hello again neets.what have you been up to what have you been doing.I have just been laying in bed and putting random audios of lectures about bullshit that sounds vaguely informative to listen to while in a daze. sometimes I will type half formed thoughts online to people who don't care about me. then I sleep some more. I feel like my life has a lot of potential if I had any self control but somehow I never maintain it when I do get those bursts. ultimately this might just be some form of really embarassing immaturity. but also I think that without this extended periods of childishness a lot of factors that differentiate me and give me potential would not have manifested. what can I do right now? I am externalizing thoughts on r9k
>>83874980There's some parable about the "infinite child mind" or what ever, but I can't exactly recall it. It was basically a fountain of youth explanation.
>>83874980Potential is pretty much useless if you've never made anything out of it in your formative years, I still coped for a few more years that there was more to me, and there wasn't
>>83875052what kind of hopes and dreams did you have?I have like 100 diff fantasies. one ATM is I want to make a website that surpasses 4chan with customizabiliry and features and is a hybrid of other sites too like plug.dj and omegle.I got partway through making it with AI and it was functional and good but not scalable unless I venture to learn web dev properly
>>83875068>what kind of hopes and dreams did you have?I can't really make the the distinction between fantasy and dreams, it feels passive to me mostly, or maybe it's choice paralysis or realizing it's unrealistic
Eating raw meat and doing pointless chores
