You ever have one of those nights where the only reason you dont kill yourself is because you feel like a 45 is to small to kill yourself with a headshot and you dont have any shot guns shells on hand??(asking for a friend)
>>84383699No, but as much as I talk about and think about suicide, I'd never do it, and I would never, ever recommend it to anyone. There are better ways to ruin your life, and ways you can actually rebound from. Shit can be so fucking rough but I'd never ever recommend it. However hard it is to see that God gifted us life sometimes, we should try to cultivate a remembrance of this, and really see how terrible it is to take that act of will to destroy yourself. It's deeply tragic, and that's why when you see things like a video of someone doing it, it leaves you either feeling terrible FOR them, seeing a spark of life like you, commit what ultimately, is hard not to see as an act of blasphemy, assuming that in that moment you aren't already afflicted with a blinding darkness.I don't know if that's remotely helpful, but in my worst places there's still always something, a small spark to look up to, and I think it's Christ. I really don't believe that's cope.
>>84383699Nigga just buy a shotgun (with expensive ammo that can kill in 1shot)
>>84383699Anon, you still have some hope left - grab it with both hands - hold fast. You've sensed that you didn't fulfill your life's purpose yet. When the time comes - there will be no doubt. Please drink water and stay away from depressants like alcohol, anon.
>>84384076Anon, we do NOT encourage anons to take the easy way out!
>>84383699You don't need a shotgun to set off shotgun shells.Uhh, don't kys i guess.
>>84384366>You don't need a shotgun to set off shotgun shells.what?
>>84383699the 45acp has more stopping power than the 9mm. she'll do the job alright, i won't lie about that. but you really should not commit suicide, there's always some spark somewhere as the first guy said.
>>84384372You just need to hammer the primer to get the powder inside to ignite and send the pellets flying.
>>84384372I said:YOU DON'T NEED A SHOTGUN TO SET OFF SHOTGUN SHELLS
>>84384386that would be like detonating a small grenade to your face. if OP did that, he would become a vegetable.
>>84384388He could even kill himself with a blank if he manages to get an adequate seal around the muzzle but that's not even the issue here. It's like herding cats!
How a nigga got a fuddy five but not a shotty?
>>84383699If you ever are going to kill yourselfe.g you have all your shit packed in boxes, labeled,printed passwords in an envelope,all your power of attorney and probate ready to go.You've got a plan and are executing it.And nobody knows any of this.If you ever get to this point, OPMax out tour credit cards first.I almost made that mistake of killing myself and not having any fun before hand.Maybe I wouldn't have had fun, I was in pain, woe is me and all thatBut at least I could have triedMaybe you'll spend 6 months on the beach somewhere and love it.Or live in the mountainsOr anything. Get a bunch if drugs and OD at a concert or Florida party or Ibiza or something - die that way, or wake up maybe with something to live for.If not, the .45 is ready at home.I was scared too, to fuck it up and make my situation even worse.Luckily I never had to find out.
>>84383699I don't do it not because I don't want to, but because I've reached a level of self hatred where I have acknowledged that existence is wildly painful and only gets worse every day and will only ever get worse every day but that I deserve that and then some. I pray often that the stress of living kills me even though I know it's just as likely that it will be the reason why I'll live well into old age and reach levels of torment that are beyond description, like seeing how the lives of the great grandsons of those that once had the misfortune of knowing me are demonstrably worse for their great grandparent having had to bear the burden of my existence for any real length of time. When I do finally die it will be one of the happiest moments of my existence. It just can't be by my hand or action or inaction, I have to earn it the hard way, because it's what I deserve.
Yo, gun owner anon here, who also deals with some serious mental illness: NO. Something in my autism basically removed "gun" from the "tools to end my life with" category on hand. It's a little odd, but there's no fucking way I could do that with my beloved Glock 19. No fucking way I could do that to my loved ones and family. It's like putting a square peg into a round hole. It just can't happen in my own mind I guess.Just set the gun down my man. Maybe do some dry fire (away from your head) and shoot at bad guys on the TV.Talk to us, anon. Talk to me. What kinda .45 you got? I've got a Glock 19 gen 6 that I love. Fantastic to shoot and carry. I think I'm getting close to 1k rounds on it.
>>84385129I'm at this stage of my life. I'm just here to have fun now. I haven't completely dropped my responsibilities but I don't really care anymore. If this turns out not to be sustainable, I'm going to tie a long sturdy rope around my neck and jump off a bridge.
