I dont know why I started using drugs anymore cause my severe mental illness and all of the horrible shit that led up to me using them has now been overshadowed and outshined by the profound misery drugs have brought into my life. I was doing good for half a year and now Im back to the bottom. All of my problems would be solved with a little bit more cash. Just a couple thousand and it would be the padding I need to get back up on my feet but Im stuck just trying to survive day by day. And Ive isolated myself to the point i dont even feel human anymore. I havent talked to anyone outside of work or a store in 2 years. Everyone I loved is dead, why continue? Regardless I flushed all my shit down the toilet and now Im regretting it but I know its for the best. I hope I can come out of this and be a better person and find some kind of meaning in all of the suffering ive endured. Im not even 20 yet but ive somehow managed to already ruin my life. Alone broke depressed and in shit health and the only person I can blame is myself. As much as id like to point the finger to lessen the sting, I have had a shit life but at the end of the day my circumstances now were my own misguided retarded choices. Wish me luck.
>>83850417whenever you feel like using just remind yourself only retards do drugs
>>83850417hope you are surviving E
