I'm not "suicidal" but I just intensely dislike being alive. When I wake up every morning my first thought it "Man I have to do this shit again". Despite the fact I'm a neet and barely have to do anything. It was even worse when I actually had a job. That's not to say there are no aspects about life that I actually life, it's just that they are extremely limited. Talking like 1-5% of life that I would actually miss. I have been treated for "depression" and nothing helps this. I fail to see that actual point in doing anything at all. Everything feels like a slog, like I'm just counting down the days until I'm liberated from this body. The fact that people actually enjoy life past childhood is genuinely completely alien to me. I don't expect any of this to get better. At this point I've tried everything. The only thing I hope for is an end that isn't drawn out and painful
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>>84301676genuinley super relatable. i feel like theres no joy in life, you just drift through and do the motions of life without ever actually experiencing it. if i had to guess id reckon its because we arent living in accordance with how nature designed us. we also dont have a purpose. people are born and just exist for the sake of it. no greater purpose or divine drive to guide us, nothing bigger to work towards. thats why rich people go insane, they achieve everything material and when theres nothing more to own they start wanting power and control. its the jews again, unironically
>>84301676This describes me exactly and I'm only 20. No idea what I'm gonna do with myself. Imagining myself above the age of 30 fills me with immense dread.
>>84301676I'm the same. It's insane to me when you hear people say they're excited to wake up and start to day and realize they actually mean it. I wake up only to wish I hadn't.
>>84301676More or less the same. I'm pretty sure it's just that you simply have no purpose. You don't have any reason to try, but it's also not bad enough to want to make you end it. It's simply that since you don't really have any real purpose, a wife and kids, you also don't see the point in trying at anything else. You're not actually suicidal, most neets and neet-adjecents aren't; it's just that with no actual tangible reason to live you realize that simply existing is enough.If you're looking for a solution, there pretty much aren't any. You could look for a roastie, but this probably won't bring you any real joy anymore. You've been beaten down so hard, but not hard enough, that you don't want to die, but you don't really wanna live either. Your community, family and future was stolen from under your nose and then they gaslit you into not thinking about it. To an extent there were always people like you and me, but we're seeing a rising amount that's obviously not in any way normal or natural.
yup it's just morning or something before your coffee and you're suicidal that's just normal
>>84303394Could go on if you either don't get it or want a more deeper explanation, i can try, but i think you probably get it.
>>84301676That called Suicidal ideation btw.
>>84301717please consult the attached images, but i think we mostly agree>>84303394>>84303401
>>84303410Again, this is a thing called Suicidal ideations. You aren't special, you don't have a unique view of things, and the chances are most of your decisions lately have been filtered through this depression.
>>84303403>>84303416it's simply not. Although yes, it may lead to something like that, most men aren't simply going into this suicidal ideation for nothing. It's way too large of a phenomena to be simply branded ad suicidal ideation. If it is suicidal ideation at all which i don't think it is.
I rather not kms in the traditional sense of noose or jumping but OD on a shit ton of heroin or oxy, at least you find drowsiness and bliss before you pass. >I have a gram of Harry coming in the mail tomorrow btw
>>84303394My parents were violent junkies though, and they used the excuse of "I work!" to excuse any amount of ridiculous behavior.The craziest part to me looking back as an adult is that they had easy fucking jobs. My dad spent most of his life working in a warehouse where he only had to unload one truck a week and didn't have to interact with a single other person all day. He would take my gameboy and play video games all day. My mom worked an office "data entry" job that no longer exists because her entire job was to transcribe old paper records into digital form, which she did for 30 years, neither of them having to deal with deadlines, customers, pressure or any of the actual difficult parts of a bad job.They beat the fuck out of me and got so drunk that they fell asleep and shit themselves on the kitchen floor because of the stress from jobs so patently easy that they don't exist anymore. My parents were losers in every imaginable sense of the word, and here I stand, the penultimate result of mashing two incompetent retards together.
>>84303424>It mayIt's exactly what it is. It could lead to worse. Suicidal ideation is essentially that you want to die, but aren't going to kill yourself. Some of you also have self-abandonment.
I really don't think I was ever inherently depressed on a meaningful enough level to mention, I'm just fucking lazy. I've always been lazy, and I hate that this retarded white women morning show psychology culture that we're currently mired in tries to rationalize away laziness as some symptom of a mental disorder, as if history hasn't featured lazy, indolent slobs and people skirting their responsibilities since time immemorial. I don't want to fucking work, and I will never want to fucking work. I don't even want to relax in ways that require too much effort. I was born to stagnate for long periods of time, and every person that I've ever alienated with my sloth has felt like a burden removed. I don't seek the void, I crave stasis. Let my survival instincts dictate whether or not I keep going. If they decide I'm going to rot and perish, so fucking be it.
>>84303559You could have had a chemical depression, bipolar, or even unmedicated ADHD. I don't think it has anything to do with women's morning show. Most people's view of this is from pop culture.
>>84303601you're too stupid to respond. please move on with your day.
>>84303559>Mental Illness: disorders in mood, thinking, and behavior that cause significant distress, impair daily functioning, and disrupt social, work, or family activities.>Behavior that is harmful accurately called what it is.It In the old days they would throw them in prisons/camps that forced them to do hard labor until they repented, and in the ancient days they would just put them to death. You should be glad that has changed.
>>84303640Nah, you just want to blame women for your own failures. I got bad news for you, buddy. You're an adult. Your mental illness is all your fault. As I see it, you have two choices: seek medical help or KYS. I know which one I vote for.
>>84303394Pic rel is basically my life story, I don't leave the house or see anyone besides my own family despite living in the suburbs because they won't let me. I used to be able to sneak out to go for walks but they put up cameras (like Ring) everywhere. I've asked to get a job several times but they've always dismissed my concerns. I've asked to at least have an allowance but that fell through too, I have to ask my mom for her credit card like I'm fucking eleven any time I want to buy something. I can't even drive. My family wants me to stay a NEET and doesn't see anything wrong with it, I have no idea why. My mom is the paranoid type and will read shit online, like ticks falling out of trees or pipes freezing in winter, that makes her demand that everyone else change their behavior because of the "risk" involved with all this unlikely shit. I've given up trying to resist because I know that I'm stuck with people trying to keep me behind in life. Shit will blow up into a huge fight out of nowhere so I've never had a frame of reference for what healthy disagreement looks like either.
