How do you deal with the sadness that has taken ahold of you, anon? >can't relate to anyone>full blown virgin>things circling in your head from 2 years ago>thoughts that make you take a pill of benzos every time >you are a total failure who struggles to a basic ass job>nobody will ever love you >everyone's out there meeting and fucking>nothing excites you anymore >too much of a pussy to even end itTime flies by everyday. No hope left.
Masturbation is very fun
>>84167858>can't relate to anyonewhy be a normie>full blown virgin>everyone's out there meeting and fuckingwhy be a degen>things circling in your head from 2 years agothat one sucks>thoughts that make you take a pill of benzos every timewhy be a druggie>you are a total failure who struggles to a basic ass jobwhy be a wagie>nobody will ever love youlove is a facade to hide transactional relationships>nothing excites you anymoretry new things>too much of a pussy to even end iti got nothing. maybe you should
>>841678582 years ago? that's nothing, try 7
>>84167861My masturbation sessions have gotten so long that they last for 3 to 4 hours. Sometimes I end prematurely (the 1 and a half to 2 hour mark) by peeing a lot and not being able to contain it for that long. I'm a porn junkie and download 20-30 gigs of porn everyday. >>84167884I got thoughts circling back from 10 years ago as well. It is just the 2 year old ones dominate currently.
>>84167858I don't want anyone to relate to me, I am me.I am not a virgin because I have SEX. You should try it sometime.2 years ago? I still circle around things from 10 years ago. Regrets regrets regrets...Benzos.I simply do not work at all.Love isn't claimed but given.No one is out there meeting and fucking, people are miserable and retarded.I'm still excited from time to time.I tried ending it, I failed, now I try not ending it.
>>84167858Try this on for size: >>can't relate to anyoneYes, and the few people you have been able to relate to backstab you worse than normies >>full blown virginNo, but see above.>>things circling in your head from 2 years agoYes>>thoughts that make you take a pill of benzos every timeI wish I had some>>you are a total failure who struggles to a basic ass jobYes>>nobody will ever love youYes>>everyone's out there meeting and fuckingYes>>nothing excites you anymoreYes>>too much of a pussy to even end itYes but the urge grows every single dayI can't do this anymore>>84167861Grow up
>>84167898>>84167875What's so hard with being fucking forthright every once in a while? Even under the name Anonymous?
>>84167909We are Anonnymousse, we do not firgive, we do not foget, semper phi
>>84167858I don't even do drugs man I just rawdog ts
>>84167858gonna put this out there and it might be kind of hard to explain.forgiving yourself is actually super powerful and not really expected or talked about.most people talk about self love or self acceptance, but those things don't really have much meat on them it seems at least for me.but forgiving myself for things that i hate about myself has been really impactful. get a deep breath of relief after every time and it doesn't take long, just gets right to the heart of it somehow.so say you're having a negative fantasy where people hate you.think of why they would hate you.forgive yourself for that thing.if you feel fat or ugly or worthless etc, forgive yourself for it.might just be what others mean by self love/acceptance, but it never really clicked til i put it in the context of forgiveness and started applying.
>>84168026How do you do that? If I just say I forgive myself for something that's a lie because I actually don't
>>84167890fuck yeah, an actual real porn junkie. 20 - 30 gigs is good stuff. do you like brazzers and some of the pro stuff?
>>841678847 lmfao fucking dunce, i have thoughts from fifteen years ago i'm still deciding on how to handle
>>84167858eating food and masturbation is literally all there is and people keep trying to take it from you so it keeps the fight ever alive, no time for sadness
>>84168084what do you do with your nuts? right in your hand?
>>84168054>because I actually don'tdo it. yeah you can't just say it but try to find a way to forgive yourself, realizing that you can't should be a big sign that you need to investigate in that direction.it isn't permanent mind you, you will still have a subconscious full of self-hatred and shame. but for me finding the core of the hatred/shame and forgiving myself for it gives a lot of relief in the moment.>but i shouldn't forgive myself, i SHOULD hate/shame myself for Xthat is never going to help you. you're never going to hate yourself into perfection. your self-hatred is never going to be satisfied even by genuine self-improvement around the topic of its choosing.it will just make the self-improvement the object for its hatred, and will never let you forget X even if you do get far away from it.you'll think of that time you X, years later, and have a flash.you have to address the root, which is the object of self-hatred. and the most effective way for me at least is applying forgiveness. totally undermines and deflates the negativity as the topic and target is taken off the table of guilt/shame
>>84168026It is hard to forgive and let go when you have nothing going in your life. When you gave away the slither of goodness you had left to the wrong people. It is tough knowing that you are the odd one out. That you will never experience the happiness other people encounter in their lives - love, friendship, kids, good relationship with your parents and siblings. You keep trying to find an explanation, but you never manage to put your finger on it. >>84168076Amateur shit all the way, lol. They started taking off the good porn off the web 6 years ago when MasterCard showed PH the door. Forked over $30 (3TB on Yandex.Disk, way cheaper than any Western shit) for a cloud subscription just to keep the porn around. I don't even know/remember what I have watched at this point.
>>84168096you're so retarded i don't know why you're in this thread. forgiveness has nothing to do with anything. go sell your program door to door to someone else
>>84168099at some point though wouldn't you just want to keep all of your material on your own drives? how come you have faith that the cloud will be around forever and they won't accidentally delete your account? interesting about the mastercard/ph situation too, never thought of that
Alcohol helps. Original alcohol.
>>84168111no you just need some miller high life's retard
>>84167858please dont say that no one will ever love you buddy, you deserve all of the love in the world <3i believe you can make the changes you dream of!
>>84168093the nut goes wherever it comes out because the orgasm takes command and the body needs utter freedom
>>84167908>Grow upNever. Being a manchild is fun masturbating is fun why be an adult why be a man poo poo pee pee
>>84168099>nothing going in your lifeforgive yourself for it>gave away the slither of goodness you had leftforgive yourself for it>knowing that you are the odd one outforgive yourself for it>never experience the happiness other people encounter in their livesforgive yourself for it>you never manage to put your finger on itforgive yourself for it>>84168103>you're so retardedyou're projecting. the idea that "forgiveness has nothing to do with anything" pertaining to the topics in OP is retarded. you're seething, and coping with your seething.
>>84168132you think the body needs freedom but its default state is already freedom and you (everyone including me) the one inhabiting the body are the one fucking it all up. human souls are niggers until they are capable of liberation. all skin colors are niggers until total purification has completed
>>84168127>beerAhahahahahahaha fucking poof.
>>84168164that is a very interesting perspective but perhaps freedom is a bad word choice. It's more about not using additional resources that could be naturally dedicated to the orgasm by doing anything unnecessary, like forcing it or theatrics. A lot of people feel performative even when they're alone due to religious psychological conditioning
>>84168108I don't know if you are old enough to remember, but Xvideos used to have a counter written in search bar. It used to go up everyday. Until they quietly decided to follow-suit. It started going down before they completely removed it and now you have "SEARCH XVIDEOS". No big ass blogs posts as they like to do now, no nothing. They just decided to toe the line. They are going to do the same about age verification despite all of their posts. >your own drivesThat would be the ideal scenario. But as of now, I'm running a 12 year old laptop with a 500 gig drive. Also, some Silicon Valley fuck decided to buy up all of the world's supply of HDDs. I can't afford shit, lol.
>>84167858I strive to become more and more indifferent to that feeling every day (currently failing as per usual)
>>84168147I don't even feel human, to be honest. I guess you can call it a prerequisite to forgiveness. I just wanted reciprocation. I didn't want the bile I ended up getting. Life isn't pulling any punches. Am I not worthy enough of feeling and being treated like a human being at least once? I just can't let go off all that shit that has piled up for the last 10 years at this point.
>>84167858>How do you deal with the sadness that has taken ahold of you, anon?Took the loner pill and stop giving a fuck, have little patience for people and their bullshit and keep things to myself.
>>84168235for sure, it's not some magic bullet technique. life, the mind, and suffering are a complex system.it was just a technique i wanted to share that might interest or help someone like it's helped me.and again not as some revelation of eternal joy, but at least a welcome head change when my shit gets going and i need relief or a break for a minute or two
>>84167858>How do you deal with the sadness that has taken ahold of you, anon?I simply live with the pain. Everyone who loved me is now dead.Being a recluse who binge drinks at the start of every month makes it a little easier though.Even paying for sex is crap for me. I can't get turned on enough.
>>84167890Edging sessions are great but the orgasms don't feel as intense compared to a quick fap, maybe its due to slight loss of sensitivity and the need to quickly release the build up of cum asap. Still worth it tho for all the pleasure leading up to it
>>84168328The loner pill is the cope pill, lol. There's just no way around it. I haven't heard of a single loner that is 100% happy. There's always something wrong and they are coping big time by shoving it into everyone's face and repeating it to themselves as a mantra everyday. >>84168332It takes a certain type of personality to be able to forgive. I'm certainly not one of those people. How can I not be hard on myself when I'm slowly but surely moving towards Grand Wizard level. No friends (not even online), no job, not in education (I got a degree though). I literally have NOTHING going for me. I'm constantly grumpy because I'm not getting shit and some people were just lucky enough to get it served on a silver platter. Meanwhile, I had to learn how to talk, how not to be a fucking creep, how to take care of myself, how to not be a smelly fuck. I had to learn and be funny. I used to hold court, lots of women around. Nothing ended up happening. I was just another clown. (This part probably messes up me most. I've had lots of great conversations, and I assume this is the prerequisite to moving further, but didn't lead to anything) After that, they returned to their boring ass boyfriends that do nothing for them, lol. I was even told by some of them that they feel as if they are being held captive. >i need relief or a break for a minute or twoI definitely didn't mean ephemeral relief. What happens after the two minutes?
>>84167858How do I deal with loneliness? I don't, I just take it like I take everything else. It's like a flu, you just endure the symptoms. There's really nothing you can do about it.
>>84168970>The loner pill is the cope pill, lol. There's just no way around it. I haven't heard of a single loner that is 100% happy.This sounds childish. It's not about being happy, it's about acceptance. These are two very different things.
>>84168731>paying for sex is crapI don't even have the luxury to afford paid sex, lol. >drinkingI more or less laid off alcohol in September of 2024 when I got badly drunk at a wedding. It just isn't the same anyone. I can't really relax and let my mind run free. >>84168771When I quick fap I feel like the fap has been ruined, desu. I hate it. If I don't do it for an hour and a half I don't get the nice head relief afterwards. You know, the one that makes your eyes roll and you want to close them. Moreover, I have an insatiable need to watch more and more porn, see more and more pussy, asses, tits and so on. I just never seem to get enough, lol. Weird shit honestly. There are days when I can watch porn all day, not getting an erection, purely for the visual side of things. Next day, even few days, zilch.
>>84167858>How do you deal with the sadness that has taken ahold of you, anon?Be a man and abuse substances
>>84167858>How do you deal with the sadness that has taken ahold of you, anon?I just kinda grit my teeth and keep going
>>84168998>purely for the visual side of thingskek based
>>84168771nta but I feel the opposite. the coom after a long goon is godly
I do drugs to cope but after awhile it gets old, outside of trying to fix your life, and going to therapy if you can afford it I don't see a way out. Just got to cope however you can
