>tfw autistic>meeting new people >mask around them well enough and pretend care for their normie bullshit enough and simulate normie aping enough that they think you're a neuronormie>eventually gets too tired to pretend to be a normie>turns into my baseline state of being a 24/7 stonefaced, dry, flat affect, schizo rambling autist >"OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU ANON WHY ARE YOU ACTING SO WEIRD WHAT'S GOING ON">eventually they realize this is my baseline state forever>they live
>>84168005imagine i said they leave instead of they live
>>84168005i want a baseline autistic girlfriend, that seems perfectwhy do autists even mask
at 30 I stopped masking altogether. I've become that weird guy who just has a flat expression and tells boomers to their face that their whole life they were pawns to an Epstein world. I also do shit like if I'm having a bad time in a social situation I just get up and leave without saying goodbye. Embracing being a weirdo and "that guy" is the best thing I've ever done. Never let some chimp brained normie try to tell you what is acceptable and what isn't. They are crabs in a bucket. They thrive on loosh.
>>84168012i guess i cant help masking desu, my true self is a complete turnoff to everyone so at this point i feel like it's become expected of me to craft a new personality for each person so that they don't get turned away by my true self instantly, but then i think i take it too far, and much farther beyond my natural ability. i start to think i can keep the ruse up long term but eventually when i exhaust all my masking energy, they just find out that the person they befriended is not a charismatic, outgoing or anything like that, but actually just a weird autist
>>84168040cool insight, i get it. isnt it exhausting tho never showing your true self from the get-go and therefore never finding someone that likes the (you) behind the mask
>>84168047it is exhausting and basically every interaction i have where i keep this mask up is basically extra additional weight that further exhausts me and makes me disillusioned with friendship prospects. it does suck that i basically can't find anyone who actually likes me for who i am but I still have social needs and i have to adapt to fulfill them somehow. sometimes, when im talking to people and remember how exhausting social interaction is, i want to simply isolate forever, but then when im isolating, i remember that isolation feels like shit
>>84168005Why not just become an Asperger Separatist instead?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5qq7KRkKS0
>>84168072you're that retard troon who keeps posting your gay rapist fantasy threads? no thanks, id rather be euthanized than have anything to do with you.
>>84168061autistic burnout. maybe some exhaustion also comes not just from the masking itself but also cause you know it wont ever last anyway. no one ever responded well to the unmasked you? great self-awareness btw.i want a girlfriend that doesnt have to go through these cycles with me, praying i find one.
From a dude that just found out I have autism and adhd at a late ageYou got to stop masking so much manI had a complete mental breakdown at 35 years old and was bedridden for a monthWent to therapy because I was out of options and we gradually worked out that ive been essentially self harming for years trying to be normal when I knew there was something unusual about myselfThe impact was causing was felt like sleep deprivation but was actually my brain using up double the energy every day until it crashed over and and overI imagine it shaved years off my life at this point
>>84168088>35My man, it's time to leave 4chan
>>84168005Basically, except I'm not even autistic enough to fit in with autists>>84168012That would be the dream except in reality most of them are even worse than normie women and desperately want a neurotypical+narc man to be their rock
>>84168106>That would be the dream except in reality most of them are even worse than normie women and desperately want a neurotypical+narc man to be their rocki am neurotypical, bnot narcissistic
>>84168091Im older than that now broWhy do young people even come here anywaythis place isnt as good as it used to beI come here out of habit and because there are lots of spergs like meAlso if I can do anything right in my stupid chud life it will be to pass down good advice to the young spergs who are struggling
>>84168083yeah, everytime i make a new connection, i know that it won't last but i still try to delude myself that somehow it'll work out and somehow i'll be able to get over how tiring it is to mask somehow, of course doesn't happenmy unmasked self had been described in all kinds of ways by people, but mostly as just "weird" and even once or twice ive been called "insane" to my face. if i dont contain myself, i clearly act in a classic spergy way where i say everything i tend to think and that is something people do NOT want to be around>>84168088i guess i should stop but honestly it's become as much of a reflex for me as breathing to be honest. i activate the mask without a thought. but while i see that it's the only way i can get people to befriend me, it's only for a short while, so in the end not really completely worth it anyways
>>84168154If you want to stop masking so much but dont want to be lonely I suggest continuing with the friendships you have even if you are masked but look to set up new ones where you dont maskI live in a city so this was easier because meetup app had tons of groups for my hobbies and specific autism friendly groupsIn general niche interest groups will have people that wont mind if you dont mask
>>84168027correct. i also leave places i don't care to be at because if i'm not having a good time then why the fuck would i stick around. been walking out of places since i'd say 27 or something. as far as the unmasking, you take the direct approach which is the most surgical and i insanely respect that, for me i just skip out of the conversation and disregard them since they're so far gone but your way is the actual enlightening way
>>84168154>i clearly act in a classic spergy way where i say everything i tend to think and that is something people do NOT want to be aroundidk, i like authenticity, im tired of everyone being fake
i don't really know about "autism" or "masking" or whatever the fuck. i was never a normie social animal, but almost never had a problem interacting with people if i wanted to.since i hit 30 i find that effort harder to muster or justify. i live with my gf and other people, but don't maintain or seek out interactions beyond that. in fact, i often dream of (having the option to enter) complete isolation.
>>84168441>Im neurotypical and am getting oldOk
>>84168452>You didn't adopt my label so I'm gonna give you a different labelOk
>>84168441i bet you got your manhood tested punk
>>84168005>be me>be autistic>too autistic to even pretend to be normie>literally have a brain freeze and mumble incoherently if a cashier asks how are you>learn to avoid other people in general>much happier alone anyway>find socializing tedious and boring >use self-checkout and contactless delivery>ignore anyone trying to talk to me out in public>enjoy being outside where there is nobody close enough to look at me>pokerface staring straight ahead and walking to myself if someone is near me and I feel uncomfortable>walk in the street if there are people on the sidewlak>go for long leisure walks at times and places where I rarely cross paths with anyoneLife is good
>>84168441>my gffucking normies
>>84168572he's a strong normie and his post wreaks of it. he's trying to fit in here with the incels
>>84168005>>they liveThats not a given?
>>84168600ehhh? a reverse masking sex haver??!1!!!!~
>>84168012>why do autists even maskIt's easier to feign interest in "current thing" or the latest sportsball team than it is to be ourselves. Normies get uncomfortable if you don't obsess over mainstream slop like everyone else.
>>84168624>Normies get uncomfortable if you don't obsess over mainstream slop like everyone else.Since when do you care about THEIR comfort? Admit it, it's more the fact YOU are uncomfortable with making it clear to people that you don't care about that shit.
>>84168615oh yeah. tons of normies know about the incel community and the darkness that clouds it. they think it's cool because of its uniqueness or whatever the fuck they think and sometimes they get the urge to fit in for again whatever the fuck fucking reason
>>84168716the scenarios you create in your head just to cope with your inceldom are truly astounding
>>84168088I'm 35 and got ADHD meds at 32 and like before, am stuck in a constant crashout cycle where I get too burnt out to do things like grocery shop & cook. I haven't been able to live independently from my aged parents. I need some kind of social work help in attaining stable housing and income, but I don't know where to go. It's probably audhd if I'm being honest. I'm basically the TF2 Spy; I can wear the opposing team's uniform and blend in, and use the watch to go unnoticed, but there's a timer on how long I last
