Can schizophrenia and other forms of mental illness really ruin your life, or is it exaggerated?
>>84214980I'm schizophrenic and I have never held a job, a femoid hand, or a real position in society. Meds don't help. Nothing helps. I post on 4chan 24 hours a day except when I'm sleeping. Shits fucked dawg.
>>84214986Why do you have schizophrenia
>>84215002Presumably I was born with the genes and they activated by chance or because of abuse and I became a worthless freak as a result
>>84215012Do u be seeing shit or something what's it like
>>84214980Every legitimately schizophrenic guy I've l known ended up killing themselves (three of them I grew up with). It happens from having toxic parents whose narcissistic abuse causes them such cognitive dissonance and identity crisis that they go psychotic and split from reality to avoid the pain. Eventually they destroy themselves because they can't handle life and reality.
>>84215012I'm attacking you telepathically right now, do you feel anything?
>>84215041>Every legitimately schizophrenic guy I've l known ended up killing themselvesBefore or after their 30s?
>>84215002>>84215012>Presumably I was born with the genes and they activated by chance or because of abusePretty much.About 60-80% of schizophrenia risk is explained by genetic factors but it's usually a combination genes rather than one single mutation. The expression of these genes is modulated by a range of environmental factors such as complications during childbirth, living in a citt, growing up as a migrant or to migrant parents, heavy metal exposure or smoking fat doobies.
>>84215029Most of the positive symptoms aren't too bad for me, that's the hallucinations and shitI see bugs in the corners of my vision. I misinterpret shadows as people. I thought I saw a demon once, it was late at night and there was a shadow coming from outside and I stopped and stared because there isn't usually a shadow there and I was convinced it was a demon. For no real reason. And I kept watching and it didn't move and I relaxed and went to the bathroom and when I came back out the shadow was gone and I was terrified before I remembered it wasn't real to begin with. Or, it was a tree or a person or, I don't know. I don't hear anything often except when I'm tired and I hear what sounds like voices in another room I can tell it's language but the words are unknown but that's calming like water noises. I get delusions more often. People can read my mind and I know they can't but, maybe they can. I get the sense that people want to hurt me, and they don't but maybe they do. It's difficult to exist because of that. I can tell myself it's not real all I want, but part of me believes it and the worse I'm doing the bigger that part is. I rarely leave the house, I can't hold a job, friendships are difficult to impossible so I am always alone. I don't take care of myself, I forget to or I don't care to. My clothes are full of holes and my hair has not been cut in years and years. I know these things have easy solutions, I just don't care. I know it's weird, but it doesn't matter to me. I get the sense, and I think it's true, that everyone who observes me knows there's something wrong and it doesn't bother me but I know it prevents me from assimilating into society but I still can't bring myself to care. I feel like a bug or some kind of vermin, like I must live in the dark and skitter away at any approach. Mostly I'm just alone. >>84215043no keep trying
>>84214980I'm schizoaffective and BPD and I lost out on so many opportunities because of my illness
>>84215002>Why do you have schizophrenialul
>>84215102>no keep trying>>implying that I'm not a threat to youI will have my revenge
>>84215102I got psychosis once from drugs. I just saw stuff and delusions too. Feel bad for the guys who are actually fucked up. I used want to become schizophrenic so I could forget everything about the real world and society
After I was diagnosed, I lost all of my friends. My family views me as a mentally broken loser.
>>84214980It can be really annoying sometimesLike my friend keeps telling me he is dying, and then the next day he is like "gm" like nothing ever happenedLike he wants me to take him seriously but then doesn't get why I took him seriouslySo fucking annoying
>>84215138>I will have my revengeI won't fight back>>84215141I've never had bad experiences with drugs. I don't forget anything about the real world it just gets pushed back. I know I'm fucked, I'm on a bad path and there's no way off. I'm old, what's my future going to be? I have no savings or income. Getting on welfare is too complicated and too much work. I should care about that shit but I don't. I'll be homeless and starving and I won't be able to force myself to do anything. I get this lucidity sometimes and it all hits me and I have a panic attack but it doesn't change anything. I feel like an animal stuck in a lab experiment I know there's a way out but I can't fathom it. It's all so beyond me.
>>84215181>I won't fight backI... I changed my mind. This fight isn't not worh it.
>>84215253Please keep trying I need this I'm so alone even being hit would feel good
Yes, I have ASPD, and it makes me a generally horrible person.
>>84215102What did the demon look like to you and why were you convinced it was a demon and not some weird creature?
>>84214980A schizo I know just made a YouTube video saying i comminted suicide and I'm in heaven now
>>84215275I don't know how to explain it, I just knew it was a demon in the way you'd know a tree when you saw one. It looked like the shadow of a person but very large, more angular. Where it was and the window and everything it would have been 8 feet tall I think or around that. It was taller than the window. I think it must have been a tree thinking back on it and maybe the moon came out and then got covered by clouds. I don't know.
>>84214986>>84215012>>84215041This is scary to read as a homeless schizo but I fight every day to be okay and help others
>>84215181Well if I were around I would get twice the food in the food line I am waiting for currently and give half of it to you to prevent that
