I am a high functioning autist that could never get any real friends because for one reason or another people only ever kept me at arms length and often actively excluded me from things for reasons they were never able or willing to vocalize. I accepted that that would be the ongoing theme of my life and resolved that as long as I got a happy relationship I would be able to stomach the rest but the girl I met who was basically my neurotically overthought ideal to a T cheated on me. its been 2 years and every single aspect of my life has gotten significantly worse than it already had been. my some miracle I managed to meet someone else shortly after that I actually connected with but after awhile shes now admitted she has no interest in dating because my "world view" is the polar opposite of hers, because of how cynical and borderline nihilistic ive become. basically every study, every population metric, everything possible points to the likelyhood that the kind of woman I would want to date and who actually gave a fuck about me simply cannot exist, or if she does I would never meet, or she would be scooped up near instantly. I am almost 30 and while people constantly try to tell me im still young and I know all my other 'goals' are still accomplishable I see 0 reason to bother if I am doomed to be alone forever for the most asinine reasons possible
yeah someone that believes in autism is signalling he's retarded and unpleasant to be around so no wonder you have no friends.
More narc bawwing. Someone must have twisted your panties up conroe to make you start larping this much
>>84307046im sorry youre so lonely...please dont lose hope of things changingtheres someone out there wholl fall in love with you, i just know it
>>84307677and what possible reason do you have to believe that?
>>84307717theres so, so many people in this worldyou already met someone who was your ideal, even if it ended horribly it still means that your expectations arent completely unrealisticalso, an awful lot of people on this board could sympathize with your feelings of disconnect and potentially be compatible with you on a deeper level, for instance
>>84307769the one person ive met or even heard of who was my ideal cheating on me in a sense means they were not actually my ideal, and in addition points to the fact that someone who could might be never exist. the other anons itt showcase pretty well the likelyhood of meeting anyone here I could connect with, and even if those responses were less hostile, expecting to meet a woman here and starting a relationship off of it is objectively retarded
>>84307046>I am a high functioning autist that could never get any real friends because for one reason or another people only ever kept me at arms length and often actively excluded me from things for reasons they were never able or willing to vocalize.This is all on you. Women are retarded, yes, but I too am a sperg severe enough that I apparently even just stand in an off-putting way and yet men love me. Go play some niche multiplayer game that still has clans and join one.
>>84307046I'm also an autist nearing 30. Reading your post from my detached perspective, the clear point of instability seems to be your fixed belief of>If I only have [external factor like a woman], I'll be happyThis not only makes your worldview centered around women and things beyond yourself, but means you effectively relinquish direct control over your own happiness. The ironic turn is that (at least from my perspective) this prospective person you're talking about wishing you could date doesn't share the same interest because you're ultimately intending to rely on her to fill your 'void'. Why would she, or anybody really, want to engage with you if this is what you're offering? I don't say any of this to be mean, but rather to be sincere and direct. You can't rely on other people to fill the void in your life. All that's gonna happen is they're gonna leave, die, or abandon you, and you'll be left off even worse than you started because you never developed and prepared yourself to stand on your own two feet.
>>84307046Indeed. I was never popular and was often socially rejected. By the end of my teens I had given up and became a hermit. Almost everyone I had known had lost touch. I no longer give a shit about socialising; though I wish I could have unpaid sex. Naturally, I am still incel as fuck as I enter middle age. The chances of my getting a fuck-buddy are almost zero, the chances of my getting love is nil in this fucked and mercenary day and age. Solitude is comfy, but I just wish that I could have sex whenever possible, and without needing cash to do it.
>>84308599The few people I have properly connected with I more or less met that way but our tastes are often completely misaligned so it's just that singular game we have any shared interest over. The moment someone loses interest we end up just never talking. The people who often share my interests more never give me the time of day, except my ex. >>84309055I could go to school and get straight A's, I could get a good job, I could lose a bunch of weight and get fit, I could pursue all my hobbies and make all the creative projects I wanted to. I could do all of this without a relationship if I wanted. But I wouldn't be happy. So I don't care. The idea that because it would take a relationship for me to be happy, I don't deserve one, is beyond retarded. It's antisocial. It's magical thinking. Human connection is almost as much of a basic human need as food or water, and yet I get none of it. If I were to have to spend the rest of my life starving and on the verge of death by dehydration, I would feel the exact same way. If I were completely unable to interact with the world at all, like being in a conscious coma, I would feel the exact same way. Every single person on earth has their happiness controlled by others. You need them to get the food you eat every day. To have the house you live in. To use the services they provide, like internet. And at any point someone could just randomly decide they don't like how they look and just fucking kill you. Unless you try to live completely off the grid in the wilderness in a self built shack and grow and hunt all your food, you WILL ALWAYS be dependent on others for your happiness. And all of these things I am expected to 'just accept' as reality. Except this aspect. Because people recognize it as something that places responsibility on them and typically is associated with 'morality' and people get upset when expected to perform.
no one cares you humongous faggot
