Is it normal to get extreme violent urges when you see a man who is even uglier than you with a cute gf? That just happend to me when I was buying something in a store and a couple with some slavic looking woman and some arab/turk looking small subhuman without a chin was with her. Meanwhile I am 6'3, blond hair blue eyes but never touched a woman in my entire life because of my autism.
>>83838029>see a man who is even uglier than you with a cute gf?Honestly can't recall ever having seen that before
>>83838035He looked something like this just with more oily hair and a bit of facial hair but he was at least 2 heads smaller than me.
>>83838029>autism.fellow autistic chad here. we're doomed. autism is the single most powerful woman repellent. even if you darktriadmaxx you're still screwed past the first one night stand because lack of social cognition WILL inevitably screw you over. the only hope i see is to find an autistic girl who you vibe with but i doubt they exist
>>83838029Why the fuck are you getting mad at uglier people having gfs? If i saw someone uglier than me with a cute gf, I'd be seriously impressed.>I am 6'3, blond hair blue eyes but never touched a woman in my entire life because of my autismI was going to ask how bad your autism must be too cancel that out, but judging by your post you must be insanely insufferable
>>83838249I know, I had her but she lived in another country and dumped me before we could meet. Me being too nice an inexperienced with women did not push to meet her and agreed to wait until she was ready. The feeling of a woman accepting you how you are and loving you at the same time was so liberating I flew too close to the sun. I just want to destroy and hurt, there is no way in hell I will ever meet a qt autistic girl who was close to ashby ever agian. Why can other people be happy but never me.
>>83838281Yeah it is bad but it is not my fault that is just how I am.
>>83838295maximize your autism brother. it WILL alienate the normies, but it's so much better than normies alienating you. that way, you're filtering out all the normie scum, leaving behind only autists. but they're few and far between, especially IRL. i've been going to bars for a while and never met one, but it's probably because they 1. just straight up aren't going to bars or 2. we're both too autistic to initiate conversation with oneanother
>>83838324Idk I have internalized to mask all my life so people would at least stop attacking me otherwise I am just silent to save energy. I fear that people will start attacking me again and that I get in trouble again like in the past. School was hell because of this, I am an adult now people are way less lenient with you. I tried to go to places where autists would go but never met a single one. With women it is even harder because they mask even better since they are the social gender. On the other hand I can not keep going like that life is pure hell and I feel like beating up someone.
>>83838363>I am just silent to save energyyeah i get that. the moment something feels forced, don't do it. my hypothesis is that i have to find a way to make it not feel forced, but it's hard. i try to be interested with people by hybridizing my interests with theirs, but it's hard since most people are so vapid. maybe try to be interested in people on a meta level? idk i'm still thinking about all this myself
>>83838402>maybe try to be interested in people on a meta levelHow and why? You said it yourself most people are vapid why wasting energy on them, finding someone I can vibe with is very rare. I don't have the energy to keep looking at me and I hate internet friends after everything that happend.
>>83838444okay i'll tell you an experience i had recently. there was this girl that was ULTRA vapid, like the most brainless bitch you can think of. but she was fiercely coming on to me, she was flirting so hard that i noticed after like 2 hours, that's how bad it was. anyway so i try to make conversation with her but she's just giving me absolutely nothing to work with (like everyone else, but worse). so i told her that i'd see some other friends quickly, but i just went to another bar to have some alone time. i thought the following:>okay, so there's this girl and she's the single least interesting person i couldn't even imagine. but on a meta level, she is interesting in some small ways: 1. she can provide me with sex 2. i could maybe play games or watch videos/movies with her 3. maybe i can get her to talk about something interesting later down the lineso with that line of thinking, i decided to accept her advances. i saw it as a goal to take this opportunity out of principle: i want sex, i want the possibility of vibing, so i indulge in her shit and see where it gets. the result is that we ended up being friends with benefits for two months. the sex was good but it turned out we didn't have much else to vibe with other than watching meme compilations together. but still, it was worth it purely based on the meta goal of "sex". not her specifically, she's just one of many opportunities to attain that goal, and a possibility to attain other meta goals. if you need more details feel free to ask
>>83838490I think I am way more autistic and traumatised from life than you. Don't want to trauma dump but the shit I had to go through also not much interest in casual sex, I am stupid and believe in true love and I can't stop believing in it because of my autism and consuming too much idealistic media without much context to reality. I have refused women in the past and I think I will keep doing so if I don't feel right with her. I know women are nothing like the media I have consumed, they are selfish creatures filled with flaws but so are most men. I never really had many interactions with people that way in the last few years anyway, spend it looking for a gf and trying to make money, both took a long time and both lead to success but just like a wink from god it both ended in total and utter collapse in the end like I am cursed.
>>83838552i get it. it's just a hypothesis that i have, i don't know if it actually works, i'm just desperate for a solution. i was so idealistic back then i unironically searched for a way to immortality and shit. maybe sexbots will be our salvation, who knows. don't give up autistanon, we are capable of ecstatic bliss greater than any normie could ever even imagine
>>83838586Well yeah but also lower lows, this is how all my life was, high highs and then very low lows. No idea if I can make it out this time, looks bad ngl.
>>83838304You sound like a nigger or a woman, have some accountability
