i just wish things were easier
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>>83988955good luck on your mission but the jannies do not give a fuck
Hi Ame!!I have nothing interesting to say, so enjoy this picture of toddler Karen!
>>83989046hi karen-anon!woah... tiny karen. so cute. very adorable.
i WILL do 30kms biking today i WILL
2kms in 7 minutes is an even worse time than yesterday, if im this fatigued it might be over for the 30km push
i forgot to get my monster before i left the house...
>>83989203i pulled off 5kms in 17 which is actually really decent despite the start
pray for the strength to live not to live easier o algo
>>83989360god took away my strength to live so now i want to beg for an easier life. or something stupid like that. not like itll happen, im set to flail around in a circle forever
10kms in 35 minutes, break since the seat hurts my ass, back to another 10 soon. then another 10. then its stairs
>>83989399back on it for another 10kms, ill take it slow, ill complete 10 more kilometres even if it takes me 2 hours (it wont)
4kms in 16 minutes is terrible, itll likely be 5 in 22 and 10 in 55
>>8398959417kms in an hour and im not even exhausted yet
>>83989669which is incredibly cause i got no sleep and ate nothing today
>>83989678gonna max out at 25kms methinks, i gotta walk 2kms too after this, might do some quick running but depends on how quick i wrap up 3kms
This band seemed worth checking out then I found out the frontman was an animal abusing satanist, laaaaaaame>>83989391yk you wouldn't be flailing if you took it slowly, not like you have to be fit by xyz date
>>83989806the album cover kinda screams retarded satanist faggot, only people who really hate christianity do cringe shit like that>yk you wouldn't be flailing if you took it slowlyoh i was discussing life in general, not particularly about the gym. my entire life is just flailing, neither progressing nor regressing>not like you have to be fit by xyz datewhat if i did?
the guy next to me is watching fucking dragon ball edits
>>83989834Hating Christianity is whatever, satanism is just some gay nu-religion that formed as a rebellion against christians, spiritual contrarians.>neither progressing nor regressingAren't you learning German doe? That's progress.>what if i did?Pointless hypothetical since you aren't competing in anything (and if you were, you wouldn't be rushing things to start)>>83989872Literally me he's so fucking real for that
>>83989898yeah its gay and cringe. hating a religion to such a gay and cringe point is, in fact, gay and cringe >Aren't you learning German doe? That's progressthats not life progress, thats just something to do. its like saying reading fiction or consuming manga is life progress>Pointless hypothetical since you aren't competing in anythingi was gonna compete in a cosplay comp actually and i wanted to lose weight so im not fat in photos>Literally me he's so fucking real for thati love mens gymbro tism
>>83990024Depends, if it doesn't manifest into a personality or belief system I don't mind it.>not life progressCould be useful getting work abroad if you're serious with it. Even still, if you're hung up on not making life progress can't you just start making it?>cosplay compFair reason to wanna rush weight loss ig, but I still wouldn't fuck up my own nutrition for something like that. On cosplay I wanna cosplay Toguro from YYH next time I'm at a con, getting his hair and longass green coat down will probably be the hard part
>>83990133it is their personality already>Even still, if you're hung up on not making life progress can't you just start making it?its not like im hung up on it really, im just stating that. >On cosplay I wanna cosplay Toguro from YYH next time I'm at a conhave you been to a con before? you should do it, cosplaying is fun as fuck. just make sure to get a wig and not fry your hair by dying it. green coat shouldn't be hard to find or make, you can find cheap bits of material to use
>>83990241I'm talking anti-relgion sentiment in general not satanists>just stating that.Fair>have you been to a con before?Three times now, yeah. I'll keep in mind the stuff about the coat, who are you gonna cosplay? Nights.
>>83988946Things being hard is part of what makes them worth pursuing. It's sunk-cost, but in a way that can actually be beneficial(like exercise in your case). Would the view on top of a mountain be as great as it is if you didn't struggle to get there?
>>83990279ah, ok.how are you getting money for cons? those things are expensive. i usually spend like, $200-$600 per con>who are you gonna cosplay?i wanna do gloomy bear super sonico or jun aikawa from zaregoto (specifically from book 3) but i might scrap it due to the cons new cosplay comp rulesgoodnight, sleep well anon>>83990713for me, i just don't like struggles. a small achievement (something easy) and a big achievement (something i struggled for) are practically on the same level, so the view is the same. but im just someone who doesnt like hardships, suffering, or struggles
>>83990757I see. I guess it makes sense, but at the very least if you get in shape then it's not hard to maintain it so long as you don't eat too much. You'll have a lot less aches and pains throughout your life like that too.
>>83990817hopefully. im really hoping the weight loss takes pressure of my back at least. i shall see. hopefully maintaining weight isnt hard either... and that i dont gain it all back super quickly
>>83990868It should definitely help with that, but also you're already sitting properly, right? That can also be a problem and as long as you have some discipline then you should be fine. You can weigh yourself regularly to make sure you're not having it sneak up on you so you can just like 5lbs sooner instead of needing to lose like 30lbs later.
>>83990909nope, i got my back hunched as im typing this. sitting up straight is hard to train, probably need a back brace for that.might be a good to do that, as long as im cured of an eating disorder, cause if i get obsessed with weight again itd be pretty bad
>>83990978Do you have a good chair and a desk? I mean at that point you'd be better off switching from a laptop to a desktop and enjoying a better online experience. Also at least if you lose plenty of weight with exercise then your solution for losing that extra bit of weight would be something far less damaging to your body. Just have an ideal weight range in mind that's not pushing it.
>>83991107i dont, i dont have room for them in my room. otherwise i definitely would. ive always wanted to, considered getting a loft bed but its really expensive.also the ideal is 70kgs. not much interest in going lower. judging from what i looked like at 76kgs.also, hows your mom doing? any better today?
>>83991179I can relate on the lack of room space. My closet is where my desk is and it had to have its doors removed just for that. I don't keep my clothes in this room either. Also I see, I see. I'm surprised you'd want to hear more about that, the short answer is: nope. We plan to get her back into the hospital if she doesn't show any signs of getting better later today.How about you? How goes the gym?
>>83991203where do you keep your clothes then? its not a bad idea, but im weird about having my clothes out of my room otherwide i would follow suit>We plan to get her back into the hospital if she doesn't show any signs of getting better later today.ah, thats not good. she just got home too. but theres not much you can really do about it. with her condition itd probably be best if she stayed in, even if she wants to be home. how bad is it getting?>How about you? How goes the gym? im tired and i had stuff to do today, ive been over at a relatives a lot because she had a baby. the baby is so damn cute, cutest ive ever seen. gyms going ok, i did 25kms biking today with only 2 rests. i couldve probably done more but its not a great idea. did 0.3kms of running too which isnt much but running kills my back. and i did maybe 3kms walking. the first (and only other) time i got 20kms biking i had to take 3 breaks, so im improving a lot.how about you, outside of your moms stuff?
>>83991328My clothes are in a wardrobe out in the living room, pretty much. It makes things awkward if there are any guests over and I didn't go to bed with a shirt already placed on my bed.Honestly, I think part of the problem for her decline in her condition is the shit she'd had to go through because of her surgeon. There are some measures that should've already been taken for her but he never issued them and it seems like she's gotten another infection because of it.>how bad is it getting?She kept trying to get me to talk to my sister about putting her in hospice.Babies really do lighten things up and are adorable. You wouldn't think so if you only ever just saw them through a screen but in real life my niece just switches something in my head -- she loves me waving my fingers around or doing little finger puppets too. I'm surprised you're running though, biking would just be easier in general, wouldn't it? Also is the back pain from muscle pain or the joints? If it's muscle pain then you'll overcome it in no time.>how about you, outside of your moms stuff?Mosquitos keep trying to take over all of my cultures out in the garage. Their larvae were nuked by me once before and now they shall experience the great reverse flood. Otherwise, things have just been busy and depressing outside of stuff with my niece.
>>83991463the excuse is, you live in that house so you can walk around without a shirt if you want :]>There are some measures that should've already been taken for her but he never issued them and it seems like she's gotten another infection because of it.thats something you could totally sue for, as a hospital it's their job to make sure their patients dont have future issues. if shes got another infection due to negligence, well, yeah>She kept trying to get me to talk to my sister about putting her in hospiceits not the worst idea, but those places are pretty abusive to the elderly.maybe not for you, but babies are still cute through the screen to me. not as cute as my niece tho, shes just too adorable. no other baby compares in my eyes. >biking would just be easier in general, wouldn't it?it is, kinda, but since theres no place to rest my back, it kinda sucks. with running im forced to be straight which is nice.also, its both joints and muscles. my back isnt built for this.>Their larvae were nuked by me once before and now they shall experience the great reverse floodreverse flood? what're you gonna do to these mosquitoes?>spoileri really hope things turn around at least a bit for you soon, anon
>>83991650Yeah, but I don't wanna be shirtless around people -- let alone be around people at all B^). I prefer to seclude myself in my room if I can.Also yeah, I think the surgeon's potential incompetence might warrant it but we're not in a good place to start filing anything. I do want to see if we can get someone else to work on her though. The problem is that her cancer drugs have to be stopped for any kind of surgery because they hinder healing, but when she stopped them the cancer spread again so it's a double edged sword.>its not the worst idea, but those places are pretty abusive to the elderly.You know what hospice is, right? It'd be kind of shitty to abuse someone who's going there purely to die more comfortably. My experiences with hospice were basically coming to see my grandma or grandpa but they were so drugged up they were just sleeping all day.You'd probably get a kick out of my niece, including the fact that she loves to kick water bottles and she can't even crawl yet. She may contend for the cutest baby in your eyes yet. Also she likes to talk back at the TV, although apparently I did something like that around her age too(and threw my toys at the TV when evil characters came on).Well your back will be better able to once those muscles set in -- if you don't have muscles strong enough to support your back then how can you expect them to hold up some honkers and not give you joint pain? The joints have to take all of that force by being pinched on one end otherwise.>reverse flood? what're you gonna do to these mosquitoes?They shall be cast out onto the driveway to die in the sun.>i really hope things turn around at least a bit for you soon, anonWell thank you, hopefully they do. I am trying to get a few things done to help make things better. Time will tell though.
>>83991858fair enough lmao.it sounds like itd be best to just not perform surgery on her again and keep her on the cancer meds for now.>You know what hospice is, right?i do, i just assume theyd abuse the elderly too. any place with easy access to people that can be abused, will do it, in my head>You'd probably get a kick out of my niece, including the fact that she loves to kick water bottles and she can't even crawl yet.she sounds like my neice whos really good at leg power too. just loves to kick everything. and rip hair. shes gonna walk before she crawls, i swear>Also she likes to talk back at the TV, although apparently I did something like that around her age tooshes gonna end up being a mini you and making you sister and her husband very jealous, it seems :)>not give you joint pain?brute strength, ill make it work (joking)>They shall be cast out onto the driveway to die in the sun.good>I am trying to get a few things done to help make things bettermore experiments?
watching how i met your mother, my crush really likes this show, cause he likes those normie tv shows, god. i could watch this if i had a hot german accent in my ear but i cannot watch this otherwise, its pretty unfunny
>>83990757I spend money on the ticket and that's it lmfao, I leave them all empty handed since I'm broke. Still worth it tho since I'm always with friends.>cosplaysNo opinion, first time hearing of either.
>>83992176Yeah, that'd be ideal but it really seems like she needs more surgery to correct for things. It may be possible to do something without surgery, I'm gonna talk to my sister about that when I wake up.Also, that is true. I imagine for hospice it'd mostly just attract the people who want to be angels of death and that they'd just up morphine doses or something. At least in that case it's for people waiting to die and not people who could might make it in a hospital.She sounds just like my niece to the letter it seems B^), also mini me was a true terror as a baby and oddly independent. It'd probably be better if she was more normal, although I did joke that she inherited the tomboy gene from my sister.Brute strength or a good chair B^). Gonna see if I can seed the isopods in other cultures before I do that too. I've propagated the amphipods to more than a few now, so hopefully they'll take to it too.>more experiments?I do have one, yeah. I got the idea whilst nuking the mosquitos. They handled bleach, CO2(baking soda + vinegar added to the water to make a blanket of the stuff) and a whole avalanche of sawdust. In the end the only thing that killed them in the 10g was a thick covering of perlite over the water. It gave me quite a few ideas. I've also been working on the math thing and I have that almost done. For now I head to bed.
>>83992236thats a little depressing. tho tbf i have no friends to go with so im probably drowning my sorrows with purchases>No opinion, first time hearing of eitherread zaregoto :(>>83992354>It may be possible to do something without surgeryhopefully, what ideas do you have for that?>also mini me was a true terror as a baby and oddly independentisnt that pretty common with children with aspergers tho?good luck with your experiments, anon, but im really curious about the math thing, if you wanna share it next thread. goodnight, and sleep well :)
on another note i want more male nsfw figs but most good ones are $500+, the others are shotas and futanaris. theres one shota i really like tho
like this ones tummy sculpt is insanely good, his design is good in general but im just not a fan of shota
>>83992614this ones ok and hes not really a shota
hes ok but hes not, idk, twinky enough
>>83992583I'd only consider going alone if I had crazy money to burn, but even then I'd prefer to order otaku stuff online for the convenience. Cons are mostly fun to me for socializing. I'd kill for a YYH box set in english tho...>read zaregoto :(I got sidetracked and lost interest, I'll get past page 90 sometime
>>83992705maybe when you get that job you can do that sorta stuff. do they have english yyh boxsets? wait, for manga or anime? both are equally expensive
>>83992741If I had to choose one I'd pick manga since it's much more tangible being able to read in your hands, tho there might be stuff like clean vocal tracks I could rip off the blu-ray discs so it depends. I was referring to the box set of manga in this case.>both are equally expensiveWhich is dumb and annoying I'd 100% have to import from the states or europe if I want anything
>>83992778does yyh even have a manga box set you can buy? never seen it before. at least in english >Which is dumb and annoying I'd 100% have to import from the states or europe if I want anythingthere are canadian stores for manga and anime goods lmao. youd be fine. you can also buy secondhand and all on ebay or whatever
>>83992202it got more enjoyable in my head when i imagined cuddling up to him to watch it and his other normie tv shows even if i dont like them. hhh
>>83992833There isn't after looking it up, you can buy the full collection only through individual purchase lame>canadian stores for manga and anime goods lmaoI will look into this>>83992856I now miss having this fuck my fagcel life
>>83992925it looks pretty expensive too cause i saw people charging like insane amounts for single volumes. very lame. box sets are king>I will look into thisa good start is uhh hobbybeecanada for figures at least afaik, see them advertised on mfc all the time>I now miss having this fuck my fagcel lifeat least you got it once, be happy about that. i can probably only dream, unless he comes back
fuck i really need to make a dentist appointment tomorrow i wanna get my teeth fixed bad
>>83992942OK I get figures now this would be pretty cool to have actually thanks for the link>at least you got it once, be happy about thatIt ruined me women will never compare to him. Once, when summer break ended and we came back to high school I was greeted by him glomping me into a corner and hugging on me. I need to kill myself.
>>83992998how badd are they?
>>83993024you didnt "get" them before? so unfortunate. imo i like this one better>I was greeted by him glomping me into a corner and hugging on me.i am incredibly jealousanyways are you sure youre not gay? are you really sure you didnt have a chance with this guy? i feel like you did, and you're coping about it. no matter what you say. it kinda even depresses me that you didnt get with him.
>>83993053my teeth are beginning to overcrowd at the front as my jaw isnt wide enough to take the wisdom teeth whatsoever. i also have 2 adult teeth stuck in my upper jaw that need removing. theyre pretty bad, i wanna get invisalign to refuckulate my teeth
>>83993067It's my first time watching any anime in a long while and the idea of owning figurines was floated to me recently, so it makes sense. Link for the figure?>anyways are you sure youre not gay?Pretty certain.>are you really sure you didnt have a chance with this guy?Also certain, but it's for the best.>copingNot really, I'd never want a boyfriend anyway. There's something more pure in a deep friendship with homerotic undertones that'd be lost in an defined romantic relationship. That, and he's not gay.
>>83993176>was floated to me recentlyby me?>Link for the figure?i could only find it on amiamihttps://www.amiami.com/eng/search/list/?s_keywords=4934054058662&utm_source=mfc&utm_medium=paid_other&utm_campaign=stock_updatesmaybe a different store local to you could have it. its pretty pricey cause its a proper scale figure and not an action doll or prize figure>Not really, I'd never want a boyfriend anywaynow that sounds like a lie. youd probably love to have him all to yourself lol>There's something more pure in a deep friendship with homerotic undertones that'd be lost in an defined romantic relationship.i can definitely agree with this, but, ah, you know. if you want something its fine to want it. if that makes sense>That, and he's not gay.he sounds gay
i think i gotta sleep now, my migraine is terrible today. i hope i get to see him in my dreams
