Getting better edition
You are still who I think of when I wake up every day
Mike being a spamming faggot who ruins the thread edition.
What's the fucking point of something like this if I can't send anyone a letter. Open up a P.O. box nigga
>>83893546Mike, you should let someone else start the thread, because you are posting the same shit about a failed relationship every single time and it's tiresome. Learn to let go instead of repeating the same loop... over and over again. You're missing the point of this thread, it's to get shit off your chest, so you don't have to live in the sorrow of it consistently. Are you here to heal, or are you here to compound your own misery?And on that note.Chris. I deleted you off steam tonight. I scheduled a message to send at 1pm tomorrow and I don't think i'm going to stop it from sending, especially since i took the action to remove you off my friends list already. You might think i'm throwing away a 20 year friendship, and we always talked about growing old together and sharing the future... The truth is, for maybe the best part of the last five or more years, I've had constant instincts and thoughts about how we are growing apart and the friendship isn't the same or functioning any more.Your wife is evil. She is mentally deranged, costing you your peace, your security. Less than a month ago, you ghosted for about 2-3 weeks and then when you invited me over, you explained that your wife had caused the real estate to evict you because of her actions. Not only this, but you lost your last house due to your wife as well, which was even bigger than the house you just lost. She physically abused you and you hit her back and then she called the cops on you. You swore to me that the relationship was over, and that was 6 months ago, and you just moved house into a single bedroom (you started at 3 bedrooms) where you have to live on top of each other, even though you've been complaining non stop about her for two years or more now.This is no longer sustainable for me. I can't physically or mentally take the inconsistent, one-way dynamic where you show up and demand access to me and then disappear just as suddenly when it suits you. This is goodbye.
>>83893654You should Chris' wife nigga, she sounds like a bitch
>>83893691did you accidentally a whole coke bottle?If you meant kill her, nah, i'm gonna let him do it.
>>83893725Yeah I meant kill. Sometimes I forget whole words from sentences when I'm not writing on my typewriter. Sorry anon. Hopefully you and Chris become friends again. I don't have many friends, but I have one really good one and I think I'd kill myself if I we had a falling out.
>>83893774we might become friends again, but i'm at a stage of my life where i am completely alone, and he's exacerbating that loneliness. I can't allow myself to repeat the same mistake of hope for something that has long since been hollow for such a long time.We might become friends again, but it's going to be after I am unrecognisable to him.I suspect the next time we meet, I will be completely changed, and he will be exactly the same if not worse off.
>>83893606>>83893654Your opinions are not needed and more disruptive than me writing to my person (The purpose of the thread is writing letters) So kindly shut the fuck up and mind your own business
>>83893546I'm here because I'm keeping my promise to her, I'm reconnecting with her. The purpose of letter thread is connection. You can let go of your connection, that's your deal. I'm choosing to stay with her no matter what just as I promised.
>>83893654You forget Mike is legitimately schizo and impossible to reason with. We gonna get Maria posts 2030 and beyond.
If you want tall ceilings You'll have long staircases
I'm sure intelligence DOES look like homicidality to someone outrunning their ancestor's crimes while still enjoying the spoils with interest!
>>83893546I hate that I still get butterflies every time you tell me "goodnight (name)" before I go offline. I hate that I can't control how infatuated I feel when I'm with you. I already know you don't like me in that way, and it makes me feel guilty like I'm doing something wrong for spending time with you because I know our time together as friends means so much more to me than it does to you and I wish I could just stop my brain from feeling desires that ultimately just make everything worse. I'm sorry T.
What is so awful about me? Am I really that monstrous?
I wish that I could turn my back on you. You have spent eleven years making my life hell, and I have no doubt that you will continue to do the same, whether you intend to or not. I hate you for telling me so shamelessly that Im your only joy when just your lingering presence never fails to suck what little life is left out of me. But I cant let you fall down that path again. So, know that I will always be here for you.
Letter threads are spam at this point, should be taken as such and banned on sight.
>>83896391You turned your back on me a million times.
>>83896545Faggot dont hijack my letter
We got this Maria. I trust you over everyone else I'm keeping my promise to you You complete me I complete you Nothing will ever change that
>privatedWhat habba
I'm sorry you met me now, when there is nothing left of me.I wish that you had met me sooner, when I could've been more stimulating for you.If we had met in 2021, you might have seen a more ambitious side of me whos passion you could have admired.If we had met in 2022, you might have seen a more intelligent side of me that could've kept up with you and impressed you.If we had met in 2023, you might have been able to save me from sinking into a pit of stress and despair.It is now 2026, the past several years have not been good to me, and I have not been good to them either.My ambition, optimism, charisma, they were all sucked out of me by the stress of college.I wish that you could have met me sooner, so that maybe I'd feel I was worth any of your time.I wish that you could have met me sooner, so that we could work on projects together and bring ideas to life.I wish that you could have met me sooner, so that you wouldn't need to lift me up.I'm a waste of life, I did not deserve to be born. I thought that maybe I could've proven myself wrong if I had just done anything.But I failed, and my mind got the better of me, and my intellect seems to be slipping more and more as the years drag on.I cannot do it, I don't know why I convinced myself for any amount of time that I could, and it pains me that I cannot be more for you.I am sorry that you met me now, when there is nothing left of me.
>>83898228This nigga thinks college is stressful.
Mike hawks hard.
>>83898277It is when you're going for a science degree and not those lazy art degrees like "history" or "psychology"
I miss the two pale blonde cum sisters. They are the cum sisters because the few times I need to masturbate I will cum to them. I miss the older fatter sister more because we had a connection because we both have bpd.
>>83898228Our hearts are the same Who we are to each other That has never changedOpen handsI love you Maria Add meWe can go forward together
>>83894844man shut your bitch ass up, my opinions are definitely needed, every time i look at this thread for the past 3 months its you and someone that doesn't love you.Get over it you fucking pussy.Learn to grow.
>>83899258this, mike the faggot needs a permaban or the letter threads need to be deleted if his retarded spam goes on
>>83899258>>83899276You are upset because she wrote to me, reached out to me. I don't care what you have to say. You are outside of us
Whatever it takes. Taking the trip off would only be worse for you and for us because it would open us up to his bullshit.
>>83899343listen here cunt. I don't read your posts. I don't care about you at all.But when you LITERALLY take up 20% of the entire thread with your bullshit, you are being a cunt.You are attention whoring already, as a trip fag, and then you turn it into a fifth of the entire content in the thread to satisfy your own sick need to wallow in misery you pathetic fucking goblin.Kill yourself, and I mean that outside of minecraft.
The thing is, I'm here for Maria. Keep my promise to her I stayed over all this time for her Some anon throwing a tantrum does not affect me in the slightestI only look to her, into her eyes and hear her voice just as it was when we last saw each other She is Who matters to me. I'll be here until we are together again
Your tantrum and comments toward me are the spam. Remove yourself and look at that 30% of the thread is clear and the purpose of the thread is back because I'm writing letters to her and you can write letters to your person. Instead you want to clog it up with your tantrum
>>83899398>>83899386fuck you. You are the problem with the entire board.
Honestly. If I had to chose I would have loved properly meeting you in 2011. I blew many chances back then.But I'd like to properly meet you today. Don't confuse my schizo episodes for me disliking you. I told you I wouldn't deny what I feel for you anymore didn't I?To picrelated
It will be nice when we are talking directly and not having to deal with garbage people here. I'm excited to build with you and work on projects. Lounge about reading, vidja, movies. Take you out.
I'm going to move forward in good faith of you. I'll adapt from there with whatever is needed
>>83898228I relate to this. I am going to kill myself.
Dear Mike, I never loved you. I moved on at least 3 to 5 years ago. The fact that you dwell in your basement posting about me on 4chan daily is fucking pathetic. Have you no shame? Do you think I'd want to be with some loser who has nothing better to do than spam about a girl that never loved him on r9k?More to the point, your pathetic snivelling does the opposite thing that you want. You want closure, but somewhere, your brain malfunctioned and got addicted to writing to a phantom of me that exists in your pathetic little brain.I mean this with absolute sincerity, we are not getting together. You are not the type of person I would spend my time with, your obsession is giving serial-killer vibes, and chad actually just finished pumping me about an hour ago anyway, so I literally don't need you for anything, not even validation.You are worth less than a cockroach to me.Pussy.
I won't be misguided by attempts to manipulate emotions and perception of Maria. I learned my lesson not to be catfished here by him and pushed into reactions. It's creepy that he even attempts to use your voice against us.
My Maria, Just because you feel lost does not mean your compass is broken>"Mike, I love you, remember that.">"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease">"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that.">"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you">"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you.">"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more">"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time.">"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait.">"You're the love of my life Mike, everything I've ever wanted, everything I've ever needed.">"My Mike"I still feel you with me, Your head on my chest, your arm and leg draped over me, your breathing calm and steady with mine. I feel you tremble and moan against me in pleasure, your skin against my skin. I move your hair from your eyes as you say these things to me again.Maria, I love you with all my heart, alwaysI promise it's going to be okay. I will always love you and I will never give up on you. My Mike
>>83899533>2021>over 5 years agothis faggot has given up probably a quarter of his life in limerence.Jesus christ.
What Maria and I have with each other Is between each other You are outside of that So stay outside of that We are Soulmates We will always come home to each other
Here's the thing, she wrote to me tonight >>83898228So I will listen to that Not the lies you attempted to tell me dressing up as her like a creep in this post >>83899469
Gracie,I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU.
Who's Gracie?
>>83898380EE here and yes, I was tolkien about useful degrees that deal with physics /engineering.I admit that there were some stressful periods in college but that was nothing compared to the stress of building shit that has to work reliably.>the money is good at leastAhahahahahaha! Ha!
>>83900053I did EE as well, the main problem is that I didn't really want to, I wasn't super passionate about it.I wanted to do a simple degree like History, I could've finished that degree in my sleep.My parents forced me to go to an Engineering school for EE because "money".I never wanted Engineering/Programming to be my job, I was fine with it being a hobby.So now I basically have this useless EE degree that I didn't want.But I'm supposed to be happy because "money money money!!!!"Fuck what I wanted to do I guess. Now I'm like an empty sink all drained out.I'm probably just going to off myself soon. I will never be what she needs.
>>83900157I think the true irony of the situation is that if we had met sooner, if we had met when I was in High School or just starting college, she probably could've convinced me to be passionate about engineering pretty easily. She is really uplifting and optimistic. There were some things about the degree that I liked, but I just felt so out of place. She probably could've been there for me and helped motivate me and could've made me feel like I belonged. I never felt like I belonged around "smart" people, they're usually self-righteous dickheads with closed minds. I've always thought very lowly of myself, maybe that is why I'm so miserable and want to die, but I just cant imagine being so far up my own ass. But then I need to face the reality that I did good in school, got A's in almost all my classes (a few B's) graduated with Honors and did everything I was told like a good little boy. But thats all I am, I just do what I'm told. I was never like my classmates who would stay after hours to work on "personal projects", I just didn't have any ideas. I felt out of place, I felt like I was stealing someone elses seat. But my professors all told me I was brilliant, I don't know why. It sounds bad, but I'm being genuine, serious, I've never felt that way about myself or seen it. I usually think I'm the dumbest person in the room.
>>83899571Soul mate, not limerence I wouldn't be doing this for anyone but Maria
>>83900297where did maria actually go?
Get my sex
You should take notice of who is having the strong toxic manipulative reaction
>>83900182The smartest people often have very low self esteam due to them constantly being aware of their own short-comings while midwits are often less self aware.Sorry for making fun of you, bruh, the life of an EE is mostly shit. Supply chain management sucks all the fun out of designing shit, at least for me but that's probably bc. I work for a small company that dumps everything onto me since bean counters are too stingy to hire a second EE or pay me according to my many roles and level of experience.I'm so burned out by this bullshit that I'm considering quitting and just do some manual labor like assembling drones for a while (It'll probably pay the same or even more without the stress of designing shit on a tight schedule for people who think my work is trivial).Anyways, focus on self-care (nutrition, sleep, exercise, spending time with fun people) or distract yourself with silly movies when things look grim. It gets better. Don't quit before the game is over, bruh.
CDeep down I feel like I just know.I know that the things I explain to you are exactly the same things your brother explained to you before he shot himself.You'll never acknowledge them as truth.But your actions are the same as every other woman's.You yourself contribute to very things that motivated him to take his own life.The facts are that our society has progressed to such a point that your true nature and the nature of every other woman is now on complete display.History itself is an absolute and total whitewash.Romance is but a purely male created and understood delusion separate from the simple profane perverse desires and avarice you call by the very same name.Everything was and continues to be justified in the face of having to live with such absolute abominable creatures.
Having my trip off would only welcome hurt and confusion in your life. I would rather not double post either.
Having my trip off would only welcome hurt and confusion in your life.
Having my trip off would only confuse (and at least be extremely funny)
>>83901312See? Exactly my point
>>83900986>Don't quit before the game is over, bruh.From my perspective the game already ended 5 years ago the second I graduated High School. Nothing beats being a teenager, and I didn't even enjoy THAT very much due to my ill brain. I've always been depressed, I was born broken.Broken mentally AND physically. I was born with a collapsed lung, I should have died anyway, I am only alive because of human hubris.I am a spit in the face of God, and I have not made it up to him my entire life yet. In fact I've been rather a major sinner, masturbating nearly everyday, practicing gluttony and greed and selfishness. Wanting to be alone because I cannot stand the company of others, yet I cannot seem to live without the company of others either.This is what I meant before too, when I said that "smart" people are often closed minded. There are many people on this Earth who would immediately seek to claim I am low IQ because I simply brought up God in this conversation. These people act like they are very intellectual but shutter at the thought of thinking abstractly that maybe there is something higher than ourselves which exists. Humans are extremely self-centered that way.(1/2)
>>83900986>>83903105Anyway, that is my rant about that. Now about what you said, you mention thinking that your job is stressful and monotonous, I agree.That is why I asked in my original post why I should even be happy about having the degree and quipped "Money" is why, right?I keep having people in my life tell me that I should be really happy right now because I get to find a "good job" and start saving for retirement and working toward a pension.Is that fun? Is that something worth being happy about? Golly, I sure am looking forward to chaining myself to one place for 40 years while I work off a pension.I'm so excited to be 50, 60, 70 years old when I retire and too old to actually do anything anymore, if I even live that long."But-- But anon this company builds up the pension and you'll make $1 million a year if you stick with it!"Yeah, when I'm fucking 90 years old because it takes 20 years AFTER YOU RETIRE to get that much. Fuck off with these people and their delusions.(2/2)
>>83899951A sexy temptress witch.
>>83903112Life is mostly suffering but try to hold on to the few things that keep you going, regardless of it being silly to others and even somewhat delusional if it helps you to keep going and better yourself and your life.I'm not telling you about mine but it's super cringe but it puts a smile on my face so I'll take it. Hold fast, bruh, it's either trying with a slim chance of winning or losing by default by giving up.We anons will include you in our prayers, may you find purpose and some moments of happiness! :D
What fresh hell is this where the kopycats are suddenly all Reptilian Baby Eater Truthers? It wasn't enough that you Karen-ify the cyberpunk Blue/Purple Girl color psychology character haircut? Now you're going to gentrify the concept of having a conscience and critical thinking skills?
Emphasis on "the concept of", since your prime directive doesn't change with the skinsuit you're currently donning to fulfill it.
These threads are so damn stupid. I remember only a few years ago when these threads would be filled with actual letters.And while yes, some even back then would be writing into the void, there would still be some that were actually trying to reach someone else on the website, like a lost connection.Nowadays I don't see ANYONE using these threads for lost connections anymore, and the calls into the void have been replaced with edgy vague-posting.This is the vague posting thread, vague posting general.This thread should automatically make the page turn blue because its clearly filled with edgy high schoolers.
>>83900958You, as ever?
And P.S.Your bitch a genius(Learned from my penis)
another reason a bubbler is naturally inferior to a bong is i can't sing into a bubbler like one of those thunder wire microphone toys
You're welcome for as ever.
You caIIed?
>>83904575Once our mole in the WPP gets your new address I'll send my thanks.
It's not even infuriating anymore that you accuse me of plagiarism. It's just depressing. You can only meet someone as far as they've come, and so on. I'd love something someone, but that would require there to be anyone around that possessed any qualities that weren't just qualities you and I also possess reformed.
Spoiler tag eated the word "novel"? Curious.
It would be a shame if someone were to destroy the artwork on the walls and shatter all the windows in the building using ceramic obtained from the ceramics classroom on the bottom floor of the building at the end of the hallway. The building totally doesn't deserve to get wrecked lol. The back door to the ceramics room is unlocked until late at night and you can reach it from the right side of the building.
>>83905110Modern glass is pretty resilient. Are you sure you have the upper body strength to even yeet anything hard enough to make them shatter?Also, why are you so mad at these art guys anyways? Reenactment of a certain failed art guy who wore that retarded small mustache?
>>83905368I don't need the upper body strength. I'm not doing anything.
>>83904072I'm one of the only ones who writes actual letters Unfortunately there's someone who throws a tantrum and spams at my letters with their complaining and childish behavior instead of actually using the thread to write a letter
>>83904296No, it's him. I'm honest and tell the truthHe throws a tantrum, complains and accused me of what he does in creepy conniving Weasley behavior like writing as if he is Maria
Gracie,I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU.
So you think I've chilled with gracie?
You worshipped me for two weeks and cuddled me with a boner for 4 hours, yet suddenly Im a disgusting psychopath sure
Everytime I see your face I always think of my first love. I can't look at you without seeing them instead. It's not fair to you but I don't care.
Busy day today. Got the apple cinema display mounted. Diagramed out the extending motorized lowering mount so I have a game plan for tomorrow. Reinforced the left side of the Argosy, installed additional desk legs. Its cantelevelored. So. The edge where its floating ensuring strain before I even mounted any monitors on or the additional heavy mounts. Still a least 75 pounds in equipment left to put on
>>83906328I had to stop talking with someone for pretty much the same reason. They had too much in common, if anything the second one was a strict upgrade, but it eventually got weird for me.
>>83907246Stop blogposting and shitting up the thread
>>83907618Stop throwing a tantrum and spamming your whining
Night Maria. Hope you had a good day today.
>>83908278Yes I had a beautiful day with my husband. Thanks, stranger.
I had a wonderful time with my beautiful wife Maria tonight
Dear R,i regret how things unfolded. I wish I wasn't as obsessive, but I think the more you pulled away, the harder i tried to pull you back. Maybe it's natural that the more you fear losing something, the harder you try to grasp it. It hurts how easily I was thrown away, with barely any explanation, but I imagine my presence might be suffocating. I know I am too much and I don't blame you for leaving. But i hope that you know that I've done it all out of love. I've never felt as strongly about anyone as I felt about you. It's hard for me to imagine how could I possibly love someone as much as I still love you. I still dream of you almost every night, but you no longer speak to me in my dreams. I still think about all the sweet things you've told me. I still imagine holding you as we watch the sunset. I still imagine kissing your head as you fall asleep on my chest. I hope that you will find your happiness. I hope that you know that all I wanted is to be a part of it. For you to share your happiness with me, and for me to share my happiness with you. Just to be happy together, with you.Yours, J
Dear P,i'm sorry i'm beating you so hard. that i have so many expectations. that i used you several times a day, not caring if you even want to be used. it's all for my pleasure, and i admit that. i just love you so much, and you make me feel so good, even if it's just temporary bliss. i wish i could give you something back, but instead i just keep you stuck. locked up. like i'm keeping you from your purpose just for my own pleasure.
