>trying to stay sober and lose weight>get worked up thinking about my ex and crack a beer then pour a whiskey to calm down>dad says he wants to order food instead of having me cook (healthy) dinner>I oblige because I'm honestly depressed and don't feel like cooking anywaysFuck man, I need to get my own place, a new gf (to forget about the old one), and electroshock therapy.I feel like I am a subhuman slave to my environment, memories, regrets, and desires.
Update: goddamn the beer and italian food was worth it
I am also trying to be sober and healthy. Im succeeding but at what cost. My life has not improved in any meaningful way. At least when I was high I could ignore my problems.
>>84158961I swapped alcohol for pills for this reason>dad says he wants to order food instead of having me cook (healthy) dinnerThis is one of the hardest parts of losing weight that no-one talks about. The people you live with are usually totally unsupportive, encouraging your to eat takeaways with them and complaining whenever you cook healthy food.
>>84159460I fucking love pills but I don't know where to get non-designer ones; even then I have a bad habit of mixing them with alcohol and weed.But yeah, my dad is a very bad influence, he's an alcoholic and keeps copious amounts of booze in the house at all times and gets all sad sack cry bitch whenever I talk about moving out. He never got over my mom divorcing him. And yeah I was gonna cook salmon and brussel sprouts for dinner but instead we have subs and pasta and wings. Thankful, but still.>>84159448I just want to be in shape so I can post thirst trap pics to easily pull mid girls and stop giving a fuck about my manipulative ex who made me feel unloved while extractive resources since she knew I had nothing else, emotionally speaking
>>84158961>>84159435glad ur allowing yourself to enjoy it instead of being hard on urselftomorrows a new day, u can still continue your self-improvement journey then
>>84159577thanks, anon. It's just that sometimes a slip turns into a fall, and when you're slipping, it feels like you're falling.but falling is fun, before you crash
