I never get aroused and I genuinely can't imagine myself in a sexual manner. I am awkward, ugly and I have no appeal. It might sound strange but I feel like the reason my libido is nonexistent is tied to how I see myself. I am ugly and not attracted to myself so I can't step into that mindset of being "sexual". I have this belief that a woman needs to see herself as the object of desire in order to feel sexual attraction. If I were pretty and had a sexy body, I'm pretty sure I would be hypersexual. But as it is, I can't bring myself to feel drawn to my own body and face. Without that sense of self-attraction, sexual desire feels out of reach, like something that exists for everyone else but not for me.
>>84267111So if I got naked in front of you and jerked off my hard cock, you'd be indifferent?
>>84267111are you the abbo girl who wanted me to adopt you and buy you league skins?
>>84267125Pretty much. I think I view sexual attraction strictly from a woman's pov. That might be why I can't seem to feel aroused. Because I'm not attracted to myself, I can't fully feel desire for anyone else. My own sense of self has to spark that attraction, and since I can't feel that way about myself, sexual desire feels impossible.
>>84267171do you never masturbate at all then?
>>84267168No l am not her.
>>84267111I can get aroused at seeing others have sex, but I never picture myself in sexual situations. The whole process of sex just seems kinda of digusting really..I guess its kind of for the best though. My disgust with sex moderates my libido. I've never really pursued a relationship with any sort of meaningful effort.
>>84267192>I can get aroused at seeing others have sexI'm not sure that qualifies as asexuality but i'm not trying to gatekeep it. Maybe you just need someone who thinks you are sexy to trigger it idk.
>>84267177Nope. I never get aroused. I think genetics also plays a part because I never felt the need to touch myself.
I'm exactly the same. I thought I was the only woman who felt this way. I imagine myself as a sexy Stacy in my fantasies. I despise myself for how goblina and ugly I am, I hate my body, I hate my self-harm scars, I hate how hairy I am, I hate the 30-year old body I look like when I'm in my early 20s, I hate the color and shape of my vagina.
>>84267211Same. Just thinking about inserting myself into a sexual fantasy with a guy makes my stomach churn. I don't have a pretty face or a nice body.
>>84267111Have you ever been sexualised by others? I felt the exact same as you until I was. I've never done anything sexual with someone else, but being sexually desired helps me masturbate.
>>84267265I'm not OP. But I only got attention (catcalled) when I was a teenager and thin. That doesn't help either.
Does that make sense? I was thinking about being a lesbian and getting a hot girlfriend and watching her have sex with a hot man.
>>84267291how is that different from watching porn?
>>84267276I meant more direct interactions. I got flirted with and groped as a teen too, but it wasn't until way later when I had one on one conversations with them that slightly fixed my negative self image. It's still not perfect, but I've been slowly improving it.
>>84267276if you say meow ill catcall u
>>84267219Same, I imagine myself as a prettier version of myself in my fantasies. I can't imagine anyone being attracted to my real self, it kind of makes me sick>I hate the 30-year old body I look like when I'm in my early 20s,I have this exact issue too anon :1 cheers I guess
