I CAN'T STOP SAYING I NEED NIGRESS PUSSY ALL FUCKING DAY AND NIGHT BUT I DON'T ACTUALLY WANT IT!!!I also got addicted to randomly shouting KILL ALL NIGGERS. RAPE ALL NIGGERS. etc. etc. But I can't stop. I try to say "I love the blacks" and irl I am as nice as humanly possible to black people FO REAL!!!But this is killing me, I'm too scared to get a job and then be like have a nice day mam! KILL NIGGERSSSSS!!In my house I fucking SHOUT it like LOUD like if I had neighbors they would be like yo go check on this dude he is crashing out saying he's gonna kill niggers but I don't wanna kill niggers. p.s. Notice how "i" is always supposed to be capitalized so that you can never provide emphasis that you want niggers to die but you don't want to kill them yourself. e.g. picrelWhat do I do anons???
MY mom is sleeping in the other room and I literrally just said "RApe niggers."It's not as bad when other people are around but the more comfy I am the louder I become. Sometimes things slip out in the middle of the night and I'm like FUCKKK I hope my mom didn't hear that. Thankfully she is a heavy sleeper.
Now I just said "kill niggers" "KILL NIGGERS"For no fucking reasonWWYD if you were me? inb4 "kill yourself"
>>84397402I won't tell you to kill yourself. I do this myself sometimes but I never let it slip very loudly.
>>84397402Read the whole "kill niggers, behead niggers, slam dunk a nigger baby into a trash can" etc. copypasta out loud
>>84397259I recently got a Glock 9mm just because I've always wanted one. I live alone so I leave it out on my desk. Whenever I see it, I involuntarily sing "niggas on my block, niggas got the glock, niggas with a wok, niggas on the talk" My neighbor heard me today and she started laughing.
>>84397402get tested for tourettes?
help me stranger
>>84397550I have a few times, it's pretty funny, thankfully I don't do that on accident lolBut one time in public I was at a restaurant taking a piss and then I said "fucking kill niggers" under my breath and there was an older white guy next to me. ahhhhhhh>>84397567I don't think I need much of a test if I can't stop saying this shit, but I would never fail the test (pass?) because if I'm under any pressure at all I don't shout that stuff out. That's the weird thingBut thus far I was hanging out with my new black friend in college for the first time and I touched a stink bug and went OH A FUCKING NIGGERRRRRHe looked so fucking concerned like he had done something wrong. It was pretty awkward and I never hung out with him again after that. I heard later that we were cool though and he was still down to hang out again thank god lol>>84397573How can I help you?>>84397562lol don't get caught lackin anon, I stay strapped for I fear the day the nigress/negroid amazon delivery worker hears me screaming RAPE AND MURDER ALL NIGGERSSSSS through my door at the top of my lungs. Tbh it has probably already happened, maybe even if my neighbors have come over. I have definitely had some close calls over the years.
>>84397634this sounds pretty clearly like tourettes.
>>84397634>How can I help you?you can help me stranger
Also I noticed when I was a lil shit head young teen doing teenage asshatery stuff my friend (black) and I would RAT people's computers and listen to them. Most of the kids/people would say stuff like "neeger neeger neeger" "fuck niggers!" etc. I know there are people out there that legit just randomly say it all day as just an exercise of freedom. Later on in life when the internet was way more locked down and people were a lot more pseudo offended by the word nigger some of my teenage asshat friends were in their RATing phase. Again the kids were still doing the same shit LMAOAll saying "Nigger nigger niggggeeeerrrrrrr" even just to themselves in their own rooms. Also another time at a party I was hosting I had a puerto Rican friend over and I said some shit like "I fucking love the black people" at 3am for no reason. AHHHHHHHHow normal is this actually? Idk if the people that were rat'd were doing it voluntarily or uncontrolled in private or not.
>>84397647I thought tourettes people were just going off 24/7 even in people's faces. This it seems like I can SORT of control it but not certainly all the time. How the heck am I going to get a normal job if a few months or a year in i'm just gonna be at my desk and I go "phewwwwww FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK NIGGGGGGGERRRRRRRRRRSSSSS!!!! D:<" AT THE top of my lungs randomly???Society is SO over the top for a fucking word I don't think they will understand.
I'm an engineer and I have unironically thought about making a real functioning shock collar to shock me every time I say nigger in hopes that it stops me. But I heard you can permanently damage your nerves doing that.... >Any engineers with bioelectrical knowledge on the matter? >Or perhaps psychs that can tell me if that would actually stop tourettes if that is what it is?
>>84397259Also >BACKSTORY>Didn't always shout out random shit growing up>Left home alone a lot>Online friends thought nigger and my many variations of it and my fake joke racist stories were hilarious, tfw picrel>They always want more>One day at friends house in late teens>Friend goes "FUCK NIGGERS">I'm like uhhhh why'd you do that?>Just try saying it! It's fun! It feels good!>hmmmm ok. FUCK NIGGERS!... hmmm not bad. (It was like what I imagine taking the first puff off of a cigarette would feel like)>SLOWLY over time being alone for years I suddenly shout shit more and more ONLY when alone.>BUT I'm alone a lot of the time. Then COVID hit and I was alone even harder. >Realize after a year or two I can't actually stop saying itIs this tourettes or have I just conditioned myself, or is conditioning yourself also tourettes?
>>84397676>I thought tourettes people were just going off 24/7 even in people's faces.no. and tics can be physical as well, not just verbal. many people with tourettes work to control and suppress their tics.>How the heck am I going to get a normal job>>84397693>I'm an engineer?>>84397745>you have tourettes>you were peer pressured into acting like 2005 /b/ and then conditioned yourself to be unable to stop>you are actually, genuinely, extremely autistic to the point of being chris-chan lolcow retardation level and are legitimately beyond help>you are 12 and what is this?pick one.
