just general chatroom vibes, talk about anything that's on your mind, you can sperg out and vent or you can just say what's been happening lately. trying to put some positive vibes in r9k, like goddamn guys cheer up a bit please
>>84160170>vibesShut the fuckin fuck up you fucker
Just to start the thread I'll begin by talking about how I'm feeling better lately, it's been like... Since the end of last month since I've been taking my medications again for clinical/major depression, and honestly, I feel a gigantic difference already. It's just that today is one of those days where I can't sleep 'cause I'm overthinking on stuff, not necessarily bad stuff, but gotta prepare for the near future. And... I sometimes forget to take my antipsychotic and my mood stabilizer.>>84160183It is opposite day (maybe).
Hii add me on discord Discord tag is fluffyfuwafluffers I'm ugly and fat Latina though
>>84160170i love ashkenazis
i've never been in a chatroom before the entirety of my online presence has consisted of shitposting and arguing with retards while occasionally learning something. i have no social media presence whatsoever and i'm not sure i want one. i sometimes think i should get a job but i already have lots of money so it would only be to socialize and then if that's the goal then why not pick a job that maximizes socializing. but wait, i don't want a job and i'm bad at socializing so should i really burden people trying to make a living with my autistic presence? wouldn't i be better staying as i am and not larping as someone else just to make acquaintances who are nothing like me and will likely be weirded out by me? so if that is the case then i should instead look for people like me, but nobody like me wants to befriend or date anyone without a job and i can't explain why i have money without losing relatability. it seems to be a catch 24 which is a good book and i liked the series.
>>84160277You seem to be an overthinker, anon. Most people are focused on their own struggles and insecurities, and won't really pay special mind to you even if you spill spaghetti, don't worry too much. You can try learning from others by asking them things, or slowly reaching out to do stuff together. Most normies are very simple-minded. I think learning how to socialize isn't LARPing, but rather, a journey. I personally have the opposite issue, I don't know how to stfu lol. But being a good listener is a very good quality to have if you want frens.
>>84160277ehhhh maybe you can just lie about what you do. say something vague like graphic design or like. propane technician. i dunno.>>84160170cool thread OP i like its potential.>>84160241is this chickn? the tranny?
>>84160303>propane technicianProPAne ANd ProPANE aCCesSOriES>cool thread OP i like its potential.Thank you anon, honestly I'm kind of bored and can't sleep, so I'm just chillposting a bit. I could've posted in drugfeel or another general but... I wanted to make one where anyone can post regardless of the topic. And idk, kinda sounds like chickn, could be.
>>84160331>>84160303I am chickn tho and everyone knows I'm cisfem
>>84160295That's just one of the issues though. Even if i learn to socialize "normally" i explained why that wouldn't fit my needs anyway. It is also the case that i can't shut up sometimes too so you're not alone there.>>84160303>ehhhh maybe you can just lie about what you do.I don't like lying but because it takes alot of brainpower. You need to constantly invent lies to reinforce the first lie. And i have no poker face. But maybe this is the only way.
>>84160472Well, if it doesn't really fit your needs, there's different types of jobs where you don't gotta deal with people, or at least not too much. Being a driver, like a truck driver implies that you don't socialize much. Or taking care of animals, or taking care of dead people, or stuff with plants, lab work, there's a lot of options out there.I personally would love to be a vet even though I love talking with people, I love funimals even more.
>>84160479I'm beginning to feel like you missed half of my post. I did write it ineligibly on purpose so i can't blame you.I already have money so the only point in working would be to socialize or signal to normal people that i am not low-functioning. Like clearing a red flag from my name. That's really the sole purpose and why i said it was a catch 24 but i meant catch 22.
>>84160503what's wrong with being honest? just tell them how you got the money without being a dick about it, maybe. have you NEVER worked? Maybe you could mention some old job, would be an easier lie then. other than that, enjoy your fat stacks of cash bro wish i was you lawlz
>>84160503Ah shit fuck, sorry, I'm neurodivergent. And an english learner, not native speaker, kek.Hmm... Honestly I'd just live my life and chill all that I'd want if I were well positioned economically and didn't have to work. I make do by socializing by going to church, talking online with people, and going to eat out at cafes if I have spare money. I wouldn't care too much about what people say though brother. People's opinions can only serve you so much.
I'm so damn tired of myself, guys. I can't take it. I don't manage shit by myself, it just makes me so abysmally depressed and apathetic, but associating with people makes me so annoyed, hurt and frustrated out of feeling like they don't care to understand me that I either lash out or just shut them out. Sometimes people say they care about me, and sometimes they spend effort and time on me for reasons I can't discern, but I'm very cold and it just makes me feel afraid and like I should push them away. I wish I could either be a kind helper or satisfied in solitude, but whatever I try I find it's just another kind of unbearable for me. Sorry for the selfpity. I'm not sober.>>84160183Kill yourself.>>84160188That's good, anon. I don't fully understand your medication troubles, but I know that making progress and that things are improving through your efforts is a great and immensely satisfying feeling. Personally, the stay-up-overthinking nights are some of my favourite, but it sounds like it might not be so for you?>>84160277I'm just the same, except I don't have money but I live so frugally I manage to survive just continually failing courses and working a couple months here and there. What's the point, like? Online presence, work, responsibilities, socialization? So tiring. Especially if you feel like don't fit there and might be bothering people, then it feels like a pure negative. Do you want to associate with other people? If not, I don't think you need to.
>>84160518No i have never worked. I planned on killing myself and put all of my neetbux into crypto on the insistence of my brother. I made a lot of money and still think of killing myself because despite my desire to clear the low-functioning red flag i am, in fact, quite low-functioning.Money helps alot and I won't lie and say that it didn't alleviate some of the despair and i suggest you DCA into bitcoin instead of/along with your retirement fund if you have the ability to restrain yourself from gambling or checking it every day.
>>84160561Damn anon, I'm really sorry you're going through it, you remind me of how I tend to feel when I'm off my meds cause I'm a lazy idiot who hates going to the hospital to get her meds. I can understand how hard it is getting appropiate healthcare in the US, fuck. The world is so unfair, but it doesn't mean you should be unfair to yourself too. You sound like you might have evitative affection issues, and those can really damage your relationships with others.Please be careful with what you're taking, and you're 100percent free to vent here. We're here for now!>improving through your efforts is a great and immensely satisfying feeling.Absolutely, it feels insane just how different I felt before the meds and after the meds, but... It hasn't been the first time I quit cold turkey out of my own negligence. Quitting psych meds is NOT GOOD and please, don't do it lol.>the stay-up-overthinking nights are some of my favourite, but it sounds like it might not be so for you?Honestly some big things are happening in my life and I'm so anxious, in a good way, but I don't know how to feel. I'm like "YO WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE GOOD THINGS HAPPENING TO ME I HAVE TO PLAN AHEAD OH GOD" kek.
>>84160552I don't care about what other people say about me. I care that it is a barrier to having friends or a romantic life. Currently i don't go out because I have no reason or excuse to. I have very few interests and all are solitary.Your english is very good and it's actually impressive you could make heads or tails of my post considering how it was written. If you are a faithful man then you should go to church as often as you can. I have faith that faith is good but i'm agnostic myself. Maybe that will change but I think it would be disrespectful to attend church to socialize when I am agnostic myself.
>>84160630Naah, don't feel bad about going to church even if your faith isn't the strongest, dude/dudette, my faith isn't 100percent strong and some days I really wonder if there's a God, but... Just having faith and hope helps. Really. It will be harder to find a romantic partner if you don't put yourself out there, I personally manage to find people who are quite likeminded to me in most places I go to, the issue is finding someone who wants juuuust what you want too. And about my english, I'm a C2 proficient english speaker! My pronunciation is decent but I do have a strong argie accent, kek.
>>84160649Your writing is excellent and accents are not so important in most cases. I'm a male, sorry to disappoint if you were hoping for a woman. I may look into church, at the least i could volunteer as that is something i could justify without feeling like a fraud.>It will be harder to find a romantic partner if you don't put yourself out thereYes this is the main issue. I will have to think more on what i actually want to do.
>>84160680Thank you! And well, it is always a bit exciting finding another nona, considering I'm not a man, heeheh. Real good church people won't mind if you don't believe completely in God or are agnostic or don't have much or any faith. Anyone is welcome to church and is a brother. And people who do good will always be welcome in the arms of God, that's what I know.>I will have to think more on what i actually want to do.I will admit dating is really hard nowadays. I was extremely freaking lucky to find my partner, and he says he was even more lucky, but idk. I have my skeletons in the closet as we say in spanish.
>>84160170Gen. feeling suicidal because of all the negativity i keep absorbing from online and real life. I really just need some sleep and a walk but i don't want to leave the house ugh/
>>84160699We have the same saying here about skeletons and closets, everyone has a past and those that demand absolute purity you should be most wary of. Since you have watched Frieren you know that demons only mimic our tongue. They can say the word but do not know the meaning of purity and it is a tool of punishment in their hands.It is good that you both found each other and it does give me hope so thank you. I hope you find other nonas to befriend.
>>84160716This might sound gay but put on some good ASMR or some good music that you know will either make you cry or feel better. Tending to your needs is always important and should be your priority. The rest of the world will always be at commotion and chaos, but that doesn't mean -you- also have to be at chaos. Take care of YOUR world, anon.look at this lil' guy go lolhttps://youtu.be/zAL8i0FzxL8>>84160731Absolutely, yes. I saw an ad today that said that very smart and mature people don't judge others too much, and don't take criticism to heart. What we put out in the world speaks more of us, than what others speak of us. Don't think I'm too smart though, I'm a dumbass kek. I just like making people happy and being an honest, loving person. Life feels bland and sad when you can't share your blessings, even if scarce, with others.>it does give me hope so thank you. I hope you find other nonas to befriend.Hey, don't worry man! I love speaking with good people regardless of gender, hope you can stay around and have some fun or relax in the thread. I personally feel more calm after speaking with you and posting funni things in other threads, hahah.
>>84160600Thanks, anon, for the sympathy, and, honestly, just the positive attention. I'm glad to read that it seems to be working for you, even if it is a bother to get and manage meds. I'm vicarously experiencing a bit of that positive anxiety through you now, haha. Really nice. I wouldn't mind reading about that if you want to tell. It's not really a medical issue for me, I was forced to try a rotation of drugs twice and it just didn't do anything. It's supposedly inherited, and my mom says ketamine and spirits help, but I don't think I trust her advice on such things very much, both because of her own state and because of our differences in life, feeling and personality. I guess the hour makes American a safe bet, but I'm actually in a relatively well off EU state. You'd be surprised at the frankly catastrophic problems we have, though, despite our international reputation for amazing welfare. You might be right about being evitative or avoidant, but I'm kind of hesitant with diagnoses. It's probably a good system and tool for grouping people for treatments and concerning physical ailments, but it doesn't feel right to view myself and my personality issues through that lens. Call it a personal aesthetic preference, I guess. We really are here for now. I don't know how I feel about that.>>84160716Gen., generally? I don't often regret going on sanity walks, even when I have difficulty getting out the door. Recommended. Exact same feelings for going to sleep, I guess.
>>84160758I'm glad I managed to lift your mood at least if it's by a little, dude! And since you're the anon who's drinking or using drugs, please stay careful and if you feel weak or weird or like you'll pass out, don't be afraid of calling emergency services. Please.What can I tell you, I had to try different combinations of meds until I finally found what hits right for me, and growing up has allowed my conditions to mellow out a little. That and changing my worldview too. And hanging out with people who... Don't bring me down? Not people who don't have any problems, but rather, people who KNOW that it can't be sunshine and rainbows 24-7. And people who are proud of even the littlest accomplishments.Yeah, I personally have the issue that I want a diagnosis just to get a better treatment, but categorizing emotions is... Dehumanizing. It's like I want to prove to others that I'm REALLY struggling, and not faking it. Shit's hard being a human, but at least we can laugh at our pain and carry on through another day.Also ketamine could... Be a treatment, but always supervised by a doctor. You gotta feel comfy to try it first. I never went through it but fluoxetine has fr changed my life.
I hate to be a woke SJW type (although I am that) but the honkler stuff is very neo-Nazi-coded and far-right-coded so it's kind of hard to make this a general chat vibe thread
>>84160805the w-what now?
>>84160810Anon is saying the pepe is too nazi-coded for this thread to be enjoyable as a chatroom.
I've been sleeping really late for the last 2 months and it's kind of getting in the way of other things in my life so I think I'll start turning off my laptop and the lights around 12-1 AM. The phone can also become a problem but I'm not on it for very long after I turn the lights out.
>>84160810>>84160832Some frogs are nice frogs who spend their time being nice to people (Apu).Some frogs are mean frogs who spend their time being mean to people (Honkler).
>>84160832But I like pepe, he's funny. I can post animu if anything.>>84160837Are you eating very filling meals before bedtime? Maybe that's also keeping you up. And caffeine after 6pm too. And stress. And hormones (if you're a lady).
>>84160861All frogs are memes and memes can be used by whoever for whatever. I can be mean to you with apu or "honkler." Personally I have only seen "honkler" used to cope about absurdity.
>>84160869>I can be mean to you with apuYou... you wouldn't dare!
>>84160876we all friens here, we keep it gangsta with the homies in this thread
Here is an original image for this nice chatroom
>>84160862I usually eat pretty late on my days off like today so yeah that's probably the main cause. That and stress. I mainly drink water most of the time, and I'm not a woman, so luckily I don't have to worry about either of those things. I'm going to get ready for bed now to try to sleep early tonight so good night. I hope this thread is still going by the time I'm up.
>>84160170My big issue right now is that I don't like the town I live in and want to move. It's too crowded and too close to city, plus I don't go outside much here for a variety of reasons. I'm not crazy about the job I have here either but the money is pretty good for a scrub like me. So, if I want to leave I have to make a plan to do that and risk not being able to find a job.
>>84160887look at that absolute unit of a lizard, now THAT's a good photo! thank you for passing by, anon :D>>84160906Aaah, so you're like me in those two aspects, eating late and sometimes out of stress, or being stressed while eating. You should definitely try eating something more filling than water during the day, starving can also make your brain stay awake for longer just for you to get some calories in. Good night anon, I hope the thread stays up! I should go mimimi soon, but still, don't feel too tired hahah.>>84160915Aaah, welcome to the thread anon! I can understand how it feels living in a crowded city, or a city that's too big or close to another big one. The city I've lived most of my life isn't that big, but it's tiring walking in it from one place to the other.Hmm... Maybe you could save up to pay some months of rent in advance to go to another city, and contact some apartment owners to tell them "Hey, I have money, I want to come live in this city", or straight-forward look for a job there and tell them you will move in. I'd save up money first, at least!
>>84160241are you that chicken tranny that spams here
