I just did some calculationsApparently I'm 32KHHV, friendless, never had a job of courseI kinda thought I was younger. weird
did you double check your math? that can't be right.
Same as you anon, except I could have lived a normal life and people decided to sabotage me. You didnt become that way on your own, did you?
>>84342345I am 32 as well, but most of my jobs sucked, like working in a call center
>>84342373beneficial coalition making drive supersedes most things for humans, can't really blame them and can't really see myself as a human, so I guess in some ways it was inevitable in my case. in your case, you may still be able to live somewhat normal since you may still find yourself in a mutually beneficial coalition that wants to keep you around
>>84342427Wants to keep me around in a very loose sense yes
>>84342446people prefer their coalition members have other coalitions so their reliance on them is low and possibility of making use of linked coalition is relatively higher than cost of coalition. direct or indirect mention of existing coalitions in any interaction is a favored humanmaxxing strategy
>>84342345>thought I was youngerWhat does this mean? Did you not know how old you were off the top of your head?
>>84342524no. there's no use case to knowing that for me, always approximated to ~30 for like last 5 years
>>84342345me too bro, how do you feel about it? i personally am not too fond of it at times but not enough to do anything about itwould need some serious friction to kick me into gear otherwise im chillin
>>84342538Oh wow, well I believe you're a NEET. I'm around the same age, and I can't seem to stay away from this place despite narrowly escaping the NEET life myself.>>84342427>beneficial coalition making driveThat's a pretty obtuse way to say you felt ganged up on/ostracized.>humansYou're human too bud, I used to write this way too when I was younger. That kind of phrasing doesn't make you seem smart so much as condescending and out of touch. If you want to find a sense of community it's important to be honest with yourself about how you come off. As much as other people might make you feel like it, you're not an alien, and that was barely an answer. You're in good company OP, why don't you tell us exactly how the "coalition" around you decided that their "drive" "superseded" your presence? We're all ostracized weirdos here, maybe we can help.
>>84342623>If you want to find a sense of communityYou can model me as a human with 0 coalition who is honest. A male of persistent 0 coalition signals no net positive value as a coalition member, so only way someone would be willing is if they are tricked or misled by current or future potential value of me as a coalition member.I'm interested in being part of a community in the way a pet owner is interested in their pets or a zookeeper is interested in their zoo animals. Some of what they say, how they think and do are temporarily interesting. I've been offered coilition acceptance many times, I don't have a general drive for it like others do, a drive very fundamental to existing as human. It's not the only one where I differ, but it is one of the biggest one.>"coalition" around you decided that their "drive" "superseded" your presenceI've been trying to get at least a minimum wage job since I finished college forever ago. I don't live in the middle of nowhere.>Research shows that 70% of all jobs are not published publicly on jobs sites and as much as 80% of jobs are filled through personal and professional connectionshttps://www.cnbc.com/2019/12/27/how-to-get-a-job-often-comes-down-to-one-elite-personal-asset.html>40% of hiring managers surveyed say their company posted a fake job in the past year.>Of companies that listed fake jobs within the past year, approximately 26% posted one to three fake job listings, 19% posted five, 19% posted 10, 11% posted 50, 10% posted 25, and 13% posted 75 or more.>The fake job listings were for entry-level roles (63%), mid-level roles (68%), senior-level roles (53%), and executive-level roles (45%).https://www.resumebuilder.com/3-in-10-companies-currently-have-fake-job-posting-listed/People also find it reasonable and acceptable to lie on resume or interview. Outcome is what's relevant first. Another way I'm not human.
>>84342735>a drive very fundamental to existing as humanDude shut the fuck up, you're not the only Schizoid on this board let alone in the species. Why do you think there's a whole DSM diagnosis around it? Being uninterested in socializing doesn't make you "not human">Outcome is what's relevant first. Another way I'm not human.Seriously, you're barely even articulating yourself in a way that scans for anyone outside whatever bizarre complex you've built in your head around this. Everything after >>ResearchReads like cope nobody asked for. /r9k/ knows it's hard to get a job. And most of the people here could probably relate to your reasons why if you actually cared to get into it. Yes. You are human. Everything about the way you're dancing around your issues and romanticizing your hang-ups as special inscrutable alien attributes reads as painfully, cringe-inducingly, human. You, me, and probably half this board have coped with being socially isolated before by telling ourselves it's at least partly because we're so smart and beyond the comprehension of others. But it's the inability to actually introspect, and the need retreat behind purposeless jargon-like language that really makes you hard to engage with. You need to be real with yourself. But that's the problem isn't it? It's hard to get perspective when you're in your own head all day every day.>I'm interested in being part of a community in the way a pet owner is interested in their pets or a zooYou're not fucking Omni-Man dude, and nobody is your fucking pet. Don't you hear how condescending and delusional that sounds? It's clearly a comfy way of framing things to yourself while you put up this wall between you and everyone else. Giving yourself permission to disengage with the people right in front of you. The most Ironic part is, it's a terribly relatable frame of mind. >picrelatedMaybe if you stop explicitly dehumanizing yourself in your head, you'll stop implicitly dehumanizing others too.
>>84343003I do not have schizoid personality disorder but I get why similarities can be confusing. Differences:1. I always wanted to one or more romantic relationship (with humans) but one where they'd be willing slaves2. I do not feel engulfed by others in interaction or closer relationship because of feeling of losing myself but for lacking the control and means to take care of the human animals I'm interacting with in the way they need3. I dislike solitary activity, I fall asleep anytime trying to play games solo content or where there's no active back and forth involved resolution process4. I do not exhibit apathy>nobody asked foryes, I'm not exhibiting coalition signal of greater cost than benefit>most of the people here could probably relateI can relate to cats when they are frustrated or when they are hurt and crying. I'm not a cat>being socially isolatedI had many chances and invites to join many coalitions in schools, college, religion and with relatives>because we're so smartI don't consider myself smart. I estimate IQ in the lowest third of non-mentally disabled group.>you're not fucking Omni-Man dudeNot in the superior sense but humans as is will mostly act out their ancestral pattern if left alone and will unnecessarily cause each other suffering. There are govt and systems in place but it's like putting zoo animals in charger of their own zoo, it can theoretically be done right but the strong coalition building drive and other sexual competition like drives humans have will always take priority.Humans are or perceive themselves in current or future coalition of similar goals and they reason to signal to it's members to join, preserve and punish norm breakers. Schizoid, beyond the disorder, as a label, is functioning as perceived coalition here. You suspect me as a member but violating rules - 1) of not being self aware enough 2) implied suggestion that I should be given special attention or treated/served differently.
