I'm getting so exhausted going back to education as a soon 40yo trying to worry about getting even a shit job, choosing a valid education that is not complete shit that will actually net me a job, I'm exhausted tired, I don't give a fuck really I just wanna rest and go to sleep and neetI'm tired of being in performance mode and anxiety just always worrying about fixing the next problem that crops up in my lifeI don't care
You're doing great anon. Self-improvement after a long period of stagnation is one of the hardest things to get going. It's extra hard at first, no doubt you want to quit, but don't quit! It'll start getting easier and easier before you know it. You've come far already, don't give up now. Just focus only on the next thing in front of you, just keep putting one foot in front of the other, sometimes the big picture can be overwhelming or disheartening so just make it small. Manageable. You can do it. Just keep going. Don't think about it, just keep going. Before you know it you'll be amazed at what you've accomplished.
>>84019308I have for some time now nothing of value happening yet though and I'm burning outTired of putting on a fake facade and larping every day I don't careBut yeah things have been worseTired..
>>84019353Treat yourself to some caffiene or try to get a 'script for adhd meds. Also, avoid the nay-sayers and negative nancies. Sadly like 90% of the human race is a buncha bucket-crab losers. They see someone trying to elevate themselves and feeling threatened by another's improvement they will try to bring you down. It's sad how much family is often in this category, but trust me you are better off without any of these people in your life. At the very least you should keep your distance if you can't break ties completely. If you can get an adhd script it'll get a lot easier, just don't abuse it and schedule regular sleep.
