The more you accept you're not a good person the better
>>84301568Ok im a piece of shit, what now
I keep trying to gaslight myself into thinking I'm a good person, but fuck it niechze was right and I'm not humble or benevolent, but just in a predicament that holds me back.
>>84301568the problem is i am actually too good of a person and i keep getting fucked over in life because of iti need to become bad
>>84301568>think you're a good person>realize you're actually just afraid of being punished by a higher authority (parents, government, God etc.)>realize you're just extremely inhibitedMy life is dominated by fear but at least I don't get deluded into thinking that I'm an angel for not even daring to act out the thoughts in my head. at least im le self aware xd
>>84301568I don't care if I'm good or bad, I just want to die already...it's ridiculous that life goes for so long, I had my fill like 5 years ago and this shit keeps going on...I'm not healthy, so I'm sure I will have a heart attack eventually, let's hope it happens sooner rather than later.
>>84301568Being good or realizing you're not changes nothing. I've had every goal in my life beaten out of me and ripped away one by one. And why did I want those things in the first place? Because I was told to? Or is it a natural instinct? I've done many things because I thought I was supposed to and many because I wanted to, but in the end my punishment is all the same. There is no reason to keep going and every day feels like torture. Yet I'm still here.
>>84301568Just because You're a bad person doesn't mean everyone or anyone else is.But yeahMost people are shit
>>84301662This, literally everyone takes advantage. I set boundaries and they just cross them, always with some excuse that would make me the bad person to reject. I don't know what to do but stay shut in because I don't even get anything out of it if I look at it calmly and logically.
