Do you take meds? Why or why not?
>>84388863last time i went to the doctor when i told them all my symptoms they told me i almost certainly had schizophrenia and gave me a referral to a psychologist and i never went or saw the doctor again i will not take any meds they will mess up my brain i need to keep my mind the same i wont let them change me
>>84389486>schizo ramblingthis is what happens when you grow up terminally online without safe caretakers that support you. godspeed, retard>>84388863i used to take some for a bit over 3 years, mood stabilizers. had to take strong ones bc the weaker ones didnt help enough. wouldve killed myself if i didnt take them so probably was good. now im pretty functional
>>84388863Did for a while. They helped in some ways but hurt in a lot more than they helped. Had to do TRT afterwards to reverse a lot of the side effects, thankfully my nuts started working normally again. Also spent some time in a psych ward voluntarily. Really the whole experience of meds and inpatient was mostly valuable in that it was all so terrible that it basically forced me to unfuck myself. I'll never do either again, next time my brain breaks I'm walking into the woods and waiting for nature to do me in.
i am very very crazyi have lived in a state of unmedicated psychosis for the pat 10 years. i have conditioned myself to try and blend in pretty well. it has tempered my nerves to the point that a real life moment of extreme danger feels like nothing to me because i'm always ignoring my hallucinations and pain.My last doctor said i had a "extremely severe case of mixed bipolar" which basically means i get so overwhelmed with energy that it becomes painful and i start ripping my own skin off to get comfortable. still, i restrict this impulse too. I feel like if i had been given a completely regular mind i would have been able to lead a very prosperous life. instead, i'm scraping by just below normie standards to cope with my illness. I only recently started sharing my psychosis issues with people I trust and it makes it easier. Like i'll tell them "for the past 2 weeks ive been believing there are worms underneath my skin eating me from the inside. it makes me want to self harm, so i'm being extra careful." sharing helps a little and they can take care of me when i start acting erratic. I'm basically right on the cusp between being a retard you feel bad for and a loser you despise.
>>843895262mg risperidone and maybe some lamictal would help a lot for you and have the least amount of side effects. You don't have to be on either forever, just long enough to get a better handle on things. I commend you for having the self control to manage psychosis for that long, that is a waking hellscape nightmare plane of torment I wouldn't wish on anybody. Just stay away from the ssri's - they're dogshit that do nothing positive.
>>84388863I take a low dose of aripiprazole (anti psychotic) because I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. The meds do help me think much clearer but they do diminish my libido to the point where I have to take viagra if I want to have sex. Before I began taking meds my life and my mind were a chaotic mess and I was a sex crazed maniac. Fundamentally I consider my med given ability to think clearly and rationalize a fair trade off for my sex drive.
>>84390240I have had 2 episodes during that period where i couldnt control myself and thats what i did but i got back off of them because I don't like antipsychotics at all. its like over 100$ a month for prescriptions and i dont have a job thats too unstable if it get off them and dont have money ill be in trouble
>>84390288Would still recommend keeping some risperidone around as a rescue drug in case you feel an episode coming on. Like yeah obviously not being on it is preferable but taking it at the onset of symptoms can prevent them from escalating. If you have a local clinic they can probably get it for you for free, that's what I did when I needed it. >>84390284All mental health medications fuck with natural hormone production. You might look into TRT. Keep the dosage low and do a consult with a physician first though.
>>84388863Yes, so I don't commit suicide, or check myself into a mental hospital so I don't.I've tried not being medicated, I've tried being on different depression meds than my current ones, couldn't handle either of those. I won't pretend I'm entirely happy or functional but at least this way I'm stable.
>>84388863I did for many years age 12-25 for being suicidal i dont take them now i feel i dont need them and have learned to manage my emotions better
>>84388863I don't because they are all toxic, as evidenced by the existence of "side effects", which are just symptoms of poisoning with a convenient name change
>>84388863No because I'm pretty sure I'm fine but I can't sleep because I just need to do things okay and the fact I don't need it
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