How we holding up oldfags?
I've been going to work (Doordash bike) almost every day, which surprises myself, but I'm averaging below minimum wage now which is disappointing.I was thinking about trying to buy a car to see if it's any better in the suburbs. Because there so many bike guys in the city, there is no barrier to entry and less work. These guys even rent the bikes because they can't afford to buy one. And there are so many Haitian/West Africans on bikes all of a sudden. Like all the Hispanics gave up because it sucks so much now.
would anyone date a autistic femcel who got dumped by her soc boyfriend who lived near her because she was too autistic?
>>84310999yea suremy soc "something" (no idea what it is, nothing at all) likes to wait 2 days to send me a message and basically there's no conversation unless i drive it
i fucking shrank and gained 14 pounds
nobody's fucking herenobody anywhereyou're supposed to be gone or deadthat's all there is to 30+
I don't see much talk about what COVID did to people our age. Almost all the discourse is centred aroung young people. The supposed pea of my life was the exact moment everything got flipped. I'm 35 this year and I don't know where the fuck 30-34 went. I'm not sure I even know who I am.
>>84310999sure, drop your tag, ill add you instantly
im turning 38 this year :)
>>84310858these threads tend to be depressing and i don't like to see myself as in this category of people but i guess i'm doing alright>>84310999nice digits uhhis the person asking the one posting this?why did you come to this thread in particular?
>>84311400dang this is how i feel>>84311397well the funny thing is that if you hang out with the real outcasts of society in food lines and homeless shelters suddenly you'll be seen as 'young' again at least for a few years cuz statistically most of those people don't make it to 50
i will nuke that bitch
>>84310858Im 23 Im young and still have time to fix my life unlike you old faggots :^)
>>84311539im going to drown you in a lake
>>8431085833 years young, something like 15 years of NEETdom under my belt, I'm doing fine, I don't think about suicide every single day, everything is good. :)
>>84311578Have you tried talking to them?I think it's genuinely that easy.
Doing... fine? I don't know, I was feeling really depressed before Christmas and I thought I was going to have mental breakdown. I thought I had to do something drasctic to put my life back in track after reading Oblomov and realizing comfort was fucking me. I made some plans about changing jobs, dressing better, getting into investing, finding some new hobbies and trying to be more social. I took a 3 weeks vacation at work and then I did nothing. That's it,i did nothing but sleep 10-11 hours a day, read 3-4h, play video games and go for walks in nature, and it made me feel better. Well, maybe not better, but a different kind of wrong? I haven't felt depressed for a single day this year but I'm aware the escapism I was trying to leave behind has only escalated into a greater magnitude, but I simply don't care.I don't want to do anything, I don't need any grand redemption arc, I simply don't. The only thing I do regret right now is the housing crisis in my country, otherwise I'd have a place of my own already and I could just be comfy in my room.>>84311400COVID lockdown was the best year of my life in the last decade and it showed me how much external pressure and expectation wear me down.
>>84311400covid is overratedzoomers think of it as a generation-defining event like 9/11 lmao
>>84310858I've squandered every major come up I've ever had, but also managed to pull out of the tailspin at the last moment. Shit sucks, could be worse, still salvageable if I can actually do the work. Struggling to stay motivated.
>>84310999>because she was too autistic?Define "too autistic"
>>84310858Not very smart so I'm stuck in a basic office job now. I guess it's comfy but there's no real way to get promotions or raises besides management. And I'm not a peoples person, I'm an introverted retard. So yeah, kinda fucked. Job market sucks too I check daily. 34 and on slightly above minimum wage. Cause I'm single it's difficult to save. It's hard to see the point and purpose in my life because my wage is low enough to keep me stuck and mortgages generally need dual income. And even if I did mortgage a home alone, I'd be alone still with no purpose other than working to pay off a home I'm never in and then just dying.Struggling to find my purpose.
>>84311769it's bait my guy
>>84310858I'm starting to think it's not gonna get better. If only I was 10 years younger I could make it, but I fucked up and ran out of time. It's so over
>>84311400I also have trouble knowing who I am? Sometimes it drives me mad
I've been playing a lot of high school VNs lately, where you're a boy hanging out with people and trying to get girls. It's made me realise how important it was to be social back then. I can't believe how much I fucked it up just hiding from society and playing MMORPGs rather than making friends and hanging out and doing teenager stuff. The worst part is you can't go back and do it over. Now I end up trying to relieve it through video games or anime. A sad life.
>>84311792you can get your shit together at literally any point in your life. you need to develop willpower and make the changes in your life to improve, not give up and accept things as they are. build good habits and structure for yourself and dig back out of the place you're at. you can do it
>>84311841i think about redoing hgih school and college again except as a chad who wins at everything he does. sometimes i am an olympic soccer player in this fantasy and other times i am an extremely productive cult musician, sometimes both. in both cases i am still a member of the internet community i was in in real life.
>>84311851It's like all the doors close when you're 30+, sure theoretically I could get my shit together but it's at least a quarter of the pace because those doors be shut, while working twice as hard
>Started doing exercise at home to keep the bad thoughts away while unemployed.>Got a flu three days later.>It kept me barely functional for two weeks with constant body aches, fevers every now and then and shitting my guts out in the last two days.It's like the universe doesn't want me to SELF-IMPROOVE. It keeps pulling me down.Global nuclear holocaust started by Zion Don can't come soon enough.
>>84311694it was huge definitely on level with 9/11, in fact it affected way more people tangibly
>>84311913it's a challenge, especially without a support network, but it's not beyond your capabilities or control. the work is only going to get harder the longer you put it off. take advantage of what doors are still open to you. this is a very key period for establishing what the rest of your life will look like. you still have a lot of living to do yet, do what you can to make it better for yourself
>>84310999no, fuck yourself back to soc you attention whore>>84310858im 35 and dont care about most shit anymore i like to lift, cocaine and being drunk, life is that much
>>84311841teenager years are not like anime anon, i had it "all" when i was a teenager but it was shit, either you were somewhat alpha, popular, good looking, good at fighting, did drugs nor you were on the other side, ugly, poor, average, you name it, there was no middle ground, women are the worst type of shit at that age and will bluntly reject and not just reject but hurt you, you missed nothing and what you're playing and watching is not real, is what japs wanted it to be
>>84311539I don't know bud, if this is what you're doing with your time. Just flexing on faceless strangers on the internet to feel good about yourself? Doesn't exactly bode well for you are as a person.
i will cut her offthere's nothing there
My cum production, velocity, density and the intensity of my O's are all on the declineLike my hair
Going strong for 40 and body starts to break down.Still no job and no skills (work or life wise)Neet money may dry up soon when the country finally falls into the shitter.No way to access a double barrel to finish it all.>>84311841Yes put then again if you been only semi social like me (never truly excluded in school but never invited to shit outside either) and you watch all your aquantences fade away that doesnt help too much either it makes it worse seeing what could have been.>>84311960Its always like that the moment I can be aresed to do the bare minimum of sports for a few weeks a flue or soemthing else cuts me down.>>84312342Hmm never took the time to keep track of my jizz, but yeah the hair oh god the hair.
trying not to rope on the daily. what's even the point of living after 30 if youre still a khhv loser? ive seen ugly guys get to spread their genes while I rot alone. I just want to see the planet on fire now. if I cant have happiness I will bring everyone else down to my level or die trying
>>84310858not good. completely lost in life. i wish i could just stop waking up. i'm certain i will never dig myself out of the hole i'm in and don't see the point in even trying.
>>84312531for me it's drugs
the world is indifferent when it is not outright cruel.
>>84312610whats your poison of choice? maybe i should start doing them. cant ruin a life I dont even have
>>84312421the Jizz thing happened in a short time. it was simply due to my unloading habbits where I noticed it in the first place, but it went from a slight shot to a dribble wich then promped further screening. Pretty much all within months. The reduction in pleasure is the most irritating thing, like the "need" is still there but almost no rewardAh yeah I am also shooting 40s.
>>84312531oh but you can spread your genes too old moid, you just have to settle for your looksmatch, are you willing to do so?, oh and you have to put some effort too, women even the ugly ones deserve to be treated good like every single human alive except for criminals or niggers
>>84312705you're gonna hate jeremy meeks
>>84312641lsd mdma can legit help you find positives about your life (lsd can also help you see the negatives more clearly so watch out). but they can't be done regularly. like once a month max, lsd can be done more often i guess but it can fuck with you mentally. ketamine is also nice, and you can combine it with those drugs to make them even better. except it will fuck with your bladder when done too often.other than that if you need it daily weed is the only choice.
>>84312712only old women and ratchets like that disgusting men in black worm looking guy i like my men any color but black and not soft or whiney
>>84312763you like men? do you know what this means for you?
>>84311406I doubt you'll add me since I'm chickn but here's my discord tagHitmebabyonemoretime333
>>84311539we all thought the same at one point
>>84311775Sure, but I still want to know what they think that means.
Im 38 and I am having more and more trouble coping with the fact that I am not gonna get married and have kids.
>>84312903Not bait it's a true story. He thought I was too autistic and not a functioning adult and he didn't wanna fix me so he ditched me for years and only broke the silence with two voice calls and went back to ghosting me forever.
>>84312914>He thought I was too autistic and not a functioning adultIs that what he said verbatim? Did he elaborate at all on what that meant?
>>84310858I finally made it to 30. And of course I got my wizard powers. I'm not doing great but there are moments of respite like last night when I had a nice bonfire with my housemates and got made a nice meal with wine. But mostly it's a dull blur of pain and meaninglessness. And I have to try hard to continue. I can't think clearly anymore either. It all feels entirely pointless.
>>84312908i've made peace with that, but i still want to get my dick sucked
>>84311539I thought the same at age 23...7 years goes very fast. Especially if you're here. You'll soon be one of us!
>>84313133Yes that's what he meant and he didn't elaborate because he ghosted me again
>>84312594People don't talk about this side of things enough. And I never anticipated it because it creeps up on you so swiftly. I always assumed there would be clear choices and reasons to doing things, or not doing them. But after a while, everything feels like it isn't worth doing and it becomes a chore to do the bare minimum and stay alive. I have a vague memory of when things felt as if they mattered. But it was so long ago I don't fully recall it. It's like permanent fight/survival mode and just focusing on the moment and staying alive. Not thinking of anything else or doing things that will improve our lives. And the anxiety that comes with that. It's torturous.
>>84312705my looksmatch doesnt want me. no girl does after seeing my ugly face. but criminals do get to spread their genes. women throw themselves at those guys to have their babies. blue eyes will fade from the gene pool because women only want tyrone or juan. ive literally seen fat ugly mexicans with white gfs before but white guys have to look like chris hemsworth to even get a message back. the world will become ugly mixed and brown >>84312717weed is for reddit faggots i dont care if some hard drug fucks me up what is there to fuck up
>>84310858I'm fucked. I was about to get a job but I once filled out a prescription for substance abuse disorder. They made me see my doctor to get a note and my doctor just made me take a blood test to see if I have alcohol in my blood. I'm guess I will spend even longer being unemployed
getting a bit weary about being a loser.I'm 31 and most of my colleagues are in their early 20's. I have missed out on core milestones and forget most people see me as a bit of a loser. I think my gameplan for the next 1-3 years is to get /fit/ and move away and start again. Too much damage has been done in my immediate vicinity
it's happening soon, fellas
I'm fine.>Good paying career>Have a home>Have 2 cars>Take care of my responsibilitiesThe thing is I am a little bitter. I worked so hard for my degree that ended up being meaningless. I don't use social media so I feel disconnected from people. Was dating a girl for like 6 or 7 years but thats over. I don't plan on dating anyone cause people are impossible to hold a conversation with.Women post COVID are seriously insufferable now. I got used to loneliness over the vax drama. I got used to no one appologizing and chosing their retarded opinions and virtue signals over human connections.I adapted. I miss how things used to be but it's clear they aren't going back to that. I can't make women stop being chronically online and hysterical. I can only make a confortable peaceful life for me and my doggo.
>>84312705>you just have to settle for your looksmatchWho believes she's entitled to a more attractive man. It's not men refusing to settle for their lookmatch. It's women. Men are willing to date down somewhat; women want to date way above their own level.
>How we holding up oldfags?Turning 43 in a few monthsThe company I work for is in survival mode, but it keeps me busy. And its still a work from home job where I'm respected and can wake up 5 minutes before my shift starts and work all day in my pajamas. My wife is a kook but thats just the way she is, her ass is getting fatter, this isn't the worst thing ever I guessNo kids so we spend our extra money on hobbies, her art, my going to concerts and events... we both play vidyaJust getting over being sick as fuck, still coughing shit up after a week and a half, fucking bullshit. At least Ill be healthy by the time the Long Beach Grand Prix (got a full weekend pass with my Brother)
my daughter is on her second bf. i still have to drive him here or her there. i had a talk with him about treating women with respect since his parents are basically absent
>>84313193>meantThat doesn't mean those are the words he used, I said "verbatim" for a reason.What did he actually say?
>>84310982>Haitian/West Africans on bikes all of a sudden.Arabs where I live.Doordash was insane when it first started. Unlimited work, huge tips. It was actually a side-gig.Then one day this huge group of Arabs realized all they needed was a car and a pulse and they could make American money without needing to speak English or interact with others (they're so fucking rude). They do delivery app service 24/7, and poorly so now tips are lower and customers are always pissed off.Those fuckers will just leave bags in random places and blame the customers for their problems. They can't speak three words of English so Doordash's help line can't fix it. I wasn't very anti-immigration until I met these cocksuckers, now I'm staunchly opposed to pretty much anyone from the Asian continent in my country. Fucking rude bastards.
>>84313647He said he didn't want to babysit me into becoming a functioning adultHe also got me banned from multiple servers. We had lots of drama.
>>84312705I don't know where to meet my looksmatch.
I'm 43. gf half my age has had two miscarriages and now is doing the bpd avoidant ghosting thing. feels like this was my one shot at a legacy and it's over
