I wonder how cancelled I'd get in real life if I stopped acting so sanitized. I even act sanitized on this board, lmao, so dishonest. Why am I even writing this, I'm crashing the fuck out rn, having a big melty
i know you dont know who i am and this was probably over 2 years ago but i talked to you on discord once and concluded that you were a massive pussy who desperately needs to man up and start taking risks like thisyou should be yourself in real life. yes, you will face consequences. i faced consequences for doing that same thing and it helped me grow alot. i hope things improve for you
remember when you used to make threads asking about how everyone's day went, are you telling me it was all fake and you never cared?
>>84357592Yeah, my fears hold me back, and I have no achievements in life because of it, I'm an empty shell of a person. Why I am like this I do not know. Sure tell me to go out of my comfort zone or something, but how much is too much? I often go to extremes, either I go too hard at something or I completely give up. I tried making friends last year, I really did, and I just ended up embarrassing myself. I tried being my honest self and I just ended up saying a lot of autistic shit, telling normies I was a virgin and not even getting laughed at but rather pitied, it was painful the looks of scorn they gave me. No wonder why I shut down, I'm surprised I forgot. I tried my best, got hurt, and I don't want to try again, but I need to try again, because rotting here is the worse alternative.
>>84357618It's not fake, sometimes I'm just in a positive mood and want to hear about people's day, and other times I feel extremely anxious and crash out. Or maybe I was faking it? I don't fucking know man, maybe it's just a dumb conversation starter, and after you say "oh I'm doing fine! Today I went to go get some ice cream and went on a walk in the park and it was great!" I can expand on what you said and learn about what you did and ask you questions to keep the conversation going, but no most people just say "I'm good" and nothing else and never respond again. It's not like people really respond to my threads anyway, I'm fucking boring even on this fucking social loner loser board (it's co-opted by normies anyway now), you can imagine how bland of a fucking person I am in real life, maybe talking to me is like talking to a brick wall even though I'd like to say I put in more effort into my conversations than most, but maybe I'm missing something? Maybe it's not that people don't put in effort, but that they put in effort only for people they like, and the reason no one puts in effort for me is because nobody fucking likes me right?
>>84357639a lot of people browsing here have some severe mental issues or autism or something of that sort
>>84357652Yeah, indeed, I wouldn't be here if I wasn't mentally ill, I know for a fact something is wrong with me because every indication in my life is telling me so. And before you say "then do something about it,' I mean you're right I guess, just wish I wasn't too fucking lazy to, but what's the solution for laziness? "Just don't be lazy?"
>>84357657no i really don't know what to tell you sorry, my point was moreso that you shouldn't expect much out of a rat's den of mentally ill/autistic people, but there are some really great people who do browse here. im sure some people liked your threads even if it wasn't directly communicated/received by you
>>84357668Yeah maybe it's a far cry asking for help here. Maybe I'm just venting here because I can't say this shit in normie spaces, they'd call me a fucking incel. Regardless feels good to get it out. I'm kind of surprised the usual trolls haven't gotten to the thread yet.>there are some really great people who do browse hereYeah, I've met them before, I'm talking to a few really great people from here right now. I miss the ones who went offline and are doing better things with their lives, I'm glad they made it out but bitter that they don't want to spend time with me anymore.>im sure some people liked your threads even if it wasn't directly communicated/received by youI'm sure they did, maybe I'm not actually repulsive and maybe it's just the brainworms getting to me. I hate having these anxious spirals, but like... the bluepill can't fucking save me from noticing that I'm always some unimportant side character in most people's lives. It's too damn hard to ignore. None of my positive experiences can overwrite that. Something is terribly wrong. Why don't people want to hang out with me when I ask them? Or just ghost me? Or maybe I'm too anxious to text people, sure, but why didn't they text me first? Am I just not that important? I'm sure I don't take up much space in most people's heads, and yet here they are taking up space in mine. "Rent free" as they say.
Is my anxiety session going to stop anytime soon? I'm getting exhausting typing all of this valueless pointless bullshit just to type it out. Why do I even feel the urge to say this.
>>84357696>>84357717yeah im getting hardcore raped as well i really don't know what to do other than provoking someone to murder me
>>84357742Cool I guess, have a nice day.
>>84357756lol alright then
>>84357583if you feel any compassion for other people you should try feeling that for yourself too
>>84357696>I'm always some unimportant side character in most people's livesDoes that even matter though? What good does many people involving you or involving themselves in your life?Its easier said than done to not feel that way but if you are already sort of disillusioned then how does the average person even affect you? If anything they shouldn't at all since you notice these things.And remember that there are plenty of anons here that aren't as mind-numbing as the average person that like to you see you. I always love to see anons from a while back.
