It's just as soulless and ends in numb genitals no you don't.

>>84083290
you don't wish this since female mind was not made to coom to male bodies outside of very specific context, 99% of time they are essentially asesxual and if they are cooming it's driven by random social influences than anything strong biologically

>>84083317
It is less soulless than being a man

>>84083345
>female mind was not made to coom
You have never met a femcoomer

>>84083452
they will never have the drive or energy of a male
they can orgasm multiple times, males ejaculate once, the male high is thousandfold superior to the little dopamine tick girls get
girly "horny" is just guys average day to day

>>84083452
>never met a femcoomer
it's a larp or they have abuse history or some bs, normal woman are essentially asexual outside of few rare circumstances

>>84083290
No you don't. It's a lot easier for men to cum than for a woman to cum

>>84083345
>99% of time they are essentially asesxual
utter nonsense.
>>84083479
>it's a larp or they have abuse history or some bs
More utter nonsense.
>>84083488
>It's a lot easier for men to cum than for a woman to cum
Skill issue for the most part.

t. goonette

>>84083290
same, i think i might go insane

>>84083488
But women have so many more fun toys than guys.

>>84083559
You can use vibrators on your dick too, anon.

>>84083488
>It's a lot easier for men to cum than for a woman to cum
So what? Cumming as a male is a chore

>>84083552
>t. goonette
God I wish this were me

>>84083553
How do you even cope?

>>84083290
Breasts always look so beautiful

Femcels are either goonette cum brains or completely asexual

>>84083290
it's incredible how deluded men are about female bodies and their physiology. i am a woman and i think i've masturbated less than 5 times in the last 10 years. the only women who masturbate at the same rate as men do were severely abused as children or have some hormonal imbalance that also gives them ovarian cysts and facial hair. also it doesn't feel good at all

>>84085061
This sounds even better

>>84085061
You have low E if you aren't becoming a coombrain during ovulation.

No surprise this board is full of low T & E incels.

>>84085061
>ovarian cysts
That's not true, I was caused with PCOS and rarely masturbate or feel libido. Even before birth control
Only for a brief time like when I was 12 to 15 I was very horny but I grew out of it

>>84085061
only female pervert / coomer i knew ya, ovarian cyst and pcos
>>84085315
you arent all women

>>84085335
Are you retarded? You said all women with pcos have high libido and are coomers and I said that's not true

>>84085365
>you said all women with pcos have high libido and are coomers
i actually did not say that at all or even imply that

>>84083552
tranny
>>84085061
actual female

>>84084984
Female sexuality seems like it varies a lot more than male

>>84085061
>i am a woman and i think i've masturbated less than 5 times in the last 10 years.
So you're on one end of the extreme and not the other end. Femcoomers exist and I desperately wish that I were one

>>84085315
well obviously it's not going to apply to everyone but i'm just going off what i've seen people say about their own experiences on the internet. in any case, a woman with high t is more likely to be a horndog than a woman with normal hormone levels

>>84085466
>Femcoomers exist and I desperately wish that I were one
uh well sure maybe they exist but i assure you even if they truly did they would not be anywhere near normal porn addicted male coomers' level. why do you never see insane female exhibitionists who do it for the love of the game and not for a porno like exhibitonist men? why are there no women who have insane goonercave setups with 20 monitors blasting gay porn and solo male porn videos at all time? women have no incentive to do any of this. it will never feel as good for us as it does for you and the way our brains are wired pretty much makes it impossible to happen. the average woman flicks her bean to underwhelming badly written chicklit erotica

>>84085501
>why are there no women who have insane goonercave setups
I've met women IRL with insane sex toy collections
>it will never feel as good for us as it does for you
For a lot of women this is true but there are enough femcoomers out there that this doesn't seem true in all cases
At the high end being a femcoomer is way better than being a malecoomer

File: 1771717882333.mp4 (1.05 MB, 1280x720)

1.05 MB MP4

femgooners are on a whole different level

>>84085662
>I've met women IRL with insane sex toy collections
for every woman with an insane sex toy collection there are 10 gay dudes with an even bigger one
>At the high end being a femcoomer is way better than being a malecoomer
i don't buy it. you're probably one of those people who think women have ''mind shattering full body orgasms''. those are not a real thing and only exist in porn and retarded pop sexology/science. they are also touted by coomer brained trannies who don't know anything about females

>>84085693
this is interesting. for sure.

>>84083290
Why? As a femcoomer myself, i don't see anything special about it. If anything from the videos and porn i saw, i would say having a dick and stroking it must feels amazing. I would love know what that feels like.

>>84085750
what do you goon to ? erotic novels ?
will you be my fembot gooner gf and we goon together on vrchat.

File: femcel goonette.png (66 KB, 754x585)

66 KB PNG

>>84083290
Samee I wanna shlick shlick shlick

>>84085766
yeah same, born to shlick forced to stroke. at least i kinda feel feminine pleasure since i started hrt

>>84085750
A penis head is basically a large clit so imagine your clit is at the end of a shaft and the shaft also feels pleasurable but not as much as the head

>>84083290
i wish I had a gf with tits like that

>>84085777
''feminine pleasure'' lel typical braindead delusional tranny you will never be one of us

File: AggravatingFewSunbear.webm (3.15 MB, 1080x1798)

3.15 MB WEBM

It's kinda crazy men are better suited for getting pleasure from being fucked. The prostate mogs the gpsot and even clit

>>84085907
giwtwm
i need to be turned into a useless fuck doll

>>84085917
Head over to the anal thread on /d/ and turn yourself into a good buttslut

>>84085917
rape meat kys

>>84085704
>10 gay dudes
Why do they have to be gay?
>i don't buy it. you're probably one of those people who think women have ''mind shattering full body orgasms''
I don't buy the idea that every woman out there who claims to have a high sex drive or experience these things is larping

>>84085750
>Why? As a femcoomer myself, i don't see anything special about it.
It just seems better overall compared to being a moid

>>84085766
Too bad we can't so how do we cope?

>>84085980
>I don't buy the idea that every woman out there who claims to have a high sex drive or experience these things is larping
i assure you 90% of the people claiming those things are men/trannies larping. most often, when you see someone who is supposedly a woman coming on reddit to talk about her intense mind bending full body earth shattering orgasms that lasted 10 minutes... it's a man writing with one hand. women can discern this stuff but since you're a sex obsessed man you don't even realize how retarded and fake those stories sound

>>84085996
>i assure you 90% of the people claiming those things are men/trannies larping
Even if this were true, what about the other 10%?
Not going to generalize all women as femcoomers but they exist outside of reddit larping and I wish I were one

>>84086070
the other 10% are the ones i mentioned who probably have some severe mental illnes from childhood abuse or have fucked up hormones. these women very likely aren't bombshell anime girls like your op pic and are probably more likely to be ugly unhygienic lardasses. since you're agp you obviously don't want that. i'm not counting women who make porn by the way because they're doing it for the money

>>84085759
>what do you goon to?
Variety, but yaoi and futa on male/female is a fan favourite for sure. I mean don't get me wrong i don't think that i'm a lesbian, but something about futa just hits well, cuz it's like, it's just another girl, but then she lifts her skirt and has a huge cock to obliterate you with... yeah idk it just scratches a good itch. Also anything Danganronpa goes. Gotta say erotic novels do literally nothing for me, that shit is whack. I know that literature pilled girls goon to some bullshit about anthropomorphic farm animals or whatever, fuck that. If i wanna goon to something like that, it's called Furry porn and it doesn't disguise itself as real literature, and most importantly it's not plastered in an actual public library.

Sorry not looking to be anyones gf right now, i would love to have a boyfriend but IRL and one whom my mental illness doesn't reject, but so far that is exactly 0 people.

>>84085778
That is a weird thing to imagine but i assume the pulling sensation isn't the same, because like imagining having a long cylinder clit and fully grabbing it with my hands is a fucking weird thought. Still it looks like it feels amazing when i see guys do it in porn.

>>84085980
Well at least your brain isn't defective, so you one up me in that department. Hope that makes you feel better ;)

>>84086224
>I want a boyfriend just not you

I would look past your mental illness but you rejected me you bitch

>>84086224
>That is a weird thing to imagine but i assume the pulling sensation isn't the same, because like imagining having a long cylinder clit and fully grabbing it with my hands is a fucking weird thought. Still it looks like it feels amazing when i see guys do it in porn.

if you google anatomical images of a penis and clit you can see how similar they are. the dicks also surrounded by skin so its like a long cylindrical clit with a mushroom head and the shaft has skin around it

>>84086224
oh this is the danganronpa schizo girl that wants to fuck her dad.

>>84086492
All of those correct except i don't want to fuck my Dad, my demented brain does throw up the thoughts, but i silence them and shove them away, because i don't want to have them, they are shameful, and i wouldn't want to do that to him. Being one kind of mentally ill is enough, i don't need to hit the second tower.

>>84086314
I guess i can sorta understand it anatomically, still dunno what it possibly feels like. Will just have to move on with curiosity and imagination i guess.

>>84086259
I meant it as in i want a boyfriend in theory, but only IRL, and IRL i can't have one, because mentally ill, so i'm fucked gg. I promise this isn't about your jawline mr. gigachad.

>>84086562
ok so be my vrchat egf you dumb bitch

>>84086573
And how long will it last? How long until you call another girl your dumb bitch and i will just be "some bitch i used to e-date". I couldn't handle such heartbreak...

>>84086646
it will last as long as you continue to be online

>>84085061
>i've masturbated less than 5 times in the last 10 years
Okay I don't masturbate as often as men but this is a (You) problem.

>>84086672
idk why those types of asexual women try to project their asexual behavior on all women

>>84086672
>>84086683
two trannies coping at actual female sexuality

>>84086688
im sorry youre asexual and dont like it but most women masturbate at least 1-3 times a month

>>84086707
ok but are you going to be my e-gf or not, im not going to cheat on you or leave you

>>84086688
>>84085383
>only women who are sick are actual women
>women who love their sexuality must be trannies
anon, with that attitude you'll be a permaincel.
>>84083769
>God I wish this were me
The biggest hurdle was finding a man to match me. It's not as easy as it sounds.

>>84086672
>>84086707
i'm not asexual. i get horny like anyone else. the difference is i do not feel the need to masturbate to relieve myself. i suspect this is the case for a lot of women. i often get horny looking at doujins or reading smut but i never at any point decide to masturbate to it. the compulsion to masturbate is just not as strong in most women

>>84086787
That seems odd, or maybe you like feeling horny more than you like masturbating. Women dont have the same sex drive as men but they still masturbate once in a while

>>84086787
Do you fantasize about anal sex ever?

>>84086732
umm hello ? wheres my gf

>>84083290
this is the path to trannydom anon. do NOT head down there.

Atleast you guys get to shoot loads
>>84085061
>also it doesn't feel good at all
Not true at all lmao you're doing something wrong

>>84083452
>You have never met a femcoomer
clearly neither have you

>>84086887
lmao women cant jizz everywhere hahhahaha

Take HRT if you want to look more like a femgooner :3

>>84086750
>The biggest hurdle was finding a man to match me.
I would just masturbate I don't care about a partner

>>84086873
I'd troon out if it actually turned me into a woman but it doesn't

>>84086887
>Atleast you guys get to shoot loads
It's not really that great

>>84087010
>clearly neither have you
Wrong

>>84086863
kek you got cucked by a mentally ill foid who wants to fuck her dad

>>84083769
>How do you even cope?
goon to faggy shit to keep my agp in check

>>84087052
>I would just masturbate I don't care about a partner
You're clearly not a woman.
Goonette is having a sex drive comparable to a man in most aspects. I masturbate twice a day but if I don't get sex for more than a week I make the unfucked incels look well-socialized and civilized comparatively.
Luckily, I found a man who gets it and life has gotten really good. We even have children.
Dr. said I'd be less horny if I have a kid. Well, two children later there is still no change. Glad we have children but I'm also glad his libido didn't drop.

>>84086818
why would a woman fantasize about anal sex? all forms of sodomy are disgusting sexual deviancy. imagine being obsessed with a shithole

>>84087191
womens buttholes are extremely pretty though

>>84087052
>I'd troon out if it actually turned me into a woman but it doesn't
I sometimes joke with my bf that i'm a cis dude who's had srs and goes by she/her pronouns. Because that's basically what I am.
Trooning doesn't make you a woman, but it's hot nonetheless, if you're into men.
>>84087181
nta
srs and being with a man has kinda cured me.
>>84087189
giwtwm

>>84087181
Doesn't that just make it worse?

>>84087189
>You're clearly not a woman.
I wouldn't have to wish I were if I was.
>Goonette is having a sex drive comparable to a man in most aspects.
You have a higher sex drive than me at least
>I masturbate twice a day but if I don't get sex for more than a week I make the unfucked incels look well-socialized and civilized comparatively.
Sounds like the femcoomers I've met

>>84087208
>I sometimes joke with my bf that i'm a cis dude who's had srs and goes by she/her pronouns.
Do you pass?
>giwtwm
Same

>>84087475
>Do you pass?
As a 5.5-6/10 foid if I just got out of the water at a nudist beach. Very far from hot but yeah, I pass. Slightly clocky shoulders but nobody cares IRL.
Plastic surgery has gotten really good these days, lol.
>>giwtwm
>Same
The reason I wish I were >>84087189 is because of children. I am involved in the education of my brother's children but I wish I could have mine.
Other than that, life is good but I am still a gooner. Just a different kind now, lol.
Trannies don't like me because I don't have their delusions but fags and bifags envy my bf.
I'm a weirdo. I played the troon game exclusively for the fetish.

>>84087549
>As a 5.5-6/10 foid
I'd be happy being a 6/10 femcoomer
>Other than that, life is good but I am still a gooner. Just a different kind now, lol.
A better kind, lol
>I played the troon game exclusively for the fetish.
I don't think that's viable for me. I wouldn't pass and even if I could I would be old as shit by the time I got everything done

>>84087475
>Doesn't that just make it worse?
better than repressing it, if i indulge a little bit i'm in control.

>>84087649
>A better kind, lol
In a way, yes. PPT is the method of srs that allows for self-lubrication. What I didn't expect is that I'd enjoy masturbation more.
If I had known this beforehand, I would've done all of this even earlier. The recovery process is really harsh tho.
>even if I could I would be old as shit by the time I got everything done
Depends on your definition of old as shit.
The whole process took about 8 yrs because I was a retard. I could've done it in under 5 if I hadn't been dragging my feet. Also, in the 2010s fewer things were known about this.
From my pov the process was over after srs (in 2019) at age 32 even though I had a light voice surgery in 2022.
As long as you're under 45 at the end of the process, it's quite fine as long as you're fully aware about what you're doing and not let yourself infested with brainworms.
Is it for everyone? Hell no!
But it does work with the correct mindset and persistence.

>>84087122
not cool anon she was supposed to be my gf but shes a bitch confirmed

>>84087686
You don't feel gross indulging in AGP?

>>84087702
>From my pov the process was over after srs (in 2019) at age 32 even though I had a light voice surgery in 2022.
Did you need to get FFS as well?
>As long as you're under 45 at the end of the process,
45 sounds way too late. At that age is when people start having serious health issues and some places don't even do SRS and FFS on people that old.
>But it does work with the correct mindset and persistence.
Don't think I have it what it takes. If I did I wouldn't be repping

>>84087916
>Did you need to get FFS as well?
Depends on your genetics. I did, but tbhon trach shave and laser did a lot more to help.
If I had a do over, I'd have started with those and then re-evaluate.
>some places don't even do SRS and FFS on people that old
What are those places?
Here (in Europe) there's fags getting srs at 60, lol. Some for troony reasons, some for the fetish (like me).
And ffs is ultimately standard plastic surgery. Plenty of celebrities (large and small) get some of that in their 50s.
How do you think so many male celebrities in particular look so good at 50 or later? The answer is estrogen and plastic surgery no matter what they claim in public.
When I went for ffs in Spain I stumbled upon a micro celebrity in his late 40s from my EU country. He's a christian militant lol, but was a customer at the tranny face clinic.
You seriously underestimate all of this.
>Don't think I have it what it takes
Fair enough.
50% of the issue is money and the other 50% is discipline.
I work in a logistics corp (management position) so money wasn't an issue. Discipline was (that's why it took longer than it should've been).
>repping
I'm not even sure I've been in repper hell.
Like, even when I was clockier I wasn't bothered by being sir'd or w/e. It was (and is) all fetish.

>>84088021
>Depends on your genetics.
My face is very masculine so passing without FFS isn't even a possibility
>Discipline was (that's why it took longer than it should've been).
Discipline and a lack of fear or shame. I've planned out how to troon but I don't think I could do it
>I'm not even sure I've been in repper hell.
You don't want to go there
>Like, even when I was clockier I wasn't bothered by being sir'd or w/e.
I would be worried for my physical safety if I were to be a tranny in public

>>84088169
>I would be worried for my physical safety if I were to be a tranny in public
This was the biggest white pill, desu.
I was scared shitless but eventually I just went YOLO and, lo and behold, found out that most people just don't give af.
As long as you don't mind being called "sir" or people trying to be polite but being confused, it really isn't that scary.
Again, I live in the chuddy part of Europe. But even here people are accustomed to weirdo faggots so there's that.
>I've planned out how to troon but I don't think I could do it
Honestly, one way to find out.
I can't empathize because, yes, I am low shame. But I can partially sympathize because I have a close friend who is closer to you. He really thought he could wait it out until it's too late. Told him he's wrong, he didn't believe me. Now at 35 he's sprinting through this to be done before 40.
"Too late" is a youth ideology thing.
There's people who get into physically intense activities at 50 these days yet 20-somethings think it's too late to self-actualize. Madness.
Yes, we're crazy (you too), but so what? Life's too short anyway.
>My face is very masculine so passing without FFS isn't even a possibility
cishons exist. I didn't believe it either until I encountered them, lol.
Lack of shame, voice and mannerisms takes you way further than the most impeccable 11/10 face.

id be ok if a foid wanted to larp as a guy and slap my face around with a 10" strapon and make me suck it

>>84088228
>Again, I live in the chuddy part of Europe.
Tranny derangement syndrome has gotten a lot worse in the US
>As long as you don't mind being called "sir" or people trying to be polite but being confused, it really isn't that scary.
It's pretty scary.
>Now at 35 he's sprinting through this to be done before 40.
What happened with him?
>cishons exist.
At least they're female, it's worse to be a hon

>>84088446
>Tranny derangement syndrome has gotten a lot worse in the US
I visited the US last year. It didn't seem to me.
But then again, I'm a mostly offline person. I don't take the internet or the news too seriously. I don't even have social media lol.
You are doing yourself a lot of harm by psyopping yourself into being afraid all the time. Just live, anon. For crying out loud you people are your own worst enemies.
>What happened with him?
Got left by his abusive gf (she's in jail now for violent crimes), started hrt last year and Imma accompany him for ffs this summer. My turn to make the joke: ywnbaw but you can be a foid :))
He finally came around to my mentality. He could've found love by now but hey,... at least he has me to help with sprinting.

>>84088537
>I visited the US last year. It didn't seem to me.
States are openly trying to ban HRT and make it illegal to be trans
>You are doing yourself a lot of harm by psyopping yourself into being afraid all the time.
Trooning out is something worth being afraid of doing. Not sure what the point is if I'm not going to be a femcoomer by the end of it
>started hrt last year and Imma accompany him for ffs this summer.
FFS a year after HRT? That's really fast

>>84088678
>That's really fast
Well, he's 35 in a month. If he wants to be over with before 40, it is what it is.
Started prog cycling and ideally he starts dating this summer. Next year the first srs consult.
>States are openly trying to ban HRT
For minors.
You are not a minor. And HRT itself is compounds that have been around for 100+ years. Nobody can take away DiY, stop being such a fucking panicard.
There are more troons in a single county in Brazil than all of North America combined. This ain't going away, anon.
>and make it illegal to be trans
Nigga, there be troons in Islamist shitholes and you think a bathroom law is "making it illegal to be trans"? Like, for real?
My chuddy country didn't let me change my gender marker on the paperwork even after srs for several years. You know what I did? Lived my life. Nobody cared.
I wanted what I wanted, and worked for it instead of waiting for approval from normalfags.
I had to pay bribes to endos in 2011 and lie on forms. Now trannies complain it's too hard to go to PP and get informed consent or just DiY because all of the relevant information is free of charge everywhere. Sheesh!
>Not sure what the point is if I'm not going to be a femcoomer by the end of it
Well, I'm as close to that as tech allows it.
By the time you reach there, tech might improve further.
Like in 2011 (when I started), the best option was Suporn lottery. By the time I got to the srs part, PPT had appeared (self-lubrication, a lot fewer complications and the possibility to orgasm from penetration).
What you're lacking is not the technical possibility, but the mindset for it.
You want it but instead of grabbing it you keep on finding excuses not to even try. Unironically what you need is a boyfriend who is into forcefem.

>>84083290
You people are pathologically insane

>>84088767
>Well, he's 35 in a month. If he wants to be over with before 40, it is what it is.
Well, I hope him (her) the best and hope I can do the same
>You want it but instead of grabbing it you keep on finding excuses not to even try.
I've thought about it a lot. If I can convince myself I'd actually get FFS and pass maybe I'd troon out, but I don't think that's happening.

>>84088870
>and pass
protip: leave that towards the end and it will happen naturally as you progress.
Be more comfortable with everything else. Fagmode/twinkhon whenever you can and work on your mind.
Again, I did it for the fetish. The goal was to be with men and be a femcoomer. "Passing" was very low on priorities list. I can't even tell you the exact moment when it started happening.
Normalfags don't actually clcok trannies. They clock insecurity. Not giving af about what normalfags believe is legit liberation.
I stayed away (and mostly still do) from most tranny spaces as well. Those have a different set of brainworms that promote panic, fear and a shut-in lifestyle. That's ALSO bad.
Life literally is too short. Ain't nobody got time to waste on the opinions of other fags.
>I hope him (her) the best
He'll be fine. I haven't seen him with such light in his eyes in over a decade. I think I was still functioning as a straight man last time that happened.
I promised I'll she/her him once he gets a bf. He's slowly moving in the right direction and I'm very happy for him.

>>84087916
>You don't feel gross indulging in AGP?
no....i used to. as long i keep myself in control and don't slip i'll survvive

>>84088929
>Again, I did it for the fetish.
I can't tell how much of it is AGP and if any of it is unironic dysphoria.
>The goal was to be with men and be a femcoomer. "Passing" was very low on priorities list.
I'm AGP and passing as a troon would just be a cope for not being a femcoomer
>Not giving af about what normalfags believe is legit liberation.
I care about my health and safety

>>84089192
>I can't tell how much of it is AGP and if any of it is unironic dysphoria.
I have no idea how much each of it was in my case either. I do know I was/am MEF tho. Hence the femcoomer goal.
Idk if by being MEF I provoked dysphoria or it was always there. Tbhon it doesn't even matter at the end of the day.
>passing as a troon would just be a cope for not being a femcoomer
Hence why I suggest(ed) to leave passing lower on the priorities list and focus on the femcoomer.
Learn from my mistake. I should've gotten srs earlier (and reach femcoomer status).
>I care about my health and safety
Yawwwn. You risk your health and safety every single day by eating shit-tier food (nearly all of the food in the US is shit-tier) or simply breathing.
You can't live your life paralyzed in fear. I mean, you can, but don't be surprised you'll end up regretting all of it.
By the time this will be an issue for you normalfags will have moved on to the next shining object.
People trooned in the 1970s when "crossdressing" was a legal reason to be harassed. But oh no, in 2026-27 some Karen might say "ew! a tranny!" once. Bitch, please. Most of the obstacles are really in your head atp.
Heck, as a hon the biggest hurdle were ugly cisfs. Conventionally attractive cisfs and men didn't give af about me one way or the other.
But, granted, I didn't psyop myself online into always being afraid like your generation appears to literally enjoy doing.
What can I say? Good luck no matter what you choose.
There's huge hurdles in both choices. Except one has a path to at least partially work while the other one has a known end - which is John50 or permadepression.

>>84089284
>I do know I was/am MEF tho.
I am AGP. I don't want to be a failed male I just wish I were a real woman
>Bitch, please. Most of the obstacles are really in your head atp.
I've done my research, I know how to troon. Actually getting laser or getting put to sleep and having my face cut up scares the shit out of me though.

>>84086787
I mean maybe it's because i don't have the option to have sex with another man or have a boyfriend, but to me masturbating when i get horny from either looking at porn or just randomly having that part of the brain spike up while unmedicated is a pretty basic response. Being horny makes me want to masturbate, it's a pretty normal and strong compulsion, same way i feel many others feel it. I goon like an hour or two a day, sometimes more maybe. Sounds like not wanting to masturbate is just a you thing. Also to what you said, it does feel good, maybe you are just doing it wrong, or not trying stuff that would feel good?

>>84089412
>Actually getting laser or getting put to sleep and having my face cut up scares the shit out of me though.
ngmi
Now imagine I got srs too.
Joking a bit, trooning is the most malebrained thing to do.

do pov pics like that make people horny? ive always thought they look stupid

>>84086887
>Atleast you guys get to shoot loads
Makes a mess. I'd rather achieve climax without it.
Also, can't you just pee while you're Cumming? It's supposed to feel pretty good for girls. It would naturally make a mess, but then you get the full male experience

>>84089569
>I goon like an hour or two a day, sometimes more maybe
you have a hormonal imbalance, normal women don't do this
>Also to what you said, it does feel good, maybe you are just doing it wrong, or not trying stuff that would feel good?
i have fingered myself before, it's nothing more than a dull mildly painful feeling of something sliding in and out of you. also, clitorial stimulation just yields mild stinging discomfort. i'm convinced female masturbation is just a joke i'm not in on, like no way you people actually waste hours of your life playing with a hole and tiny nub that doesn't even feel like anything

>>84083559
Because they NEED the toys men just need a hand or a hole.

>>84089633
>Joking a bit, trooning is the most malebrained thing to do.
Then what is repping?

>>84089669
Makes me jealous

>>84089778
>Makes me jealous
just because of the body type or being an actual girl as is?

>>84089804
>just because of the body type or being an actual girl as is?
Both

>>84089749
>imbalance
I mean... yeah? I probably have all kinds of imbalances, i'm mentally ill on disability and take pretty heavy brain fixers, so i'm definitely not normal, but still i don't really feel weird for being horny and gooning it out when i do. Maybe the quantity but not the act itself.
>dull mildly painful feeling
Well maybe try diffirent things then. Get some toys, maybe vibrating ones, maybe penetrating ones, idk everyone is diffirent, you probably just gotta find your edge. For me for example the sensation of penetration feels great, so my toys definitely do the trick for me. Same for my ass. Obviously got a smaller one for that, but even there the sensation of sensual penetration feels amazing and sends my legs spasming. Dunno just try stuff out.
>no way you people actually waste hours of your life gooning
I waste every hour of my life. I'm on disability so i basically have all day everyday to waste, so really it doesn't matter to me if i "waste" 1 to 3 hours on gooning to porn or whatever when i feel horny. It's not like i have anything better or more productive to do.

File: these-eyes-could-be-looki(...).jpg (73 KB, 640x853)

73 KB JPG

>>84083290
This is what a femcoomer looks like.

I posted my physique on a fitness subreddit and this woman sent me some weird messages.

If you were reborn as a femcoomer, youd end up looking something like this.

*monkey paw curls*

Attractive femcoomers just get laid a lot, so they arent coomers they are just nymphos

>>84083290
Grass is always greener or something

>>84089778
>Then what is repping?
kidbrained, ig.
another joke (but not really) is that it takes balls to troon.
i see it as a joke because i didn't regard it as courageous until i met reppers.

File: Thrusting Vibrator.webm (991 KB, 540x960)

991 KB WEBM

>>84083290
Same. Even if I lived the same life I do now (which probably wouldn't happen since most of my genes are better on a girl and I'd not be 4everalone), I'd have so much choice in toys and getting to experience multiple orgasms. Then when you're bored you can just play with your boobs whenever you feel like.

I've spoken to girls who told me they cum twice in the morning before getting out of bed for work, so the discussion that it's hard for women to masturbate is such nonsense lol

>>84091359
I have to say maybe it's because as a neet hermit, masturbating is pretty like 1/4th of my day, so it's maybe the reason why i'm good at it, but yeah i also have no trouble cumming when i play with my toys. If anything gooning while medicated is an absolutely wild ride, because it almost feels like i'm spectating it from third person but also feeling it myself, and the hazy mind makes the feelings stop and then resume all at once at times. Anyway my point is, yeah i have no trouble making myself cum when i goon for like 1-3 hours when a horny haze hits or simply because i'm bored and want to pass the time. I guess some girls are just more numb, lees sensitive or just asexual, and they established that as a norm. Maybe, just a theory, i have no idea and i don't really care, and i know i'm not normal so using myself as an example is meh, but that's my 2 cents.

But as i said previously, i would love to know what gooning with a dick feels like, it looks so pleasurable in porn.

File: 1693046871352842.jpg (96 KB, 720x1026)

96 KB JPG

>>84091471
Gooning 1-3h a day is definitely above the norm. Don't you get sore from that? I've had it before where I'd rub the skin off my dick when masturbating daily for 2-3 days in a row, and I'm not even cut. Takes a few days to heal and is quite painful because you stretch the skin pulling it back to pee and stuff.
I guess the fun part about having a dick is that you get to shoot cum at the end. Other than that it's nothing special and you can only make one motion. No choice between clit/penetration/g-spot stimulation. Fucking a toy makes a mess and cleaning that with post-nut clarity is awful. You have as many nerve endings in your clit as we have in our dick, so the please is much less concentrated.
All my life I've felt that I would've been better off being born a girl due to my genetics and personality. Unfortunately my bad luck started with the 50% chance in the womb so now I'm here at 35, was a virgin until 27 and the few times I had sex were quite underwhelming. Give me a female body and toys instead.

>>84083290
What's stopping you from doing that in real life, anon?

>>84091648
Well it's also not all at once, space it out to like 2 diffirent 40min sessions if i do more than one. I was just giving an estimate.
>Sore
Yes and no. My feelings are all weirdly wired up, and i often feel some kind of discomfort from either my meds or not being on them and my mental illness spiking me, so i'm kinda used to ignoring it or not even feeling it at this point.
>Pain
Can't say gooning a lot makes it painful or something. I got a bunch of toys, the thicker dildo ones yeah i can't really hammer myself forever, the vibrating ones tho, yeah i can just go for long. I also do some butt stuff, but with smaller toys i have specifically for that purpose. Not trying to destroy my ass, but the sensation of penetration feels really good.

>>84091862
>What's stopping you from doing that in real life, anon?
Not being a woman

File: 1770863882844335.jpg (3.63 MB, 2894x4093)

3.63 MB JPG

>>84083552
>Skill issue for the most part.
I'm male and can cum in like 45 seconds some times, especially if I use a homemade fleshlight

It's not a good thing

Same, or at least be able to attain a perfect female body and keep my dick. I don't wanna risk my health with HRT just to end up looking like a shemale abomination.

>>84092622
Oh lol that makes sense. I was picturing 3h straight! Did you move onto bigger toys over time or is there a max you enjoy and never moved up? If I was a girl I'd probably experiment with so many (safe) things to put inside of me to see how it feels. Trying out a bad dragon dildo with a knot for the fullness and g-spot stimulation.
To me masturbation has come down to "oh I feel horny, gonna cum for a bit and move on with my life". Usually I edge a bit, but the novelty has worn off after mostly fapping all my life. Having sex is boring to me because pussy isn't nearly as stimulating as your own hand.

>>84094190
>risk my health with HRT
This is such a meme.
SSRIs/SNRIs are a far bigger health threat than HRT.
>attain a perfect female body and keep my dick
Futamaxxing is a desirable esthetic, granted.
Not for me, but ig why it's sought after.

>>84086750
>anon, with that attitude you'll be a permaincel.
better to be an incel than to be wrong

>>84094458
>3h straight
Yeah it would be difficult. The longest i did was probably almost 2 hours, but that was like... a lot of it was just scrolling through preopened tabs of shit to goon to and taking slower breaks without fully stopping. You know edging breaks.
>Did you move onto bigger toys
Yes, but not ridiculously big. Like those videos you see of bitches and femboys taking toys so big they could kill a horse, i'm not aiming for something like that at all. Because like there is no way you don't just obliterate yourself from that. Like i see some of those mega insertion videos, and genuinely it doesn't even look like it would feel nice, i just feel like i'm waiting for her pussy to tear open. Butthole even worse. Like when i see the femboys take that shit that makes hyper r34 images look normal, i'm just like jesus... can you even poop right afterwards?

So yeah just saying, personally not going for sizequeen goals. I'm happy with the sizes i chose to stop at, that's where i feel my pleasure points peaking, don't feel like i need to upsize anymore. But yes i have a bunch of Bad Dragons, they are very fun.
>Masturbation has come to being stale
I mean to me it didn't so far, but you know, my lifestyle is NEET hermit rotting in my room, i don't really have to be anywhere, so if i goon for an hour, i don't feel like i wasted the time, i just don't care and do it to get off and feel good for a bit if my meds and broken brain allow it. I imagine if you have a job and limited free time, wasting hours on goon sessions can feel like a waste of time so you want to speed it up. That and i can't really have sex so there is no alternative.
>Sex is boring
Can't give any opinion on this. The only sex i ever had was one time when i was 13, and it was drugged rape where i spent most of it screaming and spazming while having a sensory overload from my mental illness being fully abused. Literally CIA level torture. But i don't want to imagine all sex is like that.

>>84091648
>mfw gf will never get this juicy because SSRIs
Mental illness and childhood abuse is not sexy

>>84095243
>scrolling through preopened tabs of shit to goon to and taking slower break
Haha I've done the same, but more in a way of like "I don't want to cum before I read this entire hentai comic". So I kept edging and finding a new comic. Not having (much of) a refractory period would be really nice.
>bitches and femboys taking toys so big they could kill a horse
Yeah I never understood that either. You're just ruining your hole at that point, can't imagine it even feeling good and it's more for showing others.
>that's where i feel my pleasure points peaking
What size in lengt/circumference would that be? I'm like 6.5x5 and feel small, but when I was looking at condoms I had to but the XL due to circumference?
>drugged rape where i spent most of it screaming and spazming while having a sensory overload
Damn I thought my first time sucked because I lost my boner after 30 seconds because I had to pee and couldn't go. But yours was a completely different level. Weird question perhaps, but why were you drugged?
>>84095353
I have a grool fetish but only when it's a pretty pussy lol

>>84094190
sounds like excuses. estrogen alone is harmless

>>84095608
>No refractory period
Yeah i always thought when i was younger that when guys cum, it just turns off their horny, but if they just get horny again, they can get hard again and go again. I have since learned that it actually isn't as easy. For me cumming doesn't mean that i have to be done. If i still feel like going i just keep going.

>What size
Sorry those inch numbers mean nothing to me, i'm from the kilometer continent. Well my biggest toy that i have from Bad Dragon is a Large Kelvin, which i actually didn't buy. I ordered a Medium Kelvin, and for some reason they sent me a Large, and so i wrote the support and they were like "oh shit sorry, here is the Medium, keep the Large one it's on us", so the Medium Kelvin is my favourite toy, the Large is biggest. I tried it only a very small handful of times, it's nice but seriously don't want to overdo that, it's a very special occasion moment toy when brutal horny is at max setting. Soo i think i will tell you the size of the medium Kelvin one since it's my favourite, and that is 13.3cm circumference, 4cm diameter, 16cm total length.

>Why drugged?
Well i need to give you some context to this one, if you really want to know, because i gotta explain something about me to really explain how i came to be there.

>>84095886
>Yeah i always thought when i was younger that when guys cum, it just turns off their horny,
Not that anon but yeah, it's sad. Male gooners are cursed with being obsessed with something that they don't even want as soon as they get it.

It's a pitiful existence and I'm sort of happy that I'm a low libido male but I would still rather be a high libido female

>>84095936
>Male gooners are cursed with being obsessed with something that they don't even want
What do you mean? What do you not want? To have a dick?

>>84095886
>I have since learned that it actually isn't as easy. For me cumming doesn't mean that i have to be done. If i still feel like going i just keep going.
Haha yeah that's unfortunately now how it works. Honestly dicks have a mind of their own. I managed to have sex with a beautiful 18yo girl during corona a few times, but the first time my dick just refused to get hard even though I didn't fap for a week. Still made her cum 5 times with my hands so she came back thankfully. For guys, having an orgams basically means you're done. Post nut clarity is weird in a way that you want to do anything but have sex. That's why a lot of women complain guys don't want to cuddle after sex lol.
Not having a hard stop after an orgasm could also be weird.. at what point do you stop then.
>i'm from the kilometer continent
Oh me too, I just assumed you were from the US. It's 16x13cm so basically exactly the medium Kelvin haha! You're not a size queen then. The few times I had sex I haven't had complaints about my size, but it's also not a wow factor. The Kelvin knot is almost 18cm circumference though. Funny because I saw that toy in a video one day and thought it looked nice.
>>84095886
>if you really want to know
I'm kinda intrigued since it's not common to drug unless you count spiking drinks. It's midnight here though, so I have to get ready for bed since I'm unfortunately a wageslave.

>>84095886
>>84096452
Anyway it was an interesting conversation. It's been a long time since I had that on r9k. Sometimes it sucks that everything is anonymous. My discord got banned for no reason by their AI a few months ago, otherwise I'd risk leaving that. I do use telegram if you happen to have it and want to chat more (and dare posting it here). Otherwise I'll see you around goonerette.

>>84096452
>>84096650
No worries i'm still here, was just kinda out of it. My meds do that to me sometimes when i just feel like i can't move. I mean if you want you can read this tomorrow.

So basically, i'm diagnosed neurotic SPD. Long story short my condition is that i can't handle being around people. Voices sound like airhorns in my ears, physical touch sends me into angry outbursts and seizures. Because of my condition i latched onto my Dad and he is basically the only person i love, and my Mom, i don't, i couldn't, just couldn't develop those emotions or connections. She wanted a traditional daughter, got me instead, so by the time i was like 9 she basically stopped trying and didn't love me anymore, and when i was 11 she left us. Divorce was brutal on Dad, Mom told me if i don't tell the judge Dad should get custody i will be homeless because she won't care for me.

Right so when i was 13, i heard about this sort of open house party, with lots of alcohol available. Now as i said, i have aversion to being around humans, but i was basically responsible for ruining my Dad's life and his marriage, and wanted to fix it, and i thought maybe if drinking makes it go away, i can be normal and Mom will come back and Dad will be happy. So i went there with the intention to get turbo drunk to see if it would make my condition deafen itself. It did not, it just made me hard to control my body. Some guy whos face i can't even remember or picture anymore starts talking to me, and i just put my hands on my ears and like shake my head trying to make him go away, because brain is hurting. Instead he grabs me and puts a pill in my mouth, and holds his hand on my mouth forcing me to swallow. I don't know what it was but i think extasy. Well and then he fucked me. Thanks to the alcohol and drugs i was like micro-blacking out, but basically it was just me screaming and flailing, because from inside the pain my brain was producing as a response to being touched was pure torture.

>>84096325
>What do you mean? What do you not want?
What I mean is male gooners waste so much time chasing after an urge that they lose all interest in once they fulfill.
>To have a dick?
I wish I were female, vagina and all

>>84096963
Also i should mention 2 things to this that i forgot to mention.

1. I know the logic behind this is absolutely stupid from my side, but i was 13 and extremely mentally and socially retarded, so i genuinely don't know what i was expecting, but i just wanted desperately to do something to fix myself so that i can stop being this way, and then maybe Mom will come back to Dad, etc. Personally i didn't care that Mom left, to me she is the same as a stranger at a grocery store, but Dad is like the only person i care about, so i kinda just did something stupid. I'm fully aware going to that place was stupid.

2. At the time i went there, i was not diagnosed. The thing is, i had this since i was little of course, and normally you would send a kid who has constantly trouble in school and screams in agony when her own Mom tries to touch her or talks to her, to a psychiatrist. My Mom insisted i was normal and just being a brat for no reason, and that i will grow out of it. Dad kinda just followed her lead. He really was super in love with her i guess, idk. So yeah anyway i went to normal school, and it was hell, and i had constant problems obviously. So i didn't actually KNOW know what was wrong with me, i just knew something was wrong, but i just thought okay maybe being drunk will help, because people are diffirent when they are drunk. Just want to make that clear, that at that time i didn't know specifics about my condition, i was just desperate to try fixing whatever it was. It was only in my second year of highschool when i dropped to dangerous underweight that i was finally taken to a hospital and a psychiatrist, and then diagnosed and put on disability, so i could quit high school and finally stop suffering being forced to interact with people every day.

>>84083290
Femcoomer anon is back

>>84083290
idk, i cant say i know your struggles anon but im also not happy as a femcoom

>>84083452
hate to burst your bubble but they just claim that to turn you on. And if their display of it turns ypu on then its 100 percent fake. lol

>>84098442
Nah femcoomers are real, but they are not hot cute quirky girls who will let you fuck them freaky style and then go back to being normal.

They are crazy brainrotted bitches who destroy their holes with gigantic toys or do some absolutely deviant shit like fuck dogs and record themselves and then post it online. Femcoomers are real, but they are depraved as fuck, and borderline creepy. Also usually not cute or good looking.

>>84098265
>but im also not happy as a femcoom
Do you think you would be happier if you weren't a femcoomer?

>>84099225
Well from what this femcoomer here said, it sounds like she can masturbate for almost hours without being tired or without the pleasure stopping. That sounds like heaven to me, compared to nutting in a couple minutes and then feeling like shit because of post nut clarity.
I could be an asocial retard except i could actually have fun and feel good from being a coomer

>>84083290
God this image makes me so horny

>>84098903
correct but remember they are also still fems so even if they are all this shit they want soemone 2000% better then them at their absolute worst

>>84086787
>>84085061
hey man cool useless anecdote that is completely eclipsed by the 3 women I've been with who masturbated like twice a week if not more on average

>>84096963
Holy shit, the thread is still up.
That is a wild story. It wasn't even him unable to resist ptp, he was predatorily seeking out ptp and using drugs to accomplish it. I can't imagine even getting aroused with someone screaming and flailing around. Didn't you have to go to the hospital afterwards? At 13 I'd expect a vagina not developed enough to accommodate an adult, especially in a forced situation.
>>84097021
What happened between you and your father after that? Did your bond get better when you were finally diagnosed or was there irreparable damage at this point?
I've never heard of your condition before, although it makes sense because you probably don't go out a lot. Interesting that you hate physical touch, but don't mind when you're doing it to yourself with toys.

I'm 173cm and 49kg with relatively broad shoulders. There's no way I'd pass with HRT. It's over.

>>84100126
>broad shoulders
How broad?
You may not be able to pass as a skinny foid, but as fatter, you might with fat redistribution.

>>84100126
Don't fall for the trap anon (pun intended). Being trans when you're young might sound fun but you'll age like milk and normal people will not want to date you. You'll feel like more of an outcast than you do now.
From 0-30 being a girl is the most fun and then it starts to decline. We can be jealous of their life on easy mode but no amount of HRT is going to give you the same experience.

>>84100722
Yeah, that's pretty much where I'm at. It's just so much effort to try and go against nature to turn yourself into a woman. Laser hair removal, HRT, etc. It's so much time, effort and money for something that could turn out terribly.

File: test.jpg (362 KB, 1872x1216)

362 KB JPG

>>84100722
>but you'll age like milk
you age better on estrogen than test

>>84100768
Yeah it'll take a lot of time, money and perseverance only to still not own that magical pussy that provides women with most of their privileges. Most people will just see you as "that weird guy who thinks he's a girl". I'm going to take a guess that you want to be a woman because you like them so much and not because you're attracted to men.
I'm 175cm myself in a country where the average man is 183cm so you can see how I ended up on r9k. However I decided to just start working out at home and get some muscle. Live out your "fetish" by playing female characters in RPGs and having some female POV faps instead.
>>84100794
Most women would rather be plowed by the right picture than the boy on the left. He wanted more T to look more manly and gain muscle. Looks like mission accomplished.

>>84100100
Hey.
>Rape
Yeah i don't know either how it was "hot" to fuck a girl who is twisting like a worm and shrieking like you are skinning her alive. Guess it didn't ruin it for him.
>Hospital?
Not really, apart from it being horrible and painful mentally because of my condition boiling my brain through it, he didn't really hurt me much physically. I mean it wasn't pleasant, but he didn't cause me any injury or anything. Oh and course i never told anyone. I didn't even think about going to the hospital, i was just scared about my dad.

Like you know this was still in the time when he was depressed as fuck about Mom leaving, and i was pretty much the reason his life and marriage went to shit. I went there hoping i could find a sollution to this so i could be normal. Instead i come home and tell him i got raped on top of everything, so now we have that to worry about? Yeah no i felt guilty as shit. I didn't want to be an even bigger bother to him, so i hid this from everyone. Maybe stupid but idk i was 13 and mentally ill so not a good idea factory. Also the guy who raped me wasn't an adult, at least i don't think he was, i doubt he was older than 16 or 18 max. Most people there were people from schools. And i was a known "problem" so i got stares like "why are you here" the second i got there.

>Relationship with Dad
Well my Dad is an absolutely amazing person. When Mom said he should have full custody because she doesn't want me, he didn't try to get out of it. He took me in, he gave me the talk about it "not being my fault", and so on many times. Especially after i was diagnosed, i remember he came to my room so many times to randomly hug me and say he was sorry for not taking me to the hospital or taking me out of school sooner. Like it really is amazing to me how much love and care he put into me, when i'm basically a complete dead end. I'm on disability, i can't work, i didn't finish high school, and i spend my days rotting in my room and gooning.

>>84100100
>my condition
Well i think you heard about schizoism, especially on this website. It just has many forms.

Me having neurotic SPD just basically means that my reactions to exposure to people and the sensory overload it causes are often violently angry or chaotic outbursts. Basically the brain goes fight or flight method and is just doing whatever to make the exposure stop.

A good metaphore from my psychiatrist to this is that you have to imagine your mind like a movie theather. Inside you have seats, some for family, some for friends, and many for random people who come and go. Those represent your social battery. Me, i have 1 single seat, and that seat is permanently occupied by my Dad. It's common that people with my condition latch onto a family member early in their life and essentially "fill" that 1 seat with that person. I cannot develop a connection with anyone else, because i have no seats to put them in. Usually the person a schizoid like me latches onto is either a parent or a sibling. My therapist said it's almost always worse when it's a sibling, because you are unnable to form a loving relationship with your own parents, so you feel alien in your own home, and then you latch onto a sibling and often end up messing with their life, like it can get pretty bad.

About the toys and touching, you gotta realize it's all mental. It's not like the physical touch ITSELF hurts or is uncomfortable because of human skin or something. It's just that my brain can't allow those people in, so the reaction is a feeling of abysmal discomfort and sorta phantom pain. Like my Dad, since i'm so attached to him, his voice and his touch doesn't hurt me, i love when he hugs me or listening to him talk. But he is the only one who i can let in that way. Everyone elses voice just sounds like an airhorn in my ears, and their touch feels like acid on my skin, because i'm essentially having sensory overload.

>>84101205
I feel like these kind of things happens way more often that we're willing to consider. Young naive teenage girls losing their virginity against their will with horny teenage guys or older predators.
Good to hear that your relationship with your dad is still good and even improved after the diagnosis. That was pretty cute to read. I'm sure he would've literally strangled the guy who raped you if he knew about it and who did it.
>>84101251
Hmm interesting to read the movie theater metaphor. That explains it quite well. I guess you don't ever see yourself in a relationship of sorts because of the single seat being taken and being unable to endure another voice/touch.
Do you have your own place then? Can't imagine not being caught if you still lived at home gooning 3h a day and owning multiple toys.
It's kinda ironic because since I'm always alone and guys never get hugs, I often end up with insane skin hunger. The times I get a hug a year can be counted on one hand and then it's just a friendly hi/bye hug from a girl. The hug never lasts long enough. We're basically on the other end of that spectrum.

>>84101251
I'm just an anon passing by, but thank you for explaining your life.
I have some friend with problems (not as huge as you, but still), and it helps me understand what they may have to deal with.
I wish you to be happy.
As for the studies (or even a job), lot of things xan be done remotely today, you are not locked into that "useless neet" state if you want to.
But I do understand it won't be easy, even if full remote.
Anyway, take care all, gotta go.

>>84101205
So wait, if i get this right, you live with your dad, and your dad thinks you are a virgin and doesnt know that you got raped when you were a kid?

>>84102152
Yep.

>>84102122
>rape happens a lot
Yeah i imagine so. A lot of it goes unreported for all kinds of reasons too, mostly fear or shame or guilt like in my case. I honestly didn't give a shit if people knew what happened for my own sake, but i didn't want to do it to my Dad. Didn't want to worry him and add on the mountain pile of problems i caused him already.
>Own place?
No. I live with my Dad in the place he got after him and Mom divorced. I basically got my little hermit cave room here, and this room is like 99% of my world.
>Relationship with Dad
Yeah but i feel guilty about shit. I basically ruined his life. Like i'm 21 and he is 43, him and Mom had me when they were young, they were very in love and excited to have a baby. And then they got me, and within 9 years i made Mom give up on being a Mother, and in 11 i made her ragequit her marriage. My Dad only wants 300 euro a month of rent from me, and that includes groceries, because mostly he buys them and cooks for both of us. Disability checks aren't much but they are more than that. Just like, there is so much of his life that he sacrificed for me, and i'm basically a dead end.
>Being caught
Well... again, i won't pretend i'm the perfect daughter. I try to do it while he is gone and at work, or sometimes quietly at night because my sleep schedule is purely random. But i won't pretend like i didn't have unexpectedly loud screaming orgasms where i was like shit... no way he didn't hear that. Not proud of it at all. Also one time when i was at my Doctors office for disability thing, i forgot my card with the ID number i need to give the nurse, so i facetimed my Dad who was home, and asked him to read it to me, and he went in my room and opened the wrong drawer and saw some of my toys... very awkward, but he didn't say anything, even when i came home.
>other end of spectrum
Well the thing is, i'm not asexual or aromantic, in theory i would want a bf and intimacy, just brain won't allow it...

>>84102721
>A lot of it goes unreported for all kinds of reasons too
Yeah exactly. And it usually happens one on one, so you have a he said she said situation.
>I basically got my little hermit cave room here
So you're not worried that he's going to hear the vibrating toys and stuff like that? Or do you only use that when he's at work. Honestly I love staying at home, but for you it's not much of a choice.
>Mom had me when they were young
Yeah that must've been rough on them, but also on you with a late diagnosis. People imagine the perfect parenthood, but it doesn't always work out that way unfortunately.

Just gonna hit post since it's at page 10

>>84103871
>late diagnosis
Well the thing is, i had this since birth. Unmedicated and basically alergic to human contact, you can imagine going to regular school was hell. So of course i had constant trouble, neurotic seizures, outbursts where i was screaming at teachers or just passing out from constant sensory overloads. I don't wanna say that i know how to be a parent, but if your kid is THIS problematic, you should defo take it to a therapist or something. But my Mom insisted that i was okay and normal, and that i was just a brat and that these were just some tantrums for attention, she said she knows this because she was once young, and some bullshit like that. Dad being the good parent he is, wanted to take me to see one, but Mom just convinced him that i was normal and just missbehaving. Weather she actually believed it or it was some kind of subconcious revenge act, i don't know. Because the same thing was at home. Dad was my 1 chair person, which means i couldn't handle my Mom touching me either, and her voice was the same airhorn in my ears as strangers. I think she was just angry that she can't have her traditional "girl gang" daughter like she wanted. She was one of those women who think having a daughter is having a mini-Me best friend. Instead she had this. So that is kinda why the late diagnosis. I was only diagnosed when i dropped to very dangerous underweight stat and had to be hospitalized.
>So you're not worried that he's going to hear
Well i kinda answered this in the message above. I try to avoid being heard but sometimes i either fuck up, or i ignore my own wants to not be heard. You see the thing is, being on heavy brainfixer meds, it's like being in a car. But sometimes you aren't in the driver seat, you are a passanger who screams directions at the Driver, and the driver will MAYBE listen, maybe won't. It's the same reason my hygiene is not the best. I'm ashamed of it, but sometimes i just can't force myself to do something about it.

File: 1747337385092457.jpg (279 KB, 946x946)

279 KB JPG

>>84102721
>while he is gone and at work
Oh shit you answered my previous question there haha
>i won't pretend like i didn't have unexpectedly loud screaming orgasms
See this is why I think the sexual experience is a lot better for girls. I've never let out a sound from an orgasm in my life. Maybe a forced grunt when I had sex with someone because I know girls tend to like that (although I can't cum half the time I had sex). But it's never been that amazing that I lost control.
>opened the wrong drawer and saw some of my toys
That must've felt terrible. But I guess your dad understands that you need some relief when you're always at home. Hopefully it wasn't the large Kelvin lmao. My dad caught me once when he came home an hour earlier than he always did and I didn't hear it (PC used to be in a room next to the living room). Thank fuck I wasn't looking at anything weird. We never spoke of it ever lol
>i would want a bf and intimacy, just brain won't allow it
Hmm that really sucks for you. It's like being brain cockblocked instead of the usual robot who's ugly/autistic and therefor can't get a girl. Your dad is still very young, but do you have any idea what would happen if he wasn't there anymore? Could someone take the empty seat or would your brain meltdown? For some reason I'm picturing you as a rapunzel locked in her room now. Curious which country, since you're also using metric and not many countries have disability income I believe.
>>84103931
It must've been awful for your dad in the way that he didn't know how to help you. When I was a baby I was crying a ton, until they found out my mom's breast milk wasn't nutritious enough so I was always hungry. Maybe that's why I'm only 175cm lol.
Lots of girls tend to bond with their father more than their mom (until puberty perhaps), so there's a big chance she wouldn't have experienced the girl gang stuff anyway.

It's almost bedtime for me again. 6:15 alarm for work should be illegal.

>>84085335
>>84085315
PCOS is associated with ovarian insulin resistance, some women find a lot of relief from low carb diets fixing their hormone balance

>>84104083
>lost control
Well me loosing control is also not always just because of pleasure, but also because of defect brain / being medicated. As i said in the post, passenger seat situation. Like i can vividly remember that sometimes during these it felt like i was almost sitting next to myself while the loud hit happened, and i was internally shushing myself like "shut up shut up, Dad is home and it's 4 in the night". As i said, i don't really do it on purpose. But yeah sometimes it just feels so good it goes straight through the vocal cords,
>drawer
Well yeah, because i mean i'm okay with being a gooner, because really i don't have a diffirent option, but i know parents don't want to picture their kids like that, so that's why it felt shit. As i said, i don't care for myself much, so personal embarrasment, meh shrug, but i hate doing shit that badly affect my Dad. He is basically the only person that i care about or have any kind of attachment to. I'm simply unnable to form those for others, or myself. That's the brain defect. But as said, he just closed the drawer, didn't say anything, opened the right one, read me the number. Didn't say anything when i came home too. And yeah it was the one with the Bad dragon stuff.
>If he dies, chair empty?
No. That metaphore was to understand occupancy, but these "seats" are not interchangable. I don't even want to think about him being gone, but i guess i hope by that time they will have found a surgery to fix my brain or made better meds that actually stop my condition instead of just toning it down a bit.
>rapunzel
That is a hilarious thought. Granted my hair is really long since i haven't been to a haircut since i was like 7, but the thought is funny. Just imagine some prince going "rapunzel let down your hair" and instead of beautiful golden locks it's my oily unbrushed messy black hair. Yeah prince would turn 180 and go.

File: 1771654018562114.png (624 KB, 1318x603)

624 KB PNG

>>84104374
This is gonna sound weird but have you thought about going into vtubing? It's a meme at this point but a lot of crazy girls really do well in that field of work and it doubles as both a source of income and a way of socializing without leaving your room

>>84104083
>girls bond with fathers more
Well in my case it's a lot diffirent. I didn't chose with whom to bond, or bond with him for a specific reason. It was simply the brain latching onto him. It could have just as well rolled the dice and make it my Mom. But i think that would have ended up a lot worse for me honestly. You know this went past just a thing of preference. Imagine everytime you try to talk to your child or god forbid touch her, she starts screaming and covering her ears to drown out your voice or just runs away and hides from you in a corner or has a violent seizure when you try to hug her. I feel like after those couple of years, i felt like a stranger to her just like she was almost a stranger to me. But yeah my Dad definitely had it bad too, because me being so heavily attached to him, and still craving the human contact and interaction but only from him, almost all of his time which would otherwise be free time was spent with me around latched onto him in some way. It's also that everytime i had trouble at school, which was a lot, he would have to excuse himself from work because i wouldn't get in the car with my Mom. Just... difficult, i made it very difficult for him. And i feel very sorry about it.
>Country
I don't really feel like revealing that specifically, but i will say that it's a slavic country, but thankfully not fucking Russia or Ukraine or Belarus. Thankfully one of the most West located ones.
>Metric
Well most places in the world use centimeters and kilometers. I think only America uses their silly feet and inches and whatever the fuck.
>Disability income
Most countries in Europe if not any have disability programs, i think that it's mandatory to have them as part of the Union legislatives, or something like that, i don't know i feel like my Doctor talked to me about this once. But it's hard to be "insane enough" to qualify, and it's not a lot of money usually. I couldn't afford to live alone.

>>84104572
Are poles considered slavic?

>>84104572
>Well most places in the world use centimeters and kilometers. I think only America uses their silly feet and inches and whatever the fuck.
britain uses both plus a few units all of their own like stones