Im 25, shitty third world country, tried higher education for years, and i just can't do it, its too boring, i love reading and investigate subjects in my own, but nothing works in regard to college or university, the task is too damn big and the reward is little to none, the world is falling apart and my dreams go with it, dreams that where never mine probably.Understanding that, I will never gradute university, I'm not cut for it, why to learn stupid side essays on politics when i wanted to write in old spanish and to make great narratives? Why to learn about ethics of art when i wanted to learn about manga and comic books?Im too impatient, too old, too rusty, most kids my age have a roof over their head, I've been living alone since 20 and have worked all sort of bad jobs that made me much more akin to bukowski in terms of philosophy of life.For what its worth I have my interests writing, drawing a little, lifting, and martial arts (which i could teach).I want to learn and trade and stick to it, will be talking to local tradesman to see if help is needed, no need for pay, just to learn is enough.I'm in a relationship with someone i love for 4 years now, I've loved her more with time, and now undertand the fear of losing someone, but sometimes i think of other women (feeling very guilty about it)Anyway, what did you do to cope with the fact that college or the carrer you dreamed of wasn't for you, and that not everyone is made for it?
what kind of stuff do you draw
>>84006611part of growing up is letting all your hopes and dreams die one by one. god speed fellow big bossnon
>>84006642Sometimes i draw sequences, like comic style sequences, but I'm much more inclined to writing nowadays, english is not my first language, wish it was, and same as my native tongue i have the certainty that people wouldn't appreciate it enough.
>>84006690what have you drawn? im not very good at drawing but ive done a lot of photography i am proud of
>>84006611I have a screenwriting BA and then got an IT degree. Never had the balls or drive to move to LA and pursue it seriously. Now I just want to get a good higher level IT position. I feel like I have very little creativity anymore other than writing music where as before I thought I really had something to say or express. But I really don't have anything special to express in narrative form. I don't even really like watching movies anymore and they make fewer good movies than ever before. The peak of opportunities and money was the 90s, that era is over. And in IT the time of sysadmins is over with more and more MSPs and cloud products and subscriptions stripping positions and stability away. Outsourcing failed and everybody despises working with indian msps and importing indians also kills companies as people despise working with them. All I want at this point is enough money to buy a house and build a workshop for wood/metal/plastic/leather/textile projects, and homeschool some kids in a co-op with other parents who hate state indoctrination facilities. You also begin to see that most successful people are just products of nepotism or patronage/benefactors/handlers especially in entertainment. Or just dei in publishing and selling out to common propagandistic tropes.
