I don't want a wife, I want a loyal concubine. I don't want love, I want admiration. And that's why I'll never have a lifelong romantic partner despite all my good qualities.
>>84293850>loyal concubineNo such thing
>>84293850>I don't want love>And that's why I'll never have a lifelong romantic partnerbest to make up your mind already
>>84293861Exactly >>84293867I do want love by my definition but I'm worried that no one else shares that definition, at the very least not anyone I'll get to meet in life. I have such a self centered idea of it that I doubt any woman would hate herself enough to go through with it
>>84293888>I have such a self centered idea of it that I doubt any woman would hate herself enough to go through with itwell alright lets hear it then
>>84293910I'm a greedy bastard.The only person I could consider spending my life with, at the bare minimum, would be someone just stepping into adulthood without ever having romantically pursued anyone else before me, while also being as attractive as me.And I don't even know if the things I ask for end there.If I die early, I don't want my partner to ever find someone else. I would rather have my partner die than to have them be enjoyed by anyone else, but if allowed by them, I wouldn't mind bringing another woman into the bedroom. I want to hurt my partner, either physically or mentally, maybe both, and keep their full love and loyalty towards me, just as a token of knowledge that I can do whatever I want to them without worrying that they'll choose another path in life.I might end up cosmically lucky and find someone like this, but I'm fully well aware I don't deserve them and that they'd be happier, or at the least, safer, had they chosen another path in life.
>>84293953>The only person I could consider spending my life with, at the bare minimum, would be someone just stepping into adulthood without ever having romantically pursued anyone else before me, while also being as attractive as me.pretty achievable desubut im not american so idk what its like for you
>>84293953>I want to hurt my partner, either physically or mentally, maybe both, and keep their full love and loyalty towards me, just as a token of knowledge that I can do whatever I want to them without worrying that they'll choose another path in life.This part you might be able to find but the rest is unlikely, as you note
>>84293850I still think about my ex from a couple years back fucking my brains out and loving me.
>>84293960I live in Northern Europe, been around all of Europe and some of the Balkans though. I don't think I've seen a girl like this anywhere, and if I have, I wouldn't have known how to tell them apart from others. It's a bitch to have ultimate standards for people without being able to properly filter. I'm a student and so are my friend circles, I have no idea how to ever get in contact with that type of girl lol>>84293971I'm surprised that was the part you considered easiest
>>84293953I love my ex from a couple years back exactly like this (i would be cosmically lucky, but not the rest of your last sentence)I dream about him loving me and fucking my brains out. I want him to have all of me. I miss him so much and I think that if I message him he will accept me. We haven't seen each other for years but I love him the same as before.
>>84294014Funny, so an exact copy of the archetype I want popped up here? He was your first love and you're still stuck on him? What happened between you two that it's over now? How'd you two even meet? What advice do you have for someone trying his hardest to start something like what you and he had?
>>84293992>I'm surprised that was the part you considered easiestthe hardest one is probably finding a girl who's never pursued anyone else romantically, since you have to find a girl who's...quite young by modern standards. but whatever I get what you're saying and in a certain sense it is romantic and I get it.but loving someone so much that you'd endure any sort of hurt, any sort of pain he wants...of showing total devotion, total obedience...of embracing any humiliation he thinks is deserved...well
>>84294061I know this sounds pathetic but do you wanna talk over Discord? It's not everyday that I don't get demonized for who I am, so I'd feel like it's a shame to not at least ask
>>84294029Yes my first love and really my only love. I don't feel anything for who I'm with now. I only dated him out of convenience. I lost my first love because I isolated and didn't communicate with him. I'm ready do it now though, even though it's been years since I last heard his voice in real time. I don't know what else to tell you but my first love is the only one who completes me and every since I lost him years ago I have been hurting missing him.
My first love is the only one I want to talk to.
>>84294116Did you try contacting him? How'd that go? How'd you two initially meet and start dating to begin with?
>>84294084no I have a bf but we can chat here if you like
>>84294142I will soon. I need to break up with who I'm with first.
>>84294224Oh my bad, thought you were a cis man. Esp the line>young by modern standardssounds more like something a man would say. Call me a sexist but I'm surprised you've been this tolerant of my standing on this matter, even the best female friends I've had/have try to get me to downsize my wishes in a partner immediately. How come? +Bonus question since I'm off for a nap before a 4 hour car ride to the Netherlands, what piece of advice do you have when it comes to finding someone that matches my wishes? I promise I'll try to make them as happy as they can be within the bounds of our relationship
>>84294283well I don't know you and I don't even live in Europe so it's whatever, you're just a silly guy in my computer you know? but I did imply you're probably not gonna find your partner though hah. >How come?idk they say I've got the tism so that's probably why, and also why you thought that I was a dude.anyways you don't want my advice since I'm an outlier. Autists like me love rules though, and I'm submissive so I'm just naturally drawn to a relationship with autistic rules and things like that. but masochists do exist which is why I think you could actually find the girl who likes it when you hurt her...there is nothing as good as suffering for someone you love
>>84294415If do anything and everything for my ex from a couple years ago. I miss him so fucking much. I hope he accepts me when I message him.
>>84294415NTA but I assume anon wanted you to give him a hint in regards to how to find autistic girls and outliers like you, or if you don't know, give a description of how you two met. Elaborating in his stead because I'm curious myself.>>84294422Is this mf still going
>>84294442Mind your own business. I'm free to miss him as much as I want.
>>84294442>NTA but I assume anon wanted you to give him a hint in regards to how to find autistic girls and outliers like you, or if you don't know, give a description of how you two met. Elaborating in his stead because I'm curious myself.I can't really say, you either know an autist or don't know them, right? anyways in high school I was besties with this girl who was a lesbian of sorts and she got off on humiliating me and bossing me around and I'd just...do what she said for some reason. I don't know why I even did it sometimes but mm anyways I knew I wasn't a lesbian. so once I met a guy who was confident and controlling like that I was drawn to it like a moth to a flame.anyways our relationship is very rigid and full of rules that most people would hate I'm sure so it's not for everybody
>>84294529That's how I feel about my ex from a couple years ago. He is confident and controlling. Loving all of me and I want him to have all of my body. Like a moth to his flame.
>>84294529>I'd just...do what she said for some reasonAlright yeah this actually does line up with what I've heard from similar cases.>once I met a guyVia mutual friends? On an event? Online? How does someone like that spend all that time without being followed by admirers like sheep, how do you just pop up somewhere and meet the right person?
When I met him I just knew I loved him. And then I left because I was scared of how I felt for him. Then years happened and I messed up. I'm going to be with him again. He is all I've ever wanted. All I've ever needed.
>>84294590>Alright yeah this actually does line up with what I've heard from similar cases.what else have you heard?>How does someone like that spend all that time without being followed by admirers like sheepman come on now. there's tons of hot girls out there and none of them have to deal with that. I did try Fetlife and while it's kind of fun and whatnot I mostly met older people or people a million miles away so it wasn't a lot of help. but I'm rather attractive so yes guys just approached and once I met one who had the proper "energy" we went on a few dates and well yeah.
>>84294623I dated a chick close to what OP wants, she had dated a few people briefly though. Random weird mini-relationships with lesbians despite claiming to never actually properly wanting to date them that end with the lesbian chick cheating on them, lots of time playing video games and watching streamers, being in touch with chronically online culture, being able to swap from kind to mean in an instant depending on the person, huge libido despite distance to the opposite sex, an odd tendency to go against the flow and being proud of it like a boy would be, misunderstands your intentions often, doesn't react well to things outside of the built up social contract, I could go on but you're really similar in a lot of regards.
>>84294623Cold approach propaganda right here
>>84294687>she had dated a few people briefly thoughyeah lol well that's why he's not getting that part of it at least I highly doubt it. but yeah I think you're right about the lesbian part. like I definitely don't want to actually date a lesbian but like sometimes they're fun as a side thing. mine didn't cheat on me but we also weren't dating. I'd say huge libido is true, I don't think I'm mean though but many people want the traditional bubbly girl and mistake that for "meanness"
>>842938501) Are you rich?2) What are your standards, looks wise?3) What do YOU look like?
>>84294607Sounds like you really love him.
5am, I can't wait to spend half of the weekend in a fuckass car>>84294623Hmmm. I usually interact with people with a basic friendly normie persona until I get to know them better, I wonder if that is robbing me of chances like this with the right person because I wouldn't be able to tell from their reaction to my personality. Good hint. Guess I should try to still be myself whenever I can.>>84294865>Rich?I'm a 22 year old student who works as a tutor, so not me, no. My parents however? Much more than I'm comfortable with. I'd rather keep that private though, I don't want friends, let alone a lover, to choose me for that reason.>Standards, looks wise + how do you lookAs attractive as me I guess, but I guess it's fair to assume I might be an arrogant prick with an inflated idea of what I look like. I had a fitness&cosplay account that got nuked and regularly used to post on /fit/, but I'd prefer to not face drop on other boards, so maybe on Discord if ya want to judge yourself? I'm 6'1-6'2, have long dark hair, facial hair, a tiny waist for a man, neat shoulders, Idk I think I'm doing okay. This does mean though that someone as attractive as me would have to be really fucking hot, which is hard enough to encounter on its own, let alone with all the other bullshit I consider preferences. Oh, and my phenotype probably makes me look older than I am which might be a debuff when it comes to dating the younger female crowd that I'm most likely filtering for.
>>84294991My discord is: kanghyukily
