do you have low self esteem? just asking for a friend.
>>84306429>do you have low self esteemYes?
>>84306429Yes, but I just choose not to give a shit and ignore it
>>84306429I'm a fat ugly retard so yes
>>84306429Yes I do, Alf. Why does your friend want to know?
>>84306465my friend wants to know more about your childhood.
>>84306429my friend read this and wanted me to reply for them.they said yes
Extremely but Im working on it
>>84306429I can't even look myself in the mirror I hate myself so much
>>84306599Well now, I guess your friend needs to mind his own business.
>>84306816you're not scared of my friend are you?
>>84306429Yes, since I was 7 years old my self esteem has not existed until I suddenly had a switch when I was 16-17 and I grew a large ego. Growing an ego in a way improved my life substantially, I became less suicidal and I finally had the motivation to improve my life to the better. On the other hand the only reason i was doing any of these things is because I was desperate for validation. I became completely addicted to validation.Deep down I still have an undeniably low self esteem, in fact, I think if you don't suddenly grow an ego like I did at some point you just don't hate yourself enough.
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>>84306429I used to. I actually have really high self esteem now though.
>>84306429Extremely low, it has marginally improved after working out for a couple of years, but I haven't experienced enough of an increase in order to be confident.
>>84306429Yeah I compare myself to my peers and I either can't do the things they do or I struggle with them, I don't feel like I belong anywhereThis isn't some white-collar impostor syndrome thing, it's the result of growing up without my parents teaching me anything, not having the same experiences or knowledge as other kids, stuff like that
>>84306429I prefer to think that I just have an accurate self-perception. It just so happens that my accurate self-perception tends to be mistaken for low self esteem, but I know the truth.
>>84306931>when I was 16-17 I grew a large ego.but surely you received validation from your friends before then?
>>84306429Yes, it is very bad and I struggle with it every day.
>>84307016>but surely you received validation from your friends before then?I did not have friends growing up
>>84306429of course i fucking do retardwhat kind of dumbass monkey nigger question is that
>>84307148no one to be nice to you? but of course there were still care takers, your instructors and teachers, to be kind to you back then. just tell me this one more thing.do you still remember your first crush?
>>84307255>but of course there were still care takers, your instructors and teachers, to be kind to you back then.I dont particularly remember liking any of my teachers or caretakers but I do remember most of them being extremely mean to me in specific.>do you still remember your first crush?Yes I do, I also remember all of my crushes that I've ever had
>>84307282i wonder what you could have did to make them like you back.
>>84307299I could have dated a lot of these girls funnily enough because looking back as an adult I can tell they mostly had a reciprocate crush on me.My lack of self esteem didn't really let me notice or would've allowed to ask them out or something. Like a girl even said she liked me to my face and I didn't have have the mental capacity to say anything back.Sadly it feels like I've become invisible to women now that I have healed my head somewhat. Opportunities were everywhere back then but now they feel so scarce
>>84307332>Opportunities were everywhere back then but now they feel so scarcebut you didn't know it back then just like you don't know it now either. could you still be looking at it all wrong?
>>84306429i don't have any self esteem. i keep my head down and avoid looking people in the eyes. i have no friends or boyfriend or girlfriend. i probably have autism but i am not diagnosed.
