I miss feeling this burning passion for someone. I miss making notes about my favorite person, I miss remembering every detail about them. I miss making them personalized gifts based on their niche interests they mentioned briefly. I miss hiding secret messages in my love letters even if they are never going to be found.I want to feel this way again, but it's really difficult to do so with an average person. I need someone who is more, someone who wants more and isn't drifting through life.
Wack hypergamy, looksmatching for you
>>84159376i want more, i'm just not gonna get more
>>84159416What lengths did you go to to get more?
That's sweet. How did this fp of yours react to the gifts? I never got gifts after I hit double digit age ;_;
>>84159493I think she liked the first one, although i don't think she ever read my letter. I had a lot of fun making it. I drew & cut up a spotify code thingy (that links you to a song) and hid its pieces in various parts of the gift. Her favorite number was 23 and the playlist i made for her consisted of 23 songs, i wrote her compliments/loving words in 23 languages but hid the last one in a cork cap. It was an edit of a latin poem, since she said she read latin too. We met at a bad time, she was going through a breakup and simultaneously would tell me that she loves me but isn't ready for a full on romance. I understood that but it did make me feel pretty bad being in the same spot even a year later. I am a needy and obsessive person and unfortunately i did wanted more.The second one she enjoyed, the third one might have been the reason why she left. I am not exactly sure of this, i never really got any explanation, but i can see why me trying harder was the reason to break things off when she was distancing herself from me. That or perhaps she felt too guilty about doing nothing for me while i was staying consistently loving.
>>84159572oh it's called a cork stopper, being an ESL is truly a life long journey
>>84159376You get what you deserve and you probably don't deserve that kind of relationship
>>84159572Shit man you went thru allat and she probably don't even speak latin. F
>>84159723Why makes you think that I probably don't deserve it? I put a lot of effort into relationships and i think it's only fair to get some of that effort back>>84159778I honestly don't mind that. I came to realize that I just really enjoy loving intensively and I am grateful for her making me realize that, even if it was based on lies and deception. This world is a stage and I want to play the role of an intense lover. I just need to find someone that isn't an empty shell once again, as hard as it may be.
