Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportoutside if getting greener :>>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Here's a bunch of helpful links for u> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
does cutting make the suicidal thoughts go away?
>>84317374if it's a deep cut, or like bleeds a lot it may make you feel less despaired and distracts you whilst you clean up blood n stuff.
>>84317137how to get rid of the scars? Have any of you gotten surgery or something? and how much did it cost
>>84317693time shall heal your wounds anon! at least they'll be lighter n softer o.0
>>84317374depends ona person I'd saymaybe for somebut it's not really a solution to anything and eventually it'll stop working and it might make you ever more suicidalI wouldn't reccomenedWhy are you suicidal anon?>>84317693I don't think there a way to get rid of them completely you can try scar creams to make them a bit paler and less visible or get a tattoo to cover them and there's a thing called scar revision surgery but I think that also just makes things less visible but doesn't get rid of it completely >how much did it costnot suresurgery is probably the mos expensive, then tattoos, and lastly scar creams and make up are the least expensive
>>84317693they become less noticable over time, but it depends on how deep you wentkitten scratches and baby styros will be okay, if you went deeper than that it'll stay for a bitI have a deeper styro scar I did for a dumb reason though so I'll get a tattoo to cover it.
>>84317814would you rather date a female with tattoos, or one with self inflicted scars?
>>84317850I'm not into women but either is fine imoscars are nice because maybe I could convince the other person to cut together/cut me during sex but tattoos are cool too, it's a piece of art I can admire.
>>84317850>>84318005but to answer, for dating, tattoos because the one with scars will probably relapse after I inevitably ghost them.
>>84318024what if they have scars under tattoos
>>84317137>How are you doing today?Okay I gues>Any plans for today?Not really>When was the last time you hurt yourself?2 weeks ago but might cut later>Why did you hurt yourself?Body dysphonia >Is there anything bothering you right now?A few things>>84317374Not really for me at least. I don't know why I cut really.>>84317850I'm only interested in my 2D wife Satania but I don't mind either
Has true loyalty and love ever existed? Men will be depressed cause they don't have a wife/loving girlfriend, but when they get one they still lust after other females :< how can I make it to where he only want us me forever. I'll do pretty much anything for him, my body is his to do whatever with, and I'll love and bake for him, but will he still love me when we have children? He'll prolly just longingly look at women younger than me when I'm older. I literally have not been able to speak or see him for over a year even if I wanted to. But I hope he'll come when he said, I hope he loves me like I thought he did then, I only want him I don't care to look at other men but he still looks at women that I will never come close to being as pretty as. I feel so lost, I wanna cut his name deep into me.
>>84319391hello o/>Okay I guessounds like it could be better though >might cut laterso somethin bothering you quite a bunch >A few thingsthere's a way to make them be a little less annoying?>>84319512I am a bit confused did the guy cheat on you or you're worried he will?>wanna cut his name deep into me.don't do that anon
I've been a slightly paranoid these last few days. Not enough to make me do anything stupid but I've been very on edge sometimes.Also the SSD in the server at my parent's house is dying so I've had to order a new one at great expense.>>84313447Did you have a good Easter? Did you get any eggs?>i'm very lethargic. when i come home from work i just play some game or listen to some stream, go to bed and then repeatI see. I used to have a problem when I was a NEET where all my days bled into each other. Getting a diary helped a lot and it might help you too.>>84313893>art of me is hoping ai crash comes soon so computer parts can come down againEven if there is a crash it'll still take a while for prices to come down. A pox on Sam Altman! I shouldn't be spending $150 on an SSD!>there's no way companies are getting as much efficiency as they claim they're getting and it's gonna blow up sooner or laterI don't think the money works out. None of the big AI companies are making a profit since the models are so obscenely expensive to make.>eat solid chocolate bunnies in a single sittingAt least you got those. I saw a fancy Lindt one and I was kind of tempted to get it. Maybe I will...>if I ever get into a situation where playing maimai saves my lifeYou'll know what to do if you come face-to-face with an armed washing machine>All the videos online of them solving puzzles and manipulating small objects to get food is really somethingSome birds are really smart but I feel like we've had this conversation before.On a related note, this bird is fucking terrifying. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDMHHw8JqLE>>84314713>going to sleep feels very vulnerable and scary at timesI'm sorry to hear that, anon. I hope things can get better soon. Learning to lucid dream might help in the interim.>>84314728>I like having the physical bookThis is the same predicament I have. Maybe I could get one of those non-destructive scanners that libraries use.
>>84320010worms in my stomach I'm worried he has or will follows so many naked women on x I thought he promised me he won't be with other girls
>>84320256I meant he already follows a lot of nsfw lady's on x How will he ever be satisfied with me?
>>84317802>why are you suicidalbecause i am chronically alone and i can't do anything about itpeople just always end up hating me for some reason even though i try to be as kind as i can be
>>84320301at least maybe bugs like you? love bites nom nom
>>84320503bugs hate me and i hate bugs as well
>>84320183helloowhat ru paranoid about??D:sorry about that ssd>>84320256So he didn't do anything to make y suspicious?you're just too worried?>>84320301I know it's not much but if you wanna you can talk with us about how it's going and what not
>>84317137hey catbro!>outside if getting greener :>yup. was really warm here as well.>>84320183>I've had to order a new one at great expense.prices of everything are absolutely nuts right now. :/>Did you have a good Easter? Did you get any eggs?it was alright. not being sick would hage been nice, though. just hung out with family and played some boardgame with them. and yeah, we had some, but i didn't eat any. just wasn't feeling like it. haven't eaten much eggs as of late now that i think of it. how was yours?>I used to have a problem when I was a NEET where all my days bled into each other.it's been a while, but it was the same for me. guess it happens whenever you settle into a routine. every day feels the same.>Getting a diary helped a lot and it might help you too.i've never really considered it. don't feel like there's much i'd want to write down. doesn't help that i basically forget everything about my day at work as soon as i get home.>I saw a fancy Lindt one and I was kind of tempted to get it. Maybe I will...there's a factory close to me and i could get their chocolate relatively cheap there, but it's not my favorite. just my luck, i guess. ^^'>>84320271i've heard that watching porn activates the same region in your brain as using a tool. if he's not delusional about it, he knows the difference between someone who's there for him on a personal level and pics on a screen. that said, it's something you can get addicted to, but if he is, he has to realize it himself.gonna head to bed soon. need to get up early. (-_-)
>>84320743hello fren how are you?I'm alright uni is bothering me a bit but besides I posted the map I was working on and just chilling now
>>84320743oh and hope you sleep well
>>84320844>how are you?still coughing a lot, but other than that, mostly good.>I'm alrightthat's good to hear. (^-^)>uni is bothering me a biti'd ask what it is, but we don't have to talk about it.>I posted the map I was working onawesome. so the dev of the ither game was fine with you posting it?>just chilling nowyou better be really comfy rn, you hear? :< >>84320855thanks, but probably not fot a while. been having trouble with that again. i'll try, though.
>>84320942>still coughingD:>don't have to talk about it.yep but maybe I'll tell you tomorrow >dev of the ither game was fineI didn't get an answer :/>better be really comfy rn, you hear? :<of course o7in bed now>been having trouble with that againmaybe becouse you're sick? or maybe it's too warm on your room?
>>84320652>what ru paranoid about??Similar worries to the ones I had around when I started posting, but now also worrying that she might find a way to harass me somehow.>sorry about that ssdSeems like it was on borrowed time. I'm surprised it lasted as long as it did, but I wish it crapped out a bit earlier so I could have bought a replacement for about half the price.>>84320743>prices of everything are absolutely nuts right now. :/A scary state of affairs. Now is not a good time to be broke...>haven't eaten much eggs as of late now that i think of it.Chocolate eggs or chicken eggs?>how was yours?Pretty good. I mostly spent it with my friend. I also went to that Touhou thing.>don't feel like there's much i'd want to write downThat was mostly my thoughts as well, but you'd be surprised.Even if you don't do much it's good to write down what you remember. Somehow by doing that the days stop blurring into each other, even if they're very same-y.>it's not my favoriteI'd probably reach for a Lindt before most things. What's your brand of choice?
>>84320975>maybe I'll tell you tomorrowsure. whenever you feel like it.>I didn't get an answer :/that's too bad. maybe they're just busy with othet stuff rn.>of course o7 in bed nowthat's the sprirt.>maybe becouse you're sick? or maybe it's too warm on your room?i think there's some caffeine in the pills i'm taking, so that probably doesn't help. room temp should be alright, though.>>84321020>A scary state of affairs. Now is not a good time to be broke...true. never feels good, but now it's even worse.>Chocolate eggs or chicken eggs?the chicken ones. i guess i did have some choclate eggs.>I mostly spent it with my friend. I also went to that Touhou thing.oh yeah. read a bit of that in the last thread. what was it again? a concert?>Somehow by doing that the days stop blurring into each other, even if they're very same-y.hm. i suppose that makes sense. i'll think about it, but no promises. especially not as tired as i am. thought about starting to write down the color scheme recipes for the miniatures i'm painting, so maybe that counts for something.>I'd probably reach for a Lindt before most things. What's your brand of choice?hard to say. these days i usually go for a ritter sport, but for some time vivani dark whole hazelnuts was my go to. aldi's whole hazelnut chocolate is pretty good as welllast post for tonight. see you guys soon!
>>84320652No he betrayed me he was the first man I ever kissed and he's telling whores online he's going to marry and having talks he should only being having with the girl he promised himself too he's 16 years older than me, I'd thought he be more mature than that. I'm so useless why am I not enough? He's all my hope and it feels so crushed
is cutting yourself still cool at 26?
I hope you all find solace in sleep and have sweet dreams and perhaps a living hope you hold onto
