Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportInshallah, the thread is baked>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>>84084978We're so back Here's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf
Busy weekend ahead. Going to go later to watch the umamusume movie that came out a while back but just got released in US theaters last weekend.Also won a tiny Makima plushie from a crane game. Life is good>>84080644>trips dubs! Getting lucky digits all day>clockwork orangegood movie. Do tell how you like it. Kubrick is a good choice for all his movies>>84081202>Big money movesneed to get the numbers up high. Forbes tells me inflation is most severe for those unfortunate folks who make under $350k a year!>fujimoto taps into that feeling of childlike powerless beautifullynot just that, but also conveys very well the characters are essentially stuck in childhood trauma despite being in positions of absurd responsibility and power. It's one of the things I like about these mangas and find relatable as somoeone who's probably wayyy more immature in some ways given stuff I'm responsible for>>84081002>Hopefully that pans out thank you! Not sure how much I'll enjoy any job in my field, but I'm so sick of my current employer I'd hop anywhere at this point. New place at least won't have made me resentful just yet!> Is there such a thing as a good split?the problem is, this is all fairly regular behavior. It comes and goes like this quite frequently throughout the time you've posted here and sure goes back before that. I know she has taken drastic actions in the past that add weight to the behavior, but at the same time>I have no idea if I'll hear from her againagain, I think I said, maybe you will at some point, but it sounds like the best thing you can do is give some space. I don't mean this a bad way, but I think you talking to her can't help much either way, so in reality it's just pulling your mood down
>>84081002>We did!glad you had a nice time. And aviary is an excellent choice, but I'm a fan of birds so am biased>passport bros because she mentioned I'm nothing like them.If she's local, makes sense. Those type are hard not to notice and it never ceases to amaze me how trashy a good chunk of them act. I think also I've mentioned before, but my experience with women in Asia was that they expected white guys from the west to act loud and arrogant, so if you're more laid back and less forward, it does genuinely come as a shock.>The jury's still out on that.That is something! In my opinion, it's rare to do such thing unless you're somewhat close to someone, so at the very least it's a good sign
i cried in my dream and i woke up with wet eyes like i really was crying in my sleep. im not eating anything today so i diddnt eat anything and then i cut on my arm to beans and then i cried from reading a manga and then i listened to music and im planning to cut more later on and then idk sleep
hey guys !I was onna bikeride, it was nice :>feeling a little tired now
Hey gamers. I'm feeling a little out of it today, maybe a little restless, but otherwise fine.>>84085003>but I'm so sick of my current employer I'd hop anywhere at this pointThat's as good a reason any to jump ship. No sense in spending half your time somewhere you hate.>it sounds like the best thing you can do is give some space.Probably. I'm trying my best to exercise restraint and not reach out (and haven't for a few days) but I feel like I fail at that constantly.>>84085007>And aviary is an excellent choice, but I'm a fan of birds so am biasedBirds Are Very Important>it never ceases to amaze me how trashy a good chunk of them actI've had second-hand distress from some of the stories she's told me, I'm baffled that other humans can act like that.>if you're more laid back and less forward, it does genuinely come as a shockShe seems almost fascinated by me being a quiet nerd who's been very open about setbacks and failures. I guess I'm the polar opposite of the westerners you run into here. She also really likes my hair which probably helps.>it's rare to do such thing unless you're somewhat close to someoneThat's true, I probably wouldn't share a drink with someone I don't know that well either.>>84085109You should eat something, anon>>84085240Glad you had fun!One day I hope to ride a bike again. I miss it.
>>84084978hey officeanon! thanks for the thread and have fun at the movies!>>84085109hey anon. rough day, huh? what manga did you read?>>84085240hi catbro!>I was onna bikeride, it was nice :>let's go! :D see anything nice?>feeling a little tired nowhave a chill evening, then.>>84085366hey dude!>I'm feeling a little out of it today, maybe a little restlessany idea why? i got mad after coming home from work yesterday, but don't relly get why myself. sorry for not showing up for quite some time, btw. i'm in a weird mental state lately.
>>84084978i tried wearing a white hoodie but some of the blood from the cuts started to bleed thru so i had to put on a red hoodiesometimes i wish i had more fat so when im cutting it doesnt feel like straight bone.. little baby cuts..
>>84072481 >hellohey cat>how was your day?i think it was okaytoday is nice thoughhow was your day?>went to the mall and got mochisounds tasty :D>yep maybe in a month or twoyeah spring and summer>>84078398 >been busy with work and searching for new workhow is everything going now?and how are you today?>>84079344 >because he cuts himselfthe cutting panels were... strange>>84082921 do not try to find a razorand do not use a knife. knives are so bad sometimes>>84085109i hope you are doing better now, anon. i hope you don't cut.>>84085541hru yuanon
>>84085109hope you're doing all right. Really should eat. unless you're fasting in which case good job staying committed>>84085240happy caturday! hope you had a nice time >feeling a little tired nowand get some rest>>84085366> maybe a little restless,lots on your mind?>No sense in spending half your time somewhere you hate.I can tolerate a lot, but I'm just burnt out this point. Place gets worse and worse and crossed a line for me a while back that now I just need to go>trying my best to exercise restraint best you can do is your best. No shame in caving, but at same time I don't think it's good for you and don't think it makes huge impact if her problems as cyclical as they seem>Birds Are Very Importantincredibly intelligent and for those who've own them, can be very affectionate. Parrots especially are underrated imo, but some of them are quite the large amount of effort. >second-hand distressi knew of this english teacher who mooched off girls in Asia, ended up owing a ton of money to lots of girlfriends, kept getting fired for making inappropriate comments to girls he taught (who were of course teens), and then made complaining posts when he went back to the west about how living in Asia took everything from him. As much as I like Asian countries and women I could never bring myself to teach just because the rep so many of those guys have for being scumbag losers.>who's been very open about setbacks and failures.honestly goes a long way. Being white in Asia makes you stand out among locals. Not being an ass and acting decent makes you stand out among foreigners as well, which is all around a good thing>I probably wouldn't share a drink with someone I don't know that well either.I don't believe otherthinking things is good either, but I don't think most women would at all, especially not an Asian, would do that with a guy they met not too long ago if there wasn't some chance of something going on
>>84085541hey yuanon! how are you?> thanks for the threadtried to post it much earlier but 4chan is acting up today> thanks for the threadstill have a bit to go>>84085603hi anon. If you're bleeding at all, you should probably be trying to patch yourself up. Know you've got a lot of coverage there, but don't want to be bleeding everywhere (and probably not rubbing fabric against opens wounds)>>84085667hey, rm, how are you?>how is everything going now?weekend so easy times>and how are you today?pretty good. Went out for a bit today for the arcade. Movies later. Family event tomorrow, and just trying to take it easy.
Afternoon bake>>84084978>How are you doing today?Alright, woke up a while ago >Any plans for today?Reading boxing manga, playing metroid, and gym.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?3 days ago.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my inability to stay focused.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I had a weird dream with this thread where when I opened it instead of reading the posts, it was like I entered a voice call and could here people talking. I only remember /cat/ complaining about living in "Poland city" and rememberme being Italian. The rest of the dream was just abstract suffering>>84085003Hallo officeanon>umamusume movieThis is coming out at my theater as well, not my thing but I'm looking forward to a Japanese action movie that's coming out. I forget the names>essentially stuck in childhood trauma despite being in positions of absurd responsibility and powerDidn't pick up this when reading but I see it now, good read.>>84085240Hallo /cat/, funny pic>>84085366Hallo discanon>>84085541Hallo yuanon>>84085635Hallo rm
>>84085795>hey, rm, how are you?i'm fine i'm calmwant some productivity though, might study maththe exam got postponed>weekend so easy timesi see i see>and just trying to take it easy.guess you have a lot of things this weekendalso how did the job thing go?
>>84085800>hallo rmhey togata
>>84085667hi rm!>hru yuanonhard to say. i'm tired and have a hard time talking to people, even more than usual. that's pretty much it. not much to say, i'm afraid. how have you been, though?>>84085795>how are you?could be better, but i'm completely out of ideas how to make it better, which adds a layer of frustration to it that really gets to me. what about you?>4chan is acting up todayi saw that. good thing it's up again.>still have a bit to goah, ok. will you see it on your own or is someone going with you?>>84085800hey toga!>Reading boxing mangai can recommend teppu. mma instead of boxing, but a strange deviation from the regular plots. sorry for just disappearing. i think last time you asked what's with fire punch. haven't bought any other volume yet. i'll order the next two volumes tomorrow, i think.
>>84085997>i'm tired and have a hard time talking to people:/what's the matter? do you feel like you don't want to talk to people or are you feeling awkward or something?>how have you been, though?i'm calm today i'm fine
hey hey fellassorry but I'm a bit too tired to reply to everybody I ate some nice food and drank my ramonde now, it was tasty though it is expensive so I won't be getting it again at least for a while How is yours evenings going?
>>84086089dw palwhat did you eat?>eveningit's nice
>>84085541>any idea why?Not really. I just get like that sometimes. I went to get some snacks from 7-Eleven and I've calmed down now, so I might have just needed to stretch my legs.>i'm in a weird mental state lately.I hope you can get out of that if it's causing trouble.>>84085762>lots on your mind?The opposite, if anything I'm a little bored.>Place gets worse and worse and crossed a line for me a while backThat sounds pretty bad. At you at liberty to share?>don't think it makes huge impact if her problems as cyclical as they seemYou're probably right about that. If there was a magic combination of words that would fix everything I probably would have said them by now.>Parrots especially are underrated imoThere were some in the aviary. Apparently one was saying the word for grandma over and over again, which is pretty funny.>I could never bring myself to teach just because the rep so many of those guys have for being scumbag losersI think it's pretty much the same here.Speaking of, I remember reading a story somewhere about someone on the JET program in Japan getting a JK pregnant and then quietly being shuffled to another school.>Not being an ass and acting decent makes you stand out among foreigners as wellI'm definitely defying a lot of the stereotypes, which is probably a good thing.>I don't think most women would at all, especially not an AsianI didn't even consider that. She gave me a fancy chocolate as well but I thought she was just being polite...>>84085800Ahoyhoy>>84086089>How is yours evenings going?I'm eating some pocky so all is well
>>84084978Ive only done cat scratches. I did beans once but I got scared and never cut again. Is that bad? Am I not an actual cutter?
it's funny how i be chilling then i get a bit anxious at the moment i accidentally see something about my friend.the feeling is insufferable honestly. one glimpse can ruin my mood for like hours now.the time i stop getting anxious by that is the time i start being calm maybe, until then i will keep having a flood of emotions everyday maybe
>>84086274why care about being a cutter or not?nothing of that matters, nor does it make anything better. wanna talk about your problems maybe we could help somehow?
>>84086084>what's the matter? do you feel like you don't want to talk to people or are you feeling awkward or something?my head feels empty. interactions feel hollow. stuff like that. people talk to me and i just don't care to give an answer and if they keep droning on i get angry. just have no patience anymore.>i'm calm today i'm finehappy to hear that. (^-^) any plans for today?>>84086089all good. you just enjoy your evening, ok?>I won't be getting it again at least for a whilestops being a treat if you get it all the time anyway.>How is yours evenings going?just lying around, listening to some stream about resident evil: requiem. don't feel like doing anything else.>>84086202>I just get like that sometimesi feel you. same for me.>I've calmed down now, so I might have just needed to stretch my legs.that's good and probably true. i haven't worked out in while. maybe i need to get out and jog again. always hard to get back into it, though. especially if it feels pointless.>I hope you can get out of that if it's causing troubleit is, but since it's basically just me not caring anymore i have a hard time convincing myself to get out of it. very stupid feedback loop. :/>>84086278>i get a bit anxious at the moment i accidentally see something about my friend.damn. what did you see that reminded you?
>>84086285Idk. Being a cutter is like my only identity I feel. Being an ex-cutter is the only thing that kept me from continuing to cut
>>84086414>just have no patience anymore.aha..maybe because youre just tired. how have you been feeling like that though? were you like that before you got tired?>happy to hear that.:D>any plans for today?gonna continue chilling. might study or finish reading a book>what did you see that reminded you?a small accident, a quick look at his profile somewhere. i usually avoid even opening the accounts we're connected on, but i had to use an account to do something.>>84086467>my only identity I feel.oh, alright i totally understand you in that, i was the same but i found a lot of other sick bad things that made me continue this stupid identity thing, not only cutting.my advice to you is to think clearly about yourself, start doing new things, break a boring routine if you have one. one's identity is nothing like a single habit like cutting. take care of yourself anon, i hope the best for you.
>>84086659>>84086414> how have you been feeling like that though?how long have you*
>>84086161>what did you eat?french fries and sausage :D>it's niceoo rly what r u doin?>>84086202>eating some pocky so all is welloo niceI actually thought about getting them today!>>84086274>Is that bad? I don't think that's a bad thing, just hope your cuts heal well>am I not an actual cutter?but you did intentionally fut yourself >>84086278ow :<hope you get calm soon>>84086414>enjoy your evening, ok?sure will o7>stops being a treatthat is true>lying around, listening to some stream about resident evil: requiemhow do you like it?
>>84086685>french fries and sausagetasty :D>what r u doin?chilling and eating>hope you get calm soonthanks
>>84086659>how have you been feeling like that though? were you like that before you got tired?i get episodes like this, but this one's been going for a while now. at least since the start of year, if not longer. and yeah, i've been like this before. it's just pretty bad rn.>gonna continue chilling. might study or finish reading a bookgood idea. what are you reading?>a quick look at his profile somewhere. i usually avoid even opening the accounts we're connected on, but i had to use an account to do something.i see. what about removing him from those accounts to get closure? would that be too much?>>84086685>how do you like it?the stream is alright. they're always taking a lot of time to pick things apart, so it's a bit boring, but that's also because i don't really care for the game.
>>84086696>tasty :Dyep :Dwhat did you eat?>chillingglad to hear that I'm in bed watching some guys play teardown >>84086936>don't really care for the gameI also didn't care but I thought to myself hmm 7 was good and 8 too and so I think I'll check it out because I teel I might like it
>>84086274>Is that bad?I'd say that's probably a good thing.>>84086278>one glimpse can ruin my mood for like hours now.I know the feeling (for different reasons) my best unsolicited advice is to find a good distraction but that's a lot easier said than done.>>84086414>always hard to get back into it, though. especially if it feels pointless.Maybe you just need a change of scenery. I was only out for 10 minutes and it seemed to do me good.>since it's basically just me not caring anymore i have a hard time convincing myself to get out of itI get you. Starting is always the hardest part and I usually need a pretty pressing reason otherwise I just put it off.>>84086685>I actually thought about getting them today!You should get some!
>>84087236>I'll check it out because I teel I might like itthat's fair. i just don't really vibe with re. i've watched people play those games when they came out, but it's not my kind of game. that said, i don't think i could say you what my kind of game is anymore.>>84087257>Maybe you just need a change of scenery. I was only out for 10 minutes and it seemed to do me good.you're right, but i've always had a hard time forcing me into these kind of changes. i'll try to go for a jog next week. no promises, though.>Starting is always the hardest part and I usually need a pretty pressing reason otherwise I just put it off.word, but you could call the state i'm in a pressing reason. i feel like i'm falling apart.
oh... didn't realize my name was gone.
forgot about the thing but now i have headache instead>>84086936>at least since the start of yearoh :<i thought it's only been for days or a week or something>it's just pretty bad rn.maybe you need a break.. don't you think?>what are you reading?i bought a book like two months agoone about physicsread some of it but had to stop for studying and also because i got lazy>what about removing him from those accountsnahi'm not leaving foreveri'll come back one day if i could>>84087236>what did you eat?some snacks :)>I'm in bed watching some guys playbtw is it still a bit cold at night where u live?it's still hard to sleep without a good blanket here>>84087257>but that's a lot easier said than done.indeedthough i kinda forgot about it now
>>84087810>i thought it's only been for days or a week or somethingsadly, it's been going for a while. some days are better, some days are worse. last week was bad.>maybe you need a break.. don't you think?i don't disagree, but a break from what? i already don't do much at home...>one about physicsyou're interested in those topics as a hobby?>read some of it but had to stop for studying and also because i got lazymakes sense. you're definitely not lazy, though. physics can be a difficult subject, especially if you have to learn and remember other stuff.>i'm not leaving forever i'll come back one day if i couldalright. hope that will be sooner rather than later.i think i'll head to bed now. good night!
>>84087930>last week was bad.hmmm maybe you're bored of something, don't you think? maybe you wanna try something new?>but a break from what?work :?>you're interested in those topics as a hobby?yeah but i dont really get the chance to enjoy>especially if you have to learn and remember other stuff.true true, here they teach us a lot of things and a lot of them are unrelated to each other and some of it can be very useless for the students' future job>i think i'll head to bed now.cya yuanon!take care
halal movie night, finding nemo. Inshallah they find him
>>84084978My hatred for humanity is growing stronger the more I interact with these retardsHumans ruin every-fucking-thingLike 2% of the global population are decent people, but their contributions don't make up for the vast sea crimes committed by the human race.I fucking wish we would just go extinct alreadyI'm not doing anything about climate change, not because I don't believe it but because I just want this species to fucking end alreadyI recently had an increase in violent, homicidal fantasies and they became more vivid I'm near constantly pacing around my room with these horrific maladaptive daydreamsI have grown very suicidal over the past couple of weeks and it's getting worseI am getting closer to slashing my wrists but I don't want to go back to the hospital with all the incompetent retards they hireI fucking hate life
>>84088900I also meant to include that I haven't bothered with my research in a long timeI stopped giving a shit about different philosophies once I found out they all want me dead
sorry everyone. but what are the symptoms of a infection i have like a crazy fever and just a little scared is all
>>84086685>But you did cut yourself intentionally I guess so. Just wish I did more.>>84087257>Id say thats probably a good thingTo me then it must be a bad thing.. if its not bad enough
>>84085997>TeppuI'll start on it next.>Fire PunchOfficeanon just started on it as well actually, I'm seriously interested in what you think of it when you're done.>order the next two volumes tomorrowSwag>>84086089>ramondeRamonde?>>84086202>I'm eating some pocky so all is wellPockys always remind me of the UK and all my friends there >>84086274What are beans?>>84087614Thought it was intentional haha>>84089149How do philosophies want you dead?>>84089253Fever, probably. If it's from a cut treat it but otherwise you can just rest it off>>84089288>Just wish I did morePretty real
>>84089721>How do philosophies want you dead?Almost all ideologies are anti-individualistic the few ideologies that are individualistic are always capitalist dick suckersNo philosophy actually wants to protect individual libertyMost people are retarded cunts anyways, trying to understand their way of thinking is futile
i feel better today and i didnt cut more and im not going to eat today again and tomorrow i have to call doctor and i dont want to and i feel lonely i have one online friend i feel they are distanced themselves from me more and more and i understand why but im worried not having anyone again
>>84089721>What are beans?Cuts that reach the fat iirc when they heal they look like a bunch of beansI just need it to be clear that I used to be a cutter. Then Ill be content.
>>84090306finally. some good fucking content I can jerk off to. This thread is so fucking boring most of the time.
>>84090954sorry i got banned last time i showed cuts so i dont so much anymore
Today seems like it might be an odd day.>>84087446>i'll try to go for a jog next week. no promises, though.Ganbatte!>you could call the state i'm in a pressing reason. i feel like i'm falling apartI'm sorry to hear that, yuanon. I hope whatever's ailing you gets sorted.>>84087826>though i kinda forgot about it nowThat's good.I hope your headache cleared up.>>84088323I learned today that there's a new Pixar film. Had no idea it was being made or that it even came out.>>84089721>Pockys always remind me of the UK and all my friends thereIf I'm remembering right it's sold under the name Mikado there for some reason. No idea why.
Heading out again soon to visit family but will reply a bit after. Hope everyone is doing well and has a good day
bumpp bunp
hey guys waddup?went to the garage today to fix up a bikenow I'll relqx for a bit, I'll try to watch some movie and eat popcorn in the evening >>84089721check it out it's a japanese soda with a strange way to open it it's cool>>84090306hey anonI know it's not much but you can always talk with us :>how was your day? why do you have to call a doctor?btw pls spoiler images like that in the future >>84090995>might be an odd day.has it been odd so far?>>84091818have a fun timeat least as much as you can around them
>>84093087What movie are you thinking of watching?>has it been odd so far?Yeshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50iBA0Y8PJ8
>>84084978If I cut how likely is it being permanent? I have sensitive skin and previous medical procedures left permanent scar tissue.
>>84093776if your worried about it then dont do it
wassup guys. >>84093776>If I cut how likely is it being permanent? very, don't do it.
>>84085800>This is coming out at my theater as wellI'm amazed they have it here at all. I went yesterday and I was the only person in the entire theater for it lol>>84085844>might study mathwish you luck with that. Hope the extra time gives you some benefit, but don't push too hard if you were already ready>also how did the job thing go?interviews were fine, but no word on whether or not I get an offer until sometime next week. Imagine I won't be waiting too long, but lets wait and see>>84085997>but i'm completely out of ideas how to make it better,sorry to hear that. Normal feelings about stuff? hope weekend is doing some good>what about you?was a great weekend overall. Out yesterday at the arcade, manga shop, and movies were all around good times. Then family thing today wasn't bad either.>will you see it on your own or is someone going with you?100% alone. In fact I was only person at the theater seeing it. But ahh I enjoyed it. Cliche, silly, but I liked the characters involved in it. Was a lot of fun and had fun>>84086202>At you at liberty to share?ah not really. I think I complain enough, but anymore i'm going to be giving away too much info. It's just bad there, past even levels of bad I'd consider acceptable up until now>I probably would have said them by now.vast majority of people, only so much words can do. This isn't the type of thing to be fixed with that>which is pretty funny.insane how robust some of their vocabularies are. Most end up like and it's funny, but African Grey parrots are my biggest example of how smart birds can be>pretty much the same here.the thing is, no matter where they are they still act like this> being shuffled to another school.sounds about right sadly. My understanding is no matter how much a scumbag they are, fact they're white means they're in demand for english jobs since that's what most people want to see from the english teacher
>>84086202> I thought she was just being politethat makes me even more confident saying what I said. I've been pretty oblivious with stuff at times, but girls don't give chocolates to guys knowing what that be mistake for just to be polite... Not saying you need to do anything dramatic suddenly, but keep close and don't be afraid to try to do stuff back.>>84088323Alhamdulillah, he is found>>84093087wasn't terrible. I ate food and played Fate Grand Order on my phone after transferring my account off my old one. I'm afraid the level of gatcha I have on my phone is now unacceptable
>>84093087also have fun at the movies! I went yesterday to see the Umamusume movie and ate a ton of popcorn
>>84093728hello>watching?I watched naked gun>YesOwoin whar ways?https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xpZAqjkFazk>>84093776hey anonI don't know how it is with other people but even light cuts leave scars for me, unless they're on my hands >>84094359sounds like a chill day :3>>84094372waaat I didn't know there was a movie
>>84094452>sounds like a chill dayremarkable tired after doing so much this weekend. But still fun. You up to much now?>didn't know there was a movieit came out in japan like 2 years ago, just not got shown over here. There's also like 4 seasons worth of an anime. and unlocalized manga content I believe
i'm debating on asking my manager to leave to go to the hospital. i'm not actively freaking out, but i can't stop thinking about cutting myself, and i worry if i wait until my shift is over, i'm just going to skip the hospital and go home and cut myself a bunch. i don't want to but i can't stop thinking about going deeper and bleeding and i feel like a crazy person. i just don't know how to tell him any of this.
>>84094841i mean you dont have to say all that just tell them youre not feeling well and gotta go
Mikgazer kinda day>>84090940>Cuts that reach the fat iirc when they heal they look like a bunch of beansOh I've gotten one on accident, reattaching the skin is a pain.>>84093087>japanese soda with a strange way to open itOhhhh you mean Ramune, it's never been called ramonde here >>84093776Depends where and how deep>>84094333>only person in the entire theaterWant a solo viewing one day as well, John Woo is re-releasing killer so hopefully I get my chance then. Checked btw
All this talk of movies has made me find out there are a whole four being screened here that I'd like to look.Also that bruise from falling on my bedside table is huge and still black. The cut's mostly healed though.>>84094333>It's just bad there, past even levels of bad I'd consider acceptable up until nowI'll take your word for it then. Good luck leaving!>This isn't the type of thing to be fixed with thatI suppose it's down to introspection on her end but I can't force that on her.>African Grey parrots are my biggest example of how smart birds can beCrows are very smart from what I've heard as well. They can carry a grudge for 20 years and tell their friends to hate you too.>no matter where they are they still act like thisTrue, but I do wonder if they're the same in their native lands...>>84094359>Not saying you need to do anything dramatic suddenly, but keep close and don't be afraid to try to do stuff back.She seems to like what whatever it is that I'm doing, so I'll try not to change anything.>>84094452>I watched naked gunI've never seen that but I've been meaning to for years. Did you like it?>in whar ways?I woke up to a bunch of messages from my ex, which I'm trying my best to navigate. I think the consequences of what she's done have caught up with her and now she doesn't know what to do. Odd is the best way to describe it.>>84094841I think most managers would be let you leave to go to the hospital unless they're completely heartless.
>>84088086>maybe you're bored of something, don't you think? maybe you wanna try something new?hm. i think bored feels different. i'll to change up my workout routine, though. i think i need something a bit less exhausting.>work :?probably. i need to talk with my boss about some vacation.>i dont really get the chance to enjoythat happens a lot, i feel. if you do it for a job it sucks they enjoyment out of it and if you don't you can't make time. :[>and some of it can be very useless for the students' future jobmost of it is. i wish school would teach more about real life and less abstract concepts. leave that for higher education.>>84088900hi bib! good to see you!>Humans ruin every-fucking-thingpretty much. i wish they'd just make it possible not to care and just live for yourself, but that's not possible, either. it's a mess. that said, that's why we meet here, isn't it? to have an isle of sanity in this sea of madness. maybe come here more often and share your thoughts? sometimes getting them out helps.>>84089149>they all want me deadpretty much. at this point we can try to side with the least bad ones and that's mostly those that produced the western and (western aligned) world. sadly that's been overtaken by the most corrupt members of society. we need something new.>>84089721>I'll start on it next.hope you like it. it's not that long anyway if i remember right.>I'm seriously interested in what you think of it when you're donei'll order it tomorrow. i don't like to bother the staff of my lgs outside of opening hours. ^^'>Thought it was intentional hahanah. maybe it was because of the maintenance or because i was gone for too long.>>84090995>Ganbatte!o7>I hope whatever's ailing you gets sorted.you and me, both. ^^' i'll have to try something different. let's hope i figure out what.
>>84094333>Normal feelings about stuff? hope weekend is doing some goodyeah. i decided to get slay the spire 2. having something to focus on helps.>Out yesterday at the arcade, manga shop, and movies were all around good times. Then family thing today wasn't bad either.nice. :] what did you do/get and the arcade/shop? and what family stuff we talking about?>I was only person at the theater seeing it. the emptiest movie showing i ever webt to was dredd. just mey my friends a handful of other people.>But ahh I enjoyed it. Cliche, silly, but I liked the characters involved in it. Was a lot of fun and had funwhat was the plot? i can't really imagine what a movie in that ip would be about it the first place, but if you enjoyed it, that's all that matters.>>84094452>I watched naked gunwhich one? the new or the old movies?
>>84094762>remarkable tired afterbut I hope you get to rest though >You up to much nowjust watching new re game :>I actually really like it every though I didn't not care one bit about it when it came out and wasn't really interested but decided to check it out and it supposed me and sorta made me feel excited >came out in japan like 2 years ago, just not got shown over here.I see but there's a subtitled version available?>>84094841you should leave work earlier >>84095470>mean Ramuneyep yep that thing!ever had one of those?>>84095496>screened here that I'd like to look.which ones?? :o>table is hugeit's probably take a while to heal but I have heard of bruises causing any complications >Did you like it?pretty goodI enjoyed it>and now she doesn't know what toidk man or she realized she's losing grip of you>>84095719hey yuanon :D>>84095798>which one?the first old one I remember seeing bits and pieces of it on tv when I was a kid but I never seen it full until now mayyybe I'll watch the new one but idk
>>84095862hi catbro! :>>the first old onewatched it not to long ago. my favorite scene is when drebin and the gangster at the pier buy information from each other. no clue why, but that really got me. what's yours?>mayyybe I'll watch the new one but idkyou still got two old ones and the series to make up your mind. i haven't decided on it, either.
>>84096465>information from each other. nosame haha ^^ reminds me of a joke charborg would do desualso I liked the one where they were throwing things outside of the car window amd then the guy struggled to get the door open>still got two old onestechnically but honestly I'm not interested in those I always feel like sequence and threequels usually suck because they try to do what worked in the older movie but because of that it gets stale and then newest one might actually have something surprising in it btw hows your evening
forgot how much I enjoy Fate>>84095470>Want a solo viewing one day as wellIt's pretty neat. I don't mind other people since past times i've got haven't had any bad experiences with people being rude during films, but it does feel like you own the place sorta. That and no one hears when you start singing along with the credits song though umamusume fans would get it>Checked btwunstoppable day>>84095496>whole four being screened here that I'd like to look.> is huge and still blackas long as it's healing. Sort of how it is shocking how bad some can look while still be fine>carry a grudge for 20 years and tell their friends to hate you too.hear stories about people or their pets pissing them off and regretting it. Quite fond of them as well. Remember seeing videos of some guy in Russia with a crow and they are amazingly bright with puzzles they can solve and do have the same affectionate behavior you see with other birds> if they're the same in their native landsthe case I knew of directly was a bit of a bum in his homeland, so think it's like most things losers trying to lord over other people and act better than others in ways they know they can't get away with back home. Nothing wrong with going overseas because things home aren't great, but don't need to then act how they do>I'll try not to change anything.sounds like a good idea, but prioritizing spending time and maybe escalating slightly if you get more confident about things. Thing you're in a good place time being
sup guys, another quiet tarkov day today. tried out the vector and it shreds but its hard to keep on target lol. hopefully tomorrow will be quiet too so i can go paint more of my miniatures.
>>84095798> having something to focus on helps.new game is always good way to distract yourself i suppose> what did you do arcaderhythm games and claw games. Got a mini anime plushie that I actually quite like a lot and a new Miku figure.>get shopnext volume I needed for Fire Punch.>family stuff we talking about?someones birthday semi celebration. Had some food, saw my brother, and mostly played FGO and Umamusume when my dad was off on his political tangent>what was the plot?[insert horse girls name] wanted to be fasted horse girl, but [insert rival horse girls name] stood in her way. Honestly, it's like the anime seasons (which there are 4 of) just condensed, it's all the same formula. Slightly different events (they loosely adapt real world stuff like the rival getting hurt and having to stop), but in the end the appeal is if you like the individual horse girls characters, watching over dramatic races, seeing silly anime-ness, and hearing the songs in theaters. It's not great as a movie, but it's fun if you like the franchise.>>84095862>I hope you get to rest thoughi will at very least sleep before working lol>just watching new re gameah requiem? have you finished watching the whole game?>made me feel excitedyeah, I don't care for newer resident evil, but heard they have older style with more action parts which does sound appealing, since I didn't like first person re> but there's a subtitled version available?yep, this one is subtitled when i saw. no official dub, so only way to go
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>>84095166>>84095496>>84095862update: i never told him anything but he asked if i wanted to leave an hour early so i did. i'm considering going to the er but i'm scared they'll commit me and i'm not financially capable of doing that right now, i'm out of sick time and already behind on bills. i owe my roommate money too and i feel horrible thinking about putting her through this, i wish i could be a better friend
texting 988 makes me feel like such a loser
>>84084978I don't know why /cut/ exists, no offense.In all the topics, people are talking about completely random things, and only one or two people actually talk about self-harm.
>>84096518>reminds me of a joke charborg would do desuthat man has some quality humor, then.>the one where they were throwing things outside of the car window amd then the guy struggled to get the door openjust thinnking about it made me laugh, but now i wonder what that stuff was. need to find out.>I always feel like sequence and threequels usually suck because they try to do what worked in the older movie but because of that it gets staleyou're not wrong. the movie is basically a best of from the series and the other two are alright, but not as good as the first one.>newest one might actually have something surprising in ittrue. i think i'll give it a go whenever it hits one of the streaming services i have access to.>hows your eveninghad to charge my phone and got lost in slay the spire 2. good game so far. >>84096900hi chev!>>84096909>is always good way to distract yourself i supposeplayed it for 11 hours already. maybe this was a mistake...>Got a mini anime plushie that I actually quite like a lot and a new Miku figure.man, you really know your way around those arcade machines. which figure is it?>next volumeyeah. hope i don't forget to write my local store tomorrow. which volume are you on?>mostly played FGO and Umamusume when my dad was off on his political tangentbest way to deal with those. i can feel myself wanting to rant more and more these days as well. hard to just shut up sometimes, but usually for the best.>it's like the anime seasons (which there are 4 of)i always forget that it's not just the game.>It's not great as a movie, but it's fun if you like the franchise.i had a similar feeling about the cowboy bebop movie. the plot itself is nothing you couldn't have had as an episode of the series. it's just animated better and longer. still good, but nothing spectecular.>>84097087good night! sorry for disappearing. :/
>>84097197>but he asked if i wanted to leave an hour early so i didmaybe he figured out that something was wrong. can be more obvious than we want it to be. still nice, though.>i'm scared they'll commit me and i'm not financially capable of doing that right nowdepends a lot on where you're from and how things are handled there, i suppose. if you can't trust them not to keep you there, maybe some sort of anonymous hotline could be an option.>i wish i could be a better friendyou're having a hard time. i'm sure she understands.>>84097691>I don't know why /cut/ exists, no offense.none taken. most of us have been here for a long time and see each other as friends, so it's more about the "mutual support" part at this point. we just talk about whatever comes to mind. anyways, how are you? doing well?
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>>84084978for a cutter thread you barely cut yourselves at all. some of you haven't cut yourself in over a year why tf are you on here?
Sosa kinda morning>>84095719>not that long anywayI'll start on it now then since Rekidou is probably longer.>i don't like to bother the staff of my lgs outside of opening hours. ^^'LGS? I've only ever seen that acronym used for local gun store, what's it's meaning here?>>84095862>ever had one of those?I've seen them at an Asian import place before but never had one, no.>>84097600Better than calling 911...
does cutting yourself actually feel good or is it like an attention self pity thing
>>84097691well, it's not a cutting general, it's a cutters general SH related questions and topics are welcome but mostly we just talk about our days and thoughtsI doesn't and it can't be all about cutting, there's only so much that can be said about that
>>84097691>>84099149just did now are we on topic enoughit hurtss
>>84100123Feels kinda good bro, not gonna hold you. I'm also a blood fetishist, but I prefer puncture wounds now.
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hey guysI went on a little bikeride again today waddup?>>84099623>seen them at an Asian import placemaybe you should try it>>84100123works differently on different people though I never got the attention insult I feel if someone is so starved for attention they physically hurt themselves, then they're not alright at all and it's more than just simply looking for attention >>84100320make sure to patch yourself up anondo you have some steristrips?
>>84100320how did you you manage to go that wide? i can get deep but not wide, idk how people do it
>>84101889it always goes wide when you go deep
>>84084978>How are you doing today?better now that i discovered this thread>Any plans for today?video games and a dr appointment>When was the last time you hurt yourself?a few minutes ago,still bleeding>Why did you hurt yourself?i just had the urge to>Is there anything bothering you right now?my gf is coming home from college next week for spring break and she's going to see how much worse my obsession with cutting myself has gotten
>>84101863i dont have steristrips and i just let it dry out and its not bleedingi went to doctor today and theyy gave me benzos though
Hello friends. May or may not have made a huge work-related mistake today by arriving mid-way through something I should have been there the whole time for. Hopefully I'll be alright but I'm pretty sure my funding might be implicated if things go badly.>>84095719>i'll have to try something different. let's hope i figure out what.Maybe it'll come to you in the shower. That's where I get all my best ideas.>>84095862>which ones?? :oKill Bill, Rental Family, a niche German film I've been meaning to watch for years, and a musical I like. Very surprised by the last two.>it's probably take a while to heal but I have heard of bruises causing any complicationsUsually they heal up pretty fast for me (I'm constantly getting them on my shins) but this looks like it'll take a while.>pretty goodHave you ever watched Airplane?>idk man or she realized she's losing grip of youMaybe. Having talked to her for a bit I don't think it's that though. I does just seem like she's processing a lot and somehow found the courage to talk to me.>>84096816>Sort of how it is shocking how bad some can look while still be fineIt doesn't hurt or anything but it's easily the worst looking I've ever had. If it were anywhere else people would think I'm a domestic violence victim...>they are amazingly bright with puzzles they can solve and do have the same affectionate behavior you see with other birdsA lot of animals are smarter than you'd expect. I've heard raccoons are pretty intelligent as well, about as smart as three-year-olds.>was a bit of a bum in his homelandThat makes sense. It's not like going to Asia is some kind of MK Ultra activation code.>prioritizing spending time and maybe escalating slightlyShe's on vacation in Osaka right now but we should be spending some time together on Monday.>>84096900>hopefully tomorrow will be quiet too so i can go paint more of my miniatures.How do you go about painting them? With a spray can or a brush?
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woah.. what a day..only few hours made me use a lot of my poweri walked a lot and had to face anxiety so i could reply to an old man talking to me outside my house that decided he wants to visit my family. he's a good man but it's a bit hard for me to do this.>>84094333>Hope the extra time gives you some benefitthankshow are you today?>no word on whether or not I get an offer until sometime next weekwell, i wish you the best!>>84095719>i think i need something a bit less exhausting.maybe. changing that also sounds goodhow are you feeling now? any better?>i need to talk with my boss about some vacation.sounds good! did you talk with him yet?>if you do it for a job it sucks they enjoyment out of ityeah that's tiring :[>leave that for higher education.idk if schools outside are better in that case D:>>84101863yo cat>bikeridewas it a long bikeride this time?
>>84102047hello anon>better now that i discovered this threadglqd to hear that >video games and a dr appointmentwhat r u gonna play?and good luck with that appointment >ago,still bleedingmake sure to patch yoursel up well anon>my gf is coming home from college next weeknice :>>she's going to see how much worse my obsession with cuttingI see and do you plan to stop cutting any time soon?>>84102358it'll probably heal like that too but you'll be left with a big mark >went to doctor today and theyy gave me benzos thoughwhy?>>84102426hello>have made a huge work-related mistakehope everything goes well with thatmaybe you're just too worried?>Very surprised by the last twohave fun with those :D >constantly getting them on my shinssame >ever watched Airplane?nope>just seem like she's processing a lot and somehow found the courage to talk tomaybe but I am a lil worried>>84103217heya>few hours made me use a lot of my powerare you going to be tired for the rest of the day?>it a long bikeride this time?nope but I might go out a longer one next wednesday
Hi, I'm new to this thread, what's up??? Listen, I don't know how much time I have left. Either I kill the kids who bully me or I kill myself.
>>84103338hey anonwaddup?>what's up???I'm doing pretty good, having fun on the internet >who bullywho's bullying you? why?how do you want to kill them?what if you just scare them instead of killing them? like pepper spray them?>kill myself.don't even consider it
>>84084978>How are you doing today?Not good, barely keeping it together.>Any plans for today?I'm gonna try to be creative for a few hours, then hit the gym. I'll go home and watch anime to calm down.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?A few minutes ago.>Why did you hurt yourself?Anger and depression. I'm frustrated with my job situation, how I can't find work no matter how hard I try, and every job I've had has made me want to kill myself. My life feels so goddamn hopeless and meaningless and I want to end it all already.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Besides the above, I wish I could be a knight. Not a "realistic knight" but the kind from fantasy novels. I wanna ride around in a suit of armor and help those in need. I want to slay dragons and rescue peasant villages from danger but instead I'm forced to retype the information already on my resume into the job application form.I might kill myself. Cutting is the closest thing I have to suicide.
>>84103830hellodon't friggin kill yourself that's the rule number one fren>barely keeping it together.I'm wondering what could you do to calm down a little bitWhat's the weather where u live now? could you get a drink, sit outside for a bit or open the window, and just look at the world going by?>try to be creativewhat u gonna do?>I'll go home and watch anime to calm down.good callwhat are you going to watch >few minutes ago.patch yourself up :>>how I can't find work no matter how hard I trya lot of people like that nowadays it's fucked I really enjoyed the lockdowns during covid and so on but it really has taught companies how little employees they actually need to make money, ao instead of hiring new people you can overworked the existing ones and becouse oh how the system they created theee people won't be able to find a job elsewhere wo you can overwork them even moreplus you can plus cheep overseas labor online, plus AI now All while there are individual people with more money than whole countries profiting off of this and make sure it doesn't get better Just a little rant sry Sending hugs
>>84103217>only few hours made me use a lot of my powerAre you experiencing blackouts?>>84103290>maybe you're just too worried?Probably. I re-read the email and I think I should be fine.>have fun with those :DI'm not sure how fun the German one is, but I'm very interested in watching it.>nopeYou might enjoy it, it's pretty similar. Top Secret is good too.>maybe but I am a lil worriedI appreciate you always looking out for me, /cat/. I will proceed with caution.>>84103338I wouldn't recommend killing yourself or anyone else.Are you the same age as them or are they much younger?>>84103830Are you able to get any certifications? That might help with finding a job, although the job market's been pretty horrendous for a while...Like the other anon, I would recommend against killing yourself.
>>84103338give me 400 roubux
>>84103338i'm sure there are other solutions, not "other" cuz the two options you mentioned aren't even solutions.now tell us anon, what is exactly happening? how are they bullying you?>>84103290>are you going to be tired for the rest of the day?nah i'm chilling>nope but I might go out a longer one next wednesdayyou mean the wednesday of the next week?>>84104243>Are you experiencing blackouts?not exactly "blackouts" but idk what to call it. it wasn't THAT bad this time though.
>>84104243>>84104243>re-read the email and I think I should be fine.:D >You might enjoy it,I'll keep it in mind though I feel the next movie I'll watch might be shin Godzilla >I will proceed with caution.you better o7so how's are you spending your day now?>>84104459>i'm chillingyay :>playin games?>the wednesdayyep this wednesday
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>>84084978>How are you doing today?Alright>Any plans for today?Not really, maybe talk with my boyfriend before bed>When was the last time you hurt yourself?This morning>Why did you hurt yourself?I had the urge and wasn't in the right headspace, my arms felt too bland>Is there anything bothering you right now?How shitty the suicide hotline is
School of death kinda day>>84101863>maybe you should try itOne day.>>84102426>funding might be implicated if things go badly.Should be fine if you don't have a history of messing up deadlines.>Kill BillAre they screening the whole bloody affair? I missed out on seeing it, only ever saw Kill Bill 1 and 2 separately through streaming.>>84103830>can't find work no matter how hard I tryHave you tried job agencies? I'm seeing one sometime this week, they managed to get me a job last time in around a month.>AnimeWhatchu watching?
>>84104067>What's the weather where u live now? The weather was quite nice today. That helped me calm down a bit.>what u gonna do?Did a little bit of writing and drawing practice. Not much, but it's better than nothing.>what are you going to watchFate / Stay Night and Serial Experiments Lain. Rather dark and confusing anime but I still like them. I want to watch more but exhaustion's seeping in.>Just a little rant sryIt just seems like everyone is fucked and there's no solution. Hence I don't understand what there even is to live for.>Sending hugsThank you, the kitties are so cute!>>84104243>I would recommend against killing yourself.I know but the pain is so fucking great man. Even unemployed I'm miserable. With the added stress of a job I'll probably feel better. I just want that bittersweet release. I can't get myself to go all the way and that frustrates me.
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>>84104459>not exactly "blackouts" but idk what to call it. it wasn't THAT bad this time though.Brownouts?>>84104503>the next movie I'll watch might be shin GodzillaThat's good fun. Especially if you like Eva.>so how's are you spending your day now?It was the end of the day so I just went to bed. Today I think I'll recover from yesterday and watch a movie.>>84106221>Should be fine if you don't have a history of messing up deadlines.The people that needed to see it saw it, which is all that matters.>Are they screening the whole bloody affair?They are. It's on in a couple of hours so I figure I may as well swing by and give it a look.it's been close to a decade since I last watched it, I think so I'm excited to watch it again. Jesus, I just looked at the runtime... I hope there's an intermission.>>84106752>With the added stress of a job I'll probably feel better.Maybe you could volunteer somewhere. It's not quite a job but it should give you some structure, which might help.
>>84097900>maybe this was a mistakeas long as you had fun. Though if 11 hours straight... Yeah a bit much>which figure is it?just another Miku like I said. Though specifically the 2025 birthday edition one that they must have had left overs of and wanted to get rid ofhttps://www.amazon.com/Thunder-Tech-Hatsune-Birthday-Figure/dp/B0FV2SK47YI have an army of these types of figures I'm too good at winning.>which volume are you on?5 now so past half way. Really does get weirder lol>i always forget that it's not just the game.there's the game, anime, that movie, apparently manga one shots, and the absurd number of songs they release even outside of the ones from the game. It's a lot of sameness in all of it, really hinges on you being the type of person who gets emotionally attached to your horse girl(s) of choice>still good, but nothing spectecular.honestly, I spent like 10 bucks for my ticket, and another 15 for snacks. As long as these "not really a movie" anime films aren't full price, I don't see a problem with it and most cinemas aren't at full capacity half time anyway for any film so a handful of people seeing over 2 weekends probably isn't bad and I do enjoy the snacks>>84101863missed posting Monday, but hope you're doing well >>84102426hope everything is okay.> If it were anywhere else people would think I'm a domestic violence victimor they think you get in a lot of fights and don't want to mess with you. That's when you confidently turn and say "should have seen what I did to the other guy!">A lot of animals are smarter than you'd expect.Indeed. You mentioned raccoons makes me think of rodents too. A lot of the undesirable "pest" species are since they have to be to survive at all> not like going to Asia is some kind of MK Ultra activation code.problem is a lot of them seem to act like it is and acting like an ass abroad will get applause, which I suppose in some ways it does, but only from the lowest of the low
>>84103217>only few hours made me use a lot of my powerhope whatever the situation there is improves. It does sound like a good way to live working around that all D:>how are you today?very very busy but not bad. Happy today seems like it will be more relaxed though
>>84105590hey anon>had the urge and wasn't in the right headspacestay safe does your bf know about this?>>84106221haywddup?>>84106752Hello how are you feeling today?any better?wanna share any drawings?>>84107653>Today I think I'll recover from yesterday and watch a movie.have a nice time :D>>84108584hey yep I'm well :3how are you?
relapsed after like 7 years a few weeks agoat first i was disappointed in myself but its kind of humbling to remember that relapses happen even if you're really far along your mental health journey idk
>>84108584>hope everything is okay.I was probably just being neurotic.>A lot of the undesirable "pest" species are since they have to be to survive at allThat makes sense. Learning about cockroaches is pretty wild as well.>a lot of them seem to act like it is and acting like an ass abroad will get applauseIn the back of my mind I'm always worried people might think I'll act like that>>84109657>have a nice time :DThanks /cat/. I had a lot of fun watching it.>>84109672Everyone falters now and then but that's just part of progress. Hopefully you don't make a habit of it.
>>84103290>what r u gonna play?gmod, far cry 5, and trepang2 (highly recommend)>make sure to patch yoursel up well anoni always do ^.^>and do you plan to stop cutting any time soon?i should, but i rlly dont want to
>>84104503>playin games?i played a bit>this wednesday:Di too have some time now for walking out but im not doing it for some reason>>84107653>Brownouts?well maybe lol>>84108598>hope whatever the situation there is improvesthanks!>Happy today seems like it will be more relaxed thoughglad to hear that! hmm it's been hours, are you still feeling good?
>>84109672yep dw about it anon, relapses happen why did u relapse btw?>>84110336>had a lot of fun watching it.what movie did ya watch??>>84110389>gmod, far cry 5, and trepang2sounds like a great gaming time :3why'd contraposition have you made in g mod today? (I'm a big source and half-life fan btw)>always do ^.^good :>>should, but i rlly dont want towhy? you just like doing that?I think that is okay but I feel you should try to make sure you have control over it and can stop whenever you want to>>84111032heya>played a bitwhat about today??how it going?for me it was a nice chill day pretty much >>84111032>:D:DD>i too have some time now for walking out ooo really? you can relax?>not doing it for some reasonmaybe you don't know any cool places to walk to?
Since my mother died 3 years ago all I wanna do is make a shrapnel bomb and immolate myself in a rich people event and take as many faggots as i can
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No offense to you lads, but i feel like at least some of you are probably not old enough to post here, and if you are i truly reccomend you go talk nigh anywhere else other than maybe twitter i suppose.
>>84099623>LGS? I've only ever seen that acronym used for local gun store, what's it's meaning here?the g stands for game in that case. store has all sorts of nerdstuff, but it's mostly trading card games, tabletop games and manga.>>84102426>May or may not have made a huge work-related mistake todaysorry, dude. :< hope it turned out not that bad.>Maybe it'll come to you in the shower. That's where I get all my best ideas.i usually avoid thinking while showering, but i could give it a try...>>84103217hi rem! >changing that also sounds goodhow are you feeling now? any better?about the same. having fun with slay the spire 2, though.>did you talk with him yet?didn't have the chance. maybe tomorrow.>idk if schools outside are better in that case D:not like they're any good right now. :/>>84103338hey anon. welcome to the thread!>>84103830hi okabe! >barely keeping it togetherrelatable. :[>I'm gonna try to be creative for a few hours, then hit the gym. I'll go home and watch anime to calm down.good day in my book. hope you had fun>I wish I could be a knightwhile not as glamorous, you could look into working for some ngo or do some voluntary work. might get you some connections and into a job you might enjoy more.>I might kill myself. Cutting is the closest thing I have to suicide.hope you don't
>>84111613hay anonsorry about your mom>shrapnel bomb and immolate myselfyou shouldn't have you thought about trying therapy? or something like that?>>84111987hellowho are you talking about?anyways look like your cut scarred pretty well>>84112035I sorta agree with you anon especially about the twitter part though at the same time, if you were someone in that position where else should you go I'm not saying here's a good place, but at least it's anonymous and at least this thread, doesn't encourage people to hurt themselves more >>84112143hey yuanon :Dyou had a nice day?
>>84108584>Yeah a bit muchcan confirm.>just another Miku like I saidwell, there's a lot of those. ^^>I have an army of these types of figures I'm too good at winning.at least being good at something is rewarded for once. pretty nice stuff to get for winning at an arcade, though.>Really does get weirder loli'll try to brace myself.>really hinges on you being the type of person who gets emotionally attached to your horse girl(s) of choicei suppose there's no point to not just follow the releases that focus on specific characters. it's a strange way of engaging with an ip like that, though actually not that different from wargaming in that regard.>As long as these "not really a movie" anime films aren't full price, I don't see a problem with it makes sense. cinemas get more and more expensive here and focus more one "the experience". guess they have to do something to get people to spend money, but they could start with showing more interesting or at least novel movies. if we ever get anime movies, it's just the big ones. took them long enough to show anime in general, though.>>84109672good way of thinking, anon. don't beat yourself up about it too much.>>84112199hey catbro! :] how are you today?>you had a nice day?just a regular one, i'm afraid. just work and now watching some stream. you?
>>84109657Sorry for late replyNo he doesnt
>>84112253hey heyjust relaxing and watching reI'm going to go on a bikeride tomorrow :3>just a regular onebetter then bad igwhat's on the stream?>>84112286>Sorry for late replyno worries ^^>No he doesntthat sounds like it could cause issues are you planning to stop hurting yourself or your feel it's beyond your control?
>>84112587>just relaxing and watching rewho are you watching? >I'm going to go on a bikeride tomorrow :3glad it's biking season again. have fun! how long will the ride be?>better then bad igthere's a difference? jk>what's on the stream?some guys playing mechabellum, but i'm looking for something else to listen to whilenplaying some more sts2.
>>84084978>>How are you doing today?I'm scared. im trying to do an IOP program online at this place called charlie health, but the people there are very weird.>>Any plans for today?Drawing and the group therapy>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?February 28th>>Why did you hurt yourself?>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I am struggling with wanting to go to those group therapies. i think i like my individual therapist though, but im a tranny and a lesbian scared me last group therapy, so i swapped groups, and now im in a weird hugbox group that i have too many brainwurms for.online IOP isn't for me.
eleepy>>84112681>are you watching?the librarian guy :>>have fun! how long will the ride be?thank you :DI'm happy about it tooit's going to be around 30km one way>there's a difference?you don't wanna know >looking for something else to listen to whilenplaying some more sts2.hm I'll think if I have something to recommend >>84112829heya>IOP programwhat is that?>but the people there are very weird.do they seem like someone you should avoid?>Drawingnice :Dwhat are these characters?>am struggling with wanting to go to those group therapiesI guess you don't feel they help?you should be able to quit thise and just talk to your therapist, right?
>>84112915hiii cat>>IOP program>what is that?it stand for intensive outpaitent program. is like a transition between a hospitalization and outpaitent weekly therapy. for me its group therapy 3 hours a day on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. plus 1hr a week individual therapy on wednesday.>do they seem like someone you should avoid?no, like when theres not someone running the group around, they can say stuff to me, but i try to calm down from it.>what are these characters?yee, left side is gangle and then zooble from amazing digital circus. I like gangle the most tho, she's literally me frfr.right side is practicing hands and doing a quick sketch of my lunch pot and bowl>>am struggling with wanting to go to those group therapies>I guess you don't feel they help?kinda, im trying to use them as a way to start socializing with people again and letting go of the control i have in isolating myself to my room as a NEET>you should be able to quit thise and just talk to your therapist, right?Yee, i think so that I can keep my individual therapist when I leave, but they are also doing other stuff like psych med managment too.I think ill go back for the rest of group. i think talking with friends on discord is lowkey better ithan group therapy, i just want to practice socializing again before going into a chat with friends/
>>84111562>why'd contraposition have you made in g mod today? (I'm a big source and half-life fan btw)nice to see another source fan :D i'm less into contraptions and building and more into zombie survival and roleplay servers>why? you just like doing that?pretty much, i just get the urge to feel that specific kind of pain>I think that is okay but I feel you should try to make sure you have control over it and can stop whenever you want toit's started to get out of control for a while but im finally in a headspace where i can keep myself from doing it too often. i dont think i need professional help or anything, just some will power.
>>84112829hello lupron! o/>I am struggling with wanting to go to those group therapiesmakes sense after your experiences. :/ hope you find something that suits you better.>>84112915>eleepysame. i'll head to bed soon. in fact, i'm already there! :0>the librarian guy :>ah, yes. i saw it in my feed, but the guy has so many series running at the same time i always forget what he's playing. @.@>it's going to be around 30km one wayso about 60 in total? what's your average tour-length these days?>you don't wanna knowi guess not ^^>I'll think if I have something to recommendthanks. no worries, though. i'll just watch neon mushroom play some premodern mtg. that puts me to sleep.>>84113244hi blank!>Could be doing betterword>Maybe I'll play some vidya. Probably just go to sleep early.that's what i did and what i'm going to do now. what are you playing?>I'm trying to avoid that.that's for the best. stay strong. (*^*)9>I dunno, its just a habit at this pointif it's just habit, do you think you could replace it with something less destructive?>Nightmaresthat's intense, but i don't think you read too much into the contents of those dreams. you're not a bad person for having them. that said, your sleep is getting disturbed and that's pretty bad in of itself. ever thought about getting a sleep test?>>84113259damn. sorry to hear that your parents are doing that to you. do you have to interact with them or can you maybe at least reduce contact?gonna head to bed now. good night.
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Smile bomb kinda day.>>84107653>They are. It's on in a couple of hours so I figure I may as well swing by and give it a look.What'd you think of it?>>84109657Nothing much, just went to the gym and read YuYuHakusho. Was a really good pull day, and I found some nice YuYuHakusho doujins.>>84112143>the g stands for game in that case. store has all sorts of nerdstuff, but it's mostly trading card games, tabletop games and manga.Ahh that makes sense, my local one also hosts stuff like Yu-Gi-Oh matches and sells anime related stuff. Wish there were more places to get otaku stuff but that's more a thing in major cities.>>84112829Before expanding the image kinda looks like a guys tatted back, funky doodles.>>84113244Nice kit.
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Hello friends. Hope everyone is doing alright.>>84111032>well maybe lolThat sucks. Hopefully whatever's causing them gets sorted.>>84111562>what movie did ya watch??Kill Bill: The Whole Bloody Affair (parts 1 and 2 put together into one really long movie)>>84112143>sorry, dude. :< hope it turned out not that bad.I think I'll be alright. The people that needed to see my work saw it and probably didn't even know I showed up late.>i usually avoid thinking while showering, but i could give it a try...What else can you do in the shower? Sing?>>84113244Those nightmares sound horrible. I'm sorry that you keep having them.Are you taking any medications/supplements/herbal things? Those might be causing them. My sister started having incredibly vivid nightmares after she started taking one.>>84114938>What'd you think of it?Just a very well made, fun movie. The writing's a little flimsy but everything else about it is great and kino for the sake of kino.
i cut off a friend because i kept asking for hugs/headpats and now im alone and its final weeks which adds to the strain so im always tempted to hurt myself even after seeing a distressing image
>>84116841Don't do that, anon. We can give virtual hugs here if you'd like.
>>84116858thank you. she was nice so im always tempted to. virtual hugs would be nice
on a bike ride :D>>84117062hey anon catch a big one from me
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I'm home :D bunp
She's gone cold on me and I fear that /cat/ may have been right in thinking she just wanted to get her grippy socks on me... At least I'm not that upset this time.In other news, I'm looking into doing a little project with Meshtastic, and my bruise has a T shape missing from it where the cut's healed, which looks pretty funky.>>84117062/hug
>>84118960Hello :]>>84118702>>84118960>She's gone cold on me:/> I fear that /cat/ may have been right I guess it's just a pattern she does >least I'm not that upset this time.that's good c:>Meshtastichope you have fun with it what's that?sounds like a 3d sorta thingie>bruise has a T shape missing from it where the cut's healedthat's unexpected
>>84119183>what's that?It's a messaging service that runs on little radios on a frequency you don't need a license for. Each radio serves as a repeater so the coverage gets bigger and messages can go over a longer distance.I have no idea what the coverage is like where I live, but if I'm lucky I might be able to chat with a couple of radio nerds. I live in an area full of high-rises so the coverage might suck.There's a competing standard called Meshcore which seems to work better with more users, so I might give that a try as well to see if anyone's using it.It doesn't cost much to try so it might be worth looking into if you need a project and have $15 to spare. >that's unexpectedYeah, it looks really weird. No sign of the bruise going away yet, unfortunately, but I probably need to give it a while before worrying.
>>84119345oo that's cool I remember watching stuff about pirate radio stations, that stuff is very cool to me though I don't really understand any of it >but I probably need to give it a while before worrying.yep don't worry :>unless it like, hurts a lot
>>84120171hey anon>woke up from another nightmare was it bad?>probably slept 16 hours, I don't even feel refreshedhappens to me too whenever I sleep more than 10 hours
>>84120598yeah that sounds pretty horrible anonI wonder if there's a way to make this shit not happen to you
>>84114938>my local one also hosts stuff like Yu-Gi-Oh matches and sells anime related stuffmine does other tcgs. mostly magic, one piece and pokemon, though it's more like a daycare center when the pokemon league is on. shops to small for that.>that's more a thing in major cities.true. had to drive at least 40 minutes to find stuff like that before the store opened in my town. really lucky it's here, so i try to buy there whenever i can.>>84115880>The people that needed to see my work saw it and probably didn't even know I showed up late.that's a relief. always stressful when stuff like that happens.>What else can you do in the shower? Sing?no. if i sing, i do it while driving. haven't done that in ages, though. i just let the water hit me and don't do anything else. guess it's a bit like meditation for me.>>84117062pic related>>84120171>It's a persistent issue, I've had nightmares of being strangled my entire lifehm. i guess recurring dreams are a thing, but yours are quite drastic.>I've tried EMDRnever heard about that before, but sounds interesting. how did you find it?>probably slept 16 hours, I don't even feel refreshed at allsleep is good, but there also is too much of a good thing. reminds me a lot of my worst period of depression. slept through whole days back then.>I dunno how much longer I can take this.understandable. maybe you should look into sleep laboratories and see if they can tell you what's wrong.
Beat super metroid, amazing game. I beat the whole thing blind save for one roadblock that confused me, 14 hours with 66% completion. Easily one of my favorite games of all time now, cool movement and theres good challenge in the puzzles.>>84121025Hallo yuanon, what's up?>>84120171>arts and craftsWhaddya make?>also okay at cutting fleshNice, cuttings a pain without the right tools, tho that's probably for the best. I miss my box cutter...>>84118960Boss up>>84115880>great and kino for the sake of kino.Awesomesauce
rather not talk about it just do that shit
got these bitches saying yeah he bump that shit
umthe benzos are working
hey good morning fellas c:
>>84123585benzos work for literally everythingwhat u taking it for? i it like a long term prescribed mediine?
Saw a shrink today. She looks a lot like Lucy Liu (one of my very few celebrity crushes). I got some more messages from my ex after that, saying some nice things about me. Such is the life of a sensitive young man.>>84119929>though I don't really understand any of itMe either, but I figured it would be a fun project. Unfortunately I've not been able to connect to anyone yet, so I might need to get a better antenna or try from somewhere with line of sight...>unless it like, hurts a lotI don't feel anything unless I press on it, so I'm not too worried.>>84121025>always stressful when stuff like that happens.The worst part was it would have been entirely preventable if I either woke up earlier, or put the right date in my calendar...>i just let the water hit me and don't do anything else. guess it's a bit like meditation for meI see. I usually just use the time to have conversations with myself.>>84121673>Boss upI'm trying my best.>AwesomesauceWhat did you think of Kill Bill?
>>84124254cute pic !you always post very cute pictures>Saw a shrinkhow did that go?>got some more messages from my exD:>not been able to connect to anyone yet,well best of luck maybe you should try from some high spot like a roof
>>84125050hello>>84125050>they'll decrease. Ironically they happen less the more stressed I amthat's interesting I guess you're to tired to have nightmares >completely tense all the timeI've heard of that being a thing I wonder if there's a way to stop that>>84125081idk what I'll ro but probably do stuff on the puter I'll think about what kind of map I'd like to make
>>84121673Also, did you learn how to shine spark by the end?>>84124980>you always post very cute picturesThank you. Cute things makes life worth living!>how did that go?I think it went alright. It was nice to talk to someone about this stuff.>maybe you should try from some high spot like a roofThat's the plan. I'll try taking it to somewhere that isn't blocked by a bunch of buildings tomorrow.>>84125081>It's nice you can be on good terms with your exTo be honest things with her have been very confusing and messy since she left, and she's only now started to open up again and seems to regret it four months later.I started posting here to get advice for dealing with her self-harm, but ended up staying after the anons really helped me get through the breakup. They have pretty varied feelings about whether I should even be talking to her at all...
>>84125571>Cute things makes life worth living!agreed :D>was nice to talk to someone about this stuff.and what did you hear from her?>I'll try taking it to somewhere that isn't blocked by a bunch of buildings tomorrow best of luck!and how are you going to spend the rest of your day?
>>84126436>and what did you hear from her?She mostly just asked how I was doing. It was nice to get it off my chest, I suppose. Not much actionable stuff to do, since there isn't much.>and how are you going to spend the rest of your day?I should think about sleeping soon. I mostly just slacked off today to be honest.
>>84084978>>How are you doing today?A little better. I passed an interview for a better job, so I'll be back on my feet soon.>>Any plans for today?not really. just watching jjk and finishing spy x family.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I don't know how I'm gonna juggle everything, but I guess I'll figure it out. >>84124202cat
>>84126721>nice to get it off my chestnice :>are you going to visit there again?how expensive was it?>should think about sleeping soon. how late is it over there?>mostly just slacked off today to be honest.resting is important !>>84126728heyaa>passed an interview for a better jobof course you did ^^>just watching jjk and finishing spy x family.have a nice chill time !>don't know how I'm gonna jugglehow much stuff is there to juggle?>catmeow
>>84126921>are you going to visit there again?Maybe eventually if something else crops up.>how expensive was it?It's a work provided one, so I didn't have to pay anything, thankfully.>how late is it over there?People will be waking up in a couple of hours...>resting is important !Indeed, but so is working!
>>84121673hi togata!>Beat super metroidi've played a lot of metroidvanias, but i think i tend to favor the "vania" part if i think about the games i've played. hm. i wonder if there's indie games that borrow more from metroid.>Easily one of my favorite games of all time nowit's beloved for a reason :>>what's up?not much. just work. now i'm home. how are you?>>84124202hey catbro! how's it going?>>84124254>one of my very few celebrity crushesnot sure if possibly being attracted to a therapist is a good thing, but as long as you're aware of it, there should be no harm. reminds me of the time a friend went to group therapy and asked out his therapist after it was clear the group wouldn't continues. she told him that she'd be interested, but already is in a relationship. he felt good about the whole thing, so i wrestled the "she's good..." down and decided not to comment. it was a hard battle. >Such is the life of a sensitive young man.it's rough out there. stay safe.>it would have been entirely preventable if I either woke up earlier, or put the right date in my calendar...yeah, i fucked up really badly by oversleeping recently as well. even did set the alarm, but set it to the wrong day...>I usually just use the time to have conversations with myself.usually the most engaging ones. what ideas did you come up with like that?>>84125050>Psychologist referral. It was expensive and didn't workdifferent approaches work for different people, but it sucks you had to spent money on trying. :/>>84126728hey cynic! :D>I passed an interview for a better job, so I'll be back on my feet soon.let's gooo! well done, dude. what job is it?>just watching jjk and finishing spy x family.how do you like the shows?>I'll figure it out.we'll be rooting for you!
>>84127152>eventually if something else crops up.oh so it won't be regular?>work provided onewoa I didn't know there was such a thing >People will be waking up in a couple of hours...that's late hopefully you're asleep now>but so is working!uuugh idk about that owO>>84127898heya yuanon wazzupp???I'm well I decided to learn how to make better skyboxes and maybe I'll make a LSD simulator looking map
>>84128229wazzupp???not much. just lost a sts run on the final boss. just would have needed some block to protect myself for a turn, but didn't draw any. :/>I decided to learn how to make better skyboxeslooking nice already. what kinda map are you working on?>and maybe I'll make a LSD simulator looking maptrippy @.@
>>84128303>lost a sts run on the final bossat least you have a goal to beat and a reason to grind>looking nice already. thanks you can't see it here but I tried to make it look less like a hox but more like a sphere around you, basically skyboxes sometimes have an issue of looking to obviously like a big box with a texture on it so I'm trying new things to make it look better >what kinda map are you working on?not really sure desu>trippy @.@for now I want to make the chill and nature parts :3 oh r u ready for the weekend btw?
hello once again after a long time! it's been a time of change for me but also feeling like i'm being stuck in the same place for a while. the good thing is that i'm trying to stay clean on my arm because i work in summers and fresh scars would be immediately visible, but that's taken its toll on my shoulders... all i can hope for is to be able to smile my way through my struggles and improve my life somewhat.
>>84128679>at least you have a goal to beat and a reason to grindi've beat him with that character before and i'd argue that the more you grind and unlock cards, the less likely it becomes to get a consistently good deck by the end. anyways, i just got unlucky that the random final boss was the one that can turn itself undamageable every other turn. :p>more like a sphere around younow that you mention it, i see.>skyboxes sometimes have an issue of looking to obviously like a big box with a texture oni guess that's especially true for open maps. if you do one that's very busy or with sight-blocking terrain, it becomes less obvious.>not really sure desui got a bit of a dragon ball vibe from the pic. like those very old fighting games.>for now I want to make the chill and nature parts :3sounds like a chill plan. (^-^) what kind of nature do you have in mind?>oh r u ready for the weekend btw?pretty much. luckily i don't have work tomorrow. makes up for the fact i have to go to my optometrist on saturday morning. :/ that's about as far as my plans go. you?>>84128753hi twong! o/>it's been a time of change for me but also feeling like i'm being stuck in the same place for a while.the more things change, the more they stay the same. what has you feeling stuck?>all i can hope for is to be able to smile my way through my struggles and improve my life somewhat.word. how is that approach working for you?
heading to bed now. see you all tomorrow!
Track 27 sorta day.>>84124254>>84125571>SpoilerFor me? 90s bjork. She's like 40 years my senior now tho lol...>Such is the life of a sensitive young man.So fucking true>What did you think of Kill Bill?Been a while but I remember it being good. The scenes where she meets the old master, fights the the schoolgirl with the chain, and almost kills that mom in the family home are still fresh in my mind. And yeah I learned to shinespark it's fun>>84127898>i've played a lot of metroidvanias, but i think i tend to favor the "vania" part if i think about the games i've playedI wonder which game contributes which mechanics to the metroidvania genre? Playing Super Metroid all the metroidvania tropes I've come to know from other games were present, I think the genre name comes less from those games bringing unique from each other and more being similar. Like soulslikes or roguelikes only share 1 game with their name since there was nothing like either of them at the time (presumably). Or maybe I'm wrong, I'll see when I beat castlevania lol>how are you?Doin good, trying to wrangle retroarch to run on my Xbox. Off from gym as well so I was resting.>>84128229What game is this?
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>>84127898>but as long as you're aware of it, there should be no harmIt's fine, I just think she's pretty.>a friend went to group therapy and asked out his therapist after it was clear the group wouldn't continuesThat's pretty bold. I don't think I could ever do something like that.>stay safeI'll try my best!>even did set the alarm, but set it to the wrong day...I've done this many times, then got spooked the day it's actually set for.>what ideas did you come up with like that?Most of my thesis has been written in the shower, I think.>>84128229>oh so it won't be regular?Yeah, it's as an when I need it.>woa I didn't know there was such a thingIt helps that I work at a university.>hopefully you're asleep nowI need to reset my sleep, it's all messed up again...>>84130127>90s bjorkShe's pretty cute. Would mail acid to.>The scenes where she meets the old master, fights the the schoolgirl with the chain, and almost kills that mom in the family home are still fresh in my mindThat's more or less what I remembered as well. There was a lot I'd forgotten since I last watched it, like the entire animated segment.
My brother graduated from cutting to heroin, do any of you have advice for someone like me? I don't know what to do, i'm not sure there's anything i can do because he doesn't want to do anything except that and just gets mad at worst or annoyed at best whenever i try to connect with him.
told my therapist a bunch of stuff that i regret, i was considering going to a hospital but now i absolutely don't want to. i regret even bringing it up with him, i don't wanna cut anymore but when he suggested calling my psych i nearly had a breakdown
>>84131137I've been fortunate enough to have never dealt with addiction but I think your best option might be getting him into rehab somehow.
Should be starting new job soon. Crazy to think I'm leaving the job that originally caused me to spiral into coming to this thread in the first place years ago.Feeling very nostalgic getting back into FGO account. Have 7 years of play time put into this game.>>84109657>how are you?i'm doing all right. Still a bit busy. But winding down. Switching jobs after all, so probably going to be a bit busier again soon but only because it's normal, not because i'm stressed about the things i am nowhope you've been well. Glad to be back here finally>>84110336>I was probably just being neurotic.happens to everyone at times. Hope that means you can take it a little easier now>Learning about cockroaches is pretty wild as well.hate them, but they are pretty interesting> I'm always worried people might think I'll act like thatdon't worry too much about that. Anyone who thinks it doesn't know you well enough to make a judgement since you very clearly are the opposite>>84112253>there's a lot of those. an infinite number of these in existence >pretty nice stuff to get for winning at an arcadeit's the japanese games are quite nice. They're actually winnable unlike the standard claw games here (just take time to figure out) and have stuff like this. Prize figures are a big thing.> it's a strange way of engaging with an ip like thatnot as varied of a franchise that I think most people would since content is all very similar, but it's not to see when they release something for one of your favorites to give a little push to watch.>cinemas get more and more expensive here and focus more one "the experience".it's been so long since i've been i can't really remember honestly. I spent more money on snacks than I did the ticket though lol
>>84128753hey twong >>84128753>time of change for me but also feeling hopefully it's for the better ^^>like i'm being stuck in the same place forhm ig it's something outside change like a different environment won't help with?>i'm trying to stay clean on my armhey good job c:it's better than nothing though your shoulders might not agree has all the things changing made you cut less frequently?>smile my way through my struggles and improve my life somewhat.best of luck!though it sounds like it can get exhausting, just remember that it's okay if you can't do it sometimes and you have to lay down and be sad for a bit What I'm trying to say is don't force it >>84128774>just got unluckyI see would you say it made the game more or less fun?>that you mention it, i see.yep it's mostly something you can't really show on a staric picture >becomes less obviousyep yep >like those very old fighting games.ooh I'll look at how those games look>what kind of nature do you have in mind?the stuff that's in the game so just simple trees and mostly flat terrain, some clouds rainbows I'll do that and thing what next to add >have to go to my optometrist on saturday morning. :/hope it goes wellI go to one every year too> that's about as far as my plans go. you?ao the rest is reserved for chilling :3maybe you could go somewhere for a hike?how's the weather in there?>>84129487hope you slept well>>84130127It's just a little map I madebut it's supposed to look like natural world in lsd dream emulator >>84131131>it's as an when I need it.I see, hopefully it doesn't happen often then>work at a university.still I wouldn't expect a work provided therapist but I don't really know what to expect out of a workplace anyway >need to reset my sleep,sounds and looks like it
>>84131137hello anonI really don't know what you can do :/if someone doesn't want help then it's not very likely they'll stop their bad habbits Do you know why do does all that stuff?>>84131157hey>therapist a bunch of stuff that i regret, ibut you weren't forced to go to a ward? that's a good signMaybe whether you said wasn't that bad or maybe you therapist believes it's something that can be worked on without sending you anywhereMaybe accidentally saying too much will work out in your favor even if it's a bit scary now?>he suggested calling my psych but when you said no ge didn't call?>>84131774>Should be starting new job soonwoo \o/best of luck tell us how it goes and maybe now you could just slack off on your old job? >into FGO accounthave fun >hope you've been well.thanks!
>>84112253>long enough to show anime in generalsame here and I can see why. Even CSM on the release night wasn't much turn out here and this was at a busy theater with a university nearby.>>84124254>Saw a shrink today. She looks a lot like Lucy Liuin your position, I 100% wouldn't be able to be completely open lol>>84130127hey togata> trying to wrangle retroarch to run on my Xbox.that sounds like a pain. Had to look this up, whatcha trying to set this up for?
>>84131829>tell us how it goes and maybe now you could just slack off on your old job?thanks! And will do! I won't slack off completely and at least finish what I said I would since I like most people I worked with and don't want them to have a worse time than they have to, but not going above and beyond for such a dogshit employer anymore when i'm on the way out>have funthanks! How are you todau?
>>84131954>not going above and beyond for such a dogshit employerexcellent!>How are you todau?gonna play around with a map, maybe I'll get resident evil 2, the old one, to run
>>84131774>Should be starting new job soonCongratulations! Hopefully the new job will be (much) better.>Hope that means you can take it a little easier nowI've noticed another deadline I've possibly missed, but I think that one is my supervisor's responsibility so I'm less worried about that.>hate them, but they are pretty interestingI'm fortunate enough to have never run into one in my house. That's not something I ever want to deal with.>Anyone who thinks it doesn't know you well enough to make a judgement since you very clearly are the oppositeThat's true, but it makes interacting with strangers a bit of a pain.>>84131808>hopefully it doesn't happen often thenYeah, I'm feeling a lot better now than I was when I started posting here.>still I wouldn't expect a work provided therapistThere are other perks like free doctors appointments and vaccines sold at cost and access to the dental clinic. They already let the students use it so I guess it's not too much of a resource stretch to let the staff use it too. Plus I'm technically a student here, even though they pay me.>sounds and looks like itMaybe I'll try tonight. I'll eat a heavy meal and take some melatonin. That usually does the trick.>>84131949>in your position, I 100% wouldn't be able to be completely open lolBecause you like Lucy Liu or because my problems are weird?
>>84132505>feeling a lot better nowglad to hear you're improving >doctors appointments and vaccines sold at cost ur from america?>I'll eat a heavy meal and take some melatonin. That usually does the trickgood luck, I like eating before going to sleep too though people say you shouldn't do that so besides that, what other plans do you have for today?
>>84133189>ur from america?No, but I moved somewhere without free healthcare for work. I think GP appointments here are about 6 euros here if you go to a public clinic, or 45 if you go private for shorter wait times.Flu shots aren't too expensive either.>people say you shouldn't do thatIt's probably not the best idea but certain foods make you sleepy.>what other plans do you have for today?Mostly just housekeeping stuff and folding cardboard boxes. There was a fire (I think) in my apartment complex when I was out, so I had to stand outside with everyone for a while before getting let in. That was an intersting change of pace. I'll try to sleep in the next hour or so.
hey guys, sorry i've been away for a while. been spending the last few days writing a lot of lore and stuff for my homebrew warband for 40k.
>>84133388hope ur sleepin well>moved somewhere without free healthcare for workI see >probably not the best idea but certain foods make you sleepy.yep I guess it'll only become qn issue when were old>Mostly just housekeeping stuff and folding cardboard boxessounds pretty relaxing with the right kind of music >There was a fire D:glad nothing bad happened because of it ig someone put it out >>84133605heya o/>been spending the last few days writing a lot of lore and stuff forthat's cool are you goint to share it anywhere?
>>84126921>how much stuff is there to juggle?Just a final test, I think I can rearrange this.>>84127898hi yu>what job is it?A smaller firefighter job. It doesn't pay as much as others, but it's a start.>how do you like the shows?I think spy family is funny. some of the spy stuff is neat and the absurd gag feats are a fun to watch.jjk has been a really good action series. it's no chainsaw man, but the Shibuya Incident was one of the greatest fight scenes ever animated. The judge in the culling game was unexpectedly real for the show.
>>84131949hi office anon, what did you think of the new csm chapter?
>>84131978> maybe I'll get resident evil 2, the old one, to runooh i like that one! Do tell how you like. I like the old tank control ones. I wish I still had Code Veronica in a playable format since that's probably my favorite tank control one other than gamecube remake of re1>>84132505>Hopefully the new job will be (much) better.thank you! I hope so too. The current one wasn't bad all the time and I liked people I worked with but man things went to shit for reasons outside everyone's control>I think that one is my supervisor's responsibility so I'm less worried about that.If it's not something you're supposed to have control over, wouldn't lose any sleep over it> That's not something I ever want to deal with.never had that at home, but I remember having some at a very nice inn room when I was staying in the very deep south. Just one and it roll on it's back and died. Creeped me out at first but i talked to the owner and it's kinda hard to avoid those types of places.>Because you like Lucy Liu picrelated >>84133605hey chev>writing a lot of lore and stuff for my homebrew warband for 40k.that's pretty cool! Hope you're having fun. I dabbled ever so slightly in doing this for tabletop game settings even though I was very casual. Fun stuff
>>84134392hey cynic how are you?> what did you think of the new csm chapter?Not sure how I feel about this one. I was expecting bad things to happen, like him killing Asa with Yoru, but this caught me off guard. At the same time I also didn't think Denji would get to be Chainsaw man at the end of this all so thought so something had to happen with Pochita and him being seperated, just maybe not this. Want the next chapter to hurry up and come out faster since don't know what to expect will happen with the finale. Honestly would be disappointed if nothing ever happened as a result of this, but i think they've shown that Pochita erasing things doesn't as neatly undo everything and it has limitations. Honestly could go a lot of ways I'm not even trying to guess at this point>>84134373>The judge in the culling game was unexpectedly real for the show.my favorite character they added this arc.
>>84134092>are you goint to share it anywhere?not yet i think, i don't have enough material, maybe when i'm proud enough to share it i'll post it somewhere. it's my first serious writing project, and as slaanesh wills it only absolute perfection is sufficient>>84134967>Hope you're having fun. having an absolute blast so far, it's quite fun trying to make everything make sense and fit together, cus it's so rewarding when it finally does. it's a pretty abstract concept, so sometimes it's hard playing with topics cus i set for myself that some elements within the story are not possible for the human mind to comprehend, and the writing should reflect that.>Fun stuffdamn right hahaha
>>84134373>final test, I think I can rearrange this.best of luck on your test!how are you spending ur day now btw?>>84134967>tank controlI never were a fan but silent hill made me be fine with them>gamecube remake of re1I didn't know there was a remake for gamecube how long ago was it?>>84135173>don't have enough materiaokay but if you ever feel like taking a break from it that means you should post somewhere whatever you've got because that's how stuff gets forgotten and disappears
>>84130127>I wonder which game contributes which mechanics to the metroidvania genre?i think the exploration and progression aspect mostly comes from metroid, but the settings are usually more on the fantasy side. can't think of many sci-fi entries into the genre besides metroid. maybe axiom verge.>I'll see when I beat castlevania lolit's mostly referring to symphony of the night if i remember correctly. the other castlevanias are rather linear in theit design.>trying to wrangle retroarch to run on my Xboxwhat's that?>Off from gym as well so I was restingnice. i need to get back to working out as well. i feel horrible.>>84131131>I just think she's pretty.that's how they get you!>I don't think I could ever do something like that.i'd also argue that it's not something anyone should do. my friend has issues with knowing what's appropriate and what's not.>then got spooked the day it's actually set for.this. even funnier, day after the fuck up i woke up at the time i had to get up even without the alarm...>Most of my thesis has been written in the shower, I think.quite the productive process you got there. i'm impressed.>>84131137friend of the family had issues with drugs as well. you can get them off that stuff, but they might need help to do it and even then, if they don't understand why they have to stop, it's especially difficult. you might need to get someone else involved. it's not something that will sort itself out by itself, i'm afraid.>>84131774>an infinite number of these in existencemiku's been around for a while. some time back i saw a young girl with a miku-shirt. i wonder if she even knew who the character is.>They're actually winnable unlike the standard claw games herethat's a good feature to have. here you learn pretty fast that just throwing your money away would be a better investment than putting it into a machibe like that. guess that's also the reason arcades don't really exist here.
>>84135909>you should post somewhere whatever you've got because that's how stuff gets forgotten and disappearsi write down everything interesting to me dw, i've got like 20+ pages of stuff atp, it's just putting the puzzle pieces together and further developing that that's a bit difficult, especially since i'm trying to cover topics that the actual human mind can't fully comprehend, like irl and not just inside warhammer. god that sounds pretentious now that i hear myself say it, but i don't think i'm exaggerating that much
>>84135964hey yuanon helloo howru??
>>84131774>it's not to see when they release something for one of your favorites to give a little push to watch.that's true. gotta take what you can get and enjoy yourself once in a while. not like someone else will do that for you.>I spent more money on snacks than I did the ticket though lolthat's a given, i'd say. everything there is obscenely overpriced, even as a single guy. no wonder families rather stay at home and watch movies on demand or streaming.>>84131808>I see would you say it made the game more or less fun?feels bad in the moment, but overall it's good for a game to have a bit randomness. i also had bad luck with my draws in that fight. drawing all my block cards on turns where the boss just applied buffs and debuffs, leaving me wide open on turns where it did damage. such is life.>I'll look at how those games lookfound this pic and while you don't see much, it did remind me of the pic you posted.>I'll do that and thing what next to addhow did it go? thought of anything yet?>I go to one every year tooit's been ages since i went there... ^^' really need new glasses, though.>how's the weather in there?today was pretty bad. just rained all day. :/>>84131949>this was at a busy theater with a university nearby.to me anime has always been a solo-hobby. maybe a lot of people feel the same. that said, people in my local anime group posted some pics of the one piece movie and that showing was quite packed. guess these plebs just can't appreciate actually good anime...>>84133605hi chev! always good to see you! o/
>>84134373>A smaller firefighter job. It doesn't pay as much as others, but it's a start.as long as you can make ends meet, that's what matters, but i hope you'll have a great time there.>I think spy family is funny. some of the spy stuff is neat and the absurd gag feats are a fun to watch.i tried it one time, but i had issues with the setting, so i couldn't get into it.>the Shibuya Incident was one of the greatest fight scenes ever animated. The judge in the culling game was unexpectedly real for the show.i really need to give the show another go...>>84136124hey catbro! (^-^)>howru??i'm fine. just tired. it's late though, so no surprise there.
>>84136042>write down everythingokay :>>god that sounds pretentioushehe ^^ well I'd say that's what makes it fun and adds charm>>84136156>such is life.did you play it today?>found this pic anwhere?>thought of anything yet?yep>really need new glasses, though.eyesight getting worse?>just rained all day. :/D:but it'll probably get better soon
>>84136156can't see here but I added and sorta got the hang of making terrain>>84136177I'm a bitsy tired toopretty sleepy
>>84136156>hi chev! always good to see you! o/ hey dude, sorry i didn't see your message. i think i drank a bit too much of the koolaid, or just my dumb mind trying to comprehend things, but the concepts of true infinity and perfection really do disturb me, i'm not sure i wanna write about them anymore
>>84131230>>84131829>>84135964Thanks for the replies anons. I don't think rehab is an option, it doesn't seem like he wants to change at all sadly. I'm just glad he stopped cutting because he was like a butcher with it and he has some nerve damage because of it too so uses that partly as an excuse for the drugs. I hope he gets better but i'm not really in a position myself to help him and he refuses it anyway when i offer so idk.
>>84136190>did you play it today?maybe...>where?dang. posted a yua out of habit. one moment.>yepwhat is it?>eyesight getting worse?i guess, but the main reason is that the frame is so worn down it's quite uncomfortable to wear now. just need a new one.>it'll probably get better soonhope it's better on sunday, but it won't stop me either way>>84136201>I added and sorta got the hang of making terrainthat's cool. has a bit of a mario feeling now.>I'm a bitsy tired too pretty sleepytime to hit the hay>>84136230>my dumb mind trying to comprehend thingsyou sure you're dumb and not just sleep deprived?>the concepts of true infinity and perfection really do disturb medo you want to talk about why? if you don't that's okay, too.>i'm not sure i wanna write about them anymoresometimes we get into our own head and don't find the way out. maybe just take a break from writing and have a chill weekend.
>>84136278you just gotta wait for him to have a low point in his life and be there to offer him help and support and a trip to rehab
>>84136278>I'm just glad he stopped cutting because he was like a butcher with it and he has some nerve damage because of itthat's rough. good thing he stopped, then.>so uses that partly as an excuse for the drugssadly any excuse will do in case of addiction. did he ever see a doctor for the damage he did?>i'm not really in a position myself to help him and he refuses it anyway when i offer so idk.all you can do is make the offer. everything else is up to him. still, if it gets too much and you need to talk, you're always welcome to share what's on your mind. must be hard dealing with that situation. i wish you and your brother the best.i'm off now. good night, everyone!
Getaway getaway kinda day. Halfway through March and we're still getting snowfalls, bad enough to shovel which is annoying.>>84131131>She's pretty cute. Would mail acid to.Truuuuue>like the entire animated segment.Yeah I also forgot about this>>84131774>starting new job soonLoadsofmoney!!!>>84131808>supposed to look like natural world in lsd dream emulatorPretty cool, I've seen the game but I've never tried it.>>84131949>that sounds like a painIt is, I've been trying for 2 days now and keep messing up the directories and locating the right BIOS files online.>whatcha trying to set this up for?Turning my xbox one into an emulation powerhouse. I'd be able to emulate 6th Gen game consoles without stuttering which is the main draw to using that over my laptop.>>84133605Hallo che>>84135964>exploration and progression aspect mostly comes from metroid, but the settings are usually more on the fantasy sideMakes sense makes sense>what's that?It's a frontend for emulators that includes a buncha consoles through it's "core" system. Some systems still require bios files but a lot work out the box, and being a frontend you can tweak settings for all your emulated consoles from a single menu. Really cool stuff, I've only ever used emulators for single systems before so this is new to me.>need to get back to working out as well. i feel horrible.Like horrible cause you feel you missed an obligation or horrible cause it hurts? For me missing the gym makes me super restless so too much time off wrecks my sleep.>>84136290I love Nameks colours and scenery so much, the grass looks soft and the deep aquamarine sea is easy on the eyes. Being a namekian is probably pretty chill.
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Some people showed up to clean my AC unit but I didn't order that and my landlord didn't tell me. I opened the door because I thought it was a package and they just went in and saw all my anime crap and a generally messy room. Then I asked if they had the right address and they left. Hopefully they didn't just case my apartment...>>84134092>hope ur sleepin wellI got a good amount of sleep and woke up before noon, so I'll consider that a win.>I guess it'll only become qn issue when were oldWhat doesn't?>sounds pretty relaxing with the right kind of musicI usually put a podcast on when I do that sort of thing. Makes it go faster.>glad nothing bad happened because of it ig someone put it outIt could have just been a smoke alarm going off. To be honest my biggest fear was "what if a fireman sees my Patchouli daki" and not "all of my earthly possessions are getting torched"...>>84134967>Creeped me out at first but i talked to the owner and it's kinda hard to avoid those types of placesI suppose if you're in a hostile environment roaches are basically the only thing that will survive there.>picrelatedUnderstandable.>>84135964>i'd also argue that it's not something anyone should doYou're not wrong, but I think they have training for stuff like that. It's not uncommon to fall for people you confide in.>day after the fuck up i woke up at the time i had to get up even without the alarm...I find that your body has an uncanny ability to spite you just for the hell of it.>quite the productive process you got thereIn a sense, but it only works if I remember to write stuff down once I get out the shower, which I don't most of the time...>>84136278I wish I could advise, but I don't think there's much you can do unless he wants to be helped. Hopefully he will sooner than later.>>84136380>Yeah I also forgot about thisIt was very well made so I don't know how I forgot it. But it'd been about 10 years since I watched it so maybe it's understandable.
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Cygames must have spied on my phone and detected I spent money to see the Uma movie since I've been blessed with good drop rates magically now.>>84135173> make everything make sense and fit togetheragreed. I have a hard time with the idea of playing table top games with people, but a lot of settings are fun to do worldbuilding and designing scenarios for. > it's hard playing with topics cus i set for myself that some elements within the story are not possible for the human mind to comprehendVery high IQ moment. But yeah, it's interesting and difficult because it makes sense to have those things, but also need to be done well to not make it seem like a cop out for not designing something well since these things gets abused a lot in design>>84135909>I never were a fan but silent hill made me be fine with themdefinitely a product of their time, but have their own charm. Works mainly with slower paced games>I didn't know there was a remake for gamecubeyes! the original resident evil remake. First re game came out ps1 in 96, and they remade that in 2002 for gamecube and that's really the optimal way to play the game. Tank controls but graphics look quite nice still even for today with prerendered backgrounds. Mansion is my favorite horror game setting. You should definitely play that if you can, my top recommendation for any game honestly.>>84135964>miku's been around for a whileMiku is pretty much timeless at this point. I got one of those figures and was walking out shamelessly and heard some teen kid yell out "THAT GUYS GOT HATSUNE MIKU", so younger kids knowing her isn't that surprising to me at this point>throwing your money away would be a better investmentit's a shame. I think making them harder is fine, but unwinable sucks. My math is I get the figure cheaper than I can buy them, but not so much the place doesn't make some money. And it's actually fun when it's challenging enough but can win. Right balance all along.
>>84136156>no wonder families rather stay at homethe other thing is rude theater goers. I hear a lot of people complain about that for big releases which I can see.>guess these plebs just can't appreciate actually good anime.think also part demographic issue here. I see California and NY area have lots of people at anime films, but here population isn't into it in general and it's still very foreign so it's white americans don't care for it except the nerds. >>84136380hey togata! we had a little snow here too after very hot days recentlyAlso, did you read most recent CSM chapter, or not yet?>keep messing up the directories and locating the right BIOS files online.I work in tech but been a long time since i've look at that kind of stuff even on the computer. Best of luck figuring it out. Sounds interesting to experiment with, but same time not if you're worried about messing something up real bad >Turning my xbox one into an emulation powerhouse.pretty resourceful. Definitely a good solution to not being able to get a better computer (since they're all damn expensive now).>>84137785>they just went in and saw all my anime crap and a generally messy room. I had work done the other day and tried to block off one room from sight, but they might have seen my army of Mikus or my Makima shrine.>Hopefully they didn't just case my apartmentdid you ask your landlord after the fact? Might be a good idea to verify if only just for peace of mind> basically the only thing that will survive there.plenty of stuff down there. Lizards, gators(which you see in weird places) and all kinds of other creepy bugs. I thought weather where I lived gets too hot and humid till I went down there and it's miserable. Felt like SEA weather again for me.
hey guys good day :D hope you are all doing well I think I'll spend today on doing things on my puter though maybe I'll go on a little bikeride we'll see What are your plans for today?https://youtu.be/YrJdcvggnIs?si=DlPOaTBgknEvaoYl
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>>84140224heya cat!just got back from the arcade. Going on a dog walk now since it's pretty niceDid you get set up with RE2?>>84141188have fun!
Also happy caturday everyone!>>84141460>Going on a dog walk now since it's pretty nicehow the dawg doin?>Did you get set up with RE2?nope I decided to map instead >have fun!thank you !
Fell asleep by accident earlier but I'm awake once again. I tried using the radio at work today and managed to hit a node (I think someone in the engineering building has one set up) but got no reply. I'll consider it a success.>>84140136>they might have seen my army of Mikus or my Makima shrineMay I see them?>did you ask your landlord after the fact? No, I should probably do that. I think it might have been an honest mistake because they didn't come back and presumably found the actual apartment they wanted. But you're right that I should check.>Felt like SEA weather again for me.I don't know how anyone can live like that. Humans aren't meant to be in places that hot...
>>84140136I haven't kept up with the manga in months actually, lost interest. I stopped when Denji at the legs devil during his fight with Yoru. I'm reading Rekidou instead, fighting manga.>Sounds interesting to experiment with, but same time not if you're worried about messing something up real badThere's no real risk to damaging the system since the BIOS files are all made for legacy consoles, the real annoyance is finding all of them online and putting them in the right directories. It's pretty straightforward on a PC but with an xbox it's difficult to navigate.>since they're all damn expensive nowIt'll be a long while till I own a desktop...>>84140224Sounds chill. I'll spend my time reading manga and then go to the gym. Have fun with the bike ride.>>84141188What's it look like now?>>84142506Messing around with a ham radio always seemed fun but I've never seen one, wonder if there's anyone on air around me. Video killed the radio star...
>>84143221>What's it look like now?that's how it looks in the editora bit different but there's not a lot of new stuff I worked on making the shape of the main island and now I'm workin on like a modular river thingie just gotta make animated textures for it and other bits and stuff it's not very pretty yet
>>84142506heya>Fell asleep by accidentthe classic suprise nap :3>managed to hit a node:D friend detected?>got no reply. maybe it's in there 24/7? like someone just left it there?
>>84143307Couldn't even tell it was made in source, probably because the map is super bright. Maybe have a drawbridge to the tower that the player can activate :D
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>>84143221>Messing around with a ham radio always seemed fun but I've never seen oneIt's a hobby from a couple of generations ago, I think. I think there's a strong community of men of a certain age into radio in most places. I think I saw my local radio club once as a kid.Usually you need a license for amateur radio, but you don't for the thing I'm using so it's a bit easier to get into.>>84143307Keep us updated>>84143690>the classic suprise nap :3I seem to be doing that a lot in my old age...>maybe it's in there 24/7? like someone just left it there?It's probably that. It's not uncommon for people to have one running off a solar panel. I might do that if my new antenna ends up picking up stuff.
>>84146770I've heard if the license thing, but does anyone really care to check nowadays? Unless you're encroaching on someone else's frequency, who'd ever know?
>>84147714At least in the UK, the radio regulator seemed pretty aggressive when it came to enforcement (just about the only thing they do enforce), partly because other operators would catch you almost immediately and then snitch on you. I'd imagine it's the same in the US unless you're in a really remote area broadcasting with really low power, but that kind of defeats the purpose of using a radio. Most countries will give you a huge fine for unlicensed broadcasts too, so it's probably not worth the risk.That said, it's basically undetectable if you're only listening and not broadcasting.
>>84134993>Pochita erasing things doesn't as neatly undo everything and it has limitations. Honestly could go a lot of ways I'm not even trying to guess at this pointI think there's room for Pochita to come back. I've been thinking that a part three could have Denji completing his task to find the blood devil and resurrect from the blood she took before dying. That's like my best guess. >best of luck on your test!it's a month away>how are you spending ur day now btw?Just back up job hunting. I think I'm going back to playing witcher.>>84136177>hope you'll have a great time there.honestly, i'm hoping to transfer to the place I was rejected from in Jan.>i had issues with the setting, so i couldn't get into it.oh the setting is the least interesting part. The two countries are literally two identical copies of Berlin.the show only shines with it's humor.I've been on an anime catch up kick recently. I had the opposite experience watching Hell's paradise. The setting is really cool, but the protag goes through the same character arch each episode. >i really need to give the show another go...I didn't like jjk until Todo showed us the "boogie woogie" clapping Technique. Season two, part two is like one big red wedding for the show. Season 3, the show becomes a JoJo's season with it's wacky side characters. >>84137785hi dis>Hopefully they didn't just case my apartment...I don't think they did. House robbery isn't even profitable anymore.
hey guys I went on a bikeride today and I worked a tiny bit on the map and also I am going to get popcorn and watch full metal jacket now B3How are you guys? :>
>>84149366Hi cynic>House robbery isn't even profitable anymoreThat's true. I'm not even sure if the contents of my apartment would cover my rent...>>84149782>full metal jacket now B3Great movie. Have you watched it before?>How are you guys? :>I'm alright. About to head to bed ahead of a pretty long day tomorrow with my new fren.
>>84150157>Have you watched it before?never everSo far my thoughts are that my views of despising the military is correct >About to head to bed ahead of a pretty long day tomorrow with my new fren.new fren? you mean the radio?
>>84136380>Really cool stuff, I've only ever used emulators for single systems before so this is new to me.sounds interesting. maybe i should look into it as well. never used any emulators before, though. then again, i've got enough games i should play before distracting myself with other stuff>horrible cause you feel you missed an obligation or horrible cause it hurts?i've not felt well physically for a while now. lots of different aches and missing my workouts definitely makes it worse. though i had some back issues as well and needed the break, but try to to let it get to me if i miss some sessions.>I love Namekit's a great design for sure.>Being a namekian is probably pretty chill.it has it's perks, but there are some oddities...>>84137785>I think they have training for stuff like that.they really need it. it's quite the awkward situation for them.>your body has an uncanny ability to spite you just for the hell of it.for real. even if it does what i want, there's usually a catch.>it only works if I remember to write stuff down once I get out the showerwhat happens in the shower, stays in the shower. i should write things down more often, too.>>84140013>Cygames must have spied on my phonewould be more of a surprise if they didn't>I've been blessed with good drop rates magically now.what did you get?>so younger kids knowing her isn't that surprising to me at this pointi just wonder where they get in contact with it. i had to dig pretty deep back then>not so much the place doesn't make some money.they get their money's worth. it's just some piece of plastic, after all.>is rude theater goershonestly, after i went to the bathroom and it had shit smeared all over the wall, that was the moment i decided i don't really need the "cinema experience". that said, people in bigger cities usually are worse than smaller towns in that regard.
Well friends, I think I'm going to be going through absolute hell for a while once the shock of some news wears off. You've helped me so much already but I might really really bring the mood down. >>84150435Let me know what you thought once it's over>you mean the radio?The girl I met recently. But I might have to give her a reason check.
>>84140136>white americans don't care for it except the nerds.i think i sometimes forget how niche it is, since i mostly talk to people who are into it. only the really big shows have any mainstream appeal.>>84140224hi catbro!>What are your plans for today?worked out today. it was rough, but i'm glad i did it. i'm exhausted rn, but it's the good kind of exhausted. how was your day?>>84149366>honestly, i'm hoping to transfer to the place I was rejected from in Jan.good luck with that. hope it works out for you.>The two countries are literally two identical copies of Berlin.i just don't like east/west german stuff in media, so i opted out. it's an aversion i can't get over.>The setting is really cool, but the protag goes through the same character arch each episode.i enjoyed the series overall, but i see what you mean. >I didn't like jjki liked the first season well enough, but i'm still so booty blasted from tenjou tenges shitty bait and switch that i despise it when a show stops dead in it's tracks for a prequel backstory i literally do not care about. officeanone said i should try again as well, so i'll probably do at some point.
>>84150978hey yuanon ^^>>84150995I have my suspicious what it might be If it'll make you feel worse maybe you shouldn't say it yet, take it easy on yourself so you can process it in peace, after a bit you could make or write something to sorta honor the memory and make moving forward easier You might not feel like it but you have been doing the right things, sending hugs>>84151093>worked out todaoutside?was the weather nice :]>good kind of exhausted. glad to hear about that >how was your day?pretty alright ^^ woke up, helped in the garden, went on a bikeride, watched full metal jacket
>>84150995forgor imeg
>>84151110Thank you, /cat/. You're a good lad.>I have my suspicious what it might be You're probably in the right area, but it's also probably somehow worse than you think.>If it'll make you feel worse maybe you shouldn't say it yetI'm not sure how much sense there is in keeping it to myself but right now I just want to throw up until I'm hollow, and probably will at this rate...>You might not feel like it but you have been doing the right things, sending hugsThank you. I needed a push to move on, but this was the pushing equivalent of being hit by a freight train...
>>84151110If it's not too much of an ask, may I talk about this privately with you for a moment?
Any cute SH scars? Preferably on thighs
>>84150995>I'm going to be going through absolute hell for a while once the shock of some news wears off.sorry to hear that.>You've helped me so much already but I might really really bring the mood down.you're always welcome to share what's on your mind, even the really bad things, but it's up to you, of course.>>84151110>outside? was the weather nice :]it was. at least when the sun was out. really cold whenever it wasn't. working out helped, though.>woke up, helped in the garden, went on a bikeride, watched full metal jacketone of those things is not like the others... ^^ it's a good movie, but definitely not one of those i'd watch a second time. how was your ride, though? seen anything new?
>>84151237>you're always welcome to share what's on your mind, even the really bad things, but it's up to you, of course.Thanks, Yuanon.I guess I'm just really saddened by what I've learned. Everything about it just makes me feel gross and society hasn't prepared me at all for situations like this.
>>84151206oh course on discord or somewhere else?
>>84151355I can do Discord or email, but I'd rather not post my info here if that's okay
>>84151362here's my discor mydiscorblehhh
>>84151305>Everything about it just makes me feel gross and society hasn't prepared me at all for situations like this.that's understandable. nothing ever really does.
anotha job rejection fuck my NEET life>>84147815>other operators would catch you almost immediately and then snitch on youLaaaaaameI dunno maybe it'd really be that annoying for people to broadcast without a license, but I can't really imagine that being the case.>Most countries will give you a huge fine for unlicensed broadcasts too, so it's probably not worth the risk.I looked into it a while ago, 25k CDN fine + 1 year in jail here for illegal radio.>>84149782I'm doing good, gonna workout in an hour and read more manga.>>84150978>never used any emulators beforeKinda crazy actually, you're really missing out on the classics. The emulation wiki stickied on >>>/vr/ is an excellent place to start if you're ever interested. Nowadays I emulate more than I play anything new>missing my workouts definitely makes it worseHopefully getting back into routine alleviates it a bit.>it has it's perks, but there are some oddities...Foods overrated and not having sex organs is whatever, worth it for the swag and powers.>>84150995Good luck in weathering whatever is weighing on you.>>84151371Erm is it cool if I add you too for Minecraft whenever that happens later
>>84151237>at least when the sun was out. really cold whenever it wasn'there it's starting to get warm even in the shade :0but this whole week os supposed to be cold and rainy >definitely not one of those i'd watch a second time. It didn't bother me roo much but I'm a pretty anti war guy so I sorta wasn't surprised >how was your ride, though? prett short today, found some new paths to places I already know >seen anything new?nothing super noteworthy btw I'm waiting for trees to be green again And how was your workout? have you seen anything interesting?>>84151572haya>anotha job rejectionD; they can't keep getting away with this!!>workout in an hour and read more manga.enjoy What knd of workout btw? anything special?and have fun with the manga >cool if I add you toosure :D
>>84151572>anotha job rejection fuck my NEET lifedamn. did they at least give you a reason?>you're really missing out on the classics.i've played a lot of the classics when they were just new games... ^^' that said, of course i didn't have every system back then, so some games did elude me. played a lot of them at some point, though. what mostly kept me from emulating anything was not having a pc for over a decade.>excellent place to startthanks for pointing me in the right direction. i'll check it out.>Nowadays I emulate more than I play anything newsensible approach. do tell more about your future emulation exploits.>Hopefully getting back into routine alleviates it a bit.it should. just need to start slow and work myself back into it.>Foods overrated and not having sex organs is whateverfair. who needs either anyway>worth it for the swag and powersthe do be cool powers... then again, the permanent fusions and self-cloning by vomiting an egg are on the weirder side. even for dragon ball. >>84151835>here it's starting to get warm even in the shade :0 but this whole week os supposed to be cold and rainywe're not quite out of the winter, it seems. shouldn't be to long now, though. any minute...>I'm a pretty anti war guy so I sorta wasn't surprisedwell, most people are. though i'd say a movie doesn't need to be surprising to be a downer. good it wasn't for you, though.>found some new paths to places I already knowunlocked some previously veiled parts of your mental map for future tours. :>>I'm waiting for trees to be green againhm. i think i'll just let them surprise me.>And how was your workout? have you seen anything interesting?i do my workout without my glasses, so my field of view is rather limited. nothing newy though. just the same places as always.gonna head to bed. good night.
how do I make myself addicted to cutting? Everytime I cut, I have to actively force myself to do it in the same way I have to force myself to shower or brush my teeth since im deeply depressed. I rarely ever even get the urge to cut myself in the first place, i only ever feel it when im feeling extremely intense emotions.I just wish I had the urge to cut as frequently as other mentally ill people do.
>>84152158Pics?oregano
>>84152190I havent cut in months so my scars are super faded. I never really cut deep anyways so its not worth taking pics of. Sorry
>>84151371Thanks for talking, /cat/. You're a good lad. >>84151403>nothing ever really doesThat's true, but there are situations that you wouldn't want to be even remotely prepared for...>>84151572Sorry about your rejections. Getting a job is a nightmare these days.>I dunno maybe it'd really be that annoying for people to broadcast without a license, but I can't really imagine that being the case.I think radio nerds just really like following the rules. >25k CDN fine + 1 year in jail here for illegal radio.That sounds about right. It probably depends on the frequencies you're on as well. If you're messing with air traffic control you're probably fucked. >Good luck in weathering whatever is weighing on you.Thanks. It might not drag out as long as last time but I am very shaken by it. >>84152158That's probably a good thing. Why do you want to cut that much more often?
>>84151835>What knd of workout btw? anything special?Pull, nothing special really.>have fun with the mangaWill.>>84152105>did they at least give you a reason?We don't do that in Canada>what mostly kept me from emulating anything was not having a pc for over a decade.Huuuuuh how do you go a decade without computer access>played a lot of the classics when they were just new gamesFair enough, all of them passes me by since my first consoles were 7th Gen>>84152105>permanent fusions and self-cloning by vomiting an eggEh, not like you're obligated to do these things. Base level nameks are already pretty strong so fusion is overkill.>do tell more about your future emulation exploits.Will do o7>>84152158It's not really something you can force>>84152868I'd work for pennies on the dollar brah it's rough>I think radio nerds just really like following the rules.Makes sense.>If you're messing with air traffic control you're probably fucked.It would be pretty funny
the brainworms tell me i'll never pass if i keep cutting but i can't afford alcohol
>>84154042i know cutting isnt only something girls do, but because of stereotypes i'm worried i'll be clocked because of these scars. i'm such a fucking idiot
replying shortly hope everyone is well
Long long weekend, but not a bad time. Hope everyone is well>>84141921>how the dawg doin?he's good. Very happy, but I'm going a mini trip this coming weekend so gonna have him stay with family. He's like them too though so all good>nope I decided to map insteadfair enough. Do wonder if you could get the 2002 RE remake working. Not sure how difficult that would be, but I think that's the best game in the entire franchise easily.>>84142506hey discanon, hope you're doing okay. I saw later on you were having issues, but hope everything is okay and everyone here is open to talking whenever.>May I see them?I can show my collection, but rather not post in the thread just in case. Could I ask cat to share your discord with me? I have him added there already and can exchange> should probably do that. ever get an answer? Honestly imagine they wouldn't try if there's nothing worth the risk, especially I feel you being a foreigner living there might be riskier to draw attention to them if they did it as well which itself could be a deterrent.>Humans aren't meant to be in places that hot...they find a way to make it work well enough anywhere. I'd take heat over extreme cold climate any day though.>>84143221>I haven't kept up with the manga in months actuallyall good. It's been dragging either way, but it's coming to end finally which has everyone guessing how this is gonna go>the real annoyance is finding all of them online and putting them in the right directories. this is the kind of thing I feel ever with a tutorial it's never as straightforward as you'd hope for>It'll be a long while till I own a desktopglad i got mine when I did. Not super old, but before things started going through the rood thanks to AI
>>84149366>That's like my best guess.best we can do now is guess. Fujiomoto isn't always consistent with how things work, so even trying to reason an answer to what's next is impossible since ultimately it will be whatever he feels to end it no matter what.>I didn't like jjk until Todo understandable. My favorite and the most relatable character lol>>84150978>would be more of a surprise if they didn'tI have nothing to hide from Cygames>what did you get?At time of posting, I had gotten 2 rare to pull Umas that I hadn't gotten prior. Then yesterday once again I pulled a new one on a free pull for the anniversary. I had to check and the drop rate really isn't higher, I'm just have magically better luck>went to the bathroomthat is something very disgusting I've never actually seen IRL, but I deliberately avoid going places I think that might be the case. Even in the city, most businesses have codes on the doors and they give it to everyone so that kinda helps>>84151093>how niche it isI think people are less ashamed of it than in the past and therefor more vocal about and maybe some series are more commonly recognizable, but I still don't see there being much a shift in terms of people being fans. Just maybe increase numbers have seen an episode or two, vs feel strongly about it.
Just a quick bump on my way home
>>84152868>That's probably a good thing. Why do you want to cut that much more often?Because everyone else who is as mentally ill as i am cuts themselves. It makes me feel invalid that I dont do it too. I also just think the scars look pretty.>>84153425>It's not really something you can forceIt literally is
Long, meandering blogpost. Feel free to ignore.I think today went as well as it possibly could, all things considered. I got basically no sleep last night after the news.I'd arranged to go to the aquarium/theme park with the friend I made at the conference but told her I wasn't sure if I'd be able to go given everything. She offered to visit me and I gave her the tour of my apartment. We talked for a while and she was able to cheer me up to the point of getting out of the house and we had a lot of fun together at the theme park. At a few points I had to hold back tears from a combination of the situation, how much you guys have helped me so far despite being a complete stranger, and the kindness I was being offered by her.After that we talked some more, and got a pizza. After that I very stupidly and awkwardly asked if she wanted to come back to my apartment (I didn't mean anything seedy by it but it came out really badly). She explained she had mixed feelings about me but wanted to spend more time with me that evening, so we talked some more. I failed basically every speech check after that and she was getting kind of fed up with me, but eventually I opened up about how thankful I was for her today and wasn't able to hold back the tears. She cried as well and we tried our best to comfort each other. We hugged and it felt really nice, so we just kept hugging each other until it was midnight and we had to catch the last trains home.It had been years since I've been hugged by anyone and I really, really needed that.Today went from a nightmare scenario that I was dreading facing to probably the best day I've had in years. Once again, I'd like to thank you all for your support over the last few months. I cannot overstate how much you've all helped.
>>84153425>I'd work for pennies on the dollar brah it's roughWould you consider volunteering? That's like working but you don't get paid.>It would be pretty funnyThere's a few instances of it happening but I think most pranksters have the common sense know it's incredibly dangerous to piss around with ATC frequencies.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mMHGpWFqFrw>>84155172>but hope everything is okay and everyone here is open to talking wheneverThanks. Today went pretty well.>Could I ask cat to share your discord with me?That's fine with me.>ever get an answer?No, I forgot to ask. I'm erring on it being a genuine mistake and them being in the wrong tower. I've had mail delivered to me by mistake for similar reasons before.>I'd take heat over extreme cold climate any day thoughBut it's so much easier to warm up than cool down. Although I guess the keyword here is extreme.>>84156476>It makes me feel invalid that I dont do it tooCutting isn't an essential part of being mentally ill. You don't need to do it to fit in.
hey guys, hope you're all doing well. spent all day sleeping cus i got too drunk yesterday
bump todays been a bit busy but I found some time to make somethinI'll reply to u all in a bit
>>84156780>Cutting isn't an essential part of being mentally ill. You don't need to do it to fit in.I know its not but seeing cuts on my wrist makes me feel like my suffering is real and valid. But then I saw the cuts of people on shtwt and I feel the need to be as deep as them to truly be considered valid now
>>84152868no probby :>>>84153425heya how was your day today? are you sore after the workout?>>84154042you shouldn't cut or drink anonWhy eo you want to do those things? how does your life look like?>>84155172heya>he's good. Very happyyay>going a mini trip this coming weekend:0glad to hear thatfinally the weather's nice enough >if you could get the 2002 RE remake working.I'm sure it won't be terribly difficult I'll figure it out when I get bored of mapping >>84156765hello :>>just kept hugging each other until it was midnight aww I'm glad it all turned out well^^ I hope things only keep getting better fren, you deserve it>>84157457helloo>sleeping cus i got too drunk yesterdawhat were you celebrating yesterday?>>84152158Hey anon I don't think you can make yourself get addicted to something like that, but I'm just guessing, because it's mostly a mental thing unlike with substances where you going addicted to a certain chemical Maybe you don't have an easily addictive personality Besides you shouldn't make yourself cut, just because you don't wanna do it doesn't mean you're not mentally ill or that somehow you have it better and are a poser or something
btw Okabe anon r u there?
>>84158467>what were you celebrating yesterday?nothing, the friends i was with are just unbearable unless you're hammered
>>84159126I see, they don't sound like good people to hang out with
>>84155172>guessing how this is gonna goI see Denji losing his powers by the end, beyond that no idea. I expect the ending to be less vague and depressing compares to Fujiomotos other stories since it's been running too long for people to be really satisfied with that.>>84156476>It literally isNot really, if you really wanted to you would, but you don't so you won't. Not that you should anyway.>>84156780>Would you consider volunteering?I was calling up places to volunteer this morning actuallg, some of the parks are still closed which is a bummer so hopefully I'll get luck elsewhere.>>84158467>how was your day today? are you sore after the workout?Pretty lame, stayed home today and didn't do anything.>>84157786Cool pagoda lookin building
>>84159864>Pretty lame, stayed home today and didn't do anything.nothing at all? were you just bored the whole day?>Cool pagoda lookin buildingthank you :>
>>84159919Pretty much. I read more of Rekidou but thats it, no gym since I woke up too late. How was your day?
>>84159932>thats it, no gymI think that's okay, you need days where you just relax, read stuff and watch a movie or two, os it still early for you?>How was your day?a bit busy but alright, got some groceries and other things, worked on my map and now I'm in bed and should be asleep but I'm just watching stuff on my phone though I probably will sleep soon
>>84159977It's already pretty late, nearly 11PM here. I already saw Sonatine two days ago so I'll probably take a couple days before another one.>worked on my mapSwag I can't way to explore it once you're done
>>84160012>nearly 11PMwhen do you usually go to sleep?yeh it is pretty late, what do you usually do before going to sleep? I put on some chill yt video want a link?>Sonatineis it worth checking out?>can't way to explore it once you're doneif I'm done heh ^^ It's actually a recreation of lsd dream emulator areas, I'll try to remake all of them, at least partially
>>84160054Normally around 12-1AM but my schedules been messed up for a week or so. Falling asleep at 7AM now.>what do you usually do before going to sleep?Nothing usually, when I fall asleep it's because I'm so exhausted that I can't do anything else. Otherwise posting to this thread and listening to music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qj09zQBuk7E>want a link?Send>is it worth checking out?I liked it so sure. It's best if you go in fully blind, even a synopsis spoils too much. Dreamy segments mixed with sudden violence.>It's actually a recreation of lsd dream emulator areas, I'll try to remake all of them, at least partiallyAh makes sense, did you play the game yourself as well? I think that'd help with getting the scaling right (although I guess whatever source game you play it in skews the scaling a little but whatever)
>>84160104>Falling asleep at 7AM now.D;>Nothing usuallymaybe you should get some sort of routine you doit might help you fall asleep Like I brush my teeth, open windows in my room, lay in bed watching watching something that's not very exciting and when everyone else is asleep I close the window, turn off everything and think about something nice and I eventually fall asleep >musicoh hey I remember listening to some of that when I was very interested in old memphis stuff >Sendhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Dl_jlARu3M0here it's nice and slow and with nice music and commentary >It's best if you go in fully blindnoted >you play the game yourself as well?yep, a lot >skews the scaling a little butyep but honestly FOV is the biggest factor, in lsd fov if 50, in source it can go only as low as 75 normally, still it's not that bad, there also LSD dream emulator revamped, I can change to fov there to see if all if correct and make the resolution higher anyways eep time gn!
>>84157803Your problems are as real and valid as anyone else's (who's being sincere).If I may be blunt, I think you might be holding yourself to a standard that doesn't actually exist outside of a very small niche.>>84158467>I hope things only keep getting better fren, you deserve itThank you, /cat/. You deserve a nice life too!I'd be okay with life staying like this, honestly. >>84159864>some of the parks are still closed which is a bummer so hopefully I'll get luck elsewhere.Hopefully you can find something. Public libraries and animal shelters might be a good bet as well. Best of luck!
