is anyone else so schizo and neurotic to the point where they forget how to perform basic motor functions like swallowing or breathing, i'm manually breathing most of the time and i'm always nearly choking myself to death whenever i eat because i'm too hyperaware of my body, how the fuck do i fix this?
I wish I could help you, I have no idea how though.t. schizo that suspects he actually may not be one.
>>84003021i'm sure there's some ancient chinese wisdom that helps with this
>>84003141i guess i'll just go on suffering thenalso why do you think you're not schizo
>>84003734i don't know is there a a holistic chinese medicine that cures anxiety and schizophrenic delusions? they probably just killed those people back then
>>84003735Because the symptoms for schizophrenia don't exactly match the mental illnesses I enjoy. For one I don't experience auditory or visual hallucinations.
>>84004378for a long time i kept telling myself i was just larping being schizophrenic but i actually have constant paranoid thoughts like thinking everyone's out to get me, that i'm already dead and my brain in its last seconds is hallucinating me alive etc, then i realized normal people don't have thoughts like that everyday, so ount yourself lucky
>>84004425I do count myself lucky, that sounds like living in a nightmare. Thinking of feeling like I'm already dead I can deal with, the constant paranoid thoughts? I don't think so. Has it ever gotten better for you?
>>84004448well it's actually getting worse since i'm aging, and i'm not a diagnosed schizophrenic or anything, but i have a suspicion that i probably inherited it from my family, since my grandma also has schizophrenia, it would not be out of the question. some people are born fucked. i hope it doesn't get to a point where i have to take meds or anything since i can manage wih these thoughts pretty well, but they cause me a lot of ambiental stress
>>84004463Fuck I feel sorry for you... And your grandma. How's she holding up?Also. Have you tried meditation? It helped me with my own paranoia and my bad temper, maybe it will make your own paranoia dull off a bit.
very relay table. i forgot how to swallow the last time i was hospitalized and a nurse had to tell me im swallowing wrong. therapy in a few days im worried ill be diagnosed with schizosomething. wish you luck
>>84004498as a kid i was scared of my grandma and as i grew up i came to be irked by her. i don't visit her often, so she often calls me and goes on these long tirades spouting absolute schizophrenic gibberish about nothing, she has a delusion about me in particular where she thinks i'm some sort of archangel, shit's fucking annoying but she's my grandma so i endure it. she would often have meltdowns and fight my parents in front of me, grope me etc, i came to hate schizophrenics because of her.>Have you tried meditationi have but i haven't been successful, i'm never in the right headspace for it>>84004598i think at this rate i'll also get hospitalized, i can't get myself to eat anything but mush now, like some sort of invalid
>>84004692She'd go on tirades at you, has meltdowns and gropes you... That really must take a toll on you, sorry anon.>i have but i haven't been successful, i'm never in the right headspace for itIf you focus on just breathing before going to sleep it should be doable, try it.
>>84004743of course as a kid i was none the wiser and thought this was how every kid lived, then i grew up and realized living in a nuthouse is very likely a big part of the reason why i'm so dysfunctional now. how can people be so apathetic and cruel to their children>If you focus on just breathing before going to sleep it should be doable, try it.i'm actually more stressed when i go to bed because i am constantly thinking that i will die in my sleep there's no way out
>>84004778Yeah, I can imagine growing up in a disfunctional house must have taken a heavy toll on your mental health. Sorry.Mh, maybe you could try meditation after you wake up? I wish I could do more to help you, anon.I'm going to bed. Have a pleasant rest of the day or night.
>>84004810i want to try harder to meditate. the problem is probably that i didn't push myself hard enough. thanks for engaging anon, it was nice to talki'm going to sleep too, i am assuming you're a fellow euranon? good night
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>>84003021Impossible, I never developed basic motor functions.
