At some point when you were young you accidentally took a wrong turn. While other kids developed healthy coping mechanisms to deal with the world you developed bad ones. Avoidance, overthinking, perfectionism, etc... Now you've wasted years of your life without achieving anything of what the others achieved. Without having a "normal" life. But I want you to know that this is all fixable. But... no one can help you with that. You're the only one who can do it. Don't fall for useless, demoralizing ideologies. You can get out of this hole if you keep on trying to find the way out.
life isn't all about achievement
I'm 35 year old complete failure at life. All my family are dead and I have never had a friend in my life. I'm a lazy neet who has never worked in my life and living off my inheritance which will last maybe 5 more years. I think its ogre for me.
whatever, good for them. id rather just sleep for a really long time
>>84279291Wrong diagnosis. It's not that robots couldn't deal with the world, it's that they concluded the world had nothing to offer them.
>>84279332I think there isn't a single type of robot though. Robots have different lifes, thus different backgrounds, even if more or less similar.
I think it was probably coming to, and associating with this cesspit.
>>84279291For me it's all avoidance. I just avoid living as hard as I can. Being forced to do anything sucks
how much regret am i supposed to feel that all i want to know from you
>>84279291Nah, I saw what society offered me and decided it wasn't worth my effort. This society does't deserve my blood, sweat, and tears.
>>84279372I used to be a normal person a very long time ago but it all fell to pieces when the person i loved didn't want to marry me. Then all the people i knew slowly drifted away and now i am completely alone. Everything i care about is gone. There is nothing left for me in this world
>>84279386Same here, but I later got saved by sex work and Chad dick.
>>84279406>Same here, but I later got saved by sex work and Chad dick.least promiscuous fembot lmao
>>84279291false, it's the way you are and you can't change it
>>84279291I was bullied and lonely and my parents were kinda retardedI can tell the fault lies entirely on childhood trauma because my younger brother is significantly more autistic than I am and yet he managed to develop normally
I'm not in a bad place at all, I just wanted something more from life. Part of it is on myself setting a high bar, the other part is also on myself for playing life way too safely
>>84279291Honestly this isea is more appealing than me just being a bit of a weak faggot OP. Which probably means it is not true. People with worse childhoods with worse coping mechanisms have done what I want to do while I have not. Perhaps this is in part just nature culling me like natueal selection.
my parents neglected me my entire life because they were too busy screaming at each other to bother with me so i neglected my life because no one really gave a shit. I regret it but its not surprising i ended up being who i am and this much of a failure. And worse than that i got molested as a child and i think that made everything even worse. I never really thought about it much but i think thats because no one really gave a shit so i hid it away from even myself but it probably traumatized me in a way i dont want to or even can acknowledge. i havent had interest in living for a long time but i just keep living out of habit
>>84279291There are seeds of partial truth, wisdom, and solutions in your ideas and words. Thank you, anime woman.
>>84281279>i just keep living out of habitThat's my biggest fear. I realized I hate living a long time ago and the only way for me to cope is by having long term objectives.
>you can fix all your problems anon!>all you have to do is suddenly become an entirely different person and somehow erase decades of learned behaviorThanks anon
Well here's the thing I'll say to you and to anyone that tells me to get better:No, because there is no point now and my golden years are past me. I have no good experiences to draw from to not only push me forward, but reminisce on. Others who never had to fix themselves have this.I don't care if I can be stronger or better when the time has passed for it to mean anything. Yes, I will take my own life and not play into this dogshit system of reality any longer.
>>84281339As a self improover I respect that. It's honestly tiring to find motivation to keep going out of thin air when I have been keeping this up for years
>>84281343The harsh truth is that they tell you this as an unintentional survival mechanism. Think about it:Humans are social creatures and rely on other humans. If (most) humans rightfully decide to drop out because life and our system is horse shit, they suffer.So what does one do? Offer meaningless platitudes to keep the hamster going. The wheel stops spinning if the hamster gets off, after all.It really sucks understanding reality, man.
I'm starting to think dropping out of high school at 15 to play World of Warcraft all day 20 years ago might have been a bad idea
>>84279304That's sad that your parents worked hard to save that money for an ungrateful son to just waste it. Why wait till the money is gone to do something?
>>84279291I took the only coping mechanisms I could. It is the only reason I didn't chimp out and kill people.Knowing that it doesn't matter is the only barrier between drowning in solitude and drowning in blood. If I got rid of that, there is nothing that would stop me.Normal life is so utterly shallow and for many it's not even existent. The picturesque lives people imagine for each other doesn't happen in this kind of world.Love is the biggest lie in this world. It keeps the whole thing spinning and it's not even real. It's all business and transactions, no soul to it. Artificial meetings and nonexistent connections, things that are only as perpetuated as we make them, imagined. The "loving" humans have the same bond as the coomer to his waifu pictures.It's all so ugly and grotesque it's no wonder people started going postal before I thought of it. Before I caught the same brain-plague and had to put a barrier up to preserve myself. The call to violence to kill every last one of these pretenders, even if it made me a monster. Shred them all into pulp. Rip them from their roots, the earth, the teeth, and their hearts.The crabs in a bucket are here, and there are also crabs in the normal world dragging people back into their bucket. All imprisoned and waiting to be boiled and turned into paste for some better-off person to consume and discard. No matter what direction it all leads to oblivion. The only difference is the execution.Die slowly and painfully from a normal life. Watch your body and mind rot as your loving family of vultures hears your death rattle, wondering if "you" are even still in that shell of yours or if you are already gone.Die in the gutter hated by all around you, wondering where everything went so wrong.There is no difference. That is the grotesque and absurd reality. Life is just an ugly thing.
>>84279291Perhaps I lost my way when I was 14 and was taken out of school after getting my nose broken in a fight.Yes, I passed two years of college after that, but I still ended up NEETing for over 7,200 days and counting.I wagied in an office for a year in my late 20s, and it became clear that I am too autist to deal with even office work.Every fucking job is a service job that requires speaking to customers. It makes me sperg out to unemployable levels.It sure sucks that they got rid of back-office jobs and factory jobs. The less I need to speak, the better.Yes, I am very avoidant. But living as a recluse is far easier and stable for me than any other alternative.Exposure therapy just does not work. Putting me on the phones every other week just made me feel terrible.The worst thing is that the rest of the admin stuff I could do with my eyes closed.>>84279304Same, but five years older and on 'bux.
