this is going to sound retarded because it is. I'm 21. I'm 6'1. I'm fit, decently attractive and I've had girlfriends before when I was able to actually meet people of similar age to me and have reason to have extended conversation. I've spent my life being told that I'm confident, I have the kind of voice that a newsman would have, that I'm funny, etc. Hell, I've had a couple friends come to me to for advice on how to be confident. Whenever I actually have reason to talk to someone I can befriend them effortlessly. The issue is that I work a 12 hour shift every day as a prison guard in the middle of fucking nowhere and all of my hobbies are sausagefests. I'm actually incapable of coming into contact with a woman below the age of 25 who is not a single mom, black, or obese because those are the only females who work in a prison. Both of my exes were people I met in the military, and I'm out now. I'm wired like an extrovert and I've been debilitatingly lonely for the past two years+. After I get home from work I clean my gun and debate shooting myself. I don't know what to do because I need female companionship but it's physically impossible for me. anyway thats my blogpost if youre a foid and want to talk to a ptsd riddled retard ill drop my discord but i doubt anyone will want to talk to me or respond to this post and i'm just screaming into the infinite void of loneliness.
>>84301472>The issue is that I work a 12 hour shift every dayIs this even legal?
Start saving/planning to move somewhere else, and casually date/fuck the single moms in the meantime. There's no need to debase yourself with these shitty e-relationships that go nowhere.
>>84301472if this is all true man you're built for tinder. go to these anime conventions as well i dunno
I think the way people describe the "heart" when speaking in romantic contexts is like a part of your soul.So what happens to it when you suffer a million a little heartbreaks everyday? How long till all the small cuts, infinitesimal, but noticeable, add up? How long until the scar tissue renders your own, human, flesh unrecognizable to itself?I think the body would treat it like anything foreign, attack it to protect itself. Like a cancer, it may be recognizably of you, but its now distinctly alien. It'd be very sad for your soul to attempt an excise of itself, especially a part once so esteemed. But Lucifer was before he fell too.The attacks against yourself can't tear your soul asunder, its made of sterner stuff. But it will harden the scar tissue only further. Eventually annealing to the point of uselessness. But the onslaught can't cease. The small heartbreaks no longer reach your heart, so you can't long for it anymore, the goodness you once felt towards all of the moments you thought you'd experience are gone. So the feelings that remain are either apathy or violence.Robots, I don't want to get angry everytime I see a woman I want to approach. So why has God made the natural order of my soul such that indelible marks have been left and this part of me hardened and useless?
>>84301472go on any dating app you nuclear tier fakecel
>>84301768yeah because le mandatory overtime we have staffing issues>>84301794the single moms are also fat. There was 1 girl who was cool that I asked out and she said yes but it didn't work out after two dates. Where should I move? >>84301801>>84301923I have tried, nothing. I've been told I'm really really bad at taking pictures.
