lol but at least they get money from teaching>what did u do today?nothing out of usual i guessi had the exam and idk i think i have a mistake but i dont really care now>what are you up to now?i'm sleeping very soonthough i'm bored i wanna play something idk what thoughwhat about you? how was your day?
>>83757272>w a country that claims it offers free education has a tragic "free" curriculum i hear you. Don't know what country you're from still, but that can apply to many. Education is quite lacking here and not a level fit for a developed country, though more and more I feel the US barely counts as one save for the rich pockets> the teachers start making private summer lessons which technically makes education paid.my gf complains they do this quite a bit in Vietnam to screw over people whose parents don't have a bunch of money for after lessons. Shit is messed up>why is that?just used to bad things happening when I get too optimistic. Less disappointed this way.> wouldn't like to find uninvited creepsless about than someone I know offline connecting me to here. Not like I say anything bad or worth stalking over, but still.> i'll tell cat to give you my name when i use discord again that works with me!>>83757444trips!>mochi updateglad you like them. They're any acquired taste I think if you're not used to them>it's never too late to play a gameI think it was hard to acquire the games in a legally playable form around the time I got into RE. Capcom is way better at making games available than Konami is.> underground housemy favorite type to build in minecraft >maybe I'll watch thosethey're kind of stupid. Like very stupid. Starry the most Mary Sue character ever who had no connection to the games. Some of them were all right. I liked the second one. The 4th one was when they started getting so stupid and low effort that it was actually funny in a sad way.
>>83758119>bit mad about silent hill f being more into action than horrorso far sh3 is very action orientated I haven't seen the shf yet maybe I'll watch someone play it and compare >mean shouldn't right?yepshouldn't>lolyep they got lucky with that onebut the other one was lunging and growling and barking at everybody since he was a little tiny puppy and they did nothing to correct that behavior >don't like them cold though?yep I don't what I also used to do is put the can in very hot water for a while to heat them up but it would cause their oil inside the can to expand and it'd make a bigger mess when opening the canso now I do that, just don't liet them sit in the microwave for too long or they'll explode lol>plate and squeeze lemon on itooo that's q good idea I'll try that too some day>i'll try heating it maybe it'd be goodok just like I said makes sure you cover them with something like another plate or it'll mess up the microwave >teachers are victims as wellto an extent I get what you mean but at the same time I feel often they're the ones who make work more difficult for themselves Sticking to the curriculum instead of teaching the important necessities for passing exams >had the exam:O>think i have a mistake but i dont really care nowI'm sure it'll be fine and best of luck!btw have u added me on discord yet?>wanna play something idk what thoughyou could play classic.minectaft.net and build something :D or maybe look for free browser games on itch io>what about you? how was your day?hm I just stayed at home, played games, set up sh3 and now I'm watching a movie and munchin on popcorn ^^It's a good day :>
>>83757572also missed this in the sea of other posts but heya chev!
>>83758285>>83758204i'll reply tmrw im gonna sleep now igbut man my brain changes how i feel every few minutes it's so annoyingnot really sad now thoughcya
>>83758408aw sleep well fren and sending hugs!
I haven't cut myself in a few months but I'm honestly really close to relapsing. I'm scared my bf is mad at me or is going to leave me all the time and if he hadn't told me to throw out my sharps I would've relapsed already by now. I can't really talk to him about it because I don't want him to feel like the bad guy. It's my fault for not being better for him anyways.He hasn't talked to me in an hour or so and I'm already worried that he's worrying and is going to think badly of me and I can't really stand it. I already feed into his ruminatory tendencies enough as is.I wish I could just make him trust me that I love him.Also my dad would be mad at me if I cut myself I guess.
>>83731081>>How are you doing today?cold, fat, and stuck in home>>Any plans for today?Just reading and drawing.I watched takopi's original sin yesterday and wrote a whole essay on it just to get my thoughts down. >>Is there anything bothering you right now?I'm pissed off about the murder of Pretti. It seems impossible to argue it wasn't a gang attack. I don't really have a job right now, so I feel like I should be doing something and I don't think donating is accomplishing anything. I feel like an armed resistance is justified when an army sees itself as above the law. >>83740865>how far have you gotten.I got to building a submarian in the first game and then I opened up creative instead of searching for prawn part for another 10 hours. >This game both highlight my love and fear of being under the seaFor me, It's a great alien biosphere. I love the giant skeletons at the bottom of the sea. >>83740545>what comes after that class?idk anymore>>83740114bio sciences.
Hello friends. One last post before I do all the work that I've been putting off. Hopefully it doesn't take too long.>>83756768>just probably need to see the graphic up frontI think I've found a more tasteful one. Hopefully it won't take too long to arrive. This time it needs to go to a warehouse before being shipped over, as opposed to going directly. Hopefully that won't be a problem.>Just because something takes forever to get over doesn't mean you can't feel pretty decent fasterThat's true. I hope she can get back to that point soon.>I think it's hard to blame others for things sometimes when it affects us most and saying we can't change things is unsatisfyingI often blame myself for stuff as well so I understand where she's coming from to an extent. Still, her self-hatred is on another level compared to anything I've experienced myself.>could very well also be because your experiences overlapped so much with her spiral that it's hard to work on it with constant contact after allIt probably didn't help but in all honesty I only got as bad as I did because she just refused to talk to me and probably never will at this point. ;_;>>83757169>glad to hear that. let's hope the best for herYeah. She really doesn't deserve the pain she's in.>oh you don't want to spend a crazy amount of money to study and get the major you want/need? that's respectable, though you might have hard times accepting the sad result.I'm in another country right now because I couldn't get funding for my PhD in my own...>>83757444>wasn't hard, the only thing I noticed is I have to change my screen resolution in windows to a 4:3 one otherwise the game runs bad on widescreenThat's good. I remember having to install a mod loader when I set it up but I didn't have any issues with widescreen.>btw how are you today?Pretty sad, but I didn't have a breakdown so I'll consider it a win.>>83757572Hello. Hopefully next week will be good.
it snowed today and it was so nice snd lovely, i went on a walk and played around in it, was so nice >>83754337>I slept shockingly well with that daki. that's great then ! anything that improves sleep is a big win >In any even I hope you can make your issues less bad.probably not, but that's life>>83755269>light dusting or weeks of apocalyptic white out conditions of famine and frostexactly lol. I'd say we got like 8 in. but all the snow is hard as ice as well>>83756309>play as a girl and you walk around a malloh yea, i think that's like the 3rd or 4th one maybe, seems super scary, all the silent hill games are to scary>>83757444>recommendations what I should watch?sadly all my moives i like are very dumb and specific tastes lol
>>83758204>trips!\o/>They're any acquired tasteI guess still z they're not something I could eat and eat constantly, but that's for the better I think >was hard to acquire the games in a legally playable formI see, at least now it's easy, illegally B3>favorite type to build in minecrafI agree!>Like very stupidyep yep I decided to watch a movie called primate, also stupid>>83758583Hey anon! o/>haven't cut myself in a few monthsgood work!>I'm scared my bf is mad at me or is going to leave meI think the best thing you can do is talk with him about it, I really don't see what else is there you could do besides trying to convince yourself everything is okay but that way you'll always have doubts >hasn't talked to me in an hourI feel that's a reasonable amount of time to not talk to someone >wish I could just make him trust me that I love himdoes he need believe you? why?>>83758782haya>cold, fatI guess at least one is helping with the other >whole essay on it just to get my thoughts down.woa, is it good?>seems impossible to argueyep, but some people still will, and they will spam the board with it >armed resistancthe thing is the more you resist like that the more justification the government will have to be violent , like they'd say "see now they're building a militia against us we need to destroy them" and their voters with support that even harder >>83758792helloocute image ^^>work I've been putting offyeahh wooo yeyeye \o/that's me cheering you on>didn't have any issues with widescreen.well I do for some reason but I figured out how to fix it so it's all good >Pretty sadow hang in there and hug ur daki for me!>>83759028eyo>snowed today and it was so nice snd lovely,that's nice ^^sounds like you're having a good day then?>all the silent hill games are to scaryI played it and I'd say so far sh2 is scarier, it's still good though >like are very dumb and specific tastes lolyep can still reccomend some if u wanna ^^
Taking a quick break because it's very boring and my mind is wondering where it shouldn't.I wish I was doing my own work instead of my supervisor's.>>83759028I wish it snowed here. I've not seen it in a few years.>anything that improves sleep is a big winIt could just be the novelty of it, but I'll report back tomorrow.>probably not, but that's lifeYeah... well, best of luck with coping, I suppose.>>83759389>that's me cheering you onThank you /cat/. You're my biggest cheerleader, I think.>figured out how to fix it so it's all goodNice!>hang in there and hug ur daki for me!I'll try my best!
>>83759960>Taking a quick breakso what r u going to do now?>You're my biggest cheerleaderthat's not true cheerleader have pompos lemmie fix that *\o/* wooooo!!!>Nice!when do you think you'll replay it?>I'll try my best!wwowowo yeayea!
>>83759389hello >sounds like you're having a good day then?yea it's been great so far !>I'd say so far sh2 is scarier, it's still good thoughokay, as long as it's fun really, nothing else really matters as much >yep can still reccomend some if u wanna ^^hmmm, maybe the pianist >>83759960>wish it snowed here. I've not seen it in a few years.that's sad. hope you can see some sometime >could just be the novelty of it, but I'll report back tomorrow.okay sounds good solider >well, best of luck with coping, I suppose.thanks lol
>>83759389>I think the best thing you can do is talk with him about itI talked with him a little bit ago and told him I was worried he was upset with me, and he apologized for being kind of neurotic the past few days.>I feel that's a reasonable amount of time to not talk to someone This is true, I've just been kind of on edge lately. I'm not sure what's been up with him lately but he's been really ruminatory and kind of aggressive about his worries.>does he need believe you? why?I'd like him to, given that I'd like to be better than his previous relationships (which were less than ideal). And I guess I just feel like I have to make him believe it so he won't leave me.
>>83760114>does he needsorry I meant doesn't he not believe you
getting ready to hit some hay>>83760032>been great so far !aw I'm very glad to hear this!what did u do today other than having fun in the snow?>maybe the pianistoh I actually have seen that one :>>>83760114>apologized for so many you're just reading too far into it? and yes have nothing to stress about >aggressive about his worries.maybe you should ask him what is bothering him>like to be betterI see, maybe it's a situation where you're worried and that worries him which worries you and so on
>>83731081cut other people, especially those who deserve it
mood swings suck>>83760462>getting ready to hit some haysleep well>what did u do today other than having fun in the snow?not much really at all, just watched YouTube kinda>actually have seen that one :>oh nice ! it's very good>>83760576i wish i could
Been years since I cut myself, but some some stuff happened and I'm all sad once again.The desire to cut is back, not like it never left. It's just too strong and I don't know what do.I really want to cut myself again
>>83758408all good. gn and see you later>>83758782>Opened up creative instead of searching for prawn part for another 10 hours.Reasonable reaction. I like the game a bit and survival is fun at first, but does get a bit tedious at a point>great alien biospheredoes do quite a good job of being that. At first glance it's hard to imagine an underwater game pull off environmental diversity as well it manages to. Enjoyed discovering each zone as you progress more the last except for the dunes of course>>83758792> One last post before I do all the work that I've been putting ofbest of luck! Hope it is over fast at least> Hopefully that won't be a problem.sure they wouldn't ship at all if it would be>her self-hatred is on another level compared to anything I've experienced myself.I think you either get it or you don't honestly. It's not an issue trying to understand can get you there. Best you can be is sympathetic after a point, since it really can defy all logic at a point. > I only got as bad as I did because she just refused to talk to mejust take it easy for now as best you can. Can't let it bother you too much, since in turn makes it less likely to have a positive outcome. Best you can do is show you can manage on your own without being too down. If you can do that, think it makes it easier to reconnect for real as well.>>83759028>I'd say we got like 8 in.I'm not sure how much we have. It came halfway up my calf, so at least over 6. Nearby a little further north I've heard up to 10 inches, but not sure hre>snow is hard as ice as welli went out for a bit and sunk in right away but sleet coming after sort of made it a lot worse
>>83759389>hey're not something I could eat and eat constantly,that's sort of asian desserts are supposed to be an extent. Good but not overindulged on> at least now it's easy, illegally but that's illegal! D:>primatehad to look this up and yeah lol always a chimp that's evil, never the gorillas
New gash in my arm today...>Get drunk off rum>Lose all my money on UFC & Poker machines>Punch something & hurt hand>Hand swells like crazy>I slip in strangers vomit in bathroom>My belt snaps while im tryna piss>Call Mom for advice>She tells me to goto hospital>I rage at her on the phone (not even sure why) just went over boiling point>They un-invite me to a family dinner (for my bday)>I just got uninvited to my own birthday...>Carve my arm so i dont forget how low im feeling>Pigeon.jpg
>>83731081bumpbumpbumped>How are you doing today?feel like i get worse everytime i make plans to go out with someone as i never end up communicating with the people im involved with, which usually ends in me feeling like shit about myself and not talking it out with them yet again like i usually dothen i tell myself i can make do with just myself like i've fantasized about most of my lifeits odd how you dont know how much connections matter until just one person tries to reach outTHEN YOU FUCK IT UP LOLother than that, comfy snowday bros>Any plans for today?prob just gonna go to sleep, got to do a whole lot of nothing and didnt talk to anyone other than my online friendgroup today; was comfy tho bros>When was the last time you hurt yourselfyesterday me lad>whyi was a retard and somehow read a date as a time, causing me to not only show up on an entirely separate date than was planned but an entire hour earlier than was planned to a girls housei didnt say anything to her other than sorry about it but i know that the biggest burden other than me being there was her having to look at my facep sure she told the girl who invited me in the first place "the raggedy anon guy showed up to my house"after that i went shopping with my aunt and was nonverbal for most of it as we got ready for the stormwas ok tho>anything bothering youi feel like i try to connect with other people but i either push them away or they push me away, usually out of me just being an idiot and not communicating properly with ppl to be able to sustain any meaningful connections other than sending instagram reels to my friends all day as my only source of outside human interactionyou get used to it tho>>83760966if you want my take on it, it's the only way i feel like im getting what i deserve for being a retarded neet most of my lifei get really strong urges the day after i go to a hangout for some reason, feel like a burden whenever someone has to tolerate me for over an hour
>>83761548>got drunk off rummaybe thats all we really need i am rooting for ya tho anon, hope your hand heals and that your birthday goes well. if anything, your mom should've at the least reached out to her kid after they had an outburst; she handled that wrong and im sorry youre having to take the blunt of it for poor anger managementit'll get better like it always does, but until then you've got us atleast right
>>83760780>just watched YouTube kindawhat did ya watch? :]
>>83761915Same, lately the desire to cut myself is unbearable. But dealing with people asking why I'm doing this daily, even tho they don't care, ughI already gave up just cause of that
got ragebaited by my parents. day-ruining mistake. cut up my stomach and chest. i'm trying to see the good in all situations, so at least scars drive girls crazy or something. on the life-ruining scale my bpd spiked up to a solid 6/10. listening to a dnd podcast to fill the emptiness. hope you're all doing better than i am /cut/.
Glad to see the thread is still alive at least.My life has been going well lately, but I have more urge to cut lately. I think im afaid of how well things are going, like it's suspicious. Probably gonna hop in the tub and do some cat scratches tonight.
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>>83755269>I won't commuting via dog sled this weekStill bad enough where I'm at to be taking out tennis racket shoes. Not that I mind it much, shoveling is kinda fun. Snow is a couple inches from being knee deep after checking again.>I'll keep going to the mall to win Miku prize figures after work looking like I'm in a Yakuza side story where Kiryu need to win the claw gameBased, wearing suits out casually normally comes off stuffy but playing your heart out in one at the arcade loops it back to being cool. Wish I had a half decent arcade near me, nearest ones are 2+ hours away by bus. And one with a ddr machine is 3...>nice experienceDefinitely, million games I wanna try out but I've been limited to mid-2000s games at most for ages.>not really your faultCan't really be mad at myself for it yeah. We just had 28k jobs slated to be cut here in Canada, competition only ever gets stiffer.>>83761915I gotta watch this already man I love how the lines look>i get really strong urges the day after i go to a hangoutSame, even if everything went fine. It's weird cause I'm about as far from asocial as you can get, guess it's just holdover from before.>>83757572Hallo chev>>83757444>recommendationsNo Country For Old Men or The Princess Bride.>>83754337>I would recommend everyone gets one.Instantly weirding out my family aside, I also probably wouldn't get one since I'd end up stabbing it. I did have a non-daki bodypillow for a time and it was nice.
and the last bump before i go
>>83761072>at least over 6. that's is a lot to deal with, anything over like 3 is hard to deal with >heard up to 10 inches, wouldn't be surprised, one of my friends up north got 1 ft apparently >sleet coming after sort of made it a lot worseoh yeah definitely >>83761548that sounds rough, when your drunk anything can happen, maybe you could schedule another family dinner sometime? >>83761915>dont know how much connections matteryea, it's really hard to actually live happy without any, just having someone that moderately cares is a incredible boon>push them away or they push me away,one of the hardest things is just finding true connections where you can actually just talk about pretty much nothing and still have fun>>83762077hey meowster, sick pic ! how are you?>what did ya watch? :]basically just this guy moist critical play a bunch of random Weird games >>83762404>ragebaited by my parentsparents really can be a hell to deal with sometimes >>83762407heya >Probably gonna hop in the tub and do some cat scratches tonight.well i guess if it just takes the edge off and you can enjoy life more, stay safe tho
I hate it here I want to cut myself again but my friend took away my blade. I have another in the packaging I think but I think I will drink some vodka. If any of you are thinking of living long-term in Japan DON'T IT SUCKS WORST MISTAKE I MADE.
I didn't get much sleep but I guess I can always take a nap later. For now, it's pasta time.>>83759984>so what r u going to do now?I slacked off for a bit and then got back to work>when do you think you'll replay it?I don't really have much time for vidya but maybe after I've sent all the stuff for work off.>>83760032>hope you can see some sometimeUnless I visit another country I don't think that's happening. I'll live.>okay sounds good soliderI can confirm that I did sleep well, even if it wasn't for that long.>>83761072>Hope it is over fast at leastIt didn't take too long, thankfully. My own work will, unfortunately.>sure they wouldn't ship at all if it would beI'm sure they're not supposed to be selling any of this stuff in the first place but I don't think anyone gives a shit about what some lonely weeaboos get up to.>Best you can be is sympathetic after a point, since it really can defy all logic at a point.That's probably the best way to think about it.>Best you can do is show you can manage on your own without being too down. If you can do that, think it makes it easier to reconnect for real as well.That's my thinking as well and really what I should have been doing from the start. I don't know. I just miss her a lot and that makes me act in very stupid ways sometimes. Although thankfully not in the last few days.>>83763049>I did have a non-daki bodypillow for a time and it was nice.Well, I'd recommend you get another one of those. They're comfy!
>>83758204>though more and more I feel the US barely counts as one save for the rich pocketsi wish changing governments' mindset to better was an easy thing to do>whose parents don't have a bunch of money for after lessonsthat's so fucked up btwit's like telling poor parents and their kids that have big dreams to just give up>Less disappointed this way.that's understandable but like you shouldn't ruin your happy times by that :/>less about than someone I know offline connecting me to here.ohhlmfao that really would be crazy in my situationwell you say you don't have anything worth stalking in your posts here but i surely havealthough most people i used to talk to on discord don't use 4chan, still some of them might find me somehowthere is one guy that uses 4chan, and i know he likes r9k but i dont know if he's still activei might have talked to him here without even knowing>that works with me!perfect then
>>83761548hey cc hope you're doing all rightI feel most parents don't know how to deal with stuff like this, but it's still very crappy of them and sorry to hear that.Hope you have an okay birthday either way, whenever it is>>83761915hi kaiji poster! I finally finished the second season of Kaiji. Exceeded my expectations even after loving the first part. Want to pick up the manga for part 3 after this.>how you dont know how much connections matter until just one person tries to reach outrelatable. I wish I could get out more after pretending I don't want to. So hard to get anyone to go out literally anywhere with>somehow read a date as a timeit happens >>83762404>i'm trying to see the good in all situations, so at least scars drive girls crazy or somethingoverall a good attitude to have, but not sure you should count on that too much>>83762407take care kira. Go easy on yourself and don't do anything to hurt yourself too badly
>>83763049>Still bad enough where I'm at to be taking out tennis racket shoes.annoying thing with mine is it's gotten very hard. Ice on top in spots can't do much with.>wearing suits out casually normally comes off stuffyi'm a step down from that really since not usually wearing jacket tie (though did have the jacket once) Usually just look like I just came from the office and am probably burnt out>Wish I had a half decent arcade near methat kinda sucks. Didn't realize how lucky i was with many things till recently>limited to mid-2000s gamesat least there are quite a lot of good games back then. I don't think recent games are necessarily bad, but find myself exploring a lot of older stuff I never got to still>just had 28k jobs slated to be cutit is the trend here for companies to cut us many jobs as they can so there are more people looking than open jobs. Then pro business grifters rambling on about how the problem is no one has a good work ethic which is complete bullshit>I gotta watch this already manYou mean Kaiji? I finally got to it after years and was one of the most enjoyable experiences I had watching an anime in a while. It's very good>>83763719>one of my friends up north got 1 ft apparentlycrazy to think how much I got here it wasn't even the worst of it in my area... I still wish I lived somewhere warmer>>83763776what are you doing there anyway? Might play big part of it
>>83764009>My own work will, unfortunately.best of luck with that as well! I think I should have a light day, but we'll see soon>don't think anyone gives a shit about what some lonely weeaboos get up to.I forget some places have stricter laws about this stuff. Then again I think here depending on supposed look/age of character might be room for trouble. Not into buying overly sexualized weeb things, but feel like there's enough issues in the world for people to care so much>That's my thinking as well and really what I should have been doing from the startRegardless of what a girl/woman is like, most in general get kind of pushed away if they think you're too in shambles in front of them too long. Not to say you shouldn't show any emotional vulnerability, but I know for a fact prolonged can push away even women who liked you prior. Just a harsh reality and why trying to look more resilient is best course of action even if you're struggling>>83764455>hanging governments' mindset to better was an easy thing to dotoo many pieces at play. These are complex issues with many spinning parts, many people with their own goals. Reforming anything is hard at the top level is nearly impossible even with leaders with good intentions. >it's like telling poor parents and their kids that have big dreams to just give upunfortunately it's reality in general most corrupt countries like that> still some of them might find me somehowImagine most of us wouldn't want that one way or another
>>83763049>gotta watch thisyesyes please do i love kaijii love the expressions they give the characters and it really makes u feel the seriousness of situations better, especially after the first game of season 1>>83763719>talk about pretty much nothing and still have funi mean i feel like i CAN do this to some extent, but the biggest hurdle that comes from this is trying to not seeing myself as a burden whenever i text someone; like i just need someone who i can feel entirely comfortable about texting and knowing that they'll atleast look forward to talking with meim weird about it though honestlyill talk so much over text but barely any over the phone(calls), i get to just think more about what im saying when im saying it and that makes me feel more comfortable about talking to people in general when im not being rushed to say something in the heat of the moment, otherwise someone'll say something and ill reply like 15 seconds later or ill just say something retarded >>83764814>Want to pick up the manga for part 3 after this.OK IM GLAD YOU LOVED IT LIKE I DID BUT..part 3 doesnt have any official english translations ot serializations, thus you have to resort to some pirating like i didalso, it's about mahjong, a game that is really hard to keep along with if you werent already predisposed to italthough, they do use a more simplified version of the game and in the fan translation im ready they dropped in a guide for some of the basic rules of the gameit's helpful, but still hard to follow lolim only the first few chapters in actually, i just havent had a lot of motivation to read it for whatever reason
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>>83764965>im ready they dropped in a guide for some of the basic rules of the gamemeant to say im reading holy shit i really shouldnt type out paragraphs like this after just waking up
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>>83764983sorry anonpls do treat, dont want it getting infectedcant really give u any advice as i dont know what ur going thru, but you're free to vent here if you need to my dud
ewww th beans are bulging out m. mmmwhy wht do i doi ah havnt relapsed in months Um!
>>83765015>why wht do i do>>83731084https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasicsorry about the relapse, it really hurts when you think youre getting better only to go back to what you were doing beforei used to feel this way alot when i would talk to this girl i liked, i cut myself when i was talking to her and didnt do it when i wasnt; like she was the trigger for itcant really do much for you other than type, but just know we'll be here
>>83765071thxx annon im So sory abo ur situatn ii uhaah judt impulse that sl xD ill b Oky Dokkey
hello everyone good evening wazzup?I'm probably going to play some minecraft and then sh3, also I went on a little walk today it's really warm outside >>83764969hello You can get a bandaid or a couple of them and try to close the wound up with them, it'll stop bleeding and heal fine on it's own but if you close it up it'll leave a smaller scar why did you cut btw?
wondwful! xD
>>83765257oooah thxbUt i have nobanaids mmammmmsome 30 uear old mn got his goyim 2 gamg up on m xD an made dun of m mentaldisoeder,, h used me 2 farm atention ; Uhhhhja watever
h aidsaid> you should be laced again and lose your mind even worse and be even more helpless and dependent and reliant on [someone] to keep you somewhat anchored in reality but only a very [[[advantageous]]] reality of their choosingxd
>>83765257hii wanta go on a walk today but the sidewalks are probably still icy out from the stormhope u enjoy ur games cat, kinda on a block rn and idk what to play>>83765314sounds rough anonsounds like that guy has his own issues to work out if he walks up to ppl with mental illnesses and makes fun of themusually ppl grow out of that by highschool, but sorry you had to deal with that anon
>>83765258>bUt i have nobanaidsI see, well what you did should work okay but maybe sure to get some bandaids and steri strips for the future, okay?>made dun of m mentaldisoederthat's meanyep should block those ppl>>83765345heya>sidewalks are probably still icy out from the stormhow does it look what you peek outside?>hope u enjoy ur games catthank you> kinda on a block rn and idk what to playIf you wanna I could give you some recommendations sometimes you have to force yourself to do something to start enjoying it
>>83765437>what youwhen*
>>83765345thhank u anon <3 i can feel the kidn energy emiting from this theead ,, a so light,,
I'm worried that I know this anon but it's probably just coincidence.
>>83758285>very action orientatedso i was right xD>they did nothing to correct that behaviorwouldn't the police take an action? that's really dangerous>for too long or they'll explodelel okay but i don't think i'll keep them in a can while heating>it'll mess up the microwavealright! thanks>Sticking to the curriculum instead of teaching the important necessities for passing examsohh i understand your pointhonestly almost all of my teachers recently teach nothing more than what we should study for exams, so they teach us the whole book xDbecause usually the problem is in the information in books, not in teachersthat's why the problem comes from the department of education itselfbut teachers can be bad sometimes of course>best of luckthanks!!>btw have u added me on discord yet?no not yet, i'm not using discord for a year from now maybeso if anyone sent you a friend request then that's not me, you can ask chevalier for my username so you can take care :Dany other one isn't minei knew i wouldn't immediately add you or officeanon but i just wanted to ask for your discord because i've been thinking about the thing for a while :/>classic.minectaft.net and build somethingthanks though i wanted something that has lore or something but i'm fine now :D>on popcorn>It's a good dayvery glad to hear that!!how are you today??>>83764959>Reforming anything is hard at the top level is nearly impossible even with leaders with good intentions.yeah sadly>Imagine most of us wouldn't want that one way or anotheryeah maybe that's why we choose to be on this site
>>83765437>how does it look what you peek outside?roads actually salted, but ill probably just sit on my porch>If you wanna I could give you some recommendationssure cati have things to play, i just dont wamna play themmaybe ur rite i just needa force myself>>83765498anytime my dud, i dont usually lurk here that much but if u keep going everything'll be alright
>>83764965>thus you have to resort to some pirating like i didunfortunate, but i can manage. One thing to do it if you like a series and there's ways to support vs not having an official channel to go through>it's about mahjong,oddly enough, I have played before, but it's been some time, but can probably follow along. Might brush up before i get to it>>83765257>it's really warm outsidejealous. Here it's ice everywhere>>83765345>but the sidewalks are probably still icyI slid down the steps of my house like it's a slide. That's how bad it is here>>83765575>yeah maybe that's why we choose to be on this siteI've just been on 4chan so many years that I couldn't imagine not posting in some capacity. Plus really just attached to this thread specifically
>>83765955>that I couldn't imagine not posting in some capacitymakes a lot of sense lol4chan is actually good sometimes it's just that being anonymous could make some people do the worst they could>Plus really just attached to this thread specificallysame ig
hey everyone, sorry i didn't reply to anyone last night i was just not doing too well. I think i'm doing a bit better mentally today atleast, so I hope everyone is doing fairly well. I didn't relapse cutting atleast but I did start smoking weed again, hopefully I can curb that again atleast.
>>83766042hey chevsorry to hear that, and glad you're feeling a bit better nowhow did you stop smoking before? maybe you could use the same method again?
playing minecraft, gonna reply to you guys later this is important business >>83765682>sure catyou could play some fee game on itch io like idiot maiden, or in steam like the looker or minecart or maybe get super mario 64 and play that(it's super easy btw i can tell you how to if you want) or play wordle
>>83766062>this is important businessxDDtake your time
>>83765575>i'll keep them in a can while heatingnooo don't put the can in the microwave!!!!!!!
>>83763776Japan is a great place to visit and actual fucking hell to live in.Then again, where is a good place to live these days?>>83765314You are probably going to need to go to a hospital. I smell infection.Cannot believe the bread is live still. I need to get a new razor soon. I have one of those safety razors and it doesn't go deep. The best are the craft razors from daiso, especially the ones with the puppies on em.
>>83765544which anon? anyways, I feel it'll be best if you let them keep their secrets >>83765575>was right xDI checked out the SHf and it's very actiony almost like resident evil, though when I'd say I'd say the biggest problem is that it's not very silent hilly visually, I haven't seen any rusty metal, dirty tiles bloody walls, weird bdsm meat monsters, but I haven't seen much of the game yet >wouldn't the police take an action?nope, I don't think so because it hasn't hurt anyone >them in a can while heatingI reccomend you look up ways to heat those updon't put any metal in the microwave other than that if you wanna do something else you should open the lid so pressure does build up inside of the can>teach us the whole book xDDxthat's too much sorry to hear that>problem is in the information in books, oh really, how so?>i'm not using discord for a year from now maybe>chevalier for my usernameokay ^^I'll ask>wanted something that has lore or something but i'm fine now :Doky I'll think about some other games to reccomend u some time>how are you today??went on a little walk and now I'm chilling eating mochi>>83765682>roads actually salted, but ill probably just sit on my porchyou have a porch? have a nice time>>83765955>Here it's ice everywhereit was like the here too but not it's 10deg c so around 50f >>83766042hellodon't worry about replaying friend!I hope you keep getting better and that you can relax and rest!>>83766578hello o/>bread is live stillmagic >the ones with the puppies on em.they sell razors with puppies??
>>83766530>don't put the can in the microwave>don't put any metal in the microwaveofc that's what i meant lol dw>>83766761>but I haven't seen much wouldn't recommend honestlyit really doesn't feel like the main series>I don't think so because it hasn't hurt anyonewho knows when it would hurt anyone :/>sorry to hear thatwe're fine ig xD>oh really, how so?too much useless things, it'd take some time to explain clearly and i'm gonna sleep soon>I'll askokay!>to reccomend u some timenoo you don't have to bother yourself plus i'm not gonna play anything now i'm gonna sleep>went on a little walk and now I'm chilling>eating mochilast time i think you said that mochi was like 7/10am i right? did you like it more today?also i still wanna go on a walk xDwell i think i'll go on thursday and finish that thing
I've not had a breakdown today but I'm worried that I'm going to die alone and I can't really shake that feel, so I'm a little bummed out. The wizard robes are calling me.>>83764959>I think I should have a light day, but we'll see soonHopefully it's easy enough. Working sucks!>I forget some places have stricter laws about this stuff.I don't think anyone gets done for it here, but I know people don't sell R18 doujins here because it's not worth the trouble.>most in general get kind of pushed away if they think you're too in shambles in front of them too longI fear I may be long past that point... I'll try my best not to doompost where she can see me although I highly suspect she's lurking in this thread.>>83765257Hi /cat/. I tried my best to relax today. I played some more rhythm games. One day I'll be good enough not to embarrass myself in an arcade.>>83766042Glad to hear. Relapsing on that is probably healthier(?), so I guess there's that.
>>83766028>4chan is actually good sometimes it's just that being anonymous could make some people do the worst they couldand honestly I'd rather have than the forced fakeness of the rest of the internet. I posted on 4chan for years, but a site like reddit I would consider borderline unusable because all it's issues that force people to just parrot each other for upvotes, while punishing people for unpopular opinions. >>83766042hey chev no worries. take it easy man>>83766761>it was like the here too but not it's 10deg chonestly would take tthatt gladly right now. I slip everytime I walk out the door.>>83767144> I'm worried that I'm going to die alonenot unreasonable to feel bad thinking about it. But it's the type of thing that if you spend too much worrying about, it makes the issue worse. Though will say this type of case may mean you should probably try to find more ways to spend time out instead of in if possible. If that particular thought bothers you so much>Hopefully it's easy enough. it was save for time I had to spend scraping ice off the sidewalk>I fear I may be long past that pointnot entirely impossible to show you pulled yourself together either. People have bad times, it's normal. Point is to try to show that stretch was just that.>highly suspectno reason to expect unless you saw evidence i would say
>>83759389>woa, is it good?takopi is a good show, but it is extremely fucked up.The show is about a happy octopus alien from the planet happy here to spread joy to the world. It just happens to stumble upon three childern subjected to parental abuse and negelect. Takopi doesn't have a concept of cruelity, so he can't understand enough to actually help. >the more you resist like that the more justification the government will have to be violent maybe, but at some point enough death is happening that it's hard to care about what propaganda a politician can spin. If any one of us can be murdered in the street for the crime of trying to help someone, why do votes even matter? They can just kill the voters they don't like now.>>83761072>I like the game a bit and survival is fun at firstI think I'll play the second one in survival all the way. I might just try to see what kind of base I can build. >>83767144hi dis>I've not had a breakdown today that's good>The wizard robes are calling me.Unfortunately I'm not far behind. I don't think it can be shaken, just needs to be riden out.
>>83766058>how did you stop smoking before? genuinely don't know, i think i just randomly stopped.>>83766761hi catthanks, i'll try my best>>83767144>that is probably healthierdunno, less permanent atleast. >>83767870thanks dude, im trying my best
>>83767870>you should probably try to find more ways to spend time out instead of in if possibleYou're not wrong but I have the unfortunate attribute of being pretty deep on the schizoid spectrum. Somehow being outside feels lonelier than being in my room, thousands of miles away from everyone I know. The same goes for online stuff as well. Outside of this thread I don't have an online presence and I'm not in any groups or anything like that. I'm just not interested.Between dying alone and navigating the pain of leaving the house I'd pick the former... So I guess that's why I'm not feeling too hopeful.>it was save for time I had to spend scraping ice off the sidewalkThat's good to know.>not entirely impossible to show you pulled yourself together either.That might work. Although maybe the best strategy is not posting anything so she has to actually reach out to know how I'm doing.>no reason to expect unless you saw evidence i would sayI guess but she browses /r9k/ and cuts herself so it doesn't seem like a stretch that she'd end up here and spot me at some point in the last three months.>>83768113>that's goodI came kind of close again, but was able to distract myself for a while. I'm four days breakdown-free now, which I think is a record.>I don't think it can be shaken, just needs to be riden out.So it seems. So it seems...>>83768462>less permanent atleastIn a utilitarian sense you could probably rank vices by how bad they are. Swapping one for a less bad one is probably good.Like heroin addicts swapping to RuneScape.
o do u guise have like a discorrd mayb
>>83768780Some of us have eachother added on discord but there isnt a server for this thread
anybody here had any interesting dreams recently?
>>83769289yeah i was in a zombie apocalypse, and i was in resident evil 2 aswell
>>83764899>on top in spots can't do much with.For those I pull out a garden hoe and start breaking through the ice, good for thick snow as well. Just came back from shoveling actually, was out for a good 20-30 minutes.>exploring a lot of older stuff I never got to stillI think the good thing with old games is any still being talked about were good enough to stand time. A lot of people really thought Haze was hot shit when it came out, but you don't hear word of it nowadays.>You mean Kaiji?Yeah I did>>83764455>some of them might find me somehowI've got similar concerns with friends that used to browse here, unlikely I'm found anyhow.>>83764965It'll be cool since I'm fully blind going into it.>>83767144>>83768113>worried that I'm going to die alone and I can't really shake that feel>Unfortunately I'm not far behindI've had that worry come and go, but not in the sense of becoming optmisitc or even defeatist about my own prospects. Its more that I spent such an insane amount of energy caring about it in the past, that I'm indifferent on it now. Dying old and dying unfulfilled in other areas occupies me more. To die with my soul irresolute, rotting away in an old age home is what tuly terrifies me.>>83766042Better that you're better, good luck kicking smoking again.>>83769289I dreamed I was playing doom eternal on the couch with a girl I knew, she did the play-by-play on my gameplay. This then cut to an arcade/cafe where I'm seated with 3 of my middle school teachers. We're discussing my old speech about human cloning over English breakfast, and afterwards I hit the ddr machine. That would be pretty nice actually...
weghhhhh im annoyed. bought razors and they were a pain to take apart. and im all itchy everywhere and i cant even cut good. i dont even have it in me to cut deep enough i hate this
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>>83764009>can confirm that I did sleep well, even if it wasn't for that long.quality can be much more important sometimes >>83764899>still wish I lived somewhere warmeroh fair, I'm the complete opposite, when i turn 18 going straight to Canada >>83764965>seeing myself as a burdeni used to and still feel that a lot. you never want to be a blight on your friends, it really is a awful feeling, but realistically it's not true, they wouldn't be friends if you were a burden, they do enjoy texting and talking. but of course even knowing that Dosent take away the thoughts, i guess it's just something you almost have to force yourself to ignore.>comfortable about texting and knowing that they'll atleast look forward to talking with mei think most friends probably do look forward and are happy talking. they just don't show it, like my best friend i never say he's my best friend to him, but he is. i enjoy every moment together, and your friends are probably the same.>barely any over the phone(calls)i really used to be the same way, talking was just something I could never do, only thing that helped me was playing something while calling, makes it much more natural and less awkward, and you dont have time to think about what your saying really >not being rushed to say something in the heat of the momentthat's fair, when you have time to think, it helps you feel more comfortable and don't rush anything bad.>>83768842cute pic>>83769289had a dream where i was driving to school even tho i can't drive lol>>83769584scary
>>83767870>a site like redditoh yeah most people there prefer going anonymous aswell but besides the things you said about upvotes and stuff, the fact that there is something like upvotes there is just not goodyou can easily find people saying bullshit just to get upvotes and fake numbers, you can find people posting things like "please i need karma"i hate it when people start chasing fame in everything>punishing people for unpopular opinionsyeah lmao you could get your account destroyed if they didn't like some reply kr a post you had>>83768462>randomly stoppedwell then it's time to find a new way out don't you think?>>83769289i surely hadwhat interesting dreams did you have?>>83769805>that used to browse heredo you still have these concerns now though?>>83769884>don't even have it in me to cut deep enough i hate thisnot being able to cut deep is a good thing in that case, anon.why do you wanna cut?
Here today, bump tommorow
>>83769884why would you have to take anything apart just buy safety razor blades lol
>>83769805>To die with my soul irresolute, rotting away in an old age home is what tuly terrifies me.Yeah, it's not the best way to go out. I've still got a couple of weeks left to join the 27 club and I think about it often.>>83770097>quality can be much more important sometimesI don't think I'm getting woken up mid-cycle or anything. Every night I've had it I've been out cold so I think it's helping.
>>83771874>tulyfuck my freak phoneposter life>>83770345>do you still have these concerns now though?Not really no, they just (used) to browse the board as a whole so it's unlikely.
>>83771931Yeah fuck you asshole. Why don't you go suck a bag of dicks? Always acting so superior. I'm tired of you, I'm tired of everyones shit here. I'm tired of this fucking thread. Goodnight.
>>83771975>GoodnightBut it's only 6pm...
>>83768113>I might just try to see what kind of base I can build.you have a favorite biome to build in? I like the mushroom forest. Just the aesthetics of it and fact it's just a little risky with have reapers nearby>>83768654 > Outside of this thread I don't have an online presencepretty much the same for me. I honestly have zero idea how people get so ingrained in online communities or gather huge social media presences that I see some have> I'd pick the formerthat's interesting to hear. In my case I did the later since I felt more compelled to escape being a shut in. If you don't mind me asking, do you have any idea why the idea of being alone bothers you so much if it seems overall you prefer keeping to yourself in the first place? I don't think you're the only one like that, just kind paradoxical and almost begs what reason you want connection in that case. Especially since usually women will want you to be out more than you're probably used to anyway.>browses /r9k/ and cutsto be fair, still might not end up checking this thread since I think some who cut but have no intention of wanting to stop like this thread very much, since it's more geared towards helping people who are struggling and I think I've only seen one poster who I'm pretty sure is a girl here in the past few years. Just not a lot of reason for them to come here.>>83768462anything particularly pushing you over the edge?>>83768780individual users have each other, but no plan for a server and not everyone uses it anyway
>>83769584hey meowster>i was in resident evil 2 as long as you can find a safe room, not the worst in the world>>83769805>I pull out a garden hoe I don't have one of those, but good solid gardening shoveling helped break things up. The fact the snow was a bit more solid helped in the sense I could pick up huge blocks and throw it after it cracked up>was out for a good 20-30 minutes.yeah, for me it was iteratively chipping away at it. Did it when it first came down to avoid having to clear too much when it settled hours later>really thought Haze was hot shit i feel with shooters particularly, the test of time is a lot harsher than with other genres where few that survive probably are the best options, where others more niche things are out there and good>Yeah I did10/10 made me want to go solve all my problems by gambling>>83770345>anonymous aswell that's the thing, it's not truly anonymous at all and communities built around it not being that way>karmathe single worst system ever created on any platform ever as far as I'm concerned. It encourages everything but original thought. Not that 4chan is the most original place in the world and most posts aren't, but again you don't really get punished for holding a minority view except for perhaps insults being hurled>account destroyedcompletely unusable site. But I've complained enough
>>83768462>Swapping one for a less bad one is probably good.yeah, but personally it becomes a pretty slippery slope after a while.>>83770345>find a new way out don't you think?if i can find my grip again on life i'll try. but rn i'm not there yet.>>83769805>good luck kicking smoking again.thanks, i'm gonna try.>>83772168>anything particularly pushing you over the edge?idk, it just feels like my enjoyment of life has just got fucked again. it's probably a seasonal thing but i've never felt this alone and miserable in a while.
>>83772290>Not that 4chan is the most original place in the world at least 4chan users mostly don't want to be famous by their postsmaybe there are people that actually want to be known here but overall this isn't the best place for thatalso being known as a 4channer won't give the best reputation xD>But I've complained enoughi understand your points>>83772302>grip again on life i'll try. but rn i'm not there yet.hmm so a lot happened right? sorry to hear that mate..wanna talk about anything?
Does anyone else take pictures of their self harm wounds and edit them in photoshop?It's a little cathartic since it gives me something to focus on after the wound's managed.
>>83772556i know some people do thatthough idk if anyone in the thread does it
>>83772778I guess I do that..I mostly put cutecore overlays and edgy text on it to be as corny as possible.
>>83772168>I honestly have zero idea how people get so ingrained in online communities or gather huge social media presences that I see some haveMe either. My best guess is that you just need to be very visible all the time.>why the idea of being alone bothers you so much if it seems overall you prefer keeping to yourself in the first place?It's pretty difficult to articulate but it's something I've been thinking about a lot. For basically all of my life I've had this sense of being on the outside looking in. Most of my early memories are of being alone. My earliest memory is being excluded from an art project in preschool and then just doing my own thing alone.Very rarely people will show up in my life that I enjoy interacting with. It doesn't feel like a chore and I'll happily talk to them for hours every day. They really are truly special, fascinating people. I desperately cling onto these relationships but they all leave eventually. Some friendships just taper off, one killed himself, and the last one was her - and that one stings the most because she is by far the person I enjoyed talking to most. Basically the only reason I dated her was so I could do it more.So I guess it's a mix of knowing what I could be missing and, paradoxically, a very strong aversion to human interaction probably stemming from some kind of childhood thing.>no intention of wanting to stop like this thread very muchI don't think she likes doing it. At least I hope she doesn't.I don't suppose anyone stopped posting here after I showed up, have they?
>>83770345>not being able to cut deep is a good thing in that caseyea i guess it is, its just frustrating.. i feel so weak. at least cutting shallow means i can ignore my wounds kinda safely lol>why do you wanna cut?i like seeing myself bleed its relaxing and i like seeing the things i can do to my body. its a distraction. and i guess it feels like having autonomy and control over my body even if its destructive which is nice. and it helps with flashbacks since i mainly feel them bodily, it takes away from the reexperiencing (not the best explanation but i cant really put it into words)>>83771276unfortunately i couldnt find them at the store
>>83772782>as corny as possiblelol why do you do that>>83772787>i feel so weak.nah trust me even soldier that survived scary battles might not be able to cut themselves and stuffit's not always about being weak, it's just that our brain refuses to let us hurt ourselvesfor example, if you try to bite your finger as if you're gonna completely cut it offbut your brain will suddenly make you stop cuz it just can't handle it>(not the best explanation but i cant really put it into words)i think it was good enoughi think a lot of cutters have something with memoriesthough have you ever talked about that to something professional?
i am curently tweezinge the thine layer of toilet paper of my beane XD
that looks fine rite
>>83772302>probably a seasonal thing could be. Shitty time of year for most people, cold, dark, and miserable. I'm snowed in still and can't go anywhere despite wanting to>>83772500mean to ask, but how's your day/week going?>don't want to be famous by their postsborderline impossible either way. There are some poster who were board famous in a way, lolcows and all that, but that means little to nothing anywhere else
>>83772786>need to be very visible all the time.put a lot of effort in and most importantly post things people want to see. See plenty of people put out tons of content (instagram, youtube, twitter, etc) and just no one likes. Having initial base of people I think already matters>my life I've had this sense of being on the outside looking in.that's an unfortunate way to feel.. And quite honestly how I felt for a bit, being able to watch things happening but feeling like everything is on a TV screen and I can't interact with it myself.>It doesn't feel like a choreI have a better idea now. I think the problem is that ultimately you don't know if dealing with people will be a chore or not, without taking the chance it is.>so I could do it more.so do you ultimately feel even if you didn't date, but remained good friends you'd be happy all the same?>paradoxicallyhonestly, I said that before, but it doesn't seem as contradictory now hearing more. I think there's a lot in socialization that many people would find to be bullshit. It doesn't mean you don't like people, just you want to cut through the less ideal parts. Honestly.. That returns to my original thought which is you need to find some way to force yourself at some point and some degree to get out more or at least interact with people in some capacity. Know that is both difficult and not always obvious how to, and that the shitty parts make it seem not worth it, but i don't think it sounds like you'll grow out of wanting to connect to people the way you did describe and there's no way to do that without some risk.>I don't suppose anyone stopped posting here after I showed up, have they?Not at all. This thread has historically been a few name posters who post consistently, and an occasional anon who posted a few days when they felt bad and disappeared after that.
>>83772861>why do you do thatIt makes me laugh afterwards, that's why.
>>83772973>but how's your day/week going?how is that mean? lol dwi think i'm fine but still struggling with my crazy mood swings, maybe even severe mood swingsi feel a bit strange right now so it's better not to try to explain it moreanyways what about you? how's your week going?>but that means little to nothing anywhere elseyup this too unless if they used the same name on other sites like as if they're trying to make 4channers know about their other accounts on internet
helloo everyone what is uppy?>>83772862that's what it's not a good idea to use toilet paper, you should get some gauze >>83772923I'd say it looks goodyou could also get some antibiotic ointment just in case is gets infected
>How are you doing today?I'm okay :]I've just spent my day fantasizing abt situations and whatnothiiyaa cat hru?
>>83772984>Having initial base of people I think already mattersThat definitely helps. >like everything is on a TV screen and I can't interact with it myselfThat's more or less how I've gone through life, with few exceptions. That and being out of place in basically every situation I find myself in. I think that's also why I had so few reservations about moving so far away. >ultimately you don't know if dealing with people will be a chore or notMaybe chore is the wrong word. It's too negative. It's more that people who interest me are exceedingly hard to find. >even if you didn't date, but remained good friends you'd be happy all the same?If we didn't date in the first place I'd be inclined to say yes. Now I'd think "I could be doing this even more and spending the rest of my life talking to this person but I'm not" and get bummed out about it.>you need to find some way to force yourself at some point and some degree to get out more or at least interact with people in some capacityI know I probably should but I don't think I'll ever have the drive to do that. My best hope seems like talking with colleagues when I have a proper job, but I'm not sure I'll find that kind of person doing that. Frankly, they've all been deeply troubled people I've met on the internet. Maybe I need to spend some time in a psych ward...
>>83773303hey o/>I'm okay :]that's good >fantasizing abt situations and whatnotI do that too though usually when I'm bored waiting in line, I don't really go out of my way to do that when I don't have to>cat hru?had to do some document shenanigans, but I got pizza and now im home, I'll probably play some more sh3 and minecraft
board tourist here. your thread caught my eye. I wish you all the best. much love from /mlp/ from a fraud who is too bitchmade to cut past the surface.
last bump before eeping ig
>>83774997hello how was your day today??also sleep well>>83774342heythanks, best of luck to you too >cut past the surface.it's not a competition ano
whose gonna use the charlie brown cutter?
>>83772500>wanna talk about anything?nothing rlly to say, i don't even understand it either. if anything more lighthearted i ordered some new warhammer kits that i shld receive in 2 weeks or so.>>83772973>I'm snowed in still and can't go anywhere despite wanting toah that sucks, i'm glad all the snow here is gone atleast. made travelling shitty asf.>>83772923might wanna tape it shut or something, it'll be a bad scar otherwise. for the rest it looks fine
>>83775205why do they make those?
>>83772861>it's not always about being weak, it's just that our brain refuses to let us hurt ourselvesthats true, just i wish i could actually show how much i hate myself by destroying my body. but these are annoying thoughts>have you ever talked about that to something professional?yeah i have, im diagnosed with ptsd. mental health services are shit here though, ive got no meds or therapy or anything. hell i was even hospitalised after an attempt and after i was ok physically i just got sent home with a leaflet telling me to sleep better. idk it just feels like they all failed me
hey everyone! tried to catch up with the thread, but failed. can't concentrate enough to follow the conversations. still wanted to say hi, so... hi!
>>83776177eya how's it going?I had to take care of some documents but also I got some zza today
>>83773076hi cat>what is uppy?I watch the dunk and egg show. I feel it's kind of slow because they're stretching out a short story into 6 hours, but maybe I'm wrong here.>>83776177hi yu> can't concentrate enough to follow the conversations. yeah, most of us give up after a certain point.>you have a favorite biome to build in? Inot really, I try to set up a spot in major areas.
>>83776344forgot tag>>83772168>you have a favorite biome to build in? Inot really, I try to set up a spot in major areas.
>>83776266hi catbro!>how's it going?not great, but i'll get over it.>I had to take care of some documents but also I got some zza todaynice reward for getting the job done. what did you get? your favorite? and what are you up to now?>>83776344hey cynic!>most of us give up after a certain point.that's fair. these threads do stay up quite some time now. just feels odd to be at the receiving end of that. usually i'm the cause of it. ^^' how are you doing?
>>83776344>watch the dunk and egg showwhat is it?>kind of slowmaybe it ismaybe it's like a thing that people are supposed to listen to it in the background and it's slow for people to follow along >>83776443>but i'll get over it.sorry to hear that :<>your favorite?yep :3what did you have for dinner?> and what are you up to now?played sh3 and now building in minecraft
>>83776530>sorry to hear that :<i appreciate it. not sure what to do, though. maybe i should just head to bed.>yep :3nice. how big is that pizza anyway? >what did you have for dinner?just some sausages and kohlrabi. nothing special.>sh3how do you like it?>now building in minecraftcool building. what is it?
>>83776703>not sure what to do, though. hm maybe play game?>maybe i should just head to bed.I guess it won't hurt >how big is that pizza anyway?hm it was half of a 38cm pizza >some sausages and kohlrabsounds tasty>how do you like it?probably tood but looots of fightingbut I found a katana! so I'm happy to chop all them monsters up>what is it?uh idk, like a place @w@
>>83776746>maybe play game?i wasn't in the mood to play anything. just watched some stream, then some vids.>I guess it won't hurti hope not... D:>it was half of a 38cm pizzathat's quite big, isn't it? i mean the pizza as a whole. not the piece you ate. do they also offer smaller ones, though?>sounds tastyit was, but it's as basic as it gets.>probably tood but looots of fightingi think you can just run around them, but where's the fun in that! ^^>I found a katana! so I'm happy to chop all them monsters upthey wouldn't have given you one if they didn't want you to use it!>uh idk, like a place @w@alright, alright. i thought you might have had inspiration for it or something like that, but sometimes you just build what comes to mind.
>>83776043this is from the stationary aisle
>>83776848>>83776848>just watched some stream, then some vids.that's okay too^^ anything interesting?>hope not... D:maybe it always hurt but your mind forgets when you wake up :o>quite big, isn't it?yep that's the biggest one because I wasn't the only one eating >can just run around themI do that but it's has very cramped spaces which the sh2 had lots of open ones>have given you oneyep I also got a spiked mace >sometimes you just build what comes to mind.yep ^^and btw are you thinking about getting minecraft >>83776912hey kira how are you?
>>83776912hi kira! hope you're doing well.>>83776959>anything interesting?not really. watched the just chatting segment of my usual guy for a bit, then the new daily dose of internet vid and i listened to some rp stuff, but that was not a good idea today.>maybe it always hurt but your mind forgets when you wake up :oi'll take that over being tired ~.~>that's the biggest one because I wasn't the only one eatingfair. i'd probably eaten it all by myself. :p>I do that but it's has very cramped spaces which the sh2 had lots of open onesseems like the devs learned a thing or two as well. no getting away for you!>I also got a spiked macethese games have an odd sense of humor>are you thinking about getting minecraftyeah, but the pricetag was a bit of a bummer. i'll have to ruminate about that a bit longer, i think.time to sleep now. good night, everyone!
>>83773334>That and being out of place in basically every situation I find myself inalso get that feeling. For me I've come to realize it stems from family issues. If you don't feel you belong to family early on, makes it harder to get the feeling of belonging just about anywhere. >It's more that people who interest me are exceedingly hard to findI see. That doesn't sound so bad in that case at least. Sure you can overcome that if you ever feel the motivation to. Whether or not you do is another thing> could be doing this even more best to take one thing at a time for now and see if things change and how you feel with a little more time> talking with colleagues when I have a proper jobdepending on what field specifically you work in, might meet plenty of troubled people! I've found no shortage in tech at least! > Maybe I need to spend some time in a psych wardprobably not the best place to go to make friends all the same. Ultimately, the other hard thing with making friends with troubled people is often times if people get out bad situation don't stick around after just because they change. Kind of why it's bad to help others in hopes of making friends, but also count productive often>>83773008> crazy mood swings, maybe even severe mood swingshmm hope you manage to stabilize (or at least skew more positive)>anyways what about you? how's your week going?just tired. Dealing snow and ice. I thought I could clear it away from car today, but it's too much and too had. Street is barely any better so not going anywhere soon>>83775350> made travelling shitty asfhere it's about impossible. Just piles of it everywhere. Some cars on the street have it nearly up to the top of the hood. Impossible to get that all cleaned off with just shovels since it's too damn cold for it to melt either
>>83775205Probably Linus, kid's a geek>>83776177hi yuanon>>83777046bye yuanonman i missed the entire time you were back in the thread but it's pretty busy here so wasn't posting as much D:>>83776530hey catlike the house! Think I mentioned before but i would just build comically oversized castles that just stretched on and on>>83776350> set up a spot in major areas.that's fair. Most the locations are quite nice and have their own charm
>>83731081I LOVE JERKING OFF TO BITCHES THAT CUT.I LOVE TO SEE THEM BE UNSTABLE.I FETICHIZE THEIR CUTS AND PAIN.I'M ATTRACTED TO THEIR EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY.I LIKE HOW BRANDED THEY LOOK, AS IF YOU COULD CARVE YOUR NAME ON HER STOMACH.I FOLLOW SELFHARM BITCHES TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH I WANT TO RUB MY COCK OVER THEIR SCARS, OPEN THEIR RECENT WOUNDS BANGING THEM WITH MY DICK, RUBBING MYSELF OVER HER BLOOD.I NEED A CUTTING BPDEMON.
eep alert>>83777046Goodnight and don't buy the game it's better to pirate I'll try to help u with that if u want>>83777279hey hey>missed the entire time you wereit's okay I'll be here tomorrow and the day after that and forever so we'll catch up ^^>comically oversized castlesI don't remember you talking about it sounds cool, ya got any pics?
>>83776959>>83777046hey cat, yuanon. I'm doing well aside from struggling to focus on college work>>83777279You don't think Patty would? She was kind of obsessed with him, for a dyke>>83777365the problem is the hottest bpdemons only want other girls so they can trib their cuts together
>>83777627>hotI CARE ABOUT HOW FUCKING CRAZY AND SCARRED HER BODY IS. SHE NEEDS TO FEEL HORRIBLE WHEN SHOWING HER ARMS, THIGHS, AND STOMACH. I WANT THAT RIBBED FOR HIS PLEASURE IN INTERCRURAL SEX. CUTTING BPDEMONS THAT CUT, THAT HATE THEMSELVES, THAT SEE MY PRESENCE AS ANOTHER WAY TO SELFHARM. I WANT THEIR HATE AND LOVE.I NEED THOSE STRONG EMOTIONS, THAT VIGOUR, THEIR CONSTANT NEED FOR LOVE.I NEED ONE TO MARRY AND HIDE INSIDE. I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO SEE HER.MY LITTLE DAMAGED PORCELAIN DOLL.
Hey Cat, Yua. I used to be in these threads but haven't been for some time now. Life is terrible currently because of my choices. I'm in a tunnel and can't see the light anymore. If you think you know who this is, please don't message me outside of these threads, not unless I message you first please. I love all of you, you're amazing people
>>83773891hey o/hiyaaa>I do that too though usually when I'm bored waiting in lineI do it a lot desu>I don't really go out of my way to do that when I don't have toI like it so, i have a lot of stuff i wanna do that originates from there>but I got pizza and now im homewhat kinda pizza?>I'll probably play some more sh3 and minecraftsh3?
>>83764983Finally. After countless self harm threads that were completely off topic. We finally have it. The only on topic thing is this completely off-topic thread.Self harm In the self harm thread. I'm eating goood tonight
good morning and goodnight whenever you see thisgot another day of snow(ice), so i stayed inside and played vidya againprobably gonna do the same tomorrowhad a cat scratch sess and going to bedhow'd your days go bros
>>83778535>got another day of snow(ice)do you like winter?>and played vidya againwhaddya play?>going to bedgoodnight!!!!
>>83778585>do you like winter?i lovee winter but my mental health always likes to take a dip for some reason, either that or some really unfortunate shit happens>whaddya play?played heritage for the future on fightcade a bit, then played roblox with a friend>goodnight!!!!GOODNITE MEOWSTER !!
>>83778630>i lovee winter but my mental health always likes to take a dip for some reasonnaybe it's the lack of vitamin D, I heard it cane make you feel that way>heritageill look it up>then played roblox with a friendhope you had fun, what on roblox?>GOODNITE MEOWSTER !!goodnight!!
https://youtu.be/MwpMEbgC7DA?si=45KCVUctSZlJaxmGpretty much sums up my love life
>>83779643>pretty much sums up my love lifeim sorry to hear that anon
>>83779643and mines just been silence
Didn't get much sleep last night after my colon decided I needed to pay for my dietary sins. I think it's over for now...Outside of that I've gone five days without a breakdown, which I'm very happy about. Trying to find weird shit on Taobao has been a good distraction.>>83776177Hi yuanon.>>83776530I miss the old Minecraft textures. That image makes me feel very old.>>83777226>I've come to realize it stems from family issuesI've always been pretty close to my family, so at least I have them. Sorry to hear that you've had issues with that.>see if things change and how you feel with a little more timeI guess we both need to spend some time (actually) away from each other to see how we feel. > might meet plenty of troubled people!I know an absurd amount of people in my profession are alcoholics and a lot do a bunch of cocaine. I don't think it's as bad if you're on the teaching side but there are a lot of people who teach because practice is just miserable a lot of the time.>often times if people get out bad situation don't stick around after just because they changeI suppose that's always a risk. Although a lot of people have left my life, I don't think that's why.
heyooo everyone >>83777627hey>I'm doing well aside from struggling to focus on college workglad to hear you're alright though sorry to hear about that coleg :< It sucks but I hope u pass >>83777686hello>haven't been for some time now.thanks for giving up a little update and a sign that you're still kicking, but sorry to hear things haven't been going well, I guess you feel it won't get any better? how does your situation look like? Regardless, sending you bestest of luck and hang in there friendo>>83777987>hiyaaaeyo eyo>have a lot of stuff i wanna do that originates from therelike what?it sounds cool desuMy head is most of the time filled with static>>83777987>what kinda pizza?just your standard source cheesh ham za>sh3silent hill 3>>83778535mornin >another day of snowdo you like it? >inside and played vidya againsounds like a comfy timeI'm doing the same>cat scratch sess and going to bedhave you cleaned them?>how'd your days go brosprobably alright, woke up, are pretzel, and now I'm gaming, I might also walk to a store to get some crap but I might not idk yet >>83780938>pay for my dietary sinsD;>I've gone five days without a breakdownwoo!! *\o/*>weird shit on Taobaolet us know what you find>That image makes me feel very old.you're probably good I think similarly and I'm not old so I feel you just worry too much
heeya bump for now before replying
>>83781375>thanks for giving up a little updateI just keep getting into legal trouble and disappointing everyone in my life
>>83781375>like what?Most of it I won't say here, but like wanting to be a better person and improving stuff ig. It's nice to just be able to think without distractions or people worrying mealso theres a image reply limit?Hru cat? How was ur day?
>>83781575helloo :>wassup?>>83781619>getting into legal troubledamn, sounds bad you could completely ruin your life like that :/are you going to go to prison or something? >>83781694>to be a better person and improving stuff igthat's nice some people can only think about negative things>image reply limit?yes D;>How was ur day?just chillin, playin mc now :3wbu?
>>83782106>are you going to prison or something?Potentially
>>83782143oh man, why? because of substances?do you think it's likely?
>>83776530>dunk and egg show>what is it?It's actual title is "a knight of the seven kingdoms."It's a side story in a song of ice and fire's world.> it's slow for people to follow along I didn't think of it like that but I guess. it's not like much happens in the first few pages anyways.However the show did cut out a lengthy food description.>>83776443>usually i'm the cause of it. eh, we move on in life.>how are you doing?a little better, I started losing weight again at least.
>>83782106>hellohey cat>wassuptired a bitfeeling strangei need to do few things before replying to older postshow are you?
>>83782106>some people can only think about negative thingsi know>yes D;i didn't know there was such a thing>just chillin, playin mc now :3survival? :D>wbu?just playing some visual novels and what not
>>83782544Not because of drugs, I'd rather not say truth be told. But yeah it's fairly likely
image limit gg>>83778535>how'd your days go brosAfternoon. Probably going to read manga and workout at home, gyms packed and it's icy so I'd rather stay home. How about you?>heritage for the futureI've seen a buncha footage of it easily the coolest jjba fighter>>83782758>just playing some visual novels and what notWhatchu reading? I was reading muramasa before my laptop broke in half.>>83782106>just chillin, playin mc now :3I tried playing yesterday on console, all the new stuff and lena raine soundtrack are making it annoying to play. Take me back to 1.9 or 1.13 even...>>83776177Hallo yuanon>>83777279>would just build comically oversized castles that just stretched on and onI normally build spires with really narrow bases, so I can access everything from the center room. And soul/magma water elevators or vines to traverse floors.
>>83782578>actual title is "ooh I thought it was some sort of podcast lol>cut out a lengthy food description.probably for the better right?>>83782614>tired a bitwhat tired yo out?>feeling strangehm hopefully it passes soon>need to do few thingshope they're not annoying >how are you?I'm well, played some games and had funwbu?>>83782758>didn't know there was such a thingyep it is, there's also a reply limit >survival? :DI'm playing minecraft classic and building stuff >visual novels and what notare they good?>>83782853>>83782853>rather not say truth be told.that's okay, you don't have to> But yeah it's fairly likelyman :/I can't really do anything else than wish u well>>83783224>new stuff and lena raine soundtrack are making it annoyingI have not yet played any of the new stuff I like turning on mc classic and just building crap
>>83783401>what tired yo out?~_~my back hurts so much right nowand i should be sleeping i was studying math without leaning on the back of the sofa so my back eijwihwifdj>hope they're not annoyingthanksthey aren't very very very annoying>wellglad to hear that>wbunothing much happened todayi have to do more things so i cant sleep yet
>>83777279hi officeanon!>i missed the entire time you were back in the thread but it's pretty busy here so wasn't posting as much D:no worries. it was just a short visit anyways. what are you up to?>>83777393>it's better to pirate I'll try to help u with that if u wantwell, they took my money and ran, so i supposd it's just fair when i do it, too.>>83777627>I'm doing wellgood to hear. what are you up to?>aside from struggling to focus on college workwhat got you distracted?>>83777686hi anon!>I used to be in these threads but haven't been for some time now.doesn't matter. you're always welcome here.>Life is terrible currently because of my choices. I'm in a tunnel and can't see the light anymore.very sorry to hear that. do you want to talk about those choices? we don't have to, of course.>please don't message me outside of these threadsif that's what you want, that's totally fair, but i could use a little hint, so i don't bother you on discord if i have you on there. ^^'>I love all of you, you're amazing peoplethank you. i'll be rooting for you.>>83777987hi meowster!>>83778535hello kaiji!>>83780938hi dinon!>needed to pay for my dietary sinsi completely overate on sunday as well, but luckily i was fine. a friend of mine wasn't so lucky, though. ^^' hope you're getting well soon.>I've gone five days without a breakdown, which I'm very happy aboutgood job, dude! :D>Trying to find weird shit on Taobao has been a good distraction.what's taobao?>>83782578>we move on in life.or so i've heard. can't really say i do, though. not exactly trying, either...>I started losing weight again at least.let's gooo! :> trying to do that as well. i wish i could just drop all my vices and addictions when it comes to eating. :/ what's your strategy?>>83782614hi rem! what's up?
>>83783224>>83783224hi toga!you said something about friends who support you being a better support than places like this last time we talked. just wanted to say that if you got friends like that, that's true.>>83783608>back hurts so much right nowouch. is it muscle or spine related pain?
>>83783632>hi remyo yuanonhow are you?i need some time before making a proper reply :/>what's up?as you can see here >>83783608
>>83783224>Whatchu reading?uhhh latest i played was killer chat>before my laptop broke in half.woah what happened?>>83783401>are they good?i like them a lot>>83783632>hi meowster!hiii!!!new thread when?idk what the replies or time limit is so, but i liekd posting pictures
93I WANT A CUTTER BPDEMON GF RIGHT NOW.I NEED A CUTTER BPDEMON GF RIGHT NOW.I WANT TO FEED MY CUTTER BPDEMON GF SO HER HIDDEN ED. BAKE DELICIOUS STUFF THAT STIMULATES HER BRAIN AND TONGUE, YET TORTURE HER CONSCIOUSNESS.I WANT TO RUB MYSELF ALL OVER HER BODY.I NEED TO SMELL HER HEAD.WOUNDS SO DIRTY THEY ARE ALL INFECTED.SCARS THAT ONLY WORK AS REMINDERS FOR HER AND SEXUAL STIMULI FOR ME.93 93/93
`/\__/\`(=^.^=)`('') ('')__/ >>83783608>back hurts so much right now:<maybe take 10min to just lay down>was studying mathgargghgaaaa DD; that's the worst>they aren't very very very annoyingbut I guess they're are at least annoying hm :/when will you be able to rest?>glad to hear thatthank u I appreciate it ^^>>83783632>took my money and ran, so i supposd it's just fair when i do it, too.exactly >:3>>83783651>like them a lotwhat's their name? I don't know a thing about those sorts of games >new thread when?ig we could let this one die and make a new one now or let it die overnight and make the new one tomorrow
>>83783650>how are you?i'm a bit better now. even worked out a bit today.>i need some time before making a proper reply :/alrighty>>83783651what's up?>i liekd posting picturesi do too, but sometimes it's nice to not have to think about what i post>>83783906>exactly >:3definitely >:]how are you?
```(\_/)`````( ' x ' )```c('') ('')`a bunny just because >>83784020>efinitely >:]tomorrow I'll send you the launcher I use, you'll just have to unpack the zip file and that's it >how are you?pretty good played silent hill 3 and mimecraft, are a pretzel toowbu?
>>83780938>Sorry to hear that you've had issues with that.It's all right. The thing I've found is that I don't mind not being close to my family so much because I feel like I wish I was, as much as I wish it didn't hold me back as long as it didn't. This point I just don't care too much how they feel.>lot of people who teach because practice is just miserableWas a time I wanted to teach for real. When I was having second thoughts about working and found I loved being a teaching assistant. Didn't go on with it purely because I wanted more money and to travel, but kind of feel I would be better suited for it than >I suppose that's always a risk. think the big is not to help people for any reason but to help them. If you stay friends and talk to them, good. But expecting much from anyone is always a possibility for disappoint in general> I don't think that's why.i'd say with her specifically, it does seem like some shift at least partly independent of you. Too many factors to say often honestly>>83777393>I'll be here tomorrow and the day after that and forever so we'll catch up as will I be. Though work gave me a lot of trouble again today so that wasn't fun>ya got any pics?not sure I do on my pc. I'd build a giant curtain wall that connected multiple towers together. Had like I guess 4 tall ones with walls connecting, but an additional outer wall between me and the inner wall (whole terrain lit up of course). Center of everything was a giant citadel that was basically my house. Was fun times>>83783224>so I can access everything from the center room. see, my base was very VERY comically impractical. It wasn't easy to get around, but it looked great and imposing> water elevators or vines to traverse floors.i went with boring old stairs lol
>>83784088wish i could into ascii art :/>>83783632>what are you up to?drowning beneath work, same as yesterday. Still too icy here to even get out of my house which kind of sucks. Starting to go stir crazy.. But snow and ice isn't going anywhere. How are you doing?
>>83784088bunny!!! this is so awesome```(\_/)``` v``( ' o ' )`` \ /`c('') ('')` \/carrot
>>83784182aww carrot fucked up
>>83783867>WOUNDS SO DIRTY THEY ARE ALL INFECTEDinfected wounds are nasty and are just annoying, >what's their name? I don't know a thing about those sorts of gamesmaybe I could tell you in private ^^>g we could let this one die and make a new one now or let it die overnight and make the new one tomorrowmaybe, i mean its your call. I feel like you're the one making most of these threads so>>83784020>what's up?im okay, very sickalso been struggling with eating lately>i do too, but sometimes it's nice to not have to think about what i posyeah true ^^'
man things don't seem that bad but i feel like i just wanna throw myself and do nothing that requires energyi feel so tired and low i wish i could skip tomorrowagain, i'll reply tomorrow
93>>83784269>infected wounds are nasty and are just annoying,I WILL LICK THE INFECTED WOUND.I WILL CLEAN THE WOUND WITH MY TONGUE.I WILL OPEN THE SIDES TO CUM IN IT AFTER.I WILL CLOSE THE WOUND WITH SUPERGLUE.I WILL RUB MY COCK ON THE CLOSED WOUND.I WILL CUM ON THE WOUND AGAIN.I WILL BRAND MY BPDEMONS FOR LIFE.I WILL CARVE MY NAME ON HER.I WILL CUM ON HER WOUNDS TO IMBUE MY ESSENCE INTO HER.I WILL MAKE HER BODY AND SPIRIT BELONG TO ME.93 93/93
>>83784313i once knew a guy kinda like youbtw whats up with all the "93"??
>>83784182haha that's cute^^ thanks for the carrot!>>83784160>could into ascii art :/oh you cananyone can!>>83784273that's okay stayyy strooongg o7>>83784118>work gave me a lot of troublegrrrrr >:cman work is such a life waster>Center of everything was a giant citadel that was basically mysounds fun!how was your day today btw?
93Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.>>83784332I'M BETTER THAN HIM THOEVER.93Love is the law,93/93love under will.
>>83784358i kinda fucked up the reply but i meant to mention you here ^^' >>83784269
>>83784332no offense but I think you should stop responding to the schizos
>>83784368>I'M BETTER THAN HIM THOEVER.well he was a lot unhealthier than you mentally in that sense, wasn't really his fault thohavent talked to him in over a year anyways
>>83784269I'm struggling to differentiate between posters with no images so didn't see you but hey meowster!>>83784273hey rm! no worries take it easy. Get some rest and hope you feel better in the morning>>83784358>oh you cani know i know lol just copy from the inernet but too lazy to edit it>man work is such a life wasteryet can't live without it either, so what can you do>how was your day today btw?other than work it was fine. Played more project diva and finally cleared a couple songs I was stuck on for the longest time for some reason. Put me in a good moodHow was yours??
`/\_/\(OwO)/( O )\` / \\_/lol>>83784370oo thank you I'm not the most observant >>83784269>very sicknooo, again? you get sick often fren>maybe I could tell you in private ^^sure :>you can tell me on dc>feel like you're the one making most of these threads soI'll probably go sleep in like an hour so I figure we should just let it roll for now and we'll make a new one tomorrow
>>83783632>I could use a little hintHmmmm, we both know each other's real names?
>>83784429>but too lazy to edit ityou should remember about that so you have something to do when you're bored >can't live without it eithewell some people are so rich their whole lineage won't have to, but they don't share>Put me in a good moodglad to hear this ^^>How was yours??played minecraft and silent hill 3 :D
>>83784429>so didn't see you but hey meowster!hiiiii!!! ^^>>83784447>nooo, again? you get sick often freni know ^^'>you can tell me on dcalrighttt>I'll probably go sleep in like an hour so I figure we should just let it roll for now and we'll make a new one tomorrowokay :]
>>83784461Minecraft seems to have had a bit of a resurgence lately. I got platinum trophy on demon's souls remake a few days ago
>>83784088>becausebeing cute is reason enough :<>you'll just have to unpack the zip file and that's ithttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=k8EpoFnNNb4&pp=ygUTZ2ltbGkgbGl0dGxlIGNoYW5jZQ%3D%3D>played silent hill 3 and mimecraft, are a pretzel toogood day if you ask me. :] i've been a bit better and even worked out today. that was a nice feeling. sorry for the late reply. someone asked me to hunt some murlocs with them. can't let that call for aid go unanswered.>>83784160>drowning beneath work, same as yesterday.i'm sure you're going to kick that works ass, as you always do. (*^*)9>Still too icy here to even get out of my house which kind of sucks. Starting to go stir crazy..guess you're definitely not an indoor person. ^^' is there something that could help to distract you?>But snow and ice isn't going anywhere.stuff really is crazy. if we would get anything even remotely similar to what is happening in the states, most people here would just die and the state would collapse.>How are you doing?could be better, but could also be a lot worse. at least i got off my butt and worked out again, which helped me with my mental issues, i think.>>83784269>im okay, very sickthat doesn't sound ok at all. :[ make sure to get comfy and get well soon!>also been struggling with eating latelyyou and me, both. :/ seems like my biggest issue. what's giving you trouble?>>83784273>i wish i could skip tomorrowyou'll make it through. i believe in you!>i'll reply tomorrowthat's fine.>>83784449that does narrow it down slightly. can't you just tell me over there?
>>83784699>can't you just tell me over there?Unfortunately not because I'm on probation and they monitor my social media
>>83784820i see, i see. sounds serious. just one more question, then i'll stop with it. do i actually call you by your name?
>>83784916Yeah you do. I send you pics of my pets a lot
/\_/\(~w~) zzz zzz ZZZ (''')_(''')_/ goodnight >>83784592>i know ^^'you better be wrapped in a warm blanket right nyaw>alrightttok>okay :]o7>>83784662oo interesting, maybe there was some new update?idk I just felt like building crap in the old one>platinum trophy on demon's souls remake a few days agogood job!so you're having fun playing?>>83784699>cute is reason enough :<true!>linkwe gotta be sneaky though or the cyber police will backtrace us >ve been a bit better and even worked outwowowo I'm very glad to hear this!>for the late reply. dw murlocls won't hunt themselves ^^
>>83784967Yeah I love souls games. I've platinumed them all except Sekiro
>>83784927ah, got it. just glad to see you again, dude.>>83784967>goodnightgood night and sleep tight!>we gotta be sneaky though or the cyber police will backtrace usit's gonna be the heist of the century! >very glad to hear this!well, there's still two more days that can go terribly wrong before the weekend. let's just hope they won't>murlocls won't hunt themselvesword! >>83784978>except Sekiromissed that one, too. stupid achievements bugged out and didn't give me the one for upgrading all the shinobi tools. that's when i decided i wouldn't bother with the game anymore. what's kept you from getting it?
>>83784978what's the difference between them btw? is demon the oldest?
>>83784461>remember about that so you have something to do when you're boredtab that under things to do for a very rainy day. Though I'm literally stranded inside and still can't be bothered lol>are so rich their whole lineage won't have tohonestly, i'm still jealous there are people who had parents who paid for their college. Usually the first who badmouth the "commoners" like me for having student loan debt >played minecraft and silent hill 3 nice. Hope you had fun.>>83784592>hiiiiihope you either had or are having a good day. I'm about ready to pass out for the night>>83784699>kick that works asslately it's kicking my ass, but that's how it goes>something that could help to distract you?plenty I suppose, but I need a change of environment. Can only take the same walls so long before I want to go out. Not even walking because it's solid ice everywhere on the ground>if we would get anything even remotely similar to what is happening in the states,people here struggled a bit since a lot of cars are still buried. Not used to this type thing here. Then there's my neighbors who's from upstate Michigan who was literally driving out during the blizzard lol>which helped me with my mental issues, i think.sorry you're still feeling a little off, but glad that helped a bit. Sort of confirms maybe just staying busy is what you've gotta do for now
>>83785092>what's kept you from getting it? All the endings mostly, have to replay the game like 6 times>>83785093Yeah Demon's souls is the oldest. Each of them has their unique quirks and nuances
>>83785128>lately it's kicking my ass, but that's how it goesi guess that's true. sometimes you just have to take what life throws at you. is there at least an end in sight?>I need a change of environmenti understand that. i don't need it often, but when i do, i need it bad.>Not even walking because it's solid ice everywhere on the groundway to dangerous to get out when it's like that. even more dangerous than driving, i feel.>Not used to this type thing heregotta prepare for more extreme weather in the future. that's for sure.>Then there's my neighbors who's from upstate Michigan who was literally driving out during the blizzard lolsome people are just build different. or insane.>Sort of confirms maybe just staying busy is what you've gotta do for nowmaybe, but usually i could use work to distract myself from everything, but now it's actually the reason for my bad mental state more often than not. i'll try to think of something, though.>>83785130>All the endings mostly, have to replay the game like 6 timesi know i cheated the system with a cloud savefile for bloodborne, but i'm not sure what i did in sekiro. though i do think i've seen all the endings... then again, it's been a while. ^^'
>>83785222I used the cloud save trick for elden ring, might do it for sekiro
>>83785237>elden ringstill mad there wasn't an ending that allowed me to side with miquella, so the only ending they'll get from me is frenzied flame. if i ain't getting shit, nobody else is either. :p>might do it for sekiroprobably the best way to save yourself some sanity. gotta head to bed now. hope to so you around.
>>83785313Sleep well Yua
I decided to have an early night last night to try and fix my sleep and that seems to have worked somewhat. Might take a quick nap as I'm still a little sleepy. Hope you're all having a good day.>>83781375>woo!! *\o/*If I can manage today I'll have gone a whole week without one!>let us know what you findSome highlights from what I've ordered already include Reimu-themed keycaps, a Rice Shower daki, some Umamusume kock-off lego sets, an Osaka plush, and that Madoka fentanyl shirt. All for less than you'd think.>>83783632>hope you're getting well soonNothing bad's happened so far...>what's taobao?Chinese Amazon. Like AliExpress on amphetamines. It's like 50-90% off what you'd pay on AliExpress and stuff on there is already suspiciously cheap.>>83784118>This point I just don't care too much how they feel.I see. I guess if it doesn't bother you it's not worth worrying about.>Didn't go on with it purely because I wanted more moneyThat's fair. You can earn (a lot) more that way. I'd rather teach because there are less hours and it's much lower stress.>But expecting much from anyone is always a possibility for disappoint in generalMy expectations are generally nonexistent at this point, so it's always a gift when people remember I exist.>Too many factors to say often honestlyMy best guess is her life fell apart so she just razed everything to the ground as a (very unhealthy) way of coping/hurting herself, but still cares too much to actually move on herself after doing that. What happens next is anyone's guess.>>83784273Hang in there. Hopefully everything will be okay.
>>83747601Imagine being so retarded as to repost images without changing their filename. I'm using a 4chan app on my phone and this image shows up as an already existing file I've downloaded thus instantly letting me know there's larp fags acting like they harm themselves in an attempt to magnet fish for reactions.
>>83785598ithink youre more retarded than i am and im dumb enough to cut my arm so
My girl almost cut herself to death not long after I appeared in her lifeShe said it was last december, so I when asking why she felt that way is because she felt helpless and aloneI only knew her for like a week then, said she stopped the knife before it got too bad because I texted herI'm pretty mentally scarred due to the war but I didn't give much to it, just said that it's lame if she does it, because this way she can't cuddle and build her life with meSince then we started hanging out a lot and I think I helped herA bit of an oldfag on 4ch, but never been here, so just wanted to share a story to idk, cheer you guys up a bitI'm chill like that
The "93" guy is kind of entertaining to meDid we hit image limit? Fake and gay.
i cant feel myself slipping back down a path that will hurt me, yet i crave it>>83784699>make sure to get comfy and get well soon!thanks ^^>make sure to get comfy and get well soon!just my mental health, body images and that stuff>>83784967>you better be wrapped in a warm blanket right nyawi got a comfy hoodie on>>83785128>hope you either had or are having a good day.you tooo!!mine was alright>ready to pass out for the nightnightttt
>>83786648You're supposed to sage so it doesn't keep bumping up and we make a new one>>83786777Blessed number 7 trips
>>83786781>Blessed number 7 tripswhat does that mean?
>>83786791The last 3 digits on your post were the number 7, which is rare and won't happen for another thousand posts
>>83786843oh, lucky number seven i guess
>>83786863bro please put sage in options you keep bumping
>>83786870and what does that mean?? ^^'
