i just cant take myself seriously in any capacity or view myself as a proper person. im unnattractive after doing all i can lookswise, have a chubby face despite being thin that makes me look uglier and childish, and i have no idea how to talk to people, most look down on me and think im mentally not all there despite me knowing what i should/should not say yet just being unable to do it in execution. it is hellish watching do all the things i want to do but am incapable of like being able to talk to others and be viewed as their equal or be able to wear clothes they like and look good while id just get mocked and people will think i shouldnt be try to dress up because im so ugly. ive been an adult for four years now but i dont think ill ever move on from being like a kid, its one thing to be a retard but also being self-aware is a special kind of misery. should i just off myself at this point
>>84429340what do you expect me to say to this
i'm a joke too. autists love pathetic, hapless losers.
>>84429779how do you deal with it? its like being beneath everybody else and not fully a person and its driving me mad
>>84429340>>84429885please dont kill yourself...youre being way too hard on yourself budothers arent judging you as harshly as you think they are, its getting in the way of you being more confident being so stuck in your own headyou gotta be willing to mess up and say the wrong thing or wear the clothes you want, not what you think others will likei promise that failure and rejection wont be as harsh as you think it will and it wont happen as often as you think, eithereveryones living their own lives concerned about their own worriesunless youre really close to them they wont remember your outfits or awkwardness at all, and if you are close with them theyll actually love you for your quirksgo out of your comfort zone just a little bit at a time and itll make it easier to keep going<3
>>84429340Have you ever considered going to a narcissist (therapist)
>>84429885mate i don't know what to tell you. demoralization online is in overdrive mode. i'm not saying i don't want a better life, and i spend a lot of time thinking about what my life might be like if i had it, but i guess i mostly just ignore it and try to live my own life. there are actually a lot more developmentally stunted people than you might think. the more time you spend here the more you will resent your situation and grow bitter because people literally come here to see that happen and contribute to the process. when you have a clear head, you realize life is just not that serious so it doesn't matter if you're a loser or whatever. the more you want to be taken seriously the more people will find you funny too, it's just not worth it. i'm not gonna tell you to ascend or whatever be3cause you probably have tried that, but don't give up all hope. you can still have nice things despite not being mr mc
>>84429961>>84430053thank you anons i genuinely appreciate it >>84429973i tried when i was younger but didnt get much out of it. i felt so silly opening up
>>84429885you are not better or worse, just different, alienated. Forget about it ou will never belong and most of the people arent worth talking to, they are on a different wavelength, so dont waste your time, its an uphillbatlle that never stops, but life is still enjoyable, find your solace in other stuff like music, or nature or some other shit, and if you atill have the need fo social contact do drugs
