I was bullied as a kid and super nerdy growing up (chess video games anime)Now after years of therapy, a decade of consistent exercise and having to have multiple EXs tell me to my face I have admitted I look damn good.The issue is that the brooding bearded muscular sharp man I am on the outside has a complete disconnect from the man I actually am. I feel like king from one punch man! I love shitty anime and games. I go on discord and 4 chan. I watch vtubers. I stay in my room and socially isolate on weekends. I still play chess. I get anxiety attacks. I feel like the same nerdy kid who got picked on in middle school.I have had people come up to me and tell me I should consider modeling but I still have such low self confidence I still become a stuttering mess around women. What the fuck is wrong with me?
>>84327190So what exactly is your problem? You can date just fine
>>84327211I still hate myself and have extreme self worth and self confidence issues even though they have no basis in reality. I am stuck!
>>84327190>i have no real problems and just larp as a loser for no reasonyeah that's most people nowadays
>>84327239Anon I do not know what to tell you. My brain is being stupid and I want it to not be? Halp
>>84327239But he posts on 4chan! He's so different!!1!
Normies fucked your shit up, there is no easy solution because your brain will never be as neuroplastic and your memories are entrenched and keep being refreshed. The more you try not to think about it the more you think about it, et cetera..You need to do some introspection and compartmentalize your feelings and memories. Therapists will say the opposite "NOOO YOU MUST NEVER REPRESS YOUR FEELINGS", but clearly having them constantly on your mind isn't working out. Of course it is limited, but it helps to catch yourself when you're thinking about it again and focus on something else, something more practical and important for the future.Think about the feeling itself. Don't feel it, think about it. What kind of feeling it is, what caused it. Then tell it to fuck off, or tell yourself you won't listen to it. Whenever it bubbles up again, do the same, don't let it stop you doing your chores or some task or talking to someone. If it overwhelms you, let it pass, you won't always feel exactly like that, then carry on.Slowly but surely build up new behaviors, new memories, new ideas, new skills until that becomes you and the old you is sitting on the back shelf.
>>84327190>What the fuck is wrong with me?Low self worth. It's separate from your high self esteem. You are worthy of love and acceptance and your physical shell and accomplishments are not doing anything for your self worth. There are tons of ugly, unaccomplished people with high self worth having joyful lives.
>>84327276I thought his problem is more that he only cares about his physical shell.
>>84327267I think this is it. Therapist diagnosed me with PTSD from the bullying but now what?
>>84327287No, I worked on my physical appearance so much over the past decade because I had so deeply entrenched my own self loathing I needed tangible proof that I was wrong
>>84327276Wise words I did not expect from 4chan
>>84327338It's advice from a woman. My wife worked on her low self worth for years and she's advising me on it now.
>>84327451And a feminist? Jesus Christ there is hope for this God foresaken board
>>84327456She's not a feminist she listens to Candace Owens and spent 30 minutes ranting about the Jews running America and destroying Iran this morning
>>84327478she wouldn't be allowed to speak out of turn in iran lol
>>84327486She hates arabs, Persians, and Muslims. That doesn't make ZOG actions in Gaza and Iran tolerable. You absolute mongoloid
Men are lying pieces of shit. Everyone here swears they're super attractive for some reason, then you see the pictures and retch and ghost.
>>84327190You are likely autistic, it's over and it never even started.
>>84327738I am not like some God send but yeah I look good. I am confident in that >>84328312This is correct I am on the spectrum
>>84327190>have multiple EXshahahahah get out normalfagholy shit what are you even doing here you flaming homosexual sexhaver"Oh I fuck so much but I'm so self conscious" you're just a narcisist that want people to tell you "you're great anon yay keep going!". People like you should be raped and left on a highway naked.
>>84329807I'm pretty sure OP is larping. But I've seen this kind of guy from time to time. Like these sex havers would complain to me, an incel, about how they feel ugly and struggle with self-worth. Honestly, I'm pretty sure they're just using me in a "at least I'm not that guy" type of eat
