Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportFriday wohoo!!hey>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
links:> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>84421642>heyheya cathow are youim tired i had headache for long times today. didnt sleep well last two days.but now i bought ice coffee! gonna reply older posts when i come back home
>>84421744gonna reply to older posts*
idk why i wanna talk to anyone i feel kinda overwhelmed not sure whyfeel like i wanna share anything. man last week was something
>>84421744hey fren! >how arepretty okay got another wisdom tooth extracted today \o/>headache for long times today. didnt sleep well last two days.sorry to hear about that >bought ice coffee!yayhopefully it helps with the headache though it might not help with sleep>>84421802>last week was somethingwhat happened???
Hello everyone. I had a lot of fun playing video games earlier today. Once that was over my paranoia kicked into high gear again but I've managed to calm down since then. Thankfully I didn't do anything stupid.Tomorrow I'm meeting my friend's parents so I'm quite nervous. >>84421744I've had some pretty bad headaches recently. Hopefully they clear up for you soon.>>84421802You're always welcome to share it here if you feel comfortable.>>84421828>got another wisdom tooth extracted today \o/How did that go? Is it painful? I may need an extraction at some point in the next few years.
hi guys. relapsed a few days ago and probably gonna do it today. i wanna cut on my arms but that feels so stereotypical. how different is it from cutting on legs/hips/stomach. probaly the same lol its cutting. today i am feeling very very bad, tried getting mental health support and found it useless again. tbdesu i dont even know why i try so much and get my hopes up im sososo tired things fail me again and again. i booked a drs appointment for in a few days so maybe that can help. and im soso tired and stressed my compositions are due and exams and shit and ive been pouring from an empty cup my whole life i am so tired. i am so sad ive been crying all day my eyes face hurt. i wish i could go to someone, someone i actually felt safe opening up to doesnt wanna talk to me anymore, its probably my fault but i am so so sad. its too early to sleep but i havent got anything i wanna do so im just lying down feeling horrible. all my problems seem so small and shallow, every 'abuse' i experienced feels so small and insignificant compared to others but i am soso mentally ill i feel so pathetic im not even good at cutting myself. i just wish i was hurt enough that ppl would care. i wish i was the kind of person ppl would care about
everyone that sees this post cares / cause that's what humans do
>>84421912helloo>kicked into high gearD:glad to hear that it calmed down>didn't do anything stupidthink about ur friendmaybe that could help >my friend's parents why? are you still friends at this point?>How did that go? quick and easy the worst part is what they stick a needle pretty deep into your gums to inject the numbing agent but it's not bad it's kinda scary how easy it is to pull out a tooth >>84422056heyo o/>relapsed a few days ago why what happened?>how differentit probably feels a bit different because skin in different parts has different sensitivity but it doesn't really matter >found it uselessdo you know why?>booked a drs appointmentbest of luck anon!>im just lying downmaybe you could get a blanket, put on a movie and just let today passmaybe you will feel better tomorrow? do you think that's likely?>problems seem so small and shallowwell they clearly aren't >>84422109heyo :>how are you?
hey everyone! how's it going today? any a plans for the weekend?
>>84422683hello ^^howa it hanging?I'm alright got another tooth extracted also I eas thinking about my last bikeride amd I saw a little of butterflies on it for some reason and also got chased by a dog for a bitbut anyway I also watched another movie tonight, it's called annihilation I watched it because I saw a scary bear the movie was very mid even for me, I think it was too long and ot could be more interesting >plans for the weekend?nope wbu?
>>84422683>>84422715 What're you guys going up to, what're you guys going up to uhh, what're you guys up to this weekend?
>>84422715>howa it hanging?hanging good. no work today, so i had some time to get groceries, do some laundry and watched a 2 hour youtube vid about a guy who became a meme here, basically the german version of boogie. that was a wild ride, especially because that was going on for 15 years and i knew nothing about the situation besides the guys name.>I saw a little of butterfliesthat's nice. i guess they were out to make the next generation of butterflies. saw something similar once, but it was bugs instead of butterflies :p>also got chased by a dog for a bitthat's not nice. wish people would have better control over their pets. :/>it's called annihilation I watched it because I saw a scary beardoesn't ring a bell at all. when did that movie release?>the movie was very mid even for me, I think it was too long and ot could be more interestingdang. guess not every movie can be a banger. you'd think that people could make a movie called annihilation that's featuring a bear at least somewhat entertaining. >nope wbu?just my usual workout, but i'll be on my own tomorrow. friends are all busy, it seems. :/
>>84422827you seem annoyed. wanna talk about why?
>>84422836>hanging goodyay :D >no work today:DDDD >german version of boogie.oh yeah dragonlord or something like that right?>generation of butterfliesyep or maybe the new ones were waking up>was bugssome annoying kind?>people would have better control over their pets. :/yep it annoys me a lot >>:[>when did that movie release?2018 and it's some netflix thing apparently on the website I watched it on it showed a netflix logo at the start >featuring a bear at least somewhat entertaining.ot had its good moments but it was in between things we don't care about (flashbacks about our main characters relationships)>i'll be on my own tomorrow. friends are all busy, it seems. :/maybe that's good maybe you could take it a little slower tomorrow and maybe even snap some pics :3
Long week with work and some other things, but weekend now. I went skating again now that it's warm, and man do I kinda suck now lol. Gonna try to go more frequently since I have some nice spots I can go. >>84421802hey rm, hope everything is okay. Share what you can if you want>>84421912hi discanon> playing video games earlier todaywhatcha playing?>Tomorrow I'm meeting my friend's parents so I'm quite nervous.best of luck. Stay calm. I'd talk to her about what to expect ahead of time if you haven't already (i'm sure you did) and just act natural. not as stressful once you're there>>84422683hey yuanon, how's it going?Did you ever continue onward with Fire Punch. I finished that and picked up reading Dorohedoro actually. Only one volume in, but it's promising for me so far>>84422836> usual workoutbest of luck. Been having good workouts lately thanks to sleeping better. I did the dumbest thing ever which was do a pull day and then do rock climbing later the same day.... could of been bad but didn't think i was too spent till already climbing>>84422715heya cat>ooth extractedis that the end of these for now?>got chased by a dog for a bitopes, that's not good. Hope you don't have that happen again. Might want to look out passing that area again if you do
>>84423064>Long week with work and some other thingsD;>kinda suck now^^ you'll get better I'm sure >that the end of these for now?yep :>>Might want to look out passing that area again if you doI don't think it was about that area I just got unlucky wbu? ever got chased by a dog?
>>84422715>got another tooth extractedforgot to reply to this. hopefully it'll be the last. :<>>84422982>oh yeah dragonlord or something like that right?drachenlord, but yeah. it's insane the guy became so infamous he's even known outside of germany and people have started gathering in the town he used live in. there's going to be another "schanzenfest" later this year...>maybe the new ones were waking upprobably that, though i think how long they live depends on the species. don't quote me on that, though.>some annoying kind?no. there were just a lot of them buzzing around a nearby tree for a day and after that they were gone.>yep it annoys me a lot >>:[understandable. will you avoid that route in the future?>2018 and it's some netflix thing apparentlymakes sense i haven't seen it, then. mediocre stuff gets buried fast.>ot had its good moments but it was in between things we don't care aboutalways a good sign when you don't care about the main character's backstory, but even if you do, flashbacks are one of the worst ways to go about it. what were the good moments?>maybe you could take it a little slower tomorrowgood idea. i was just going for some sandbag carries and a macebell workout anyway.>maybe even snap some pics :3i'll see what i can do, but my phone is quite the chonker and i have a hard time taking it with me when i'm going on a jog. maybe i'll just go for a walk, then.
>>84422538>why what happened?nothing in particular i just really felt like it. was stressed and frustrated and just needed to do something yk>do you know why?i guess it just wasnt really what i needed or expected. i had an appointment with a service that somehow had the same/similar name to something i was referred to but was something different (???) and was pretty let down. im so tired of how mental healthcare works>best of luck anon!thank you :)>maybe you could get a blanket, put on a movie and just let today passyep kinda did that. had some food and doodled and watched youtube>maybe you will feel better tomorrow? do you think that's likely?i hope i do but its unlikely. but i have lots to do so i guess i cant really spend it being sad>well they clearly aren'ti guess, i just feel like im never really taken seriously or that my problems/experiences are small or unserious compared to others. i keep wishing i was hurt more, or that i miss being hurt and i hate it. i feel like no one will really care unless its 'bad enough', but tbdesu i dont think people care either way
>>84423153>D;again, just how life is. Plus side, I have Miku Expo to go to soon lol>ou'll get better I'm surei hope so. At least get good enough i can push around without struggling too hard to stay on. Not sure I'm going to be the crazy tricks i saw people doing anytime soon>yep glad to hear.>I don't think it was about that area i see, well good and bad in a way. Don't want to deal with someone nearby with crazy roaming dog> ever got chased by a dog?one time I thought I was, but I think it was a dog in an electric shock collar they do the perimeter fences with. Very scary till you realize and never know if they're going try to push with some of those big murder looking dogs
>>84423064hi officeanon!>Long week with work and some other thingsgood thing that over now. did it all go well?>do I kinda suck now loli went for a jog with some sprints last weekend and it wasn't as bad as i expected it to be, but still quite bad... guess we have to start from an earlier checkpoint again.>I have some nice spots I can go.how did you find those?>how's it going?pretty well. had the day off, so i was able to get some chores done and still had plenty of time for other things. also made some nice tacos and proceeded to eat way too many of those... what aboug you?>Did you ever continue onward with Fire Punch.read up to volume 3 and need order more at my lgs. did spend quite a lot on other things recently, so it might take me some time until i pick it up. or i might just tell them to get it tomorrow. we'll see.>Only one volume in, but it's promising for me so farglad you like it so far. it's an odd one, that's for sure, but quite unique and timeless.>best of luck. Been having good workouts lately thanks to sleeping betterthanks, i'm gonna need it. mine have been very irregular and rather crappy. still dealing with that stupid cough and just feeling unwell overall.>I did the dumbest thing ever which was do a pull day and then do rock climbing later the same day.damn, that could have gone poorly... D: good thing you're as trained as you are. must have been one hell of a workout, though. where you outside or at some indoor climbing center?
>>84421828>got another wisdom tooth extractednice! noticed you did a lot of things to your teeth last months was it painful btw?>thought it might not help with sleepim not gonna sleep currently so yeah>what happened???it was a good weeksome tiring things happened but it was a good week :]>>84421912>paranoia kicked into high gear againhow exactly?>bad headaches earliersorry :/>Hopefully they clear up for you soon>always welcome to share it here thanks!
mm sleep time ~w~>>84423160>hopefully it'll be the last. :<I have no more wisdom ;_;>another "schanzenfest" later this year...whaat?interesting strange how the internet works>don't quote me on that, though.really? I thought you were a butterfly expert ^^> just a lot of them buzzing aroundluckily they buzzed off do you have nets on your windows?>will you avoid that route in the future?probably notluckily I'm not afraid of dogs anymore >flashbacks are one of the worst ways to go about it. luckily there's a very convenient skip 10 seconds button I can spam>what were the good moments?mainly when they character get attacked or killedthe effects actually were pretty good> for some sandbag carries and a macebell workout anyway.have a nice time ^^>maybe i'll just go for a walk, then.do whatever you feel like doing more :]btw cool channel I found on yt: 2 minute geology >>84423213>was stressed and frustrated and just needed to dounderstandable how did you manage to be clean on the past? were things not as stressful?>something i was referred to but was something different (???)wierd sorry to hear about it, it does sound very frustrating >thank you :)you're welcome! ^^ >had some food and doodled and watched youtubeglad you manage to find a nice way to pass the time :>wanna share anything you watched or doodled?>have lots to do so i guess i cant really spend it being sadmaybe what do you have to do?>feel like im never really taken seriouslythat's sounds like a problem with people around you and not really with you I'd say and I don't think having "worse" problems would help with that
>>84423233>have Miku Expo to go to soon lol:000>hope sojust don't bust your knees or something okay?>Don't want to deal with someone nearby with crazy roaming dogtrue>shock collar they do the perimeter fences withhuh? that sounds like the worst choice ,you can't see the dog is fenced off, the dog can't see it sounds like a bad idea >>84423288>you did a lot of things to your teeth last monthsI guess I just don't have very good teeth I think >was it painful btw?nor really ^^only the begging part where they stick a needs is your gums but after that it's quick and doesn't hurt at all even when the numbing weares off it's barely noticable >not gonna sleep currently so yeahoh alright it's going then>some tiring things happened but it was a good week :]:DDwanna say what?very glad to hear that
>>84423288hi rem!>>84423350>mm sleep time ~w~sleep tight!>I have no more wisdom ;_;i never had it to begin with. good riddance, i say.>interesting strange how the internet worksyeah. it's mostly younger folks who only know him from very selective tiktok-clips and are genuine fans instead of haters. guess the guy is more likable when isn't actually around.>do you have nets on your windows?no, i don't need those where i live. there aren't even many mosquitos around.>luckily I'm not afraid of dogs anymoregenerally i'm not afraid either, but it depends on the dog and i'd rather avoid to fight one if i can. hate it when they run up to a fence and start barking, though. always get jumpscared by that.>luckily there's a very convenient skip 10 seconds button I can spamalso a good sign when you can't be arsed to actually watch the movie. ^^>mainly when they character get attacked or killed the effects actually were pretty goodwatched hellraiser for that reason. love the gore effects, but most of those got cut from the german release of the movie, making it quite pointless to watch.>have a nice time ^^thank you. i'll do my very best. o7>do whatever you feel like doing more :]will depend on the weather, what clothes i can wear and if i got some pockets on me.>btw cool channel I found on yt: 2 minute geologywill check it out.
>>84422056I'll echo what /cat/ said. Maybe you should write today off and get as comfy as possible.To be honest if you're not in a state to work/study, you can't really force it.I'm sorry that you're not feeling so hot but if you ever want to talk you'll always be welcome in this thread.>>84422109Humans can be pretty good sometimes.>>84422538>maybe that could helpIt helps a little bit but my best option seems to be distracting myself with videos. Fortunately it's not something that completely occupies my mind anymore, but I do get spooked when I saw it.>are you still friends at this point?I'd be lying if I said yes... I guess I still see her as a friend first and foremost. Maybe that's a problem.>quick and easyI figured it would be a really invasive procedure that takes ages.> it's kinda scary how easy it is to pull out a toothYeah. I always worry that mine are really fragile and could get knocked out if I'm not careful.>>84422683I might buy Tomodachi life since I loved the last one. I've got a few characters in mind.>>84423064>I went skating again now that it's warmI don't know if this will interest you at all I can't remember if you've played RS or not but you might like this video maybe. >whatcha playing?A little bit of San Andreas>just act natural. not as stressful once you're thereShe's said lots of nice things about me to them, so I'm not too worried. They picked out a western-style restaurant to meet at, so they're being very accommodating.>>84423288>some tiring things happened but it was a good week :]Glad to hear that!>how exactly?A mix of worrying that I'm being cyberstalked by my ex and the (less rational) fear that she might send me threatening letters or a suicide note.
>>84423064Forgot the videohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EfBMZoHbmU4
>>84423350have a good sleep!> how did you manage to be clean on the past? were things not as stressful?i dont really know, things were stressful then but i guess i hit my breaking point >anything you watched or doodled?i dont really remember much of what i watched i feel braindead. ive been scrolling on reels and i cannot remember anything other than furry among us animation memes. when i scroll its now full of these because i keep sending them to people. i doodled a diary entry thing, i haven't drawn in months so it was kinda hard but it was nice to>what do you have to do?gotta finish my compositions and i have exams coming up.. im so tired>a problem with people around you and not really with you I'd say, I don't think having "worse" problems would help with thattrue true. i just wanna stop feeling so pathetic. i feel like im shut down or belittled so much. it makes me so sad to see people who went through horrible or 'worse' things, and can still be kind or caring or social or funny or successful or skilled, but for me all i feel like is mental illness and trauma. like everyone else got to be a person but i didn't>>84423577>I'm sorry that you're not feeling so hot but if you ever want to talk you'll always be welcome in this threadok thank you
>>84423281> did it all go well?>you?all and all pretty good. Amazing how nice life is when you're not constantly dreading work.>guess we have to start from an earlier checkpoint again.sure it'll be much easier for you to catch up with that than me since the skills involved are quite different>how did you find those?looked up around the area. I was going to a further away spot I found in person without bothering to look up parks I could skate this whole time>able to get some chores donenice. I'm ahead on mine as well for the weekend so get more time back>some nice tacosnice. I gotta get back into cooking but haven't done much recently. Maybe make something new and fun tomorrow we'll see> up to volume 3 around where it picks up. It gets very odd a bit after and I'm not sure how I feel later part, so was curious where you were>quite unique and timeless.I love the art and style and you're right, don't think I've ever come accross anything quite like it>just feeling unwell overall.sorry. Hang in there, hope you're not getting sick again>indoor climbing center?these so not like i was gonna get killed or anything, just might break something still. A lot of fun though, might try again when not physically drained from the workouts
>>84423373gn cat>:000will remember to send you a video of what it's like on discord> don't bust your knees especially not until my insurance takes effect lol I'm careful though>huh? that sounds like the worst choiceI agree. It scares people, it's not great for the dog, and just looks confusing. Why only the trashiest of people who refuse to pay for a fence do this kind of thing. Just keep your dog on a leash at that point>>84423577> if you've played RS or notdon't think i talked about it, but i played it enough back when i was a kid. never went super far but it was fun>might like this video maybe.heh nice. Makes me nostalgic for the 2000s.>San Andreascould oddly never get super into any GTA game. Just not my thing.>said lots of nice things about me to themgoes a long way. Sounds like you should more than fine then so take it easy
>>84423577>I might buy Tomodachi lifedo you know any vids i could watch to get what the game is about?>I've got a few characters in mind.like what?>>84423631>all i feel like is mental illness and trauma.everyone deals differently with these things and at their own pace. there's no need to compare yourself to others. it's ok when you just focus on yourself.>>84423707>all and all pretty good.that's what i like to hear.>Amazing how nice life is when you're not constantly dreading work.now you're making me jealous. must be nice. (^-^)>it'll be much easier for you to catch up with that than me since the skills involved are quite differentyou're quite intense when you set your mind to something. i can't keep up with that, even if things are stacked in my favour.>I was going to a further away spot I found in person without bothering to look up parks I could skate this whole timealways a good feeling when you finally figure out the easier solution to something on your own. are the new spots nicer or just closer?>I'm ahead on mine as well for the weekend so get more time backwell done. :> heading somewhere?>Maybe make something new and fun tomorrow we'll seewell, do tell if you manage. what would you consider fun in terms of cooking?>It gets very odd a bit after and I'm not sure how I feel later part, so was curious where you wereit's getting odder than it already is? better brace for impact, then. i have to say it's kinda amusing to me how matter of fact everyone is.>I love the art and style and you're right, don't think I've ever come accross anything quite like iti should get back to it, too. the anime soured me on the whole thing.>hope you're not getting sick againstill dealing with the aftermath of the last time. it's quite stubborn.>A lot of fun though, might try again when not physically drained from the workoutsprobably a good workout in itself.heading to bed. good night!
i wish i wasn't so mentally weak sometimes. i accidentally spilled some water from the watering can to the balcony below us while trying to move it indoors to avoid that and the guy below called me a dumbass and implied i poured it on purpose. i was trying to be a good neighbor and do the exact opposite! i'm angry at him for making assumptions but i also just feel like a fuck up, already feeling that way beforehand. i tried to cal. down the healthy way but now i'm cutting. no one's ever gonna see my legs again at this rate. can't believe something like that set me off so bad. seeing the skin split so easy because of how much fat is on my thighs disgusts me
shold i get them to stitch this one or its ok i dont wanna go in the ward idk if they will if they see
>>84425184you need to go to the hospital, please. if you don't want to go to a ward you have to stop doing this
>>84425196i dont want to go hospital i hate it
>>84425209then stop mauling youself. there's consequences for your actions
no clue if he's gonna see this but hi chroma i hope you're doing well
bummppage nando
>>84425246This I highly doubt those pics are real or him. He would have been dead by blood loss a long time ago by now if they were.
>>84426228i find your post rlly upsetting like im getting reverse depth shamed and being treated like im not real but my cuts are whats proving im real so
>>84423577> buy Tomodachi lifei saw some reels of this and it looks hilarious lol>>84424138>must be nice. Don't get me wrong, it's still tiring and some stress, I don't think you'd envy the work I'm doing, but can't understate how shitty the thought of getting laid off in a country that tells you "unemployed people are just lazy and should get a job" is.>you're quite intense when you set your mind to something. realistically though, I can't practice every day. Think I can manage 2 or 3 times a week maybe weather permitting>are the new spots nicer or just closer?bigger area and closer, which is what i'd like since i want more flat, whereas the other one had less open and a big half pipe dominating the space. > heading somewhere?no plans yet for today but will see in a bit> consider fun in terms of cooking?honestly anything new. I liked looking up recipes from cuisines that aren't widely eaten or popular here(basically anything not Italian, Mexican, or French), but again haven't made the effort recently. Maybe not today either>getting odder than it already is? much much. I didn't care for the ending (I think Fujiomoto doesn't know how to end stories) but there was enough I found interesting to keep to the end even if there was some bumps>i should get back to it, too. oh you were reading but didn't finish? Think that's one of those cases you just pretend the anime doesn't exist at that point>. it's quite stubborn.well take care and hope it passes>a good workout in itself.not one i think muscles need though. Thing is, I'm pulling up myself plus a bit more than 1/2 my body weight so climbing isn't going to tax my upper body much relative to what i do. It's just that acid build up in your muscles that makes them stiff that gives me a hard time a bit after.
>>84426569No offense but if you get upset that easily you might want to take a break from 4chan since what I said was way tamer than majority of posts on this site.
morning I think I'll try going out somewhere today >>84425184you should get them stitched yep>idk if they will if they seethey might do more than just stich them up because it's very deepbut maybe that's for the better
>>84423064>hey rmhey officeanon!how are you?>Share what you can if you wantthanks i'm better now and i don't find much things to share in my mind rn>>84423373>I just don't have very good teeth I thinkD:glad it wasn't painful to you!my experience was very painful, i think it's been 4 years.do you still need more appointments?>very glad to hear thatthanks :D>>84423464>hi rem!hi yuanon!!how are you? i haven't had a long conversation with anyone here lately>>84423577>Glad to hear that!thanks!how was your week?>fear that she might send me threatening letters or a suicide note.okay i know nothing about her but what i read about her from your posts, and for some reason i have a feeling that she wouldn't do thatdo you think she you would?how are you feeling about this now?>>84425184go to a hospital anon please take care of it and try not doing it again>>84427131>I think I'll try going out somewhere todaybikeride?? picrel!?!?!?
>>84427131have fun cat! I just got back from being out for a bit.Gonna work out in a minute>>84428011>how are you?I'm all right. Went out for some food, played some games at the arcade, and went for a dog walk.. Going out later again but for now relaxing before I do my workouthow are you??> i don't find much things to share in my mind rnall good then. we're here if you need to
>>84428619>Went out for some foodsounds nice! miss the cozy outings>dog walkoh you have a dog?>before I do my workoutgood luck!also i think you asked me some weeks ago about what my routine will bewill i didn't go to the gym yet i got busy with studying and before that i was lazybut i was planning to do stretching and didn't have an actual full plan i just wanted to see what my couch is gonna plan for me>we're here if you need tothanks!
>>84424699it's weird how small interactions like that can bother you. had a similar one today. nothing to get hung up about, but i'm still pondering about it.>>84425184i'd always err on he side of caution and have someone look at it, but that's not gonna happen, is it? have to say i think anon here >>84425196 is right. maybe try to keep smaller and superficial?>>84425281haven't talked to him in way too long, but i'll send him your regards.>>84426644>I don't think you'd envy the work I'm doingi definitely don't, but i know the feeling when you're kinda alright with heading to work. not feeling it right now, though. just nice that you do. >"unemployed people are just lazy and should get a job"my biggest gripe is that people who work simply don't get a fair share of the wealth their work produces, so to me it's totally understandable when people just say "eh, fuck it..." why contribute to or get killed for a society that not only doesn't value your effort, but actively antagonizes you?>I can't practice every day. Think I can manage 2 or 3 times a week maybe weather permittingshould be more than enough with all the other exercises you're getting in or the physical past time activities like your rythm games.>i want more flatmakes sense when you're learning the basics at the moment. good thing you have something like that near you.>no plans yet for today but will see in a bita chill day at home won't kill you. at least i hope so. D:>aren't widely eaten or popular herewhat are you looking into?>Maybe not today eitheri just ate some instant ramen my brother recommended for lunch (they're actually really good) and now i'm making some cheese nachos that i'll eat with yesterday's leftovers. not really inspired either, but will do the trick.>I think Fujiomoto doesn't know how to end storieshe's not the only one with that particular issue. a satisfying end to a story is hard to come by and sometimes you have to choose it yourself.
>>84425184Gonna be honest anon, if you keep doing that sorta cut you will die. That's far beyond a small cut, that can and will kill most people. If you do it again, it might be the last time you draw breath.
>>84426644>oh you were reading but didn't finish? not in any capacity that counts. not sure why i said it like i did.>just pretend the anime doesn't exist at that pointlots of ignoring and prentending needed these days. very sad.>well take care and hope it passesthe jog today was catastrophically bad, but ateast the coughing wasn't that much of an issue. gotta take what you can get.>not one i think muscles need though.depends on what you want. if you're going for muscle size, probably not. would be counterproductive for your body to go big when you're moving it around a lot. always a tradeoff between strength and endurance, i suppose. i'm doing some mace workouts now and it's funny that the limiting factor is my grip. after some time my wrist give in and the thing just goes straight to the ground.>>84427131hi catbro! were did you go?>>84428011>how are you?i'm doing well. had a nice but rough workout and now i'm making dinner. how have you been?>i haven't had a long conversation with anyone here latelymore about quality anyway and it's always good to see you, so don't beat yourself up about it.
went on a little bikeride I'm back now ^^ >>84423464heyaa how are you??>sleep tight!thanks, I slept pretty well ^^had another dream about fighting someone for some reason >good riddance, i say.yep>guess the guy is more likable when isn't actually around.I feel anyone can be likable if you only show the good bits>there aren't even many mosquitos around.that's good I don't know how many mosquitos are around here because I haven't seen any in a long time>always get jumpscared by that.me too ^^ though it's mostly about loud noises I think >good sign when you can't be arsed to actually watch the movie. ^^yep hehI might watch another movie tonight but we'll seeI'm not really feeling it, I might leave it for tomorrow >those got cut from the german release of the movieall the good bits D:they used to do that with games too right?>>84423577>distracting myself with videos.good something works>Maybe that's a problem.is it a problem though?>really invasive procedure that takes ages.nah they just yank it one way then the other and it's out >always worry that mine are really fragileI'd say it's better to always act like that every when they're not>>84423631>>84423631>good sleep!thank you!I did :3even had a dream >but i guess i hit my breaking pointman, I hope things get better for you somehow >feel braindead>been scrolling on reelsthat does tend to do that >haven't drawn in months so it was kinda hard but it was nice toglad you enjoyed it :>idk why I only ever enjoyed doodling during class >exams coming up.D: those are the worst!best of luck >like everyone else got to be a person but i didn'thm I wonder what could help you
>>84428770>nice but rough workout>now making dinnersounds so cozy manhope you enjoy eating!!>always good to see you:D always good to see you too>how have you been?im fine lately! thanks for asking.i have tiny quizzes tomorrowhow's your job going?
happy caturday guys>>84424699hey anon>guy below called me a dumbass and implied i poured it on purposethat's pretty funny honestly ^^ but I know it wasn't for you hopefully you don't get into many situation like that anymore:< >skin split so easyI think skin is just thin in that spot >>84425281yep I hope he's well too>>84423786hello>send you a video of what it's like on discordthansk!>video of what it's like on discordI don't see it o.o>I'm careful thoughgood>Just keep your dog on a leash at that pointI wish people her to like go through aome course to be able to own a dogor any animal >>84428011helloo :Dhow are you?>experience was very painfuD:do you remember getting numbing?sorry about it>still need more appointments?I don't think so :3>>84428619>work out inI should do that too desu>>84428770hello ^^nowhere farjust a little ride around some forests near by
>>84428685>miss the cozy outingsI know your studying is important, but should try not to just do that. Does your brain some good to get a break>oh you have a dog?yep. For about a year now. Wasn't much of a dog person before that, but rather fond of them now after him. Try to take him anywhere I can like on hikes now even.>didn't have an actual full plan i just wanted to see what my couch is gonna plan for meoh you were going to consult a fitness coach or something like that? yeah probably don't need to overthink if that's the case>>84428697>not feeling it right nowunderstand. Hope that doesn't drag on that way for you too much longer, though I know things change slowly and often time doesn't feel like at all>don't get a fair share of the wealth their work producesit's a weird one, since the whole point of being an employee is you can't really be paid the full value of what your work produces, but it does feel like it's gotten way more imbalanced to the point of what you said that it's difficult to justify accepting that. When times are good, okay fine, since being the boss can also suck in situations>should be more than enough will see. Biggest thing is trying not to get hurt too badly while waiting for my new insurance plan to take effect>a chill day at home ended up going out to do a lot of the usual mostly Adding onto my never ending pile of prize machine winnings>what are you looking into?honestly, will wait till next week now lol I ate too much to even begin to want to think of more food right now>he's not the only one with that particular issuefor sure, but he has a tendency now to conclude with random shit that he pulled out of literally no where. No even like a deus ex machina thing to finish the plot, it's like the plot just goes of the rails completely.
>>84428770>lots of ignoring and prentending needed these days.to be fair, anime adaptations in the past could be very very shitty. If anything, I'd give anime now credit for not having the anime writers try to come up with their own endings like they did all the time in the past.>after some time my wristhard thing to train. I'm using a forearm roller and grip crusher now. Hoping both make a difference>>84428851>I don't see it o.oahaha it hasn't happen yet which is good since i would have missed it D: have another week left, but I'll send then>go through aome course to be able to own a dogor at least that the state held people accountable when they let them roam free or do stuff they shouldn't>I should do that tooa little goes a long way. Even 15 minutes every few days is enough to get started
>>84428851>do you remember getting numbing?yes i think i had something that needs numbing but still it was so painful>don't think soglad!!>how are you?im fine wbu?>>84428892>I know your studying is important>some good to get a breakohh no not just that, thanks for your advice but it's not only cuz of studying honestlyi don't go to much outings anywaysand yeah i should get a break but i always long for something that usual outings don't fulfilldont mind it needs more space in the post to explain xD>Try to take him anywhere I can like on hikeswhat breed he is? also u ever had cats?>to consult a fitness coachuhh idk if i can call it like that i was just planning to ask the dude that owns the gym, i suppose he owns it. i saw him there working out and he was the one that was about to sign me in before i left, he also said he could give me a plan before i could ask.
Today was kind stressful and my paranoia flared up yet again in the evening, but it's over now and I got a copy of Tomodachi life, so I guess everything is fine.>>84423786>never went super far but it was funEver considered picking it up again? At one point I had a quest cape, which is a good place to stop before it just becomes a grind for the sake of grinding.>could oddly never get super into any GTA gameMe either, but it's fun to explore the world every so often.>Sounds like you should more than fine then so take it easyIt went quite well, all things considered. My shyness was interpreted as politeness.>>84424138>do you know any vids i could watch to get what the game is about?Maybe this one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzD1Fu4m4aQIt's a bit like the Sims but it focuses more on customisation and dumb interactions.>like what?Mostly video game and anime characters. Osaka from Azumanga will possibly be my next addition.>>84424699Interactions like that always make me feel extreme guilt and I never really know how to cheer myself up.I'm sorry you had to go through that, anon.>>84426644>i saw some reels of this and it looks hilarious lolI've had some very funny moments already. It's basically just madlibs but madlibs are still funny sometimes.>>84428011>how was your week?Paranoia aside, it's been pretty good.I hope today went well for you!>do you think she would?I suppose it's unlikely, but I can't rule it out given a recent behaviour from her.>how are you feeling about this now?I know I'm probably overreacting so I'm trying my best to exercise restraint and not do anything stupid.
>>84428794>is it a problem though?It might upset her if she found out I think that. Although I'm of the belief that your SO should pretty much be your best friend.>they just yank it one way then the other and it's outMakes sense. None of mine have erupted yet (they show up on x-rays) so that might be why I assumed you'd go under the knife for it.>I'd say it's better to always act like that every when they're notTrue. You wouldn't want to chip one by accident.
>>84428794>I'm back now ^^welcome back! how was it?>I slept pretty well ^^good. i haven't, but i'm not sure why. maybe i'm eating too much in the evening.>had another dream about fighting someone for some reasonyou got those pretty often. i wonder why. i guess you need to balance out how nice you are here in those dreams. ^^>I feel anyone can be likable if you only show the good bitstrue, but that's harder to do for some people than for others.>I haven't seen any in a long timealso good riddance. i'm sure they're the food for some other species, but i'd not be sorry if they'd just be gone. :p>though it's mostly about loud noises I thinkthat and the possibility of being attacked by dog outside your field of vision. today a woman was kinda training a german shepard on a very long leash while i was doing my exercises and while it didn't seem aggressive or anything i still tried to at least keept it at the edge of my vision. thosw are dangerous dogs if not trained right.>I might watch another moviewhich one?>I'm not really feeling it, I might leave it for tomorrowno reason to force yourself. anything else you want to do tonight?>they used to do that with games too right?yeah. dark times. the only i stance where it actually improved the game objectively was contra/probotector. usually they just changed enemies to robots or red to green blood and called it a day. like in tiberian sun killed infantry would make shouting down noises or the sound of a can being crashed when you run them over with a tank.
>>84428813>sounds so cozy man hope you enjoy eating!!it really is and, ngl, it was pretty good. :] what did you have for dinner?>always good to see you toothanks, buddy. i've stopped my quite infrequently lately, but always feel better when i do.>im fine lately!i'm relieved to hear that. you had it rough, didn't you?>i have tiny quizzes tomorrowman, those guys are relentless. good luck with those!>how's your job going?it's tough. everyone is trying to make it as hard as possible and we also got a new register for one of our services, which makes it even more annoying. i'll get used to it eventually. >>84428851>just a little ride around some forests near bychill caturday. didn't take any pictures by the way. it was too hot to wear the sweater with the big phone pocket. on my way back i saw some weird kind of ducks or geese in a patch of tall grass, but couldn't stop for a snapshot.>>84428892>Hope that doesn't drag on that way for you too much longerit's been like that for a while and will probably go on like that for a while, but i appreciate the sentiment. will do my best do get better, though.>it does feel like it's gotten way more imbalancedissue is that wages did not increase enough to make up for inflation, so even though people are earning more, it's not enough to make up for the ever increasing costs of living.>being the boss can also suck in situationsof course, but only i companies where the boss actually cares about the wellbeing of the company and it's workers.>trying not to get hurt too badlydidn't want to bring it up, but make sure you don't end up on mtv scarred... anyone remember that show?>Adding onto my never ending pile of prize machine winningsat this pace you're going to ruin that place. ^^ what did you win?>I ate too much to even begin to want to think of more food right nowsame. note to self: don't eat a whole back of nacho chips with cheese with a whole chicken breast... (@~@)
>>84428892>No even like a deus ex machina thing to finish the plotstill my favorite joke from promare was when the protagonists got a mech called deus ex machina out of nowhere.>the plot just goes of the rails completely.not a good thing when the author can't even halfass an ending. why do you think that is?>>84428907>anime adaptations in the past could be very very shitty.agreed. it's just that no one bothered to remember the really crap ones, but i still think that the old ranma and sailor moon shows actually improved on the visuals compared to the manga.>not having the anime writers try to come up with their own endings like they did all the time in the past.would be preferable to me instead of waiting half a decade or longer for a shitty conclusion, but i get your point. i'm still wondering if the way they are concluding berserk is the way to go or if they should have tried to make it an actual story.>Hoping both make a differencei'm sure it'll do something. what about a dead hang?>>84429281hi dinon!>Maybe this onethanks. i'll check it out. the stream i'm watching rn has completely lost the plot...>Mostly video game and anime charactersdo you have any influence on their character, so they end up like their inspirations or is it purely a visual thing?
>>84428907>hasn't happen yetoooo :s>have another week left, but I'll send thenoky>least that the state held people accountableyep yepand same with cats though they're not much of a threatit mostly about their well being >little goes a long way.yep I'm trying to do push-ups >>84429218>>84429218>but still it was so painful`^`>im fine wbu?what did you do today?I went on a little bike ride and chilled>>84429281>paranoia flared up yet againsorry about that :<when will you meet up with your fren again?>>84429366>should pretty much be your best friend.I think so too>assumed you'd go under the knife for it.nopeI did when my lower ones were removed aome years ago but it was also painless though took a little longer because they had to be cut out
>>84429423>>84429423>how was it?pretty okayjust a good time riding around >. i haven't:cjust couldn't sleep or something else?>i wonder whyidk but that's alright as long as I keep winning ^^>harder to do for some people than for others.true >but i'd not be sorry if they'd just be gone. :pI'm actually pretty sure there was a scientific paper about that if all mosquitos disappeared barely anything bad would happen, they're not very important for the ecosystem >still tried to at least keept it at the edge of my vision.yep that's a good idea >which one?maybe another dark knight I've only watched the first one >anything else you want to do tonight?basically I only wanna watch movies if I eat popcorn and I'd rather eat something else today just got some strawberries and a little bit of cheesecake and some chips>enemies to robotsthay did that in half life ^^>>84429543>>84429543>didn't take any picturesthat's okay >saw some weird kind of ducks or geeseooo :0maybe you should try to identify them
>>84428697i just wonder why sometimes interactions like that don't bother me at all but other times they send my mood plummeting. i'm sure a lot of it has to do with my mental state when it happens. i was trying to be productive and ignore the self deprecation in that moment, so when that happened i felt sort of vindicated in a bad way. i'm even worried the song i was listening to at that moment will be ruined for me. i'm trying not to let it get to me today, i wanna get better.>>84428851it's funny in the sense that how he reacted tells me what kind of person he is, and now id rather not interact with him ever again. seems like the type to assume the worst in people, so i'm just going to avoid him. i'll just get some sort of balcony mat. i've kept it together at work today, and i'm halfway done. trying not to let it consume me.>>84429281yeah, i always feel like a monster over the littlest mistakes. i tried to calm down by just sitting with it and countering the thoughta but i could tell i was just lying to myself which made me angrier.
>>84429926>just a good time riding aroundwhat more can you ask for?>just couldn't sleep or something else?pretty much. just having a hard time falling asleep lately.>as long as I keep winning ^^well, that's a given. no one stands a chance against you.>if all mosquitos disappeared barely anything bad would happen, they're not very important for the ecosystemchecks out with the war on malaria that took place when they were building the panama canal. they sprayed every body of water they could find with a layer of oil to kill the larvae and it worked pretty well.>that's a good ideabetter safe than sorry.>dark knightso dark knight rises would be next? if you found the dark knight silly, i wonder what you'll think of this one. ^^>I only wanna watch movies if I eat popcorn and I'd rather eat something else todayhave you decided on anything to watch yet?>just got some strawberries and a little bit of cheesecake and some chipsi ate some cake yesterday, but i still got some dark chocolate left. thanks for reminding me. :D>maybe you should try to identify themi'll try.
>>84430170>what kind of person he is,maybe but also maybe he got surprised and felt stupid? idkdid he sound really angry?>i'll just get some sort of balcony matwhat's that going to help with?>i'm halfway done. trying not to let it consume me.hopefully you manage to forget about it btw best of luck at workhopefully it's not annoying >>84430189how did you spend today?>hard time falling asleep lately.maybe it's the higher temperatures?>no one stands a chance against you.so far >:3 >layer of oil to kill the larvaedid it have an impact of the people population over there?>wonder what you'll think of this one. ^^well see I think I've only seen little bits and pieces of it >anything to watch yet?just some streams and vodscharborg playing my friendly neighborhood do you remember that game?>still got some dark chocolate left. thanks for reminding me. :Dnp>i'll trygot em?
>>84429629>the stream i'm watching rn has completely lost the plot...Tomodachi or something else?>do you have any influence on their characterYes but it's not too deep. You can set their personality based on a few sliders and assign "quirks" like if they stand or walk in a certain way, and give them catchphrases, so they'll all be a bit unique.>>84429854>sorry about that :<Hopefully like all the other bad stuff it'll subside eventually.>when will you meet up with your fren again?Possibly tomorrow to take some measurements for our cosplays.>it was also painless though took a little longer because they had to be cut outI imagine that'll happen for me, if I ever need them removed.>>84430170>i always feel like a monster over the littlest mistakesAre you on the autism spectrum by any chance? I might be misremembering but I think that intense guilt over being in trouble isn't an uncommon trait and I suspect that's why I feel like that.
might be heading to sleep in a lil bit for the last week or so I been getting sleepy earlier for some reason I still wake up at the same late hour tho>>84430634>bad stuff it'll subside eventually.true yep just gotta tough it out>measurements for our cosplays.woaI think I asked what your cosplay will bebut I don't remember so who are you going to cosplay?>if I ever need them removed.they're not coming out on their own?
>>84430763>so who are you going to cosplay?It's classified for now but I may reveal later. >they're not coming out on their own?I'm not really sure to be honest. My old dentist said I probably won't need them removed but the one I saw most recently thinks I might need to have them taken out in the next couple of years.According to this x-ray one of them is sideways.
>>84430170>i'm sure a lot of it has to do with my mental state when it happensthat makes a lot of sense. sometimes i can just shrug them off and on other occasions it just gets to me. i suppose things just add up until it's spilling over.>so when that happened i felt sort of vindicated in a bad way.i know that feeling. when something goes wrong i alway go: shouldn't have tried in the first place.>i'm even worried the song i was listening to at that moment will be ruined for me. heh. yeah. had that happen to me before. just have to let things go sometimes. that said, the guy was an asshole and you shouldn't let him ruin things you like.>i'm trying not to let it get to me today, i wanna get better.that's the spirit. rooting for you! root! root!>>84430532>how did you spend today?i went for that workout, then i got some groceries, ate a bowl of instant ramen, then there's a big hole in my memory (probably just watched some nonsense), then i made dinner and now i'm playing sts2. that's about it. ^^>maybe it's the higher temperatures?i usually have my window open, but i'm still using 2 blankets. i'll remove one tonight and see if that helps.>so far >:3or ever. catbro is bestbro.>did it have an impact of the people population over there?honestly, i don't remember. don't even know what kind of oil they used, but it was definitely not a time period where they would have cared that much. one of the results was less infections with diseases, though.>do you remember that game?no. can't say i do.>got em?i forgot... wait a sec...
>>84430634>>84430634>Tomodachi or something else?something else. the guys i'm watching covered a reaction of a video-essayist where he slandered some other streamers connected with the guys i'm watching a while ago and now there was some drama with the essayist trying to bully someone off youtube over a video he didn't like, so one of the guys i watch made a few hours long video about it all which they now are commenting on life... sometimes i'm wondering why i keep watching this.>You can set their personality based on a few sliders and assign "quirks" like if they stand or walk in a certain way, and give them catchphrases, so they'll all be a bit unique.i guess it makes for fun interactions nontheless. seems like you can use some crude language in there, though. didn't think they'd allow that on a nindento console.
hello everyone, i want to post more. but Everytime i think about what to post, i just don't know what to talk about. my life is just boring nothing really changes or gets really interesting. the most interesting thing i did today was go on a 10 km hike which was fun but also not very interesting, there was nothing cool to see, or do it was just a hike, with trees, and that's all i did this weekend so far, i napped the rest of the day out of pure exhaustion.
