I feel so fucked in every way that I just want to shut down. It is not fun when all around you is chaos and disorientating heights and the only path of salvation is one of quiet and methodical contemplation but that can not happen when surrounded by distractions and the world is full of so many toys. I need a path that will cleanse me but not leave me feeling always alone and bored but still and most important deliver me from this madness. No more disappointment. No more compromises. No more despair.
