what is the point of putting effort in doing things when i still feel absolutely nothing when the reward arrivesjustemptinessall the time
>>84178165Tao Anon! Ugh... I'm sorry you're suffering again. I do ask myself the same question a lot as well... sometimes I do feel something when the reward comes but even then it's for such a brief moment that it's hard to think of all that effort as worth it. I guess, as they say, you're supposed to enjoy the journey, so in this case the effort is the reward.. if only I could actually see it that way somehow. Perhaps it's possible though, to somehow get into such a mindset that putting effort into things isn't incredibly painful. Or maybe you don't have to do that if you can fix your depression. I mean, I'm pretty sure you're supposed to feel at least a little bit of satisfaction at the rewards, so the fact that you feel complete emptiness indicates something is messed up with your reward system. I wonder how normies feel when they accomplish something. Considering they seem to have the drive to keep doing so many things it must feel pretty amazing for them. Hopefully one day we can both experience that feeling too.
yea even when i accomplish something i barely feel anything. i think i perma fucked my brain with all the drugs and alcohol i used to do, and being addicted to a couple games probably also helped fry my brain even more
It takes time anon to recover anons. To regrow, or grow, the parts of your brain that are needed.
the thrill and high of a task recently done does last an instant yes, but the rewards do add up in the long term into something way more satisfying when you happen to look back.That's why you keep going. Because deep down you know it does make a tangible difference
>>84178165What if anything? What if a bomb drops ova ya head 'uh?!
>>84178165I hate emptiness
