People can call me self loathing (im not) but I am completely and utterly stuck in a state of inaction, depression, and limbo. My days consist of:>wake up and scroll tiktok, instagram reels, and youtube shorts>if i have class I shower, drive, and then immediately go home to play vidya>alternate between doomscrolling and vidya until midnight>finish an assignment with chatgpt>jerk off and sleepIt has been like this for two years. I've tried to get into other side projects, with one I have put off for a week now but I really want to get it done it's such an easy source of money, and actually interests me. But I don't have the motivation to do anything. I plan to graduate and work some slave job living in my parents home for the rest of my life, so at least I don't feel like a leech when I pay the bills. Whenever I have a moment of realization, I stop and stare at the wall for some time, and go back to frying my dopamine receptors again.Is anybody young enough currently going through something similar? I feel like I am completely alone on this. I don't have some freak lore or schizo personality, I'm just a little bipolar and possibly unintelligent, but I think that's normal. There's nothing super abnormal or irregular about me to my knowledge.
I'm 37 so my default isn't to go to those things when I'm in that mood. I just kind of do nothing. I did find something interesting last year. I wanted to try blue chew, you know, viagra? Just to see what it does. I mean, I don't have problems getting a boner or keeping one. Unless I am fucking 5 to 7 times a day for about 2 or 3 weeks straight and then you know, he kind of just shove it in like a thick Slug and Bone up while you do a couple shallow thrusts. I'm talking about with sex toys like the hips, you know the pussy and asses? Used to have a sex doll but eventually you where the mountain have to throw them away.So yeah you can be bored and not want to fuck or anything, and it's not just being bored it's those depressive states of inactivity that you're talking about. No motivation to do anything. Papa blue chew on an empty stomach, 45 minutes later you just kind of think about pussy and all of a sudden you get hard as a fucking rock. And it feels different when you slide your cock into your toys at that point. Like, it feels way better and it takes a longer amount of time to orgasm and when you do orgasm it's extremely good. So try some blue chew
>>84431429Yeah man whatever makes you happy yknow not exactly what I was talking about but I think I get what you're saying. I'm not taking viagra though but hell whatever works for you man.
>>84431471it`s an ai bot ad dude, not even a clever oneot :you are not mental, i do much of the sameit`s a mix of general life fatigue games are a sub, since they give you gratification which life don`tscrolling is the social partat least in our headit is pretty normal now i think, the escape, not healthy though, as it will continue downwardsyou have 2 years, i prolly have over 10 and when i realized, i really stopped caring so it does escalatei don`t have any tips to get out, not even sure i would use it my self as i am content in my little world, but maybe try real life more often?
>>84431385Quit the tiktok, reels, shorts. Stop playing video games. Stop using AI. Minimize the jerking off/porn to once a week at most. All that shit is destroying your brain.If you stop then you'll heal your brain and will naturally find the motivation to learn and do a shit ton.
>>84431530I might be more content when I have a job and still practically soulless and depressed but at least I'd have made my parents happy but still. I know the tips already though but I think it's a mindset moreso than your actions. Like:>>84431582I get that these are all destroying my brain but at the same time there are many people who don't use these things and are still depressed, and just as many who do and feel happy and still do productive things. I feel like my mindset is just all messed up. What's the point in quitting all these things if my mindset is still the same and I feel aimless? I don't really enjoy doing anything.
>>84431385>Is anybody young enough currently going through something similar?yeahI don't really know what I'm supposed to be doing apart from this
>>84431648>What's the point in quitting all these things if my mindset is still the same and I feel aimless?Well you can try and make a change or just keep rotting away. Your choice.
Brother at least you have school, i don't, got kicked two years ago, i live in my room, in some days my only source of entertainment, Wifi is going to be cut due to needed payment, it's basically what you're living at 4 Power, i didn't change my clothes, since 5 or 6 days, i know this is gross but i forget to brush my teeth, I'm trying to work for it, making some exercise, trying hard to improve, it's hard but, cheer up man, we'll get out this shit, just trust
>>84431664>I don't really know what I'm supposed to be doing apart from thisSame. Feels like I'm an empty husk.>>84431670Yeah you're right I'm probably just being a retard of inaction. I don't know.>>84431696That sounds like shit dude sorry you're going through this. I sometimes forget to brush my teeth for a couple of days too, and when I have periods of time with no class I can go a week wearing the same clothes so I feel you. My parents bought some barbell and dumbbell set years ago and I try to work out sometimes just to feel better about myself but yeah it's just hard to stay consistent. Why'd you get kicked out of college?
>>84431734Bad grades, because my mental state got worse, so bad i neglected school for 6 months, obviously when i got back got notified i was out, since that i only got worse
Do something different, change something, anything, set some small goals so they don`t overwhelm you and try your best to achieve them helped me out.picrel might be helpful for changing shit to some that read the tread as well.I wish you all the best.
>>84431385i'm 20 and have the same life. i could be doing some other stuff but i can't, and i think a big part of it is an addiction to technology. i don't have a social life so that takes a lot of motivation away. i also realize that i only have a couple more years until this is all i will do, and the fun stuff is supposed to happen now which sucks
