>tfw no equally depressed suicidal failure gf so we could be each other;s will to live and push each other to get better

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>>84237011
>>84237023
Well this was easier than you expected.

>>84237030
no you see op wants a bf because he is gay and sp wants a gf because he is straight

>>84237011
thats not what you really want. no one wants to be around a suicidal, depressed person. thats why youre alone now.

>>84237034
well in that case hey hows it goin'?
How depressed are we talking?
How suicidal?
Job?
Car? Drivers license?
You over 25?
You like being interrogated?
You enjoy being obsessed over?

>>84237023
where are you from if you're being serious
>>84237034
i'm not a guy
>>84237037
i just want an equally broken person so they can understand.

>>84237037
This is so fucking true. who would have thought that when you're constantly thinking depressing suicidal thoughts, you become a miserable faggot to be around?

>>84237011
>push each other to get better
I doubt this. I've not met anyone that wants to get better. People generally prefer to get worse

>>84237053
I'm from the UK but I have money to travel anywhere and that's something i've been fantasizing about doing with someone to try fill the void. Having been in another country it's easier to do random things because you stop caring what people think as much.
But saying that is kind of getting ahead of myself. We'd need to know each other a bit first as i'm not comfortable traveling with, or to, a random just yet.

>>84237053
most people have had a phase in their life where theyre depressed, same goes for suicidal. youre not going to get better going into a pit of despair with someone thats as bad, if not worse than you.

thinking people dont understand very normal and quite frankly basic emotions is just dumb. im sure youve had surface level conversations with people where they say some stupid things if youve brought these feelings up, but what did you expect?

find yourself a normal boyfriend and youll be happy. anyone with compassion will listen and be able to understand, you dont need someone broken for them to understand that you might be upset.

honestly the more i type this out i just want to tell you that youre fucking stupid for thinking that only people that are damaged understand what its like to experience negative emotions. people that cant make it out of those negative feelings on their own wont be able to help you.

>>84237088
Normal people don't have compassion in my experience. People who don't know what the spiral of depression is like often say shit like this. Feeling sad and suicidal for a phase is not the same and i'm not trying to be patronizing about it or invalidate whatever suicidal ideation you've had either. It's just different is all.

>>84237154
are you bringing this shit up to people that dont care about you? if you are, what do you expect?

build real relationships with people. youll find people dont automatically hate depressed people or anything like that, as long as you dont ONLY talk about being depressed like some kind of loser. if all you have to contribute is being a sad piece of shit, no one will care about you or want to spend time with you.

>>84237169
>are you bringing this shit up to people that dont care about you?
If you mean my family then yes, i'm not OP by the way. Again you're just showing you don't understand what it's like to be depressed for a very long time.
It results in a consistent lack of motivation to do anything. Some take it so far as to stop taking care of themselves, others hurt themselves to feel something, some just kill themselves.
Have you ever really thought about buying a rope, or getting onto the tracks, or taking all of the pills?
And me and OP are not saying this is impossible to stop, I think we're both hopeful that it can end but we want someone else who to be there, who will not put too much expectation on us.
Speaking from experience the spiral goes deeper when i'm around someone who becomes disappointed they cannot pull me out. The person grows frustrated, resentful even. As if I am to blame, and I do end up blaming myself.

>>84237011
>tfw no equally depressed suicidal failure bf so we could be each other's will to live and push each other to get better
There are tons of robots here who fit that description who would love to have a gf to be less lonely, just pick one. Are you Canadian?

>>84237193
your family very well may not care about your suicidal ideations. do they not have the energy to deal with it? do they actually hate you? do they think youre just an angsty faggot? who knows.

its clear youre not the OP, dont worry

and no, i havent thought about doing any of that. you dont need to begin planning out your own suicide to have compassion for others.

like i said. build real relationships with people, and dont be a constantly depressed debbie downer, because no one wants to willingly interact with someone like that, except for the misery loves company kinds of people. it doesnt matter whether theyre your family, friends, anything. people like that are boring, draining, and not fun to interact with.

you will get no where if you are so severely depressed that you cant even build a real relationship with someone, if youre in that position, get on ssris or something, change your situation, whatever you have to do to just start living more like a normal person, even if youre just faking it, you should do it

>>84237217
>your family very well may not care about your suicidal ideations.
They do but they lack the ability to relate. They can just do something and stop feeling sad.
>you dont need to begin planning out your own suicide to have compassion for others.
I never claimed you didn't. I did say you don't understand what consistent depression is like and it's true, you know it too.
>dont be a constantly depressed debbie downer
That is what me and OP are hoping to achieve. If I could have just stopped feeling sad don't you think I would have?

>>84237231
what do you expect your family to do about you being depressed? why dont you realize this is something YOU have to fix?

i know you desperately want to pretend that only someone that has felt sad for years on end knows what its like to feel sad so you can essentially wallow in shit with a female that youre hoping has no better options than you, but thats just fucking stupid

lets wallow in shit and hope we clean each other off

youre as fucking stupid as the op is, she might actually believe she needs someone like you to get better

this board is full of complete fucking retards now

>>84237243
>what do you expect your family to do about you being depressed?
I don't, that was your suggestion lol. I told you specifically that I don't rely on them to.
>why dont you realize this is something YOU have to fix?
I do, and I already said some of the ways I want to try.
>i know you desperately want to pretend that only someone that has felt sad for years on end knows what its like to feel sad
I don't, and I told you already I don't. I did explain there's a difference between feeling sad and say, not showering for 3 months because you're depressed. Or feeling sad and shopping for the ropes thinking about which one is the strongest and most comfortable. Etc.
>essentially wallow in shit with a female that youre hoping has no better options than you
I already said one of the things I wanted to do to avoid wallowing.
>this board is full of complete fucking retards now
I agree, you've proven that by shadowboxing with a weird projection.

I have this and I wish all of you get it. Don't be immovable in your opinions and feelings, be open and you can have this.

>>84237257
I hope you both help each other get better anon.

>>84237253
you are the one that brought up your family, i asked if you are bringing this up to people that dont care about you and you said "If you mean my family then yes". i did not suggest that you speak to your family, or any person in specific, only that you build real relationships with people and dont be a constantly stupid depressive cunt.

you havent said a single way you would try, you have only said that youre depressed and look at buying ropes and sitting on train tracks, and that no one but the foid in the op would understand.

your feelings are not unique, many people have experienced them, to the same degree as you, more, or lesser. you can sit here and try pretend you need someone that will be afraid of leaving because theyre stupid enough to think they need someone damaged, but it isnt true. its actually the opposite of what they and you need.

you havent said shit except that youre so sad, go window shopping for rope and that you need someone else that does the same.

youre an angsty retard, emphasis on retard, and need to grow up honestly. you will get no where acting like you do. you might convince a foid stupid enough that she needs something like this to talk to you, but do you think that will last? you are fucking retarded and a liar

If a femanon is like this, I'm from Canada, BC.
I have a shit body and a resting dead face.

>>84237053
first you have to explain what kind of broken you are. also you might have better luck with an older and better-situated guy in more of a mentorship role, two failures together is harder than it looks. what you really want is an ex-failure whose wisdom complements your potential.

>>84237037
>>84237088
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>>84237243
>>84237292
>>84237296
Nigga typed allat and he's spergraging at 1 in the morning. Sounds like you need a depression waifu, chum.

>>84237302
last anon here, I'm a different poster who only just joined the thread. the others might be all the same guy for all I know.

>>84237292
>you are the one that brought up your family,
Because you brought up finding people who care about me and build a real relationship. Those are the closest relations possible.
>you havent said a single way you would try
Yes I did, read the thread.
>and look at buying ropes and sitting on train tracks
I don't do these specifically, I used them as examples. Everyone has their own way.
>that no one but the foid in the op would understand.
I never said this, I said normal people can't understand. Which you are proving, you keep getting angrier and more hostile. Just stop, you haven't told me anything I don't know already and you're ignoring anything I say.
>your feelings are not unique, many people have experienced them
I never said they were. But they are alien to you.
>try pretend you need someone that will be afraid of leaving
Stop projecting please.
>youre an angsty
In what way am I angsty? You're the one seething at me for no reason. I never claimed to be special or unique, you projected that upon me.
>a liar
True, i'm actually not depressed at all and this has all been a larp. If that makes you happy then please go away now.

>>84237312
Ahh, apologies. I figured you were the same person due to the typing style. Carry on.

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>>84237011
>tfw no equally depressed suicidal failure bf so we could be each other's will to live and push each other to get better
In reality what would happen is that you would monkeybranch to the first neurotypical/well adjusted chadlite you would find and leave your former depressed suicidal failure bf in the dust which would give him the final push to sudoku.

>>84237314
majority of the time, family is an obligatory relationship. do they really care? like i have said many times already, build real relationships with people that ARENT in the same position as you.

if you did say that then point it out to me because i am clearly blind, what would you try do? all i see is you want someone that "understands" because apparently no one "understands". have you ever thought it might be you that doesnt understand? if it smells like shit everywhere you go, check your shoe.

you realize that youre just isolating yourself even further by claiming that no one understands, right? that youre putting yourself further and further into your supposed depression

once again, people just dont understand they just dont get it!!!!! (angsty faggot)

i will not go away, you and the op need to know this: you will NOT get better by only being with someone that "understands". you are both fucking stupid and you are the ones that do not understand. you will not get better by inviting even more of this negativity into your life, especially willingly. there is a very good reason normal people do not want to interact with depressed retards, but you two retards apparently do not understand this.

>>84237359
It's funny that the other guy is typing sentences and you're writing spergy paragraph wordwalls in the dead of night and yet he's the retard. Sounds like you're expressing some deep seated insecurities about yourself.

>>84237359
>more seething and ignoring
Why are you so invested in patronizing and projecting on me and OP lol?

>>84237011
>>tfw no equally depressed suicidal failure CHAD bf
Ftfy bbg

>>84237368
i am fully aware that i am communicating with a retard you do not need to remind me

>>84237371
why are you stupid enough to think that the way to escape these negative feelings is to invite more of it into your life?

>>84237380
I'm saying YOU'RE the retard sperging out after midnight when absolutely nobody is reading your melties.

>>84237368
I think he just needs sex and can't stand the thought of two sad people together trying to make things better beyond sex.

>>84237380
>why are you stupid enough to think that the way to escape these negative feelings is to invite more of it into your life?
Why are you illiterate?

>>84237384
i know what youre saying and you are wrong, the depressed retard that thinks he needs another depressed retard is infact the retard

>>84237394
is this all you have to say to me? i suppose id be depressed too if i was also this fucking retarded

>>84237416
>is this all you have to say to me?
No

>>84237416
No, it's you because the other guy clearly doesn't care nearly as much as you do. Nobody is going to listen to someone having a meltdown in a random 4chan thread if they don't actually care what the person having the melty is saying. Use your rage for something useful, this is not it.

>>84237423
my thoughts on 4chan, and anywhere you can post on the internet really, are this: it doesnt even matter what the person youre talking to thinks, because there are always more lurkers than posters. i dont care what that other retard or you thinks, because there is value in challenging the stupid fucking ideas people put out here, and other places on the internet too, because unless its happening in a private conversation, it will be read by others. this is a public forum, youre not only communicating with the person you reply to, youre communicating with anyone that reads what it is you say.

>>84237446
>I was talking to lurkers the whole time
Retard

>>84237446
What good is "challenging retarded ideals" when you are the only one who cares? You're just shouting into a void. At that point, just start writing a diary in Notepad or some shit. You're working yourself into a hissy fit over minor posts on the anonymous sperg website.

>>84237265
Thank you, life keeps testing us but it's easier to struggle and suffer towards a common goal with someone you care about

>>84237457
I wonder if you met on here, or anywhere else on 4chan? I had hope for a second OP was serious but it seems not, or at least if she was serious then the state of this thread pushed her away.

>>84237452
no, i was talking to the retard that needs to learn that being a depressed retard with another depressed retard will lead him to nothing but even more depression, but other people, perhaps someone reading these posts, can learn that and potentially see value in these posts, even if the retard i am replying to does not. do you understand this or are you completely retarded? do you realize someone doesnt have to reply to a post to read it?

>>84237453
you dont know who does or doesnt care, you dont know a single thing about the lurkers the same way i dont.

>>84237011
>Million offers
Lol enjoy faggot

>>84237465
My guy, there's three people here right now: you, me, and the other guy. Lurkers do exist, I usually am one, but they are not reading your posts, you seem to think your posts in this thread are more important than they are. It's night time in America, most people are asleep and they won't be reading your posts when they wake up. You're essentially working yourself up for literally no reason, you will not convince anyone of anything. Do something that will not make you upset like taking a walk rather than arguing about menial irrelevant subjects with a person who does not care what you have to say.

>>84237465
You've embarrassed yourself enough anon.

>>84237461
why do you assume i didnt talk sense into the op and she realized "maybe hanging around a depressed retard all day isnt going to help my own depression?"

>>84237473
>there's three people here right now: you, me, and the other guy.
>Lurkers do exist
never seen someone contradict themselves so quickly

im not saying my posts are the most important thing on this board right now, or even in this thread, just that someone may find value in them, and that when i post, i think about people that may not be posting themselves. no one can say whether or not anyone else will find value in my posts, but i think there is value in them, so i will post them. just because you dont want to hear them means absolutely nothing to me. if you dont like my posts, you should stop replying to them honestly, because then ill have no one to reply to and have nothing to post.

ah yes, because 4chan is a strictly american website and every person to use 4chan is american and exists in the exact same time zone.

>>84237482
i feel like the only people that are embarrassed are the people that are replying to me, desperately trying to get me to stop posting

>>84237011
I'd be that for you. But you'll reject me for being fat :(

>>84237498
>desperately trying to get me to stop posting
You mistake me, i haven't had fun like this in some time.

>>84237498
You just need to calm down because it seems like something else is making you mad which is why you've been typing these novellas with every single post. This is not an "argument" that you will "win", this is a thread on the anonymous image board that will be gone by tomorrow. Historians will not dig up your posts in the digital landfill hundreds of years from now and think you "won". You're working yourself up for no reason.

>>84237504
I'd also be that for you OP but you'd reject me because I'm not a 6'4 gigachad

>>84237508
good for you anon, me too. it feels good to help people.

>>84237513
oldest trick in the internet book, trying to make someone look mad, trying to discredit their argument because they type too much or whatever you think.

you need to stop assuming stupid things. im not sure if youre the retard that thinks he needs a suicidal girlfriend to stop being suicidal himself, or the one that just disagrees with me, but if you ARE the one that thinks he needs a suicidal girlfriend, this is another stupid assumption you are making, the same way you assume that no one "understands".

i dont expect my posts to reach hundreds or thousands of people or whatever it is youre trying to imply with stupid comments like this:

>This is not an "argument" that you will "win", this is a thread on the anonymous image board that will be gone by tomorrow. Historians will not dig up your posts in the digital landfill hundreds of years from now and think you "won"

but i have not said anything about winning anything, or even an argument. i have only said that people may find value in my posts, and that when i post, i do not consider it a private conversation, as i have already said, this is an open forum, we do not know how many people could be reading these posts, or who could derive value from them.

you make many stupid assumptions and i would not be surprised if thats why youre in your current situation, if you are the depressed retard. if you have trouble making relationships, i am beginning to completely understand why. you essentially make things up in your head and try apply them to other people. can you think of anyone that would want to be involved with a person like that?

Femanon would rather argue with retards than date me

>>84237461
No we met on runescape lmfao. Just keep in mind when you meet someone here she has a bunch of guys lined up with the same intentions as you. Beware of bpdemons, my first egf was a bpdemon and being 16 at the time she really fucked with my emotional state.

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Hey, this is MY fantasy! Though she doesn't have to be depressed, just mentally ill, bpd and anxiety are also acceptable, as long as she's stll romantic and clingy.

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>tfw no person who doesnt know how to swim to save me from drowning

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>>84237915
We can drown together in each other's embrace.

im a depressed suicidal failure man but i have to say fuck no bc that sounds absolutely horrible
i want to fix myself and struggle to be happy and intelligent and funny so that women are attracted to me then i will meticulously teject women until i find one that matches me
if i dated u that would just be settling for less when i can put in the work and earn an amazing wife

>>84237920
cute but why not just find a healthy person to help u get better or get therapy

>>84237535
You need to shut the fuck up.
Stop making long ass blogposts with no actual content, unhinged-kun.

>>84237941
>Stop making long ass blogposts with no actual content, unhinged-kun.
this 2bdesu

>>84237941
>>84237944
if you dont value in my posts then do not read them, if you think im going to modify my behaviour that i find nothing wrong with on behalf of an anonymous poster, you are wrong.

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>>84237920
damn this is literally the plot of the reze movie

i hate that most people have this sexist idea that women HAVE to date up, they HAVE to date men who are basically providers and surrogate fathers to them- capable, wealthier, more independent etc
this means that basically noone will ever have an equal relationship

>>84238033
Do you think people would get this idea for literally no reason?

>>84238039
this idea comes from the patriarchal past where women would literally perish without a male provider

>>84237999
You start a conversation, you can't even finish it
You're talking a lot, but you're not saying anything
When I have nothing to say, my lips are sealed
Say something once, why say it again?

>>84237011
This sounds nice but I feel like she would inevitably would want me to get insane levels of success and leave me if I don't. All I want is a gf and a simple life.

>>84238045
>women dating down is patriarchy because they deserve better!
>women dating up is patriarchy because it doesn't make them powerful enough!
Its all so tiresome.