I don't know, I don't know. I spent a month sober, each day worse than the last, and decided I would get drunk today. I planned on playing video games with this guy I met online, but today, of all days, he isn't there. I've never had a friend in real life and my last family member died 3 years ago. What's it all for?
Maybe you just need a mission. Then you will come across like minded people and share common struggles.