I just want to feel happy and excited about something again. Fuck me the last thing I got excited for was a MAE concert, and yeah, they aren't exactly a well known sell out event.>Drugs aren't fun>Drinking isn't fun>People feel broken>Meeting new people is difficult and feels like a risk more than a positive.I get quiet joy out of some creative endeavors, videogames, and photography... but I miss big feelings and big emotions.