Femanons, pick your poison.> Monstrous tits (Never stops growing and you hyperlactate)> Monstrous ass (Never stops growing and has lots of cellulite)> Painless periods (A pregnancy is always at least quintuplets and reaches full term)> Easy and euphoric orgasms (But you are always extremely horny)You cannot undo/alter your choice, even medically.
>>84268014>Monstrous assMobile cushion.
> Monstrous tits (Never stops growing and you hyperlactate)bad> Monstrous ass (Never stops growing and has lots of cellulite)bad> Painless periods (A pregnancy is always at least quintuplets and reaches full term)just don't get pregnant, perfect> Easy and euphoric orgasms (But you are always extremely horny)was this supposed to have a downside?
Is this some kind of tranny catcher thread? Only troons would pick 4.
>>84268027> was this supposed to have a downsideThe downside only exists if you care about being a functioning human being in any capacity. But I'll admit the last two were half-baked
>>84268014OP the downside to #3 isn't that big of a downside, since pregnancy is very avoidable.
>>84268054Yeah I know, I rushed it a bitI should've made it a guarantee you'1ll get that pregnant at least once.
>>84268081Imagine knocking up a foid you met online and instead of expecting one kid you get five.
Change three so that any contact with a man results in pregnancy, even brushing fingers while getting a receipt back at the store.
>>84268086If not more
>>84268041>if you care about being a functioning human being in any capacityyou're asking women this?
>>84268147Yeah there are women at my work assembling engines, and pressure testing them, it's all about choices.
>>84268101>Foids try to cover as much skin as possible with thick clothes, fashionable gloves, masks etc. and try to keep men at arm's length at all times.>I master the art of slipping a feel in without them noticing like some kind of pickpocketNew fantasy unlocked
>>84268086there's a village in india where >80% of the births are twins or above, i forget the name but i want to move there
Monstrous tits because I want to be a hucow, also I could sell my milk without needing to workOr number two because I hate my periods
>>84268319Going number 2 means it's your butt. You'd still have periods, dumdum.
>>84268350My bad, I meant number 3
>>84268014Absolutely easy. Painless periods.I honestly wish i could have an early menopause and just be done for the rest of my life. I fucking hate periods, because they are so useless. I'm literally never going to be a Mom, not just because i physically can't have a boyfriend or anything, but just because making a kid have me as a Mom would just be pure insanity and child abuse. So being free of Periods is absolutely the 100% choice here. Period pain is also the most retarded thing ever, because it's for some reason not numbed by my haze. Like when my meds make my head cloudy and shit, i often feel very numbed, and that includes pain. But not period pain, that shit is just uncomfortable shit coming from the inside, and somehow just stays.Also i notice the easy orgasms, i don't know, i don't really have trouble reaching them when i goon, i suppose this is an important thing for someone else, but i don't have a problem with this, despite hearing a lot of girls on here say that they do.
>>84268459>just because making a kid have me as a Mom would just be pure insanity and child abuseWhy do you say this?>Also i notice the easy orgasms, i don't know, i don't really have trouble reaching them when i goon,Oh i see. I guess but you're probably going to have less libido as you get older and being pregnant will skip 9 months of periods (in exchange you get a different discomfort lol)
>>84268632>why?I'm diagnosed very high neurotic SPD. I'm on disability ever since i stopped going to high school in my second year. Why shouldn't i ever have a kid? Many reasons>LifeWhat kinda life can i give to a kid if i had one? Disability checks are a couple hundred bucks at best, not enough to even live alone. I live with my Dad and he takes care of me, for which i'm insanely grateful, but also feel bad because i basically ruined his life and marriage by existing. But anyway the only reason i'm not homeless is him. In what world could i support and raise a kid, and even if, it would be on the most bare minimum, so dogshit childhood.>Mental DisabilityAs i said, i got my SPD, and my Dad is the only person whom i can tolerate. If you want i can give you a broader explanation and a good analogy the psychiatrist told me to explain my condition to me. But basically i can't form human connections or be around people, with being physical being the biggest no no. So the most likely scenario is that i wouldn't love my child, because i couldn't make those emotional connections, and it would cause severe neglect which could probably lead to the child dying, like me forgetting to feed it... for days even. Not intentionally, just because i'm clouded out on my meds and i don't think about it because i don't care for it or love it, because defect brain.>Less libidoAs i said, this is not really a problem. I can't really have a boyfriend or anything, so gooning with my toys is probably the only real sexual experience i will ever get in my life. I experienced sex only once in my life, and it was through being raped when i was 13, and it was basically CIA torture level experience, because of my, back then undiagnosed and thus unmedicated condition boiling my brain alive inside my head from the overexposure to human contact.
>>84268773> Disability checks are a couple hundred bucks at best, not enough to even live alone.Damn that fucking sucks. I get like 2k in american money per month but I live in the UK.>As i said, i got my SPD, and my Dad is the only person whom i can tolerate. I think we talked before lol, I recommended plastic sheets twice (you refused). I remember alot of the details so no need to reiterate unless you need to vent.I won't insist on the sheets but I will insist you're not responsible for their divorce at all.> I can't really have a boyfriend or anything, so gooning with my toys is probably the only real sexual experience i will ever get in my life. If sexbots existed now, do you think those would trigger you or would they be the same as toys?>it was through being raped when i was 13I'm sorry this happened to you, I remember you said he forced you to swallow a drug before it too so it's even worse I think.
>>84268904>2kDang that sounds nice, but then again i heard UK is ultra expensive to live in, or at least London area. I'm sure the economy balances it out, goverment simply does not give people a lot of money for being disabled, they want able bodied workforce, not us.>Plastic sheetsYeah i remember you. As said, i do appreciate your suggestion, but that just sounds abysmal, i love my comfy bed with fluffy blankets and plushies. If i had to listen to crinkling of plastic underneath, i would go even more insane than i already am.>DivorceWell i wish i could just turn off the guilt and shit i feel about it in my head but sadly i can't, i try to tell myself it's okay and even my Dad tells me it's okay when i cry about it to him sometimes, but i still feel like his life would be so much better if he just didn't have me back then.>SexbotsI have no idea, interesting thought. Maybe it depends on how realistic they are. In Detroid become human for example, they were so real that if they removed their mood chip, people couldn't tell them apart. So i imagine that would probably set it off.>rapeYeah, as i said i was trying to see if getting drunk would fix me, because i wanted to try and be normal so that my Dad could get his life back. He pushed a pill which i assume was ecstasy into my mouth and held his hand on my mouth to force me to swallow it. Still the worst part of the whole thing wasn't being drugged or the act of the rape, it was the physical sex itself, because it was basically boiling my brain alive inside my head, the pain was unreal and the constant mini seizures through it were hell. Plus this was while unmedicated, so not even a little bit of help, it was just pure exposure torture.
>>84269157Sex with someone having a seizure probably ruined his life too. There's no pussy quite like myoclonia pussy.
>>84268014i pick the last two so i can fuck all the time and have a ton of kids to make antiwhites seethe
>>84269289You know i too sometimes did wonder about that in a way. Like it was a party full of drunk horny stupid teenagers, he could 100% have gotten with someone better. Was it even remotely enjoyable with me? I was basically just spazming uncontrollably at full muscle force, which was not much because i was somewhat underweight then too before it got really bad, flailing my limbs, and shrieking and screaming as loud as i could with the only pauses being momentarily blacking out, either from the whole thing or from the drugs, idk, but my point is how the fuck is that even enjoyable for him. Like even looking at it from his perspective, i think he should have just cut his losses and stop and leave the second i started freaking out. Because that was not sexy or hardcore porn kind of freaking out, that was a mentally ill retard going into pure internal anguish kind of freaking out.
>>84269157Lookie lookie its you mentally ill chan i remember you. You know if you want to have a boyfriend and have sex so badly i heard your dad is divorced and singleBut maybe take a shower before you make your move he deserves clean pussy
>>84269157>Dang that sounds nice, but then again i heard UK is ultra expensive to live in, or at least London area.I don't live in london, I think they'd get more. And to put it into context, I'd get around 3k more after tax and rent if I worked minimum wage if i'm lucky.>If i had to listen to crinkling of plastic underneath, i would go even more insane than i already am.Yeah I get it, like I said i'm not insisting.>but i still feel like his life would be so much better if he just didn't have me back then.Let me put it this way, if my mum had been in your mums shoes, she wouldn't have divorced my dad and there was a lot of reasons to divorce my dad when I was growing up.>Maybe it depends on how realistic they are. So one unrealistic enough to be obviously robotic but capable enough to give you a close enough experience if you really wanted it.>He pushed a pill which i assume was ecstasy into my mouthEcstasy with SPD sounds like the worst combination.
Monstrous tits because then I wouldn't need to wear the prosthetics every day
>>84270481>3kholy shit for 3k i could afford to live alone easily. Then again i don't really want to. You know despite being upset about not being able to contribute more and being a burden for my Dad, because he takes care of me, i actually really love living with him. I have my room, which is the only space i really need as a NEET hermit, and i love having him around and doing stuff sometimes like watching movies or just hugging or cuddling him and talking. It's literally the only human contact and interaction i can get, so i like having it just a door away if i want to, unless he is at work of course. It feels very selfish, but i just like living with my Dad, and i like his cooking, i just wish i could eat more. I can see that he is often worried about me eating very little when i just can't stomach more food.>Your momI'm sorry, this might be because english is not my first language, but i don't understand what you mean, could you rewrite this a bit diffirently or expand it a bit, because i'm not sure what you are saying here.>UnrealisticYea i imagine an unrealistic gooning robot wouldn't be a problem. I mean i have toys, and apart from the fantasy ones, they look like the real thing, just are made out of sillicone, and that doesn't do nothing for my thing.>worst comboIt was quite abysmal. I would say the only good thing about it is that thanks to it, my brain was so nuked that the rape itself didn't really traumatise me. I have heard about people being beyond traumatised by rape. For me, when it happened, it was just my brain boiling itself from the inside because of someone being that physical with me so intensely, it was just pure torture, and i was just suffering from the inside and seizing up and fading in and out of conciousness. I feel like it was just so much that i didn't even have mental space anymore to be further worried about the whole aspect of a person forcing himself on me and my virginity being taken forcefully.
>>84269771And for the last time, i'm not fucking having sex with my Dad. I'm already mentally ill on disability, as if that wasn't a handful enough for him to handle. The last thing i need to do is hurt him more by trying to make some stupid moves on him. I might be crazy but i'm not that fucking crazy and cruel to do that to him!!!!
>>84271491Just spending time with your dad is enough for him.>I'm sorry, this might be because english is not my first language, but i don't understand what you mean, could you rewrite this a bit diffirently or expand it a bit, because i'm not sure what you are saying here.I meant if my mother had a child like you it would not have been the cause of a divorce, she wouldn't have left no matter what and would have just adapted even though it would hurt her.>Yea i imagine an unrealistic gooning robot wouldn't be a problem.Soon then... what about an unrealistic robot controlled by someone else? Do you think that could be a way around never having a BF?Not that you need to get a BF, if you can find happiness and satisfaction with yourself/dad it's all ok.> it was just pure torture, and i was just suffering from the inside and seizing up and fading in and out of conciousness.I don't think that's any better, it sounds very traumatizing in it's own way even if the rape was barely noticed.
>>84271519>spending time with DadI hope. I try to not be a grouch or weird or stuff when we spend time together, and i can tell he still loves me because it's almost always him who wants to do something with me. Like the random walks or hikes we take together, all him dragging me out of my room into the world for a bit. I like it, i just wish i could give more in return you know?>MotherI mean if you believe she would just deal with it, that's nice i guess. I think the biggest reason my Mom decided to give up was just because i didn't love her. I couldn't. My condition didn't exclude her, so her touch was Acid, and her voice was a Siren into my head, just like everyone elses. I think if i was just disabled but still loved her, maybe she would handle it? Maybe, i don't know. The thing is i also just don't really care. Sounds cold, but it's the lack of love or feelings that causes it, her leaving was something i was not sad about, the only reason i was sad about it and wanted her back was because it broke Dad and i wanted him to be happy again and have his wife back.>very traumatizingOh absolutely, i didn't mean to downplay it, i just wanted to say that the rape part itself, having another man force himself onto me, didn't really traumatize me, because i imagine that i just had little to no mental space for that left. But the act itself? As i said, CIA torture level suffering. I have spent most of my early life in almost constant pain, my brain boiling itself from inside because i had to go to normal school, constantly hear voices and just be bombarded with internal pain and over stimulation. Unmedicated too, so no helping hand. But the rape while drugged and drunk was truthly peak suffering. The inside of my head made me feel like i was thrown into a pool filled with needless, and i had to swim in it instead of get out, like some horrible trap from the SAW movies. It was genuinely insane anguish. The fact i somehow managed to walk home afterwards too...
>>84271871>i just wish i could give more in return you know?Well instead of him dragging you out, you could drag him out once or twice. It won't take much to make him happy honestly.>I mean if you believe she would just deal with it, that's nice i guess.I'm not trying to brag so sorry if it seems that way. But my nephews have extreme autism, i know that's not the same dw, and need space a lot and she can give it to them.>It was genuinely insane anguish. The fact i somehow managed to walk home afterwards too...You should be very proud of yourself for getting home safely after that. It's not easy to do when you're on drugs alone, nevermind after all of that.
>>84271915>It won't take much to make him happy honestly.I guess that is the problem, in my head it doesn't go that way. And if something doesn't go in my head, i tend to have big motivation problems. I mean... the talk about why i would need a plastic bed sheet alone should tell you that, not that i'm proud of that or anything.Basically to me, as i said, weather rightfully or not, i blame myself for fucking up my Dad's life, and in my head the idea to take him out or that it would make him happy is opposite. Why would he want to bother wasting time spending time with his braindamaged daughter who nuked his marriage. Seeing me is surely the last thing to make him happy. That is basically what goes on in my head thinking about it. And that usually just makes me zone out. The brain fog from meds really amplifies this, so if the brain says no, my body usually just stays laying still in the bed.>BragNo no, i didn't mean it like that. I'm just saying, it's nice that your Mom would choose to stay. But i just wanted to say that, i'm not really missing my Mom or feeling abandoned or sad that she is gone. She basically was a stranger whose name i knew, because of my thing. I wish i could have been a loving daughter, but just... not doable. So even if she stayed, it would actually be worse for me, because her voice and touch and pressence would be an attack on my brain at home. This way, with only Dad around, home is 100% safety. I like the way things are in that matter. But i understand that is a selfish way to think, because my Dad deserves better, but because of me, he can't have better.
>>84272081>Seeing me is surely the last thing to make him happy. That is basically what goes on in my head thinking about it.Try to think of it differently, i know that's easier said than done but i honestly think he'd have roped if he didn't have you to love. Let him love you and love him back, when you can.>This way, with only Dad around, home is 100% safety. I like the way things are in that matter. But i understand that is a selfish way to think, because my Dad deserves better, but because of me, he can't have better.I get it, I only brought up my own mom as an example of how different your mom is. My mom would've just shut up and even hid herself away if it made any of my nephews freak out like you. So I was trying to say that your mom must've had more than you as a reason to leave your dad. That's all.And don't feel ashamed of being a little selfish, or of anything else. Ik it probably gets mentioned alot and very crudely from what i've seen but I think you should consider confessing some to your dad about how you feel. I don't think he'd react the way you think and you're not hurting anyone.
>>84271915>Getting home safelyYeah the memory is a bit of a haze, but i think i just got lucky. Basically after he was done, he just dropped me on the ground and quickly left. I just stayed on the ground screaming and spazming like an eel when you throw salt at them. I don't know how long, no clue, my perception of time was very warped. He tore my panties off but other than that he just pulled my pants down, so i just pulled them back up, and i got up and started to drag myself home on foot while shaking and crying. I think it took me about 40 minutes to get home on foot, because i came there by bus. The whole way home just kinda feels like a looped gif. Everything was spinning and warping, but i don't think the drugs worked correctly for me, or the way they should, because i read about what people experienced on drugs, and this was not it. It just made me sick and it made moving weird, because it was like i couldn't tell if my limbs are moving. Like the signal from my brain was sent, but i couldn't tell if the limbs are obeying it.But yeah that was about it. I got home, i crawled into bed, i cried and shaked until morning, and then when Dad came to wake me up for school, i told him i felt sick and want to stay home today. I stayed home for a week. After that i couldn't fake feeling sick anymore without visibly being sick.
>>84272125Did you tell your dad that it happened? Icr if you said you did or not. If you haven't you should honestly.
>>84272150>Did you tell him?No. I didn't tell my Dad, and i don't plan to ever tell him. Maybe now it would be lees of a problem, but back then, you know this was like a year after the divorce and Mom leaving. Dad was absolutely on the rock bottom, depressed as fuck, and just trying to keep it together day by day. He was still getting bombarded with calls about me getting in trouble at school constantly without Mom being around to help offload a little bit of it, they had to move out of their house, all kinds of shit he was going through. The last thing i wanted to do in that moment was to drop another avalanche on him by telling him that i snuck out to go to a party, got underaged drunk, and got drugged and raped by a person i can't even identify. I can't imagine how much that would add to everything. It was just not something he needed in his life.After all, literally the only reason i went there was because i wanted to try getting drunk, and see if that would help me get rid of my brain bug, for him, so that i could appear normal, and maybe that would make Mom come back, and they would rekindle their marriage and he wouldn't be so sad. All of it was done as a stupid desperate attempt to help him. Some help right?>>84272124>ropedI don't know, if it wasn't for me, he would have his wife and a happy life, i don't think he would have roped. But i'm glad if me being around helps in any way. I do let him love me, and i love him back a lot, more than is healthy in a lot of ways, and i'm very ashamed of those ways, and will not act up on them (so don't bother replying THAT GUY, you know who you are)
>>84272209You feel too guilty about normal teenage stuff. I knew people stabbing each other at 13. I won't say you did nothing wrong, but what you did was barely anything and doesn't deserve any punishment. Not from yourself or your dad.You should tell him, it might help explain things for him too but I don't think I can convince you.>and will not act up on them I'm not that guy, and I wasn't suggesting you act on anything. But your dad is the only person you can tolerate and he's stayed with you because he loves you. I think it wouldn't be as bad as you think to tell him if you're brave but I understand that's easy for me to say.
>>84272260>punishmentIt's not about being afraid that i would be punished for what happened or anything, if anything my disasociation for people like not caring about my Mom and others and only caring about my Dad extends somewhat to me too. I decided to not tell him because it would hurt him and make him stress and worry to death when he was already at an absolute low. I just didn't want him to have to go through having to deal with the thought that i got raped, because it would haunt him, probably even more than me to be fair.Also what would it explain? I was mentally ill since birth, this didn't have anything to do with that really.>I think it wouldn't be as bad as you think to tell him if you're brave I think rather than brave, it would be more of a "i don't expect anything from life, so why not" kinda thing. But again, it's not about me. Let's say i'm crazy and mentally ill enough to not give a fuck and just tell him that i fantasize about him and love him a lot more than one should love a parent. See, while i might be mentally ill, he is very much not. He is a normal guy. A normal guy who is not into having sex with his fucking braindamaged daughter. That's the thing. It's not about me not being able to say it. It's that he is a normal person, and all this will do is weird him out and hurt him, and make him worry about me having these thoughts and emotions. I'm already diagnosed disability level mentally ill, i don't want him to think that i'm even crazier than that.It's basically the same reason as to why i don't want to tell him about the raping. It will do nothing but hurt him, and put worry in his mind. It's pointless information that he has no reason to have, as it will not bring anything good.
>>84272354>Also what would it explain?I guess you have a point. If you're not experiencing or exhibiting trauma then it doesn't explain anything to him. But it would still be good to tell him, it's not good to keep all of it inside.>"i don't expect anything from life, so why not" This is very grim way of putting it, but I know what you mean that you can't be normal in life.>It's that he is a normal person, and all this will do is weird him out and hurt himI guess but it's also a sign of you trusting him to still love you even if it does weird him out and hurt him. Sharing these things can bring you even closer, and I don't mean in a sexual way at all. I'd want to know if I was a parent but again, I won't insist. It's really between you and him.
>>84272375>exhibiting traumaI'm exhibiting a lot of things, insanity being the main one, so i don't think that is a problem. As i said, i don't really have trauma from the act itself, just that when he was doing it to me, that was the most brain boiling overtriggering of my SPD i have ever experienced, and i don't want to ever feel that horrible torture again.>grim outlookWell, not a lot of things there to give me hope. But i also don't just willow in despair every day. I kinda just... exist? NEETing in my room, gooning or watching stuff or playing vidya or sleeping. Just kinda existing. My meds mellow out my brain and put me in a bit of a haze so the time kinda just flows away without me noticing it go by as i do stuff. Or it just knocks me out and i sleep. Then it's a coinflip between weird dreams that are somewhat interesting, and eldritch nightmares that make me wake up screaming panicked and sweated through.>Sharing these things can bring you even closer>I'd want to know if I was a parent I mean it's just that i still somewhat cling to an illusion of normalacy, like i want him to think i'm not as much of a hopeless lost cause bad shit crazy retard as i am, i don't want to dissapoint him even more. And i imagine telling him that i wish he was my boyfriend and lover is going to achieve exactly those 2 things. Major dissapointment that this fucked up thing is what he raised, despite it clearly not being his fault because he was always an amazing Dad, and just utter disgust probably, combined with a strong reminded that i'm indeed hopeless and just fucked in the head.But who knows, maybe by the time i turn 25 i will be desperate and dissasociated enough to just tell him for some reason. But that's me talking about telling him, not acting up on these things. I would never want to do that to him. Actually physically acting up on this, that would be the worst thing i could ever do to him. And i don't want that, ever. I want to see him happy, not suicidal.
>>84272425>Then it's a coinflip between weird dreams that are somewhat interesting, and eldritch nightmares that make me wake up screaming panicked and sweated through.That sucks, dreams are a pain when they're not nice and if the drugs fuck them up it's worse. The rest of what you said isn't totally bad, I did all of that without being SPD or taking drugs lol.>like i want him to think i'm not as much of a hopeless lost cause bad shit crazy retard as i am, i don't want to dissapoint him even moreI don't see how it's disappointing to be honest, it's just honest. Not like you have control over how you feel and no matter how he raised you I don't think it would've changed things. I'm just saying that if you feel lonely and 4chan anons aren't cutting it for connection, your dad is the best person you can turn to and I don't think he'd react the way you think or feel that way. I think you're projecting those feelings onto him.>But that's me talking about telling him, not acting up on these things.Again, I'm not telling you to. Or even insisting you tell him, i'm only trying to dispel the idea he's going to hate you for how you feel.
It's easy to choose when the third option is the only good option
>>84272506Well i'm kinda falling in and out of conciousness, body is telling me it's time to shut down and flip said coin. Yeah the drugs do affect the dreams, heavy brainfixers usually do that as one of the side effects, you get very potent fever dreams if you are unlucky. So i hope i won't be right now. The rest isn't totally bad, well the thing is that i don't really have another option or change to this. That's the sucky part. And also this is the good period of my life, the period where i get to be in my room, safe and fine, not having to go to school, or to work, and be tortured by voices and touching. School until i dropped out in second year highschool was hell, daily overstimulation sensory torment, so right now i'm just enjoying being free from it for at least a couple years.>Telling DadMaybe he would be dissapointed, maybe he wouldn't. Maybe he would finally snap and hate me, maybe not. I don't know, but i don't wanna find out right now. Maybe in the future i will finally tell him and hopefully we can just laugh it off as part of my crazy.>4chan anons not cutting itWell this was honestly a really good talk in a way, but it's not that it's not cutting it. You guys are just letters on my screen. That's why i'm even able to talk to you. It's just that i still crave the intimacy, physical, real life kind. I want a boyfriend, i want to have sex, i want to cuddle with someone i love, all of the wants are still there. It's just that i can't form those connections or handle humans around me. It's like someone deathly allergic to peanuts having a constant craving for peanuts.And well, my Dad is the only person with whom i can satisfy any of these cravings. If anything i already did some stuff that i'm not proud of where i pushed the boundary too far, and that's why i'm convinced that if i acted up on these shit feelings, i would just end up hurting him.
>>84272665>Well i'm kinda falling in and out of conciousness, body is telling me it's time to shut down and flip said coin.Well good night and good luck then if you don't get to reply again.>so right now i'm just enjoying being free from it for at least a couple years.It's a shame you can't get more financial help, you shouldn't be forced to go out if you really can't handle it. Honestly it makes me feel bad because I can technically go out, I just don't.Hope you can find a WFH type thing. My sister sells things on ebay? It's a pain and she wants to move to amazon selling so she only has 1 item to list. Might be worth looking into at least.>Maybe he would finally snap and hate me, maybe not.He won't. I know you're not interested in testing that right now though so I won't keep suggesting it. But there's a reason your mum left and not you're dad, and it had nothing to do with you at all. Your dad loves you like a parent should and nothing will stop that.>I want a boyfriend, i want to have sex, i want to cuddle with someone i love, all of the wants are still there.Sexual stuff aside, can't you cuddle with your dad? Even sleep next to him sometimes? I get that's weird but so are you and it might help.>It's like someone deathly allergic to peanuts having a constant craving for peanuts.Lol that's a good way of putting it.>If anything i already did some stuff that i'm not proud of where i pushed the boundary too far, and that's why i'm convinced that if i acted up on these shit feelings, i would just end up hurting him.I don't want to ask in case you just think i'm some weird gooner, but maybe it's just in your head or maybe idk what i'm talking about here.Either way I think if you just stick with him you'll both be fine in the long run.
