This life isn't for me. Always expected of myself that I want normalcy, marriage, kids etc. I faced myself and realized that on a deep level I actually not only don't care but am afraid of it. Creating romantic attachment in this world seems like nothing but a liability, don't even get me started on kids. Whenever I imagine having one all my mind can think of is how this world holds absolutely zero future and is getting worse at an exponential rate. If book of revelation holds any merit and it does, then this all out war and global famine is at the doorstep pretty much. I was going to cope by convincing myself it's just my porn brain and distance with gf playing into this but to my dismay what I described above has nothing to do with what makes my dick hard. On the surface yeah I am sorta wild soul and want to fuck around and be free but that's just the surface level as I said. I don't know if I'm on a psycho spectrum or what but I genuinely don't mind dying alone. But ironically im too much of an empathetic softie that doesn't want to break her heart after we invested so much into each other this year. In spite of everything she will probably never love and find someone as interesting as me. Fuck this.
>>843059361. Get off this board. normalfag.2. Live the way to want, buit don't complain about being lonely when you are old, wrinkly and your dick doesn't work anymore.
>>84305959being old, wrinkly with dysfunctional dick has nothing to do with whether I have a wife or not.
