Life is so bad for me in a way that it seems is for no one elseSeems everything goes bad for meAnything that seems good will later come to have a bad conclusionNo body I know has had it as bad as me"Wow, boohoo, woe is me"But that's how it really isIt is so exhausting and dreadfulBut I just tryNever had a girlfriendWomen don't look at meOnly have real 2 friends and 1 of them I only speak to onlineBeen embarrassed so much in high school, even when I thought it was something good happening to me it turned around and hit me in the faceUnsociablePeople can generally sense something about me and they think in their heads "why is he here, what a disgusting loser, I'm disgusted by him" and I don't know what it is about meMy biggest passions is music, watching movies, and above all learning languages and I'm becoming deaf. My favourite part about the animes is the sound design. I truly think I can appreciate those aesthetics in a way many can't. Learning languages is the thing I am most passionate for in life. I wanted to live in Japan before I got real and realised that right now I often don't hear words in my own languageThe only people I could potentially pick up as friends are two faced and will act like we're friends but behind my back work against me. Even one of my friends is doing thisI likely have autismI'm on a watchlist which will likely mean I can't get anything more than blue collar unskilled labour that slowly kills meI'm not good at anything and I can barely do work on timeI've been getting pains that don't feel right and it will likely be something extremely bad when it's diagnosedThis shit is kicking my ass and I'm just tied down with literal feces being shoveled into my mouth by fucking evil cosmic force most would call 'God' and I still gotta do all of it anyways
why are you on a watchlist?
>>84432109I was in a discord chat where we all said bad things and I posted the anarchist cookbook and I was the only one who got in trouble
