I have no one else to tell this to, so I'm posting this here. Call it a vent post or whatever, idk.I had to get an ECG done today. I'm 27 years old. The doctors didn't wanna jump to conclusions so they're gonna do more tests next month. Even if I did get diagnosed with heart problems, it's entirely my own fault so I can't really blame anyone.I don't know why I am the way I am, anons. I don't know why I did the things I did, why I acted the way I acted. And now, the curtains, well they're not quite closed but you can tell the show's almost over.Live long and prosper for the rest of you folksI know mine's almost done
>>84161910>more tests next monthusually means the doctors haven't found an immediate emergency
Practicing self destructionI can barely functionI fucked my whole life upI think that my times upThere's no coming back nowEveryone is sad now, sad nowTime's up I know that my life sucksNothing worth saving I am barely livingWaging and praying just to end itYou wish I was dead now, dead nowI'll be dead by 30I'm crashing and burningWasting my time cuz it is all worthless, worthlessI'll be fucking dead by 30, 30Useless, this why I choose thisMaybe I'm just stupid, dumb and cluelessHouston can you read me, can you even hear me?Do you even need me, need me?Chemicals in my brainI am not the sam_I watched too much YouTubeI ate too much junk foodHad too many vaccinesNow som_thing is wrong me, wrong with meI'll be dead by 30I'm crashing and burningWasting my time cuz it is all worthless, worthlessI'll be fucking dead by 30
>need more tests>findings inconclusive >only 27 years old>some excessive alcohol drinkingWhile you are obviously terrible at listening, as well as supplying critical information, unless you are hardlining black tar heroine and bacon grease you're probably going to be fine. Might need to be on heart medication for a whole or the rest of your life but you'll live.
>>84161921here's hoping there's none at all>>84161937I smoke a pack a day since I was 18I drink every few weeks since I was 21The vices themselves aren't the main issue, they're copes to mask the main issue which is my underlying childhood traumaEh, shit happens I guess
>>84161910dw bro i've had a fucked heart since i was born, currently 36 and havent died yet.... soon maybe?
