Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportheyhappy friday>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Here's a bunch of helpful links for u>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>84335009>there is technically no anime adaptation of the 1st route and they cut a lot from the movies.so the anime is based on the vn?>isn't that crazy thinking over the games I put in that kind of time into.not something i disagree with, but my second playthrough usually is about 30, showing that i'm really moving at a snails pace during my initial run. ^^'>remember you mentioning and maybe I'll give it a look since it sounded good.it's a crazy game and you'll feel all kinds of emotions while playing it, but if you can get past the cringe, which i'm sure you'll be able to handle, you'll have a good time.>there's a lot of fan service and silly stuff on the side going on in the one I'm playing now.as long as they're making it worth your time>Was like 20 dollars for each respectively and I don't mind giving money to type moonthat's a reasonable pricepoint. thought they'd squeeze more money out of the waifu-folks.>I'm just disappointed even when I was a kidi get it. i was often disappointed with sequels. sometimes it's a blessing to not have played the older entries of a series.>we're just not pretending that second half with the completely new cast happenedi don't even remember there being something disappointing about it at all. ;D>almost always release characters that have waifu valuesometimes i wish i had your taste. seems like you can find things to enjoy more easily.>it was the most satisfying gatcha moment everit's way more satisfying to just buy the pulls! trust me, bro...>hoping they'll come back and do something being left disappointed instead..saw that piccolo was made relevant again after 2 decades by becoming bulkier and turning orange. must have thought really hard and long on that one. >>84338684hey catbro! what's up?>happy fridayhappy fraturday. not sure if i should tell you that it's saturday already... ^^'
>>84339288hello ^^ wait a secy... it's caturday?!!?? @.@how are you?I'm alright I went to the mall today to get a little backpack :]
>>84339365>wait a secy... it's caturday?!!?? @.@maybe we can all pretend it's friday and make it true that way? wouldn't be against that at all. ^^>how are you?i'm fine. taking it slow today, though. just lying on the couch, eating tortilla chips and listening to some stream. all is right in the world.>I'm alright I went to the mall today to get a little backpack :]nice. getting your biking gear together? what brand is it?
>How are you doing today?not great. i'm at urgent care to get a cut looked at, had to leave work for it and i feel really ashamed. i have the sick time for it but so many people saw me change and clock out and asked where i was going.>Any plans for today?i hopefully will be able to go back to my shift after this, but if not, i may just go home and sleep. i'm supposed to play dnd tonight, i hope the doc won't coax me into an overnight hospital stay because of the injury. i really want to play.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?a few days ago, kept making a cut deeper even though i knew it was a bad, bad idea. now i'm paying for it.>Why did you hurt yourself?tired of taking meds. tired of failing at every turn. tired of everything.>Is there anything bothering you right now?myself. everything about me. can't really distract from that. i don't like myself much.
>>84339457>wouldn't be against that at all. ^^but I'm worried it might not work :<>just lying on the couch, eating tortilla chips and listening to some streamglad you're enjoying yourself ^^I thought about watching a movie like yesterday but decided not to, maybe I'll play some games on computer now >biking gear together?yep :] > what brand is it?nothing name brand actually there's like a new diy store and it sells cool cheep stuff and they also had small one arm backpack so I decided to get it
>>84339492>i'm at urgent care to get a cut looked at, had to leave work for it and i feel really ashamednever feels good to be exposed like that, but maybe you can see it as a wake-up call. hope your cut heals well.>i may just go home and sleep.might be for the best and do you well.>i hope the doc won't coax me into an overnight hospital stay because of the injury. i really want to playlet's see what they say. would suck if you had to stay, but you're well-being is more important than one missed game-night. i get it, though. had some really great trpg sessions with my friends.>kept making a cut deeper even though i knew it was a bad, bad idea. now i'm paying for it.hopefully next time the urge creeps up on you you'll remember and decide against it.>tired of taking meds. tired of failing at every turn. tired of everything.not taking any meds right now, but the rest hits home hard. i try to pretend things don't bother be, but there's only so far that'll get you.>i don't like myself much.good you found the thread then. we like you.>>84339493>I'm worried it might not work :<damn outside world and it's stupid reality.>I thought about watching a movie like yesterdayhow did you like it?>decided not to, maybe I'll play some games on computer nowyeah. i went to play some more sts-runs, too. what's on your list?>yep :]let's go! :D when are you heading out?>there's like a new diy store and it sells cool cheep stuff and they also had small one arm backpack so I decided to get itnice that you got access to a place like that now. i'm sure you'll make great use of it.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DFI6cV9slfI&list=RDDFI6cV9slfI&start_radio=1&pp=ygUXd2VpcmQgYWwgaGFyZHdhcmUgc3RvcmWgBwE%3D
>>84338684heyo cat, how are you?>happy fridaycaturday has gone unobserved, /cut/ has fallen>>84339365>little backpacknice. planning to be for daily use or something light when biking?>>84339288hey yuanon, how's it going?>anime is based on the vn?The VN started the entire franchise and 2 of the animes and a few movies adapt the VN. The VN is huge and has multiple routes, the first of which never got adapted truly for a variety of reason.>snails pace during my initial run.no reason to rush if you're enjoying yourself. Thinking bad to random JRPG's I sunk time into just chatting with every NPC I could find. I'm less completionist now than in the past though>if you can get past the cringeEasy deal with the kind of stuff I'm into lately!>squeeze more money out of the waifu-folks.it's an old visual novel remastered and frankly you can probably get the OGs online easily. Some prefer those since the hentai scenes got censored out and removed in the purchasable versions. It's so strange to think that's how the franchise started, but the background was at the time it was the only way anyone thought visual novels could sell, even if the plot was good>often disappointed with sequelsgreat thing is PC you can add all the old maps and problem solved. Sequel was mechanically better and had cool add ons, just the map designer quit between games it felt like and they made the ai worse somehow.>don't even remember there being something disappointing'cept for that cgi lol> seems like you can find things to enjoy more easily.blessing and curse as i can't control myself with the figures anymore>way more satisfying to just buy the pulls!paid pulls don't guarantee anything on limited time SSR so I would go bankrupt pulling. Gathering 1,000+ currency and going to zero to get multiple duplicates to max out your waifus power was amazing. Sent multiple screenshots to my brother who hates the character
>>84339288> piccolo was made relevant again miracles happen>must have thought really hard and long on that one.actually lol'd at this especially after looking up what it looked like ha
I need to wake up earlier so the thread doesn't die while I'm sleeping...>>84334393>wanna say what game it was?ToontownBut I feel like I'm going to end up on some kind of list if I admit to playing that.I'm playing a very heavily modified version of it. It's surprisingly good.>>84338684>I don't see how you can do business safely if you're relying on an external firm to run your core business processes.You can't, but I genuinely don't think business have realised that yet.>I was partially influenced by that third, terrible Jurassic Park movie where the only thing good about it was the spinosaurus looked pretty coolI've only ever seen the first one. Are the rest worth watching?>>84334732>not like you buy them on the regular, so it's ok, i think.That's true. I'll give it another look and see if they've been reduced even further.>are your parents sure they weren't just smaller back then?Having just looked at a comparison they were 5-ish% bigger in the 70s. Maybe they were comparing the small variety pack ones to full-sized ones.>i think my favorite is the big bar with a cookie insideThat sounds nice. This exchange has confirmed to me that Germany really is the land of Chocolate.>i guess we just have a lot of those things?In the UK you mostly get that kind of thing in fancy boxes of chocolates rather than in bars.>the most common ones are just boxes with 24 compartments containing chocolateThose are common in the UK as well but I don't think I've met anyone else that had DIY ones.>had loads of the small eggs, thoughI really like those. They're pretty hard to get here for some reason (I guess because they'd melt), but they sell Kinder Joys at every 7-Eleven.On a related note, this is one of my favourite short films https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2Olyva3z30
>>84339492I hope you can get patched up and playing D&D>myself. everything about me. can't really distract from that. i don't like myself much.I know the feeling. I wish I had some helpful advice for it that doesn't sound like a dumb platitude.In any event you're always welcome to post here and hopefully that can cheer you up a little.
>>84339831> doesn't die while I'm sleeping..eh it's not your responsibility or anything. it's been slower during north america posting hours. If I wasn't following europe hours it wouldn't either, but always just post a new one>don't think business have realised that yet.too drunk on cost savings to question whether or not it's a good idea. Half AI roll out plans are managers tellling people below them to figure out how to save money with it with zero understanding or plans themselves.> Are the rest worth watching?first is the best by a long shot, but Lost World is enjoyable enough and has some very classic scenes in it. Anything after is eh... Jurassic Park 3 just bad. And the new era films are all trash and somehow have dinosaurs that look worse than the old school ones.
>>84339492hello>i'm at urgent care to get a cut looked at,hope it goes well anon>many people saw me change and clock outwell it's none of their business >the doc won't coax me into an overnight hospital stayprobably not>now i'm paying for it.yephopefully you don't do that again >myself. everything about me. can't really distract from that. isorry to hear that anon :<>>84339596>damn outside world and it's stupid reality.exactly!! >>:3>how did you like it?I watched inglorious bastards, I liked it but some narration thing sorta annoyed me because it felt completely unnecessary >went to play some more sts-runs, too. enjoying yourself?>what's on your list?idk maybe I'll play some half-life mods>when are you heading out?tomorrow :D >>84339807heyojust chilling today how are you?>unobserved, /cut/ has fallennoo I just thought it's friday D: >>84339831heya>need to wake up earlierdon't force yourself if you don't have toI can always make new threads>heavily modified version of it. It's surprisingly good.are you playing with other people?
>>84339807>how's it going?i'm good and had a very chill day. not feeling sick, but still coughing a lot. what about you?>The VN started the entire franchise and 2 of the animes and a few movies adapt the VNmust have struck a chord with a lot of people, then. you can only hope it doesn't go the same way as ips like pokemon do.>no reason to rush if you're enjoying yourselfmore like being deathly afraid of dying to their stupid traps. :p funny how that changes once you have a few runs under your belt and not even losing shittons of souls fazes you anymore.>I'm less completionist now than in the past thoughi want to say "same" but if i see something glowing in a fromsoft game it's going to get picked up. doesn't matter if it's just complete junk. everytime. on every playthrough. i could never do a speedrun.>Easy deal with the kind of stuff I'm into lately!figured as much>It's so strange to think that's how the franchise started, but the background was at the time it was the only way anyone thought visual novels could sell, even if the plot was goodjapanese have a weird relationship with this stuff and these days i believe that being able to overcome being afraid of swimming against the stream there is akin to a superpower. there's so many artist who scrub their social media history clean as soon as they get picked up by a large publisher, but than there's the ones that don't give a fuck and still get their work published and adapted no problem. should just put both versions up for sale, so that everyone can buy the one they want.>the map designer quit between games it felt likemany such cases. :/>they made the ai worse somehow.was it published by ea?>'cept for that cgi lolwell, that's a mental issue i've got to deal with on my own. can't make other people see it the way i do.
>>84339807>blessing and curse as i can't control myself with the figures anymorethere was only one i was truly tempted by. luckily it sold out before i made up my mind. unthinkable what it could have started. guess i dodged a bullet there >Gathering 1,000+ currency and going to zero to get multiple duplicates to max out your waifus power was amazingwell deserved for sticking with it for so long. i don't think i'd be able to grind for that amount of time.>Sent multiple screenshots to my brother who hates the charactercan't put a pricetag on that.>>84339815>actually lol'd at this especially after looking up what it looked like halooked at it again too and speaking of shitty cgi... what the fuck?
>>84339831hey discanon!>I need to wake up earlier so the thread doesn't die while I'm sleeping...that's very considerate, but don't lose sleep over that. there'll always be another one. :>>That's true. I'll give it another look and see if they've been reduced even further.fingers crossed. what kind of local sweets can you get where you are?>Maybe they were comparing the small variety pack ones to full-sized ones.probably. i've never liked the pack ones. too small, too fidely, too much wrapping and i'm done pretending i wouldn't eat the whole thing in one sitting, so just give me the regular bars. :p>This exchange has confirmed to me that Germany really is the land of Chocolatei'd say the european chocolate game is pretty strong overall, but the german speaking countries do have access to top-tier chocolate. >In the UK you mostly get that kind of thing in fancy boxes of chocolates rather than in bars.not gonna lie. like with everything, the amount of hazelnuts in the aforementioned bars has dropped significantly. so much i once even took a bite and there was not a single hazelnut in it! >:[ back in the day there even was a company that said you'd get your money back if that was the case! wonder why they went out of business...>Those are common in the UK as well but I don't think I've met anyone else that had DIY ones.probably was the case before the chocolate ones took of. people get lazy quick.>They're pretty hard to get here for some reason (I guess because they'd melt), but they sell Kinder Joys at every 7-Eleven.the joys were introduced as a replacement for the classic ones during summer, so depending were you are, you're spot on. never had one of those, though. there's actually people here who just collect the toys and don't eat the chocolate, so you can actually get the shells in bulk on ebay.>On a related note, this is one of my favourite short filmswatching it now
:/i have an urgenot just to cut but to do something that shakes my entire mental healthso stressed, i have 10 lectures to watch cuz i have no clue what would happen tomorrow, idk if the teachers are gonna explain the subjects in the lectures again. that's not the worst thing, infact i can kinda deal with it and relax, the worst thing is they decided that we're having the maths exam on monday, that one maths exam i talked about before. i did not expect that at all. i'm not ready at all, i'm just scared. and that's how my day ended after i had been in a good mood for most of the day. dopamine slowly goes away and i'm used to my tragic mood swings but i wasn't expecting to see anything about the exam now. now i dont feel like watching any lecture of 10 i missed.it's awful idk what to do. i have one day to study all this. how are they fucking serious?now i'm so anxious i can't sleep. i have to sleep. i need to go to this prison in like 12 hours. i'm just unable to relax, here we go again. the same old stress. like i get it it won't be that bad tomorrow even if i didn't watch the lectures i can just deal with it tomorrow, why am i so anxious?thanks, failed ministries of education.
how cool is it having undiagnosed undefined type of anxiety and mood swings without knowing any psychological medical tip to make it easieri'm going crazy man
>>84340377heyo sorry to hear about that they can just announce an exam like that without giving you time to study!? that's stupid Sending you a big hug fren
>>84340137>I watched inglorious bastards, I liked it but some narration thing sorta annoyed me because it felt completely unnecessaryi watched it when it came out, but i'm not a huge tarantino fan. i like some of his older movies, but nothing after kill bill.>enjoying yourself?won a run earlier today and just lost every single one after that. it's great. :D>I'll play some half-life modswhich ones?>tomorrow :Dawesome. ^^ where are you heading?>>84340377hey, buddy!sorry to hear they hit you with that out of the blue. that's awful. maybe just put one on in the background and listen to it passively until you fall asleep? might put you at ease that you already started and then you can really dig into those tomorrow, learn as much as you can and then just try to pass it somehow on monday.>thanks, failed ministries of education.those seem to be rather shit everywhere. :/>>84340429maybe have a hot shower? it helps falling asleep.
im seriously going crazy. the worst thing is i drank coffee an hour ago to "get myself ready for the lectures" i didn't know i will see an announcement that'll leave me burned out stressed anxious and unable to study nor to sleep, just stuck in between.wanna screamseriously what can i do to calm down?? i'm panicking>>84340458>Sending you a big hug thanks cat>>84340509>heyhey yuanon>dig into those tomorrowi have to do it today.. one of the teachers gave us homework through the lectures and i should watch like +1hour of dry lectures to be able to do the homework. yeah no.i think i'm not doing it. i'll try to fix things somehow. but GOD DAMN IT the feeling is killing me. i just know it i know this feeling.>maybe have a hot shower? it helps falling asleep.no hot water currently...
>>84340579>seriously what can i do to calm down?? i'm panickingwhat about going for a quick walk? just heading outside and getting some fresh air might help and then just sit down and start the lecture. it's shit you have to, but the blockade is all about getting started.>no hot water currently...damn. any hot drink that doesn't have caffeine in it?
The SSD I had sent over has already jumped up in price by 60 pounds. Be kind to your hardware so you don't have to do this too...>>84339935>eh it's not your responsibility or anythingI know, but I should be waking up (and sleeping) earlier anyway.>Half AI roll out plans are managers tellling people below them to figure out how to save money with it with zero understanding or plans themselvesThat sounds about right for most organisations. When I was in secondary school they'd spend money on useless stuff while the buildings were literally falling apart.>first is the best by a long shotI only watched it for the first time a few years ago when they rereleased it in cinemas. In a way I'm glad I waited to see it like that and I can see why it's so beloved.>Lost World is enjoyable enough and has some very classic scenes in itMaybe I'll give it a look and add it to my ever growing backlog.>somehow have dinosaurs that look worse than the old school onesI was surprised by just how well the effects held up in the original. I think because CG wasn't used pretty sparingly and a lot of the dinos were animatronics or some other practical effect.>>84340137>don't force yourself if you don't have toWaking up at 3pm is kind of bad, no?>are you playing with other people?Yes. At peak hours it gets about 350 people. They used to get a couple thousand a few years back but it seems healthy enough for now.
>>84340369>what kind of local sweets can you get where you are?There's something like pocky but it's just a stick of malted milk. That's pretty nice. A lot of imported stuff from Japan as well.>the german speaking countries do have access to top-tier chocolateYet they're the slimmer countries in Europe. I wonder what's going on there.>the amount of hazelnuts in the aforementioned bars has dropped significantlyWhat a sad time to be alive... I know the economy isn't great but between getting less product and paying a bit more for it, I'd pick the latter most times. If I'm paying for a frivolity, I want the frivolity.>>84340377It's pretty mean for them to just drop an exam on you like that. I don't know if it'll help, but what's the absolute worst outcome of this? Retaking the module? In any event, best of luck!>>84340579>seriously what can i do to calm down?? i'm panickingA few months back when I wasn't doing well, I would occasionally need to leave the house. To stop me from having a panic attack/breakdown/crying fit in public I'd listen to a podcast that I'd heard dozens of times already to serve as a kind of security blanket, and just tried my best to focus on it.It might help to do something similar. Maybe not a podcast but an album or playlist you like. Any audio that's familiar, really.
>>84340688 >quick walkcant>hot drinkyeah i drank milk.i feel a bit better overall now. finally im sleepythanks yuanon btw>>84340843 >Retaking the module?i think nothing would happen i would just need good grades in the final exam and the daily quizzes to make sure i dont fail>familiar audiohonestly i kinda feel like it depends sometimes maybe im just imagining but i feel like it might trigger something like i think its related to ocd or whatever maybe just because im having headache right nowbut overall i think i'll listen to something familiar and calmingalso thanks disanon
>>84340842>Be kind to your hardware so you don't have to do this too...i think i should clean my pc sooner rather than later>>84340843>it's just a stick of malted milksounds good. i wonder if there's something similar here.>A lot of imported stuff from Japan as well.any favorites?>Yet they're the slimmer countries in Europe. I wonder what's going on thereprobably true, but overall it's getting worse here as well. i'm on the heavier side anyway, so whatever is working for others, it's not working for me. :p>I'd pick the latter most times. If I'm paying for a frivolity, I want the frivolity.this. if i'm paying for it with money and health, at least make it worth my time.>>84340995>cantfair>i drank milk. i feel a bit better overall now. finally im sleepyphew. same here, btw. i think it's bed time for me.>thanks you're welcome. glad i could helo, even if it's just a little bit. :>good night, everyone!
