Docs did some tests and found a new cancer formation in my spine... the stem cell transplant is paused now. yay more chemotherapy and radiation, and a lot of needles in my spine. therapy starts tomorrow. anyone wanna talk about anything? just need to get my mind off all this...
I don't have much to talk about because i'm a very boring person but here is another original lizard.
thas ruff frenhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQ6t07tG2BM
>>84226670I hope this is just a LARP
>>84226670What the fuck? Sorry I would not want to go through this just let it take me
>>84226687You can't be more boring than me anon. Blood cancer is about the only notable thing I have going for myself. Thanks for the lizard, though I would prefer it if you could drop some in my DMs too.>>84226699dubs checkedthe first two minutes sound good but then the song gets too metal-ystart reminds me of starcraft terran theme>>84226713I wish man. I really really wish that this is all a very long nightmare and I wake up with me and my life still intact>>84226726It's amazing what our instincts will pull us through - even if you feel like you're going crazy and mentally breaking apart every morning and night you'll still do all the steps necessary to survive, that's just how it is anony
Christian Slavs tend to view suffering as noble, so you should be POGGING THE FUCK OUT about the easy martyrdom you're getting. Think of all the spiritual gains.
>>84226777>You can't be more boring than me anonI literally do nothing all day except shitpost and watch streamers. I don't even have a lot of lizards or other pictures, we were in a rush because I was with nephews who are very little so I couldn't take pictures of everything.>I would prefer it if you could drop some in my DMs too.I don't think i'd be interesting enough honestly. Most people I message from here quickly stop talking to me lol.
>>84226670Why did you get cancer, after all? Just bad luck?
>>84226796In a past chemo round I was in a room with a slav, he really couldn't take being forced to stay inside for weeks. You could observe him become more and more mentally unstable. I was glad when I could leave, by that point I was legitimately scared of him bursting out and hurting me dude was buff as hell. Anyway sorry anony, I'm a few years past my spiritual phase.>>84226796Just add me man. I am literally begging for any socialization I can get. I wish I could get someone from here to chat throughout the day with. My friends list is like an abandoned old west town. I'll reply to anyone as soon as I can inbetween all the treatment stuff. I don't even ghost, I'm THAT lonely. discord is Velasvi>>84226879Guess so. There's no clear answer, though we have a rough theory. Does it matter though? Once you got it you got it.
>>84226670hope you get well soon and make it brother
>>84226687>>84226670I NEED TO TAKE A SHIT BUT i also MUST DRINK MEAD AND PLAY OSRS AND TOMORROW ITS MY BIRTHDAY i am TURNING 30 YEARS OLD AND NVER HAD SEX IN MY LIFE. THANKS FOR LISTENING.
>>84226935>Guess soHow old are you?>we have a rough theoryAnything shareable?>Does it matter though?No, I was just after something to talk about.>My friends list is like an abandoned old west townWhat happened between you and your friends? You can't be that boring. Are you sure you didn't do anything wrong?
>>84226954thanks charlie kirk see you in valhalla brotheri got too brainrotted from browsing so much instagram in the hospitalwhat else are you even supposed to doi don't know>>84226956Happy birthday man.>>8422696325Got stung by a lot of mosquitos which my immune system got overwhelmed with so one immune cell did an oopsie in the quest to defend from mosquito spit and forgot to stop dividingWell I made one friend like 9 years ago on here but he became busy with life and wagecucking. Then I made another one 3 years ago also on here but stuff happened and now we don't talk anymore due to him. Now I'm out of friends yay
>>84227052From 0 to 10, what are the chances of you dying from your cancer? Do you think you'll be able to beat it?>by a lot of mosquitosApproximately how many mosquitoes?>forgot to stop dividingIt forgot to kill itself, actually. The problem is exactly that it didn't stop dividing.>we don't talk anymore due to himCan't you two make peace?
>>84227190Well the chances of survival looked pretty good but then they found the new cancer spots and now it's not so good again. No one wants to say a chance though, everyone just hopes for the best. The only % I ever got was half a year ago with like a 40% of dying before the end of treatment.like 30-40 mosquitoesNo there is no peace to be had sadly.
>>84227324Do you plan to make a thread here after you get better or realize that you're going to die soon? If so, what pic will you be using? Do you have any idea how long this treatment will last? How long have you had to deal with all of this that's been happening?I may sound a bit rude but it's not my intention.
>>84226879cute Alice
>>84227447I will continue to make threads here every few days depending on my loneliness and need for socialization until I can fill that hole in my heart and life with one (ideally) or more people. Teto and Miku pictures probably. This next chemo is probably gonna be 3-4 weeks with the waiting, and if they elect to do the HSCT straight after I'll be here 8-9 weeks total. I started getting sick last year September. You're not rude, at least I have you to talk to right now. I'm so tired man. Figuratively and literally.
>>84227539I stopped playing Fate/go after Solomon, didn't even know that I was posting a fate character lol>>84227552Do chemotherapy sessions hurt? Are you alone in the hospital or do you have a relative with you?>Figuratively and literallyI can imagine...
>>84227610Chemotherapy doesn't hurt directly but there can be a myriad of side effects ranging from annoying to horrifying due to them, e.g. nausea, neurological issues or organ failure. The body can only take so much toxin and issues pile up the more chemo you get. The application type may hurt. I get some chemo shot directly into my spine and that puncture hurts and is very uncomfortable, easily my most hated procedure.I have to share the room with another patient.
Sorry you have to go through that torture again. I witness several family members go through chemo. One stopped and told everyone just let her die. Ofc, they came out and say she was extremely selfish for it, she doesn't care about others and their own feelings, etc. etc. all while ignoring the fact that she was in agonizing pain that they could not imagine. >>84227683>I have to share the room with another patient.Sorry even further for that. The last time I got surgery, I had to deal with the same. Getting woken up every single night not by the IV going off for occlusion for the 100th time, but by the other patient being noisy as hell, turning their TV up loud, etc. The stress of it wouldn't allow me to get better and they wondered why. It wasn't until I didn't have a room mate that I started getting better.
>>84227683What made you go after a doctor last year to find out if you had cancer or not?>I have to share the room with another patientDo your parents at least come often to see you?
>>84227052>Got stung by a lot of mosquitoshow long ago? that's so random it sounds absolutely horrifying
>>84227723It sucks to have to deal with another person. Yeah you can't heal as well definitely. I fully get her electing to stop treatment. I don't think I could take another time. Sorry about you having to experience all that with your family.>>84227724Dad put me in an ambulance to the hospital I was barely awake and alive and would've died within the next few daysYeah thankfully my family visits but mom has some serious screws loose and won't stop having tantrums in and out the hospital and I can't take it>>84227759September
>>84227864>would've died within the next few daysALL THAT BECAUSE OF THE CANCER? Wow...why didn't you go see a doc before things became so bad?>tantrumsWhat type of tantrums and how do you make her stop?
>>84227889I thought it would get better like any usual infection anony :(Yeah literally half of my blood was just cancer cells at that point loleViolent psychiatric outbursts
>>84227942>half of my blood was just cancer cells at that pointWas just chemo alone enough to make you better?>Violent psychiatric outburstsThat's a little more serious than I thought. What do you do when she gets that way?
>>84227991No they put this huge pipe in my neck and filtered out 3 kilos of pure cancer.Ignoring helps
>>84228055>they put this huge pipe in my neck and filtered out 3 kilos of pure cancerT-They didn't do it with you awake, right? How did you feel after having half of your essence extracted from your body?
>>84228099of course i was awake for the whole procedure silly anon especially getting those huge ass catheters placed into both sides of my neck holy moly they pushed them in so hard you can't breatheit was kinda fun i got to joke with the blood specialist doctors all night while half ded and certainly not very conscious by any meansfiltering blood takes so long
>>84226670could you give me your cancer if you don't want it? I know shipping is expensive a shit nowadays but still
>>84228167>especially getting those huge ass catheters placed into both sides of my neck holy moly they pushed them in so hard you can't breatheThat sounds disturbing af, man >filtering blood takes so longI thought that they just went and threw your blood away. Can modern medicine filter cancerous cells from healthy cells in a huge portion of blood?
>>84228192I think that's something kinda rude to say to op, anon.
Cancer is scary anon I hope you make it throughI had to go in for blood tests today, and for a doctor to refer me to other ones. For my heart this time.Be glad people visit, there is no lonelier feeling than waking up in that bed alone
>>84228192sorry anony all the filtrate is long trashthe docs let me hold a full cancer blood bag though>>84228207yeah your whole blood gets ran through the machine and filtered before being put back in with transfusion blood to make up for lost volume>>84228263What's wrong with your heart? Sorry about that anon.
>>84228325How long have you been making these threads? Is this the first one?
>>84228426since a week ago when i got admitted into the cancer ward for the fourth round of treatment. this is thread #3.my current profit is one person on my discord. i would like more.
>>84228478>this is thread #3I see.>my current profit is one person on my discordFrom this thread? How do you know that he isn't me? Kek
may the best come your way, anon
>>84228325my family has a history of weak hearts. Following up on a diagnosis for my interval being messed up but I that could dchange since I havnt been checked out since my last emergency room visit I sent a friend request by the by. if you need to talk to someone who is also always in the hospitalIts lonely
>>84226670Get on high doses of fenbedazole
>>84226670You'll die when I order you to die anon, and not a second sooner!
It's an entirely different thing, but our dog has cancer. We made the decision to just give her pain meds until it's time for her to go. She's already 10 and with the pain meds she acts like a young dog so it's kind of cruel in a way. But it's bone cancer in the leg, so at best it would require amputation which her owner doesn't think she would do well with; even just physically. And then there's the financial component as well; as after amputation she would need chemo and etc., all this to extend average life expectancy from 3 months to 9 months...So while it's not my own, I've been thinking about mortality and stuff too OP.I'm... not a good person to talk to, because I'm unable to keep up with the responses, but if you want I could dump a lot of material for you to go through, be it anime to watch, YouTube channels, webnovels to read, games to play, etc. Idk if you'd be interested in any of that but let me know. I could send it here or discord or whatever.Also here have a song that's been stuck in my head today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OnBhQexx8k
morning chat i slept like shit>>84228557heh>>84228974thanks anony>>84229143I see. it really is lonely hopefully everything works out for both of us>>84229292It's pretty similar in a lot of ways honestly. Our cat has cancer too right now. A lot of the questions and conclusions are exactly the same. Same logic same emotions. I'd really appreciate if you dropped some of that stuff yeah.
>>84230533It's early morning here, didn't manage to sleep well too (actually I didn't sleep at all). Do you have any plans for today?
>>84230837Damn anon you should sleep I'd go utterly crazy without at least some hours. Today is a lot of new chemo and another spinal shot. And you?
why do you trust doctors?
>>84231018trust no one not even your own doctor
>>84227552Don't let your potential last actions be blogspamming
>>84231006I went to sleep, managed to get some hours, it will be enough to keep me awake today.>Today is a lot of new chemo and another spinal shotHow many hours does it take from you daily?>And you?I don't really have anything to do, maybe I will read some /x/ schizo things or find a new yuri manga to read.
chemo bump
i love getting allergic reactions to chemotherapy holy shit i feel dead>>84231249i vill post and you vill read>>84232055dubs checked, sounds like a plan
>>84232849What are you doing all day while you're in the hospital? Only using 4chan?
>>84233445a lot of suffering and just laying around4chan, watching anime or playing a bit on my lappy when i have enough time and energyi like chatting with all my frens on r9k that makes time go the fastest :) someone helped me set up how to play VNs on my phone maybe i'll do that tomorrow
