It took me about 12 years but I'm genuinely disgusted at myself for my porn addiction. I'm spending close to 2 hours a day searching for videos and edging and the content I've found myself jerking off to is now bottom of the barrel scumbag shit. But I'd rather keep going than go a day without dopamine
Could be worse. You haven't started acting out on it yet. Big difference between jerking off to tranny and gay pron and actually downloading Grindr and acting on it. I can't undo that.
>bottom of the barrel scumbag shitDo tell
>>84299304alright maybe i shouldn't hire a dominatrix then - but i am such a loser i don't know what else to do with my life sometimesnot op
>>84299201You don't have to shame yourself for it because shame drives addiction and you'll probably just make things worseJust accept that you watched porn because you liked watching it. It doesn't have to be some intense internal conflict. You can also just stop at any time but the fact that you won't stop probably means that you still like watching porn and are continuing to do so voluntarily.Everyone tries to turn porn """addiction""" into some deeply psychological spooky shit. No you were in 100% control this whole time and still are.
>>84299304I don't think I ever will, I don't like acting out sexual fixations as much as I do jerking off on my own. I've been down the whole escort pipeline and its just not as enjoyable as watching porn in the comfort of a non-social situation.>>84299352Its raceplay stuff right now. I want to throw up and punch myself everytime I finish but I just keep going. I need to exorcise these demons
>>84299860>Its raceplay stuff right nowWow anon you're really fucking pure if you think raceplay is bottom of the barrel scumbag shit. Scat and vore are worse. Then there's stuff you could get in trouble for, like bestiality, rape, Necro stuff, and of course child porn.
>>84299905I can see why you would say that, and even think most people would agree with you. But I legitimately wish I was getting into scat or vore instead of this RP shit, it feels so wrong . With normal fetish porn people can just write you off as a freak but with raceplay, they question your mental status. Which is what I do to myself
>>84299589I guess that's a good way of looking at it. There's definitely a level of taboo that plays into the shame and causes like a positive cycle of reinforcement. You know its bad but you like that its bad and keep returning. Idk I'm just hoping that I get bored of it and then move on but its been years and I always find something to keep me watching too much porn
