>23 year old neet >literally no friends >don't leave the house I'm in a space beyond suicide now. I know the courage won't come to me so I just slowly died in other ways. I don't feel much of anything anymore, unless it's negative. There's no colour in life for me now. Nothing is interesting or worthwhile. Things just never go my way so I don't try to make them anymore. All I'm doing is waiting for my death but I know it's so far away. It's so far away. I'm in the loneliest desert and it won't even afford me the mercy of death.
