i think im doomed forever it makes me feel so horribleim a disgusting whore. i wish i could have been normal. i feel like i was ruined forever. ill never be normal or okay. ill always be fucked in the head. i hate myself so much. i dont feel fulfilled unless im on drugs or getting attention from men and it makes me feel disgusting. i consider suicide so often because i just feel like theres no other way out. no other way to feel better or become better.
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>>84169035I used to feel like this too but it got better. I truly think you deserve better and I'm confident that you can reach a state of happiness or at least a state of peace/ neutrality. it sounds stupid but learn to appreciate the little things. the sun shining through your window. growing plants and flowers. a warm meal. a good night's sleep. listening to your favorite songs. distracting yourself with vidya. I believe it gets better. please stay with us. you have nothing to lose it can only get better so why rush death?
>>84169047thanks anon for the giggle i guess
>>84169072thank you anon. i appreciate that a lot. i hope things do get better
>>84169035Lmao get therapy and if your parents suck, then find a person you can wholly trust and open up to them.
>>84169035Thank you Lord for blessing us today with the abundance of troonbait.
>>84169035You have probably heard things like this many times. You need to give yourself quite a few chances to get better. You absolutely can get better. It is just difficult to pull yourself out of the spiral. Get off the internet and spend time with people you trust. It takes time but you will feel normal again. Take that step no matter the self-destructive impulses.
>>84169035Is the male attention youre getting now making you feel good?
>>84169079You spend your whole life trying to be different, then one day you realize you turned into your parents anyway
>>84169105i guess so yeah i think i mostly want attention but the post is still true
>>84169118>i guess sobitch is stuck in a cortisol-dopamine loop. sad!
>>84169035I love you femanon
>>84169109Which is good if you love your parents
>>84169035>im a disgusting whoreimagine being a whore as a male but never getting attention because youre not good enough. idc about your problems if youre a girl because iv suffered worse, and longer too
>>84169221you know the attention doesnt last right. it doesnt matter if youre a woman or attractive or anything it always dries up and it always leaves you feeling miserable. the pedophiles i sought out when i was 11 didnt make me feel any better just because i got attention you know.
>>84169252youre a bot. how can you be so aware of your own mistakes and keep doing them
>>84169252it doesnt dry up, you just got used because people take advantage of young women. i dont really care for someone saying "yeah i know youve never had anything, but trust me, i had it and its not all that great!"because everyone is exactly like you and doesnt need to form their own opinions, right
>>84169264because it makes me feel better. its comfortable, safe. doing drugs makes me feel better so i keep doing them knowing theyre doing me harm. male attention makes me feel better so i keep seeking it even though i know long term it only makes me feel worse. but the short term is good. so i keep doing it.
>>84169277addicted to the slot machine. noone in your life you implicitly trust/love? because this cycle is killing you
>>84169286i know. i dont really have anyone. ive never really had anyone honestly. i know its killing me but maybe im better off dead
>>84169302i was down a very similar road. feeling broken and worthless.i cant speak for others but for me the three things that got me into healing were 1. hitting a wall. like full-stop wondering wtf im doing. switch in my head. 2. finding a partner that unconditionally accepted me as i was, as my broken self. 3. psych ward and my therapist. it's still ongoing, but just feeling content day-to-day is so tranquil. last summer i genuinely felt happy for the first time in a long time
>>84169035Then a find a man to permanently give you attention. It's called a "relationship", it's nice sometimes.
>>84169662Yeah OP you should date me and we can do drugs together until you die like in Breaking Bad
>>84169035>i dont feel fulfilled unless im on drugs or getting attention from menJust enjoy that then. If you stopped feeling guilty about it you'd be able to regain a lot of self respect and your general mood would improve. Fuck the world, why care what others think?
>>84169691Like telling a crack-addict to enjoy living on the street and losing his leg due to the cold. Context matters.
